In Ch. 24, there’s a short story written about Akutagawa meeting Dazai for the first time, and it supplies some interesting details. From what I got, Akutagawa spent most of his young life numbing out any and all emotion in order to withstand a lot of the pain he got put through. It just verified for me more when he actually said the first emotion he’s felt since birth. I could rant about Akutagawa’s mental health for days but I don’t want to subject anyone to that, so here’s a quick lil thingamabob.
okay but dan makes jokes about looking like a potato but he is so fucking gorgeous he is hot shit why have no modeling agencies gotten my boy on the runway like have you seen how much his clothes cost he has a deep love and appreciation for fashion and follows trends and wears shit that takes guts because he was meant to be on that runway and anyone who disagrees with me doesn’t have eyes