All of Me (Jelena One Shot)
All of Me (Jelena One Shot)
Prompt: It’s funny, people always thought Justin was the one who’d push to far, who’d be at her feet begging to get back together one day, why do I sometimes get the feeling one day she will want him back and he will be the hesistant one, I’m not doubting their love for each other, but he’s given so much to her, and so has she….. but maybe she hasn’t always valued the love he still has for her like she should and vice verse…. anyway just a thought
Dedicated to @jelenasbitvh because she’s a bae who encourages my idiocy.
Third Person’s POV
That was the year.
Eight years since they had last been together officially.
Three years since Selena and Abel had started dating.
Two years since Justin stopped trying to get her back.
Two years since Justin and Selena last spoke.
So could someone please explain to the the pop start what the twenty-eight year old was doing in front his house at three in the morning?
He continued to stare at her in shock.
Was he delirious? Maybe he was still asleep?
“Justin?” Her voice broke through the fog in his mind.
“Selena?” He had to ask even though she still looked the same. Same pretty eyes, silky long hair, beautiful smile, angelic voice…
“Hi.” She smiled meekly.
“What are you doing here? At three in the morning?”
“Honestly? It was kind of spontaneous. One minute I’m trying to sleep, next thing I’m ringing your doorbell.”
“Why?” That was the only thing he could think to say. “We haven’t spoken in two years.” It still hurt to admit what had happened between them.
“I know. I miss you.”
I miss you too.
It was on the tip of his tongue but he didn’t say it.
He knew where this was going and he wasn’t sure he wanted to go down that road again.
It was the same thing every time. Except this time roles were reversed.
He wasn’t the one standing outside in the cold, begging for another chance.
He shifted from the doorway, gesturing for her to come in.
She stepped inside but they both stood in the foyer.
“Why are you here Selena?” He leaned against the door, speaking in a flat tone that held no emotion.
He wasn’t ready to let his emotions take over.
“I told you. I miss you Jay.”
He felt his heart ache.
How many nights had he spent wishing to hear those words? Wishing for her to call him by that nickname?
Too many. That’s how much.
“Don’t call me that.” He swallowed harshly and her eyebrows furrowed.
“Okay. I’m sorry.” She amended.
He sighed, loud and frustrated that he had felt guilty because of the tone in her voice.
Why was it that she could always make him feel like the villain?
“Cut to the chase Selena. Be honest, why are you here? Why not two years ago? What do you want from me?”
“I want us back.” She admitted.
“Why?” He snapped bitterly. “Is it because you got tired of Abel? Now you want me back because you’re bored of being single?”
He pushed off the door and began pacing.
“Is this how it’s always going to be? Tell me Selena, am I ever going to be enough to be your first choice? I mean, I gave you everything I had to give. Everything. I gave you every. Single. Part of me but it still wasn’t enough! If we get back together now, what’s going to happen? We’ll be happy until I give you a reason to break up with me and then I get to watch you move on while I grovel at your feet, begging for another chance? Is that it?”
She did not expect that. It was years and years of frustration and hurt that had been continuously bottled up overflowing.
“Why is it that I’m always the one to give everything and I’m always the one to be left with nothing?” He asked in a defeated voice, uttering words that broke her heart. “Why can’t you love me the way I love you?”
She wanted to cry. She didn’t know he felt like that.
“That’s not true Justin. I swear it’s not.” She reached out for him, taking her limp hand in hers.
“I never meant to make you feel like that.” She placed his hand over her heart. “Feel that? It’s yours. It beats for you. I’m not like you Jay. I’m not the best when it comes to expressing my feelings. I’ve never been one to put my heart on the line, not after that first time. I’m sorry I made you feel like that but you’ve never been my second choice or my first choice. You’re my only choice. I love you Justin, more than I’ve ever loved anybody. I love you more than I love myself.”
“Then why have you been with him for so long? Why ignore me for two years?”
“I got together with him for fun and then you and I, we drifted apart. He made me happy so I stayed with him but he never made me feel the way you do. I just - I assumed that you didn’t want anything to do with me so I never reached out.”
He nodded, looking down quietly.
“Justin please look at me. I hate that I made you feel like that baby but I promise you that I am completely yours. You have all of me. You always have and you always will. I swear to you I will prove it if you give me a chance. Please Justin.”
He was still hesitant. How many times did he have to get his heart broken before he learnt his lesson?
But she was the girl of his dreams - his angel - and here she was asking for another chance to prove that she loved him as much as he loved her.
How long had he waited for her?
How long had he wanted her?
She was his forever.
He wasn’t about to let her go.
So if she was going to break his heart again, so be it.
“Okay?” She looked up at his hopefully.
“Okay.” He verified smiling at her.
Give your all to me, I’ll give my all to you…