Ok I’m sorry but I can honestly see Yuuri STILL not knowing Victor is in love with him because he’s both that unconfident and dense, and doesn’t want to get his hopes up.
Victor wanting to sleep with him? Just a sleepover to get to know each other better.
The kiss? It was just to surprise him.
The fucking engagement ring?? Just a way to encourage him to get a gold medal and do say good job.
Like, he won’t believe it until Victor literally pins him down, looks him in the eye, and says “I am in love with you and want to be your husband.” And even then yuuri will be like “….are you sure you don’t mean in a friend way?”
I feel like the phandom kinda changed partially because the content changed? Idk there's a lot of gaming videos and stuff, which is like nice casual content but nothing groundbreaking, and then we get so much of it that it's just a bit overwhelming?? and then the actually big stuff is just kinda there and peeps don't know what do with it?? could be exams, too, so maybe things will pick up in the summer, but right now i think the phandom is just starving for a mystery to solve.
kfdjnx i do think a lot of ppl left/took a hiatus because there have been no mysteries to solve. the allure of ‘phan’ fueled a lot of the phandom and shaped the landscape for dan and phil’s following. ‘phan’ still does bring excitement to people but to a lesser extent now i guess. even just last year it was all about what they were doing and speculating about their relationship. but they have gotten so flirty we don’t even notice it and when they moved it confirmed something a lot of people already knew. so now that it’s not a constant mystery people are a bit lax. even when dan went to the bahamas i had a huge spike of notes (more than when they moved) because all of a sudden there was something out of the ordinary to be excited about. we used to get excited at dan saying he’s phil trash #1 but now even moving together again wasn’t as hyped. it’s been normalized which is nice on my end at least because it lets dan and phil be more casual on camera. they just seem happier. that’s why i keep watching and blogging about it. i just like seeing them happy.
was thinking about girls, as i so often do….and i’m like man imagine having a gf a lot taller than me….and then i thought….imagine having a gf a lot SMALLER than me? and i’m glad i was already sitting down because i tell ya…that was a real stunner. a bamboozler. it was a knockout thought!
Short opinion: Other books in the series make the point that war is not a chess game. This book emphasizes that idea—through showing us what it takes to view war as a chess game.
The Ellimist Chronicles might be the novel with the single largest scope of any book I’ve ever read: it tells the story of how a god becomes a god. Part of what makes this book so cool and also so creepy is the sense of fatalism and foreboding that pervades it throughout. Between the Ketrans, the Pangabans, the Jallians, and the Capasins, not to mention all the species casually sacrificed in the Ellimist’s games, we see like 8 different sentient species go extinct over the course of this book. Add to that the fact that it opens and closes on the death of an Animorph—no telling which one at that point in the series—and this book almost appears to be setting up for the fall of humanity to the yeerk empire. And our narrator is not the most reassuring one: he expresses empathy for Rachel, yes, but he also plays the yeerk-human war like a game, and we know for a fact that he wouldn’t be unduly inconvenienced if the humans were to lose. Which is pretty goshdarn uncomfortable to read about, because in this particular game we’re the pawns.
It’s a huge theme in the Animorphs series that war is NOT a chess game, or even comparable to a chess game (or any other game for that matter) in any meaningful way, not if you’re even a halfway-decent person. War is about deciding which people from your own side should die horribly in the process of attempting to ensure which people from the other side die horribly, a course of action that should only be undertaken as an absolute last resort after all other choices have been exhausted. The idea that it’s not even appropriate or good to make that comparison comes up again and again (MM3, #11, #16, Andalite Chronicles). In #53 Jake sums it up: “At the beginning of the American Civil War, both sides thought the war was about taking or holding cities and ports. They thought it was a chess game. By the end of the war, they’d figured out that they weren’t playing chess… The real game was destruction…They burned enemy homes and farms. They burned crops in the field and slaughtered farm animals and wrapped railroad tracks around trees. They starved the enemy. They realized that warfare was no longer about chivalry and honor, but about killing the enemy. Do whatever it takes… Dress it up however you want, that’s what war is about. If there’s glory in there somewhere, I must have missed it.”
Jake is right, of course, that he’s not playing a chess game. At that point in the series, he’s deciding whether he’s willing to kill his brother and sacrifice his cousin in order to protect his species. He’s already made the decision to give up on saving his parents in order to blow up the yeerk pool. These are his family members and friends on the line, not rooks or bishops… and no matter what he does, some of them are going to die. Jake’s also a decent human being, enough to realize that the taxxons have families too, that many of them are not there by choice, but that’s the only way he has out of this situation: kill the enemy.
Anyway, back to the Ellimist. Who can experience the devastation of losing his own species for decades after the death of the ketrans, but doesn’t spare more than a moment of annoyance for the annihilation of the pangabans. Who exists so far above the lives and concerns of ordinary beings that he can see their entire existence playing out in a matter of seconds. Who is so far removed from those ordinary lives that he is largely incapable of understanding them at all. He doesn’t have family members on the line, he doesn’t see the world through the taxxons’ eyes—and he’s therefore just ruthless enough to destroy six children in order to save a species that he considers worth saving. Jake might be horrified that Crayak uses child-soldiers as his ultimate weapon (#26) but also seems to overlook the fact that the Ellimist uses EXACTLY THE SAME TACTIC when he recruits the Animorphs.
It’s obvious right from the very first book that the Animorphs universe isn’t run by a benevolent or all-powerful god. What makes this book so mind-blowing is that it shows that the god of this universe is powerful, he’s well-intentioned… and he’s still not only very limited, but also kind of a jerk a lot of the time. Toomin does his best to encourage species to thrive and grow as they naturally would, he shows enormous fondness for the infinite variations of life in the universe, and he does what he can to protect life in the universe.
He also just happens to be condescending as fuck.
The narration of The Ellimist Chronicles does a really good job of showing why, exactly, Toomin tends to think of ordinary beings as “small” or “helpless,” since he watches the rise and fall of entire civilizations in about one subjective afternoon most of the time—but he also spends a hell of a lot of time describing the hardworking autonomous people whose lives he casually manipulates as “tiny” or some synonym thereof. There’s no obligation or external stricture which says that he has to care about ordinary beings—and indeed Crayak seems much more comfortable not caring at all—so one can appreciate how much he works at it. However, he also doesn’t quite get to the level of thinking of humans as (for lack of a better term) fully human: they’re chess pieces, he moves them around, and if he has to sacrifice a few then oh well. He doesn’t ask whether they’d like to be moved in advance, he doesn’t incessantly turn over possibilities until he finds the one with the least bloodshed, and he certainly doesn’t have a long conversation with Rachel about whether she’s willing to die before it happens. He sees possibilities and acts on them. Because he’s a gamer, and they are game pieces. Who cares what a knight thinks, as long as it’s not in the trajectory of the opposing bishop?
Toomin tries, to be sure, but he doesn’t think like a human leader and he doesn’t treat his “pieces” like equals or even underlings. He might even know Cassie’s favorite bands or Jake’s scoring record in basketball (who knows?) but he probably doesn’t consider that information to be particularly important. Because he’s a gamer, to his core, and he thinks like a gamer. And Jake and Cassie are just NPCs to him.
Video games (and to a lesser extent tabletop games) represent this odd nebulous space whose meaning tends to defy interpretation. The questions that everyone from social psychologists to communication researchers to philosophers to television shows to gamers themselves have asked (What, if anything, does one’s in-game behavior say about one’s true personality? Does performing certain behaviors in-game influence one’s habits in the real world? How much does shooting a person during a game have to do with one’s actual willingness to shoot a person if put in that situation in real life?) reflect the sheer bizarre extremity of in-game behavior. Because the fact of the matter is, the vast majority of people engage in utterly reprehensible actions while playing games that they would never engage in during real interactions. I myself have crashed spaceships into planets, driven cars off the road using my own vehicle, stabbed people in the gut, and shot unarmed prisoners in the head—because it’s all part of the game. And it’s just a game, right? Who cares how I win?
If those were real people, they’d sure as hell care. If I was a general who only thought of a war as like a game, I’d be no better than Visser Three. (One of the better moments of dark humor in Visser: the Council of Thirteen considers sympathy for humans a crime punishable by death and execution of several thousand underlings a crime punishable by temporary exile.) In a lot of ways, Toomin’s perspective on humans has more in common with the yeerks’ or even Crayak’s. He needs people like Jake and Rachel and Elfangor and Arbron to win this war for him.
So, yeah, Toomin is a gamer—and it’s almost a natural consequence that he throws lives away any time it’s convenient for him. He’s not human, he’s not an andalite, and he doesn’t appreciate individuals the way he does entire species. K.A. Applegate achieves a masterwork by not only giving us the realistic-feeling origin story of a god, but doing so in a way that creates rules which genuinely fit with the Animorphs world as we know it.
I hate how some people think it’s “wrong” to ship Harley and Joker but perfectly okay to ship Harley and Ivy even though Ivy is just as manipulative and abusive as him but only to a lesser extent yet people turn a blind eye all because it’s a same sex pairing. If you’re against abusive relationships then you should also be against this one. (unless you’re just a giant hypocrite)
okay so, the seven dwarven rings of power were said to enhance the bearer’s natural ability, especially in attaining wealth, but it would also enhance the bearer’s desire for dominion, which accordingly leads to the symptoms of goldsickness as described in the prequel to the films.
we know the line of thror had a ring, it was retaken by sauron. we can also safely assume that the hoard of erebor was founded/multiplied by the power of that ring. even without the dragon’s curse upon it, couldn’t we argue that a hoard created through a ring of power corrupted by sauron would be inherently cursed?
which brings me to this last thought: thorin got hit pretty hard by the goldsickness, as we’re all painfully aware. if the gold is cursed by both smaug and to a lesser extent, sauron, then was it just the treasure and the arkenstone and the dragon’s curse that sparked thorin’s goldsickess?
or could part of it be attributed to bilbo carrying sauron’s horcrux in his pocket the entire time?
people say craig boone suffers from “dead wife manpain” syndrome but i’d like to remind you that carla boone’s death wasn’t done to forward craig’s storyline. craig himself stopped functioning after she died. he’s not moved on and it’s heavily implied that he won’t. he reacts more realistically to his situation than any of f4′s “dead wife club” members do.
but let’s take a step back here.
craig’s entire character is very much used to portray in a personal light just how tight and tough relations between the ncr, khans, and (to a lesser extent) legion are. his personal experiences add a sense of grey morality to the (objectively “good”) ncr and his personal quest itself is biggest insight we get to the bitter springs incident. he’s an important character, his motives are influenced by his backstory, and making jabs at him for being so “dull and boring” is a really cheap move.
ahhh gotcha, that makes alot more sense. prior to toonification he’s more like the other au henrys but as a toon he stands out bc some of his traits have been strengthened or lessened as a effect, maybe to even fill the role as supposed “villian” or am i reachin a bit?
You’re thinking along the right lines, but the “villain” bit just happens to be an unfortunate coincidence of Bendy’s expectations and Henry’s natural personality that works against Henry’s favor. XD My Henry Ross is still kind of grumpy in reality, just to a lesser extent than he is as a cartoon.
The real difference is the liveliness he has as a cartoon that he doesn’t have so much anymore in real life. (He is a middle-aged man, after all.) As a cartoon, he’s more likely to act on his emotions, thanks to all that extra energy, so he expresses them more strongly without even thinking about it. After all, that’s what comes naturally to a toon, even if a toon isn’t what he started out being.
the elrics grew up reading alchemical texts right? that’s probably where they learnt to spell and, combined with ed’s crappy handwriting, absolutely must give whoever has to parse through their reports a migraine every time.
This was supposed to be a fusion between Count Bleck & Lewis Pepper (My friend drew me the fusion thing for my B-Day because I was absolutely OBSESSED WITH THESE TWO. Now to a slightly lesser extent. Just on the back burner.), but it ended up looking more like a fancy Lewis than a fusion. So…either way here ya go!
I saw your post about GRRM and the Mereenese Blot essays. What I marked was his clear frustration that more people didn't get what he was doing with that plot, as if he thought it should be much more obvious. Compare it to the season 6 director who said we should be roused but a little horrified by D@enerys. There are other examples like this. People in the know, including her very author, keep speaking plainly of D@enerys's spiral into darkness. (1/2)
They are neither cagey nor ambiguous about it, as if they believe it should already be plain to most fans. Yet most readers and viewers aren’t getting it at all. Why do you think this is? (2/2)
Serra: And believe me, if I could get the Summoner to stop putting me in harms way, I would.
Selena: Gods, if you’re going to keep being rude, I’ll just forget about helping you and leave.
Serra: W-wait, no! You have to make it up to me!
Selena: Let go of my arm!
Serra: You can’t leave meee!
Selena: You’re making a scene! F-fine, just tell me what you want from me!
Serra: Yes, victory! Hmm… normally, I’d demand she follow me around all day, protecting me and waiting on me, hand and foot…
Serra: But then again… Selena’s so infuriating to be around.
Selena: I’m standing right here, you know!
Serra: Okay, just come with me and I’ll think of something!
Selena: This is gonna be a long day…
[Selena and Serra have
support rank B.]
Selena: Hah! Okay, Miss Princess, If you really want my honest opinion.
Selena: The color is all wrong, and I don’t get the fit of your dress… but the scarf? Adorable.
Serra: Hehe, even if you know nothing about stylish colors, there is always one universal trend that we can both agree on…
Serra: Yes! They will never go out of style!
Selena: Heh, I never would’ve thought we could get along… but spending the day with you, I’ve realized that we’re a lot alike.
Selena: I mean, who would have expected it, when you’re so frilly and vain, and I’m so not!
Serra: The fact that you think of that as a compliment is abhorrent!
Selena: …Hey, Serra? I’m sorry about how rude I was to you when we met. it was just that I… really hate people who act like they’re better than everyone.
Serra: don’t you act the same?!
Selena: Wha– no! I mean…okay, that’s not the point. I sorta grew up in the shadow of someone really… perfect. So, I always try to knock people off their high-horses, y’know? …Level the playing field.
Serra: Oh…I can, um, relate to that. I didn’t exactly get… attention or care, as a child. But I deserve it, I know I do!
Serra: And, I know you do too! Just to a lesser extent.
Selena: Ugh, neither of us got what we deserved, and that messed us up, but… we got to meet each other in this world, so even if you’re super terrible and annoying, I’ll be your friend, and I’ll be annoying with you.
Serra: Oh… me too, Selena, my atrocious comrade! And, I don’t say this to most people, but… thank you, friend.
Selena: Are you crying?!
Serra: *Sniff* N-NO!
[Selena and Serra have
support rank A.]
Serra: Oh, and did you see what Virion was wearing? Hah, I’d expect better than a bib from nobility such as us!
Serra: … Selena?
Serra: You’ve been getting distracted like this all day! Even I’M starting to get worried…
Selena: Heh, sorry, it’s nothing.
Selena: Okaaay, fine. I’m just distracted by your voice.
Serra: Oh… I-I’ll stop talking so much.
Selena *blushing*: Wait, no! That’s not what I meant! And I’m…I’m sorry for saying that when we met. I really love your voice, I think it’s adorable!
Serra *blushing*: Oh! Ah, erm, well, naturally.
Selena: And I love hearing you laugh about stuff, and the way you flourish everything, and how you’re always nice to me in your own ways… your own infuriating ways.
Serra: You know, Selena, you’re very important to me, too. You accept me, so completely, it’s…!
It’s really nice. I love the fire you have in battle, and somehow, I don’t mind all the trouble and walking it takes to heal you… I’d always heal /you/. I’m really glad we get to talk.
Selena *smiling*: …
Serra *smiling*: …
Selena: Sooo… we can, like, go out now, right?
Serra: Right! I love you, my atrocious and brilliant girlfriend!
Selena: Mm, it’s kinda funny… out of all the worlds I’ve been through, all the people I’ve met… I think you’re the one I adore the most.
About Split: I think it might be based on Billy Milligan; he was diagnosed with multiple personality disorder after he got arrested for three rapes. He had 24 personality, and apparently three of them committed the three different rapes. And like the 24th personality was used for achieving fusion of the other 23. Idk if this changes anything, I just wanted to give another point of view about this issue
But did he turn into a superpowered cannibal that could climb walls?
Like I said, my problems with the film aren’t that it portrays someone with DID as capable of bad things, because we are, everybody is - we can be the bad guy, the good guy, and everything in between. In fact, each alter has the potential to be any one of those things. I accept that, and I accept that storytelling might use the fact that one face can hide two very different people to create tension, fear, confusion, and that’s perfectly fine in my opinion.
What bothers me about the film is that DID alone isn’t a superhero backstory - we can’t change our bodies, we aren’t “the next stage in evolution”, we aren’t “on a higher plain”, we can’t “alter our chemistry”, as the movie proposes - we aren’t mystical, magical beings. The psychiatrist in the film uses misconceptions about DID, describes that number of alters like it’s unheard of, and promotes popular misinformations like that it can “cure blindness” (when in reality, it can simply cause like a psychosomatic blindness or other problems for certain alters, or lessen the degree to which things the body suffers with affect certain alters - for example, if a specific alter is a coping mechanism for a leg injury caused by the abuse, they may be unable to feel or use that leg long after the initial injury is cured, because the brain, when they’re in control, believes that the leg is still damaged; or it can create a sort of placebo effect where the brain doesn’t believe it has certain symptoms when a specific alter is present, so they present less, like when cancer sufferers drink “magical water” and feel better for a bit despite the water doing nothing). Contrary to what the psychiatrist character in the film says, DID couldn’t cure blindness that was caused by any actual physical damage, in the film she says it “healed the nerves” but… it. can’t. do. that - either the damage would have healed anyway or it wasn’t there to begin with; people can become blind for various reasons, and some blindness is caused by the subconscious mind not communicating what the optical nerves say to the conscious mind, those people can still navigate rooms or smile back, but they don’t know why they’re doing it since they think they can’t see, so an alter could have that type of blindness while another does not, which to an uneducated observer may appear like DID curing blindness. Does the film explain that? Does it use what can actually happen? Nope. It just makes up a bunch of nonsense about DID to explain the impossible scenario, instead of going “actually there’s a real world explanation of why this happens, should we use that?” the writers went “lets make up something that sounds cool”.
There’s a Marvel mutant called Legion, and his mental illnesses (schizophrenia in some incarnations, DID in others) is linked to his mutation and interacts with it, but his mutation, his father being Prof. X, is why he has those powers, not his mental health issue. It would’ve been easy for Split to take a similar path, to come up with a separate reason for Billy/Dennis/etc’s body to be mutated and then have their DID interact with that. But instead the film promotes the misinformation that people with DID have “unlocked” their mind, that they’re capable of great feats of transformation (and not just the fact that he can change his clothes in 13 fucking seconds while switching), and so on.
It’s like making a Deadpool who’s powers were caused by his cancer - not by anything done to him while he had the cancer, not by the mutant gene, not by an unheard of magical strain of cancer, just by normal run of the mill cancer - and that ALL cancer sufferers have this magical, superhuman, mega evolved thing inside of them. Except in this hypothetical, there’s also a common myth in the real world that it actually is possible for cancer to cause things that in reality it can’t cause, and that cancer sufferers are dangerous, unstable, and the worst of the worst. People would want to correct that, and people would think that it’s sloppy researching.
I guess, what it boils down to is that I’m complaining about bad writing and a lack of research. They came up with an unrealistic premise and, instead of delving deeper into the condition and deciding to create a situation in which the disorder and something else worked together to create “The Beast”, they just sort of ran with “No this can totally happen”… AND THEN added a character who is supposedly an expert on this and had her spew some pseudoscience at the screen, that some people out there actually buy to a lesser extent.
I just don’t like bad science. It’s why I love The Martian so much, because it’s a sci-fi film that’s 99.9% based in scientific fact. Whereas, when I’m watching a sci-fi or horror film and I see something that can’t happen, it takes me out of the film, and it annoys me because as a writer I research EVERYTHING and I hold other people to that standard. There are authors who studied historic London city maps meticulously for weeks and continuously while writing the books, and then there are authors who go “Eh, it probably had a bunch of poop everywhere so I’ll just describe that and hope they don’t notice that my character has taken eighty seven rights and then a left into what would actually be the river”, and you can tell when reading or watching their work.
Also the term is “integration”, not fusion. I nitpick. That is my problem. And given that I know quite a bit on this topic for obvious reasons, everything I saw of this film - adverts, reviews, clips, etc - bugged me. I will watch the film in full one day, but at the moment I’m too sick to get through that length of time of anything remotely triggering (which sucks because I also want to rewatch The Voices to talk about how the two differ and what makes The Voices a better film, despite both being films with mentally ill bad guys).
Anyway, yeah, I respect that some people like it, feel free to watch it… Just… Remember not to get your understanding of things from movies. And I know that sounds obvious to anyone with a brain, but the number of people I’ve seen (mostly on Facebook, some irl, some on YouTube) use “…like in Split”, or use it as an example of someone with DID, or reference things said in the film to support their incorrect argument, is what probably really set off my dislike for this movie. Up until then I was just “ugh, another typical movie getting shit wrong, using misinformation, that everyone’s complaining about because we need representation but no don’t portray us like that, or like that, or like that, we are literal angels who are happy all of the time and if you show us being bad or unhappy then you’re promoting ableism and blah blah blah”, but seeing people genuinely fall for the bullshit in a movie pissed me off and sent me on a bit of a tirade a while back. I’ve since taken a step back and am more on the “It’s just a movie” bandwagon, but I criticize other movies and media when they get things wrong so I’m not going to not criticize this one just because some people are going “It’s just a movie, Jesus, you only care because you have DID and it hurt your feels to be the bad guy”. Cause I think that’s shitty of them and I think that’s really misrepresenting my problems with this film from the beginning.