ka nii

Miks ma mõtlen ka nendele inimestele, nii palju, kellel tegelikult on minust täiesti ükskõik…? Ei nad küsi mida ma teen, kuidas mul läheb..ega uuri kas ma üldse elus olen.
[Kas tuleb tuttav ette?]

mäletad tüdrukut, kes avas end sulle?
ta andis kogu oma armastuse
aga sa viskasid selle ära nagu prügi

vahest hakkas igav
süütasid ta lootuse nagu suitsu ja
peagi ütlesid taas need sõnad
“meie suhtlusel pole tulevikku”

kas sa kunagi jääd mõtlema
kas ta on endiselt nii naiivne
sest ma unistan praegugi
et kunagi saame olla õnnelikud

anonymous asked:

Bakit kapag umamin ka sa isang tao na may gusto ko sa kanya at hindi lang yun mahal mo pa siya, kinabukasan iniiwasan ka na niy?

Yan ang isa sa mga consequences kapag nagcoconfess ka ng feelings sa isang tao. Pero part talaga yan kaya kailangan mo lang maging prepared. For me, it’s a sign na hindi ka niya gusto or nahiya na siya makisama sayo kase he/she doesn’t feel the same. 

Pero good job, kase ang lakas ng loob mo para mag confess ng feelings para sa taong gusto at mahal mo. Iilan lang ang nakakagawa niyan. Well done! :)

Credit goes to crazymysterychase for the follower forever gif.

WELL HERE WE ARE AGAIN! My last follower forever was at 4k! Was not so long ago actually (: It’s time for me to post another one! I was supposed to do one at 8k, but i couldn’t get to it! >.< Sorry for the long post! I kind of rushed this, i love you guys <3 LOL

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mikaami, afoggygoose, alphastigma117, allofthemoeandersdidnothingwrongseriouslyamabaka, ambiguous-anything, animeforyears, awpodb-animedude-z, beardarubluehairedwaifugpvs, booassassincayenne-kick, c-c-c-cactus, chaosmetroid, clafster2kcrazymysterychasecute-girls-from-vns-anime-manga, cannonball-titcombcyberjockdarkchunni, darkrai-10, demonneko, drcry, emerworldfelorulo97, fergzillarfoughtandfell, godtierwallflower, gray-rainy-world, gozio, hanokazehentai-mommyhirokoehomunerd, ipscelljdl96, kanyecolle, kawaii-sailormoon, kimokawaakirishiikittyamy54, kuzu-chi, kudo-mireikyoukosama, latinafangirl206literally-the-best-onii-chan, literallytheworstblogger, lovecoloredideology, madinky-doka-magicamadoka-and-hp-obsession, madoka-dailymakidesuuuuuu, makimakimaaa, makkomakorinllmamiayame, mamifuckermapatheticmeezdeez7, megaboy335, meliongmicrochibimitsunexcore, miyukidesudesumoe-is-life, more-moe-more-problems, misterstealyowaifumorgane-fate, munkingrl, my-scarlet-princessna-na-kanepsud, nerdoka, niconico—nii, nicothebestraburaibunikoniko-nii, ninjamikanyanberry, nyan-genesis-evangelionnyariko, ohnononyoudidnt, onee-samaaa, onodera-dera-dera, onodorable, onyasumiposthardcory, primnyan, psypade, puchidol, randomfacts137rmorales01, ryou-chann, shadowjen, shinysylveon, shoujo-aixosiruth, smalltittyanime,sodapopuniversestrangeplaceofmoshi, studioshaff, suchdopesuperrinnythatonegayotakuthats0ccerdudethegreatsakurako, the-licker-cabinet, theoneshotwonder, the-otaku-kingdom,  thethoughtsthought, thisdorkyguyblogs, tsunde-ren, tsunderratedtwilightamory, vergil03, vodni, weter296, what-is-this-i-dont-even, wil-tsun-deactivated20150217, whowasfone, zsaber327.

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13fairysouls, abbymacaroniakamegafeels, akatsukisyndraakishijou, akumanoriddlewhyyoudothistomeallofthemoeanimefricker, animuobsessedawpodbakaqbebarentzz, basedoniichanbreebree223​, byzantine-love-machine​, canoli3112captainsushiwushi, castles-in-midair​, charlotte-cross-cornelia, cheriicrystal, chibi-flonne, chibitall​, cobbyo​, codenamex96, connected-hearts-and-souls, cookingklutz​, cry-senpai, curvybars.

D - G

dannihm, darkyandere​, doorlord5ever, dustiebunnieselectrifying-swordsman, elweonhentai, elclubdetobienen72, erokazefab-polarbear, faggit-kunfranmcmusclesfeyrune-kunfillehwillehfrosslass, fwjavegoizord.

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halcrialhanakoissoshazam, helloharmonyxx​, homuragotyopanties​, homurain, homura-yes, hopefully-godokaicrownclowns, i-hashtag-otpmitsu, ihatemylifecats​, iisupportpandaizunee, jaykat007, justmadoka, kakerukurosawak33p-ca1m-nd-f33d-its-daijoubu, kaneki-kakuja, kanekoolaid, kaseys-shittastic blogkaylaizzlekingofdahiphopkoreanhypetrainkosakiiikurokineko-homura9kyuriyuri.

L - O

largestherb, latassdoeleeaboolexessslimiti-esterni, little-hyian, luffyoyabin, lunarjumper, madokaaaaaaaaaaaa​, madoka-nyan, madoki-doki-magica​, madokugh​, maidkotori, maki-amazingmakibanzai, maki-no-waifumakkomakorinll, malkoranmamikyous, mamis-magical-mammies, manakacchimany-maki-nishikinosmatokiibunny, matoro-km, me-and-my-railgun​, megaexguilmon, megalucky, mintcarousel​, minticiamintjammoe-madokamonokuma-c, mothdropsmy-scarlet-princess, nekutyru​, neopandabear​, niconico–nii, nightynightsky​, nishiklnonootnyoom, notaweebnowi-dance, nuigurineko​, nyanderes, nyanimecat​, nonon-jakuzureofficialyasen, oktavia-von-stroganoffoliviabuttsoomoriyuko, orz-orz-orz.

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piper-viper​, preparetodie-obviously, powertopsenpai, princess-palea-super-idol, punkonthetardisrainbowneko6688, rarichris, redspiderlillies​, rhythmerror, rimreaverrocketwonderlandsao-no-magica, senpais-senpaishadow-phoenix-twosharsharkanshocking-party, shocking-truth, shonikishsl-bitch, sliceolyfe, slushiesmundanelifesoramono​, sparrowspeckles​, sport-animessugoi-aliensuta-spirit.

T - Z

that-puckerd-my-butt-hole​, theoneandonlystraycat, thepadlockedbagguy​, theprotosstemplar, therealveterantrainer, toshyano, trashy-pandas​, triforce06tsukigami, tsun-d-e-r-etsundereccuchiiigatanaurls-were-taken, valeakiwafflehamsterwaifufricker, webo-tanwhite-creamy-milkwolfulinku, xirstenx-kagura-x, yoshislayerzeroseiba.

Non-mutuals but blogs you should follow:

0ci0acqua, cutegirlsdoingcutethings, fuckyeahpixivrankinggriffmstrgurrenlagging, hisokanikaotaku, loliswaglovelive-confessionslynx-you-fucking-nerdmaki-is-gay, moe-vampin, nflstreetominous-misaka, raku-ichijoustudiotrigger, takasquid.

TOOK FOREVER SORRY FOR THE LONG LIST. LOL <3

THANKS FOR THE SUPPORT CUTIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

mu patune pool

vajan sinu keha enda keha vastas
nagu narkar vajab doosi
see pitsitab kipitab lõhki end kisun
tükkideks rebin
sind ainult sebin
tegelt ei sebi
sest oled mul olemas
või noh ei ole ju ka
keppi ju annad
ja ma sulle ka
vahel isegi armastad mind
ja mina sind ka
ilmselt ikka koguaeg
aga öösiti just eriti
meie vahel on rüvetus ja iha
vahel ka viha
nad käivad käsikäes
nii mulle meeldibki
me oleme koos nagu
preester ja hoor
alaealiste porno
keelatud ained ja
lasnamäe peldik
aga kurat ma valetaks
kui ma ütleks et see ei ole
parim aeg mu elus

maailm on kirik ja
sina oled mu lemmikpatt

Need tunded ja mõtted lihtsalt tungivad mu pähe. Mõne hetke pärast tunnen, kuidas külm pisar mööda mu põske alla liugleb. See kurb meeleolu on jälle minu sees. Kui keegi oskaks vaid aidata ja tunnetada mis mul viga. Heidan pikali ja mōtlen, kas see kõik pidi just nii olema. Kas ma pidin sündima, kas ma pean olema isksuselt see, kes ma olen? Need mōtted riivavad tihti mu pead. Nende vastu ei saa. Õigemini öeldes mina ei saa. Ma pole piisavalt tugev. Olen üks jõuetu väike narts. Kes lebab oma tunnetega ja nendest lahti ei oska öelda.

anonymous asked:

Ficlet request: Andreau and Roldan convo tapos si Zade ang topic. Tee hee. Thank you!

Kinda tweaked the prompt you gave me, Anon ;)

(A ficlet wherein: three times na si Roldan ang nag-initiate pag-usapan si Zade, and one time na si Andreau na ang nanguna.)

So okay. This ficlet serves as a little something for a something next year.

And for this ficlet’s sake, nilagyan ko ng year. Chat-style ‘to since puro dialogue! This follows the flow of TSIB. So.. yeah ;)

FEBRUARY 14, 2012

After nila ihatid si Zade sa kanto ng dorm nito..

Roldan: I told you, Zade’s nice. Hindi naman nagkamali si Anya sa suggestion niya.

Andreau: Yeah. Pero anong year na niya?

Roldan: Freshman ata?

Andreau: Oh.

Roldan: Ano na naman?

Andreau: *slowly* Isn’t she too.. young for this? Baka kasi kailangan pa natin ng parental consent.

Roldan: Hindi naman sigur—

Andreau: But she’s a minor. Mamaya pag naaksiden—

Roldan: *laughs a little* Wait.. why are you so worked up?

Andreau: *sighs* I’m in-charge.

Roldan: *stares at Andreau suspiciously* Di nga? Zade’s cute. I even got her number.

Andreau: *rolls eyes* Very mature. Pag ‘yan nakarating kay Ninna..

Roldan: *scowls* Sus, magsasaya naman ‘yon, Dreau. Alam mo naman ‘yon, Anti-Diane Club president. Ano, kukunin mo ba number ni Zade?

Andreau: *eyebrow shots up* And why?

Roldan: Uhhh dahil ikaw ang in-charge? Para maupdate ka niya?

Andreau: That’s your job.

Roldan: Since when did I become your secretary?

Andreau: *grins widely*

Roldan: C’mon, just get her number. Malay ko kailanganin mo rin. Emergency.

Andreau: I know what you’re doing. Not interested.

Roldan: Just so you know, siya ang gumagawa ng sandwiches mo araw-araw.

Andreau: How can you be so sure? May ibang staff naman yung café ah.

Roldan: *huffs* Fine. You’re hopeless. Ako na nga laging cocontact kay Zade.

Andreau: Whatever you say, Roldan.

Roldan: Pero mukhang crush ka niy—

Andreau: Shut up!

APRIL 20, 2012

(nasa van pabalik ng Manila; Roldan caught Andreau watching Zade’s interview on his camera)

Roldan: Was that really necessary?

Andreau: *looks up* What?

Roldan: Ayan. *points at Andreau’s camera*

Andreau: Yeah.

Roldan: Eh wala naman akong matandaan na may ganyan sa script mo ah?

Andreau: *jaw tenses* Hindi pa naman final yung script. I could still tweak it.

Roldan: *smiles* At si Zade pa talaga ang ininterview mo.

Andreau: *glowers* Roldan..

Roldan: Ano? Seryosong usapan nga. I thought you were flirting with her last night.

Andreau: *through gritted teeth* That was just an interview!

Gerald: Oo nga, Dreau. Nagulat ako nung pinatawag mo siya sa’kin. All along akala ko excuse mo lang yung interview para masolo siya.

Andreau: *rolls eyes*

Addie: Yeah. You should’ve seen the both of you last night. May halong landi yung interview mo, Sir.

Andreau: Pati ba naman pag-iinterview ko may issue pa? C’mon, maganda ang input ni Zade from my interview last night.

Roldan: *smiles widely* See? I’m not alone. Sabihin mo lang kung gusto mo na kunin ang number niya ha?

Addie: *in shock* What? Natapos na natin ang shoot pero wala ka pa ring number niya? My goodness, Andreau! Ang bagal mo!

Andreau: What? How many times do I have to tell you.. I’m not interested!

Gerald: *teases* Di nga?

Andreau: SHUT. UP!

FEBRUARY 15, 2013

Through SMS

Roldan: You should’ve seen yourself last night.

Andreau: fuckyou what happened???

Roldan: HAHAHAHA wala kang maalala?

Andreau: just woke up. Worst hangover ever

Andreau: what exactly happnd??

Roldan: Nakwento lang ni Lee. Sumuka ka raw.

Andreau: vinideohan ba nila? Please tell them to erase it

Roldan: They didn’t see th whole thing. Pero baka si Zade may video

Andreau: Zade? Why zade?

Roldan: uhh.. she was with you when you puked

Andreau: Shit. Di nga??

Roldan: Yep. Siya pa naglinis ng suka mo

Andreau: What

Andreau: Fuck. That was so embarrassing

Roldan: HAHAHAHAHHAHA

Roldan: Ayan kasi inom pa!

Andreau: Did she say anything?

Roldan: Dunno. Wala na sila paggising ko. Ask Lee or Anya

Roldan: Bakit? May naaalala ka ba?

Andreau: I DON’T REMEMBER ANYTHING

Andreau: god i’m more than embarrassed

Roldan: maybe you did something to her

Roldan: baka nahalikan mo

Andreau: Fuck you. I don’t kiss random people

Roldan: Zade is not one of those ‘random people’, right?

Andreau: Ewan ko sa’yo

Roldan: Still not interested?

Roldan: Okay, lasing ka nga pala. Bad joke.

MAY 2013

(habang nasa gym…)

Andreau: Am I that choleric?

Roldan: *stops lifting weights* Wow, and this is coming from?

Andreau: *shakes head* Wala lang. I’m just re-evaluating my life.

Roldan: Aba, galing ka lang ng Coron may re-evaluation na nagaganap! Soul searching ba ginawa mo dun>

Andreau: Hmm.. actually, no. nabanggit lang sa’kin ni Zade na masyado raw akong choleric. Wala naman sigurong masama sa paggamit ng Gantt Chart, right? I just want to keep things in cont— why are you looking at me like that?

Roldan: *grins widely* You’re babbling. You don’t babble, Andreau.

Andreau: *looks away* I’m not babbling. I’m explaining. Para hindi ka na magtanong pa.

Roldan: So.. kamusta ang Coron?

Andreau: It was great. Nakapag-islan hopping kami du—

Roldan: Sino ‘tong kami, exactly?

Andreau: *grunts* The whole Wanderlust crew.

Roldan: *eyes Andreau seriously* Really?

Andreau: *huffs* Fine. May pinuntahan kaming island ni Zade.

Roldan: Wow, island. How romantic.

Andreau: *glares* Shut up.

Roldan: So you’re saying.. lagi kayong magkasama ni Zade sa Coron?

Andreau: Yeah. So?

Roldan: Nothing.

Andreau: Malamang, siya lagi kong kasa—

Roldan: Di naman nagselos si Mars?

Andreau: No. Busy siya sa taping.

Roldan: Wow. What an improvement. Usually mag-isa ka lang kapag guest ka sa Wanderlus—

Andreau: *looks down* Zade was my temporary best friend during the trip.

Roldan: Wow. Ilang araw lang akong nawala tapos may iba ka nang best friend. A girl temporary best friend. That’s new.

Andreau: Shut up. It was just for the trip.

Roldan: So.. anong ginawa niyo as temporary best friends?

Andreau: Can’t tell. I would violate the creed of temporary best friendship.

Roldan: Wow.. wow..

Andreau: Happy now?

Roldan: One last question… tapos na ‘tong temporary shit niyo, ‘di ba?

Andreau: Yep.

Roldan: So.. ano na kayo ngayon? Friends or more tha—

Andreau: Roldan you really need to shut up now.

Roldan: But I’m your best friend!

Andreau: Shut up.

roosamanna unistused

kas sa tead kui vedanud sul on
ei ausalt
kas sa ikka tead
sa vaatad oma maailma ja sa
näed roosat
kõik on roosa
lehmad on ka roosad
kurat su peldik on ka roosa
sul on nii vedanud
mina näen kollast ja sinist ja
vahel lausa punast
aga roosa
jah roosa pole mu maailm veel olnud

aga sa vaata ühel päeval
ühe päeval maalin ma ka
enda maailma roosaks
maalin kuud ja tähed ja päikese
maalin talvel lume ja sügisel puud ja kevadel sinililled
kõik maalin roosaks