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i’m so bad at d&d :c i wish i could be better but i just can’t get my head wrapped around most of the concepts of how character building works and like, how you fight and the spells and like, apparently certain spells require STUFF to cast them and preparation time and like ????? are you kidding me it’s so confusing so i just end up sitting through the entire d&d session not knowing what the hell to do because holy shit there’s literally nothing for me to do because i just get talked over or ignored or i just don’t know what i‘m doing so i just look like an idiot and idk

like even when i try to get engaged i try to have my character go somewhere or do something and i’m ignored or talked over or glazed right over and no one gives me any help and idk what i’m doing wrong why do i just fuck up when i try to play it’s so disheartening… :(

I hate weekends and I hate long weekends even more. I have nothing better to do than be at work. Before university I had hobbies, now I just basically sleep because there’s nothing else to do and I just sit around staring at the wall.

PSA to people who get weird around vegans

Am I hurting you when I decline your ice cream? When I eat an apple in front of you?? If not, then why do you have to get defensive and weird about my freaking food?? If I were to sit there, ranting and raving at you for your food choices, sure, but do not attack me just because I chose the vegan option on the menu. I am doing nothing to you and you are making me argue when I don’t want to and you aren’t even ready to hear what I have to say.

Please do not let me hear “Well what about plants’ feelings!?” one more time in response to hearing me say I’m vegan because first of all: No. And second! Your argument has no basis!! And when I hear “Oh it’s just a joke calm down” THE URGE TO PUNCH YOUR IDIOTIC FACE IS JUST OVERWHELMING.

I feel SO strongly about this that I have changed critical parts of my everyday life for it?? So please stop dismissing my feelings WITHOUT ANY PROVOCATION WHATSOEVER???

So I basically told my manager that I’ll be quitting soon and tomorrow I’m just gonna sit down and apply to literally everywhere that has nothing to do with food. First job offer I get ill basically take and quit. Also I don’t care anymore and I’ll be calling off on Thursday just cause I wanna do stuff that night with a bunch of people. So yeah.

I wish I had people to hang out with because like I always feel so fucking gross because I sit around doing nothing all day and I feel like I’m just wasting away and it’s so lonely and I just want someone I can just call up randomly and like hang out with but nope I don’t cause my parents keep fucking moving me so I have no irl friends hahaha

I WAS TAGGED

Thanks to a certain mr. chongoblog for the tag. I hope I’m doing this right…

Name: Jordan Robert Newth

Nickname: Jay, Dr. Newth. The nickname Jay originated from this username, which I used to spread around a lot when I was younger. The nickname Dr. Newth originated from my 9th Grade spanish class, where somebody noticed that Newth sounded like the name of a doctor, and boy did it stick. I’ve definitely got terrible handwriting, too. Perhaps it wasn’t just a joke; perhaps it was a PREDICTION. 

Favorite Anime: I… I haven’t watched nearly enough anime to really talk about anime. I’ve watched like three episodes of like twenty different things but never more than that. Out of all of them I have to say that the Devil is a Part Timer, Sora no Otoshimono, and Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood are all pretty good.

Favorite Show: if we’re counting internet shows, it’s a tie between Gravity Falls and Game Grumps. Kinda wanna get into Steven Universe but i dunno.

Zodiac: Virgo! Apparently I’m sexy as hell.

Favorite Drink: Dr. Newth Dr. Pepper

Favorite Quote: It’s a tie between “The future is ours to decide.” from Shulk, Xenoblade Chronicles, and “If you’re just sitting there wallowing in your own pity, then it must not be that bad because you clearly don’t care enough to change it.”

Favorite Band: I don’t listen to enough music. I guess a tie between the Beatles and the Offspring.

Favorite Season: Fall and Winter. I love the feeling of the cool air and the overall feeling of this town in Christmas. 

Movies You’re Waiting For: I don’t watch nearly enough movies to care. So yeah.

Write Something in All Caps: BE HAPPY AND LIVE YOUR LIFE LIKE A HAPPY PERSON DONT SIT AROUND AND BE BORING AND STUFF NOBODY WILL EVER LOVE YOU LIKE THAT. PEOPLE WILL ONLY LOVE YOU ONCE YOU START LOVING YOURSELF. ALSO I REALLY WISH NINTENDO WOULD RELEASE A NEW PAPER MARIO GAME.

As for 10 people I want to get to know better, well…
notkyll occasionallyhavingsexwithmyself timbalstone crimsonpainkiller crimsontakashi @imisskittyx turbonate peonme thealmightystove mrhyrulegamer 

Take care, everyone!

Silence

This is killing me inside, I hate just sitting around, with nothing to do, it lets me think, then I get lost in my thoughts and end up feeling a million times worse than I did before, I hate thinking about my life and all that, there are a few really good things, but all in all, it’s kinda shit… I’m really sad