You know what? I get it. I get why Sentinel has made it so far.

The Autobot machine exists to serve and reassure itself of its superiority. Ultra Magnus had told OP that he wasn’t hero material… but clearly their definition of hero is different from “person who does what is right even when it’s hard” etc. I think what Magnus wanted to see was an unquestioning, loyal bot… just look at Omega Supreme! Their ideal soldier/weapon is someone who can hardly think for themselves, falls in line, and protects Autobots even at the cost of their life. They talk about “the greater good”, but really they are just talking about preserving the Autobot regime.

Sentinel is a ‘yes man’– always telling UM what he wants to hear, and aggressively doing what he can to preserve the Autobot way of function. He’s an idiot in a lot of ways, and I think UM knows this. There are bigger forces at work here. I think UM lined up Sentinel as his successor because he wanted someone SO DENSE, and SO LOYAL and rooted in the Autobot way that in the event he goes offline he can bet within a degree of certainty that THEY will continue carrying out what he had established. Sentinel hates organics; Sentinel distrusts Decepticons; Sentinel DOES want to keep Autobots alive, and is willing to sacrifice anyone or anything to see that happen… kinda like how UM onlined Omega Supreme, knowing full well that this sentient being would someday pay the ultimate price.

The Magnus doesn’t like to get his hands dirty unless he has to… and this why OP was not 'hero material’. He wholly accepted the blame for what happened with Elita-1– unacceptable behavior for someone who would be in the public eye and a source of morale. OP is too much of a free thinker– he befriended organics and has made compromises with Decepticons to save lives. That’s different; that’s not what Autobots do. The Magnus is supposed to be this impeccable figure… and I’ll bet Ultra had groomed Sentinel to be more of a figureHEAD than a new and independent rule, continuing the plans for society HE had set in motion for generations to come.

The hardest part about my abuse is knowing that there was no accident. It wasn’t that they didn’t realize what they were doing was bad. It wasn’t for a ‘greater’ good. No, it was for selfish wants and greed. There’s no other way I can explain it. They just didn’t care what happened to me, as long as my suffering benefited them.
—  Posted by Anonymous.

anonymous asked:

I've stopped taking my meds and I've been great, but now it's starting to kick in and I'm feeling so down, but I can't deal with the side effects when you first start ugh.. I just don't know what to do :(

There are a lot of different medications out there, as well as combinations of medications and dosages. It’s sort of like a trial-and-error balancing act to find the right combination of medications and dosages. Once you find what works, it’s good to stick to it. If you’re feeling side effects with a certain medication, talk to your psychiatrist about different options. There’s probably another medication you can take that doesn’t have those side effects.

Doctors only prescribe medications when they feel the benefits are greater than the side effects. If you’re feeling like the side effects are too much for you then talk to them about alternatives. 

The reason my first psychiatrist only suggested lamictal was because he knew certain side effects of other medications would trigger my eating disorder which would in turn trigger depression and suicidal tendencies. When I got to a certain dose of lamictal, I started experiencing side effects I didn’t want and since he felt I needed more than my previous dose we agreed on something in between. 

You can also do your research on medication before taking it, but make sure you ask your psychiatrist questions and trust their information over what you read from people online. They’ve studied mental health and medication.

Even now if you’re feeling side effects, talk to your psychiatrist. It’s possible they’re temporary and once you get through a certain period of time they will stop. 

picantecrispy asked:

Fuck, Marry, Kill: Jane, Lulu, Paige


okay first of all fuck Paige I mean we don’t know she could be super hot so I’’m taking a chance on this one

now the question is.. do I save the world from Jane’s eternal suffering but subject myself to hearing that voice for the rest of my life?? Or do I kill a minor annoyance and have to live with Jane’s games every goddamn day? *telltale games decision time*

ya know what imma go with the greater good here take one for the team and kill Jane, marry Lulu. I mean Lulu could always die in a tragic food poisoning “accident” a few weeks into our marriage so it’s all good

i can’t believe i just typed so much about this question i need to sTOP

anonymous asked:

6 and 10!

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? Anyone with a good outlook on life and can inspire me & push me to do something greater than what I could do on my own.
10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? My friend Joe. We talked about how amazing it’d be to just go out into the world more and adventure with people who you could be yourself around and play music on the beach and watch the sunset

anonymous asked:

You're just worthless and pathetic and clearly have nothing better to do with your time.

whatever you tell yourself to sleep at night, anon. unlike all of you - i can handle this hate. what i’m doing is for the greater good.

Freak Intentions

I know what i am, yet sometimes i dont. I dont understand a thing about the world, about me, about anything really. I am not smart at all. I am good at memorizing stuff, but i dont really know what it means. For example i know what every color reflector does and how it affects people, but i dont know what a reflector is or how its used or what it looks like. I just memorized some words.
I dont like pain, yet sometimes i do. I like it so much that sometimes by focusing on the pain i am able to enhance it and make the pain greater. Pain is a mental thing, ot can be controlled, i always enhance the pain, i dont understand how sometimes i can be scared of it, but then i can enjoy it and want more pain just for the pleasure of it.
I like eyes. Any kind of eye really, they facinate me. Everyone and everything has a different eye that has seen different things. When i look at my eyes i see them sad, i emotions in peoples eyes.
Im a liar, lately i have found myself lieing for no reason at all. I say, “i cant go im sick” or “i cant cus i have work” in reallity im in my room being miserable and enjoying my misery.
I am broken, I know, but aren’t we all a little broken in a way. He loves me, he says he does, i know he does. It scares me. How does he love me like this, broken, a freak with sadness in her eyes. I have alot of thinking to do.
And the miserable day starts again, now…

Relationships and Pasts

Let me ask this. Why are relationships hard? I’m no expert on them in anyway, but still. I recently got into a fight with a good friend about this. This argument brought up a lot of the past. I’m really bothered by the fact that people use your past to shape a person. It’s completely resonable why they do it, it’s just it gets old. People can change. I ,myself, know that I have changed. But that didn’t come across to my friend well. This argument really open up my mind about them. I have a greater respect for that person after reading what they had to say. I’m even beginning to have a strange attraction towards them. But I already know there’s going to be tension between us and it’s not going to change. At first I was bashing my head in for provoking this argument, but now I’m not. I’m not even mad about the fight anymore. But being falsely accused JUST from knowledge of my background really ticked me off. I’m just rambling now.

Happy 2012!
I can’t believe I’m already writing this, it went by so fast… And I’m kinda sad that it’s already ending, because it was an incredible year for me, but on the other side I can’t wait for the new year to begin, because I have a very strong feeling it’s going to be another good year. I’m stepping in the new year free, happy, with clear head and with anticipation that 2012 will be even greater

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So, my dear readers. I wish you a very very happy New Year and at this point I’d like to thank you for not just visiting and following my blog, but also for actually reading it and commenting. You are all amazing and I love you so much! Because of all of you, I can keep doing what I love and what makes me happy, and because of you I’ll try even harder in the future, to make it even better!

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Have a good night and see ya in 2012!

Happy 2012! was originally published on pelamarela.com