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Dear K, 

I fucked up, I know I’m sorry. I can’t take the last 3 years back because if I did I would still be in that shitty place and I doubt it would change anything. Now you’re sick and I don’t know what to do. I called your home and your dad just hung up. I’m sorry. I’m so goddamn sorry and I would do fucking anything to keep you from dying. You aren’t supposed to die. Not yet. I wish I was dying instead of you. At least the one who wants it would get it. 

S.

Shelter

I came in through

a grey wet door you left

ajar, slightly, tentatively,

into a hallway smelling

of warm fires and 

your clothes.

.

Why I removed,

so many layers 

hung up on hangers,

I stood like a sparrow,

in your grand foyer

feeling nearly naked

but so much lighter.

.

I had been so

rained on those days,

I forgot what it felt like

to be inside. You

hung my clothes up

to dry, you let me

sleep in your spare room

where no one found me.

.

Then time ran

too fast for me to catch up,

you patched me up,

made me put on my raincoat and

my boots, we hugged, I left,

feeling the rain not 

as much anymore

.

But feeling that I had

left something at your house

I would never see again.

In my dreams I stand

outside your door again

and it is closed.

Naaasar na ako. Di nako natutuwa na crush ko si irving. HAHAHA bakit kasi nalaman nya pa? I mean ayoko sa lahat na yung crush ko ichachat ako dahil sa alam nyang crush ko sya. Bwiset. Di na tuloy ako kinikilig sa kanya lol.