just the size got too big to fit it all

So I'm at the mall and I had the most emotional moment when I was in target earlier

I was shopping for an outfit for Christmas and decided that maybe it would be okay to buy a pair of skinny jeans. I haven’t worn skinny jeans probably since the beginning of high school because I hated the way they fit me and I pretty much stopped wearing jeans completely when the last pair I bought was a size fifteen. So now that I lost all this weight I went in there and I was like I’m probably like a size ten now . Which I was just assuming because the lowest size I ever was was an 11 and that was in sixth grade. So I grabbed a size ten and went to the fitting room. They slid on with ease and I was psyched. But then I realized that they were big and I could probably fit into an eight. So I hurried back out and got an eight then came back and those were kinda big too!! I went back and got a different pair then I had to sit in the dressing room for about 20 minutes because I was in awe and started crying because I was sitting in a pair of perfectly fitting size six jeans and I just couldn’t fathom that it was actually happening and that I’ve actually come this far. From a 15 to a 6. I was never that small to begin with. It’s been about three hours and I still can’t get over it!

anonymous asked:

how to deal with height dysphoria? (I'm transmasc, but I guess tips for transfem people would be useful to others too) I know my height doesn't invalidate my gender but it's one of my biggest issues anyway and i hate knowing I'll never get any taller

Kai says:

I can only speak from experience as a short transmasc person (I’m 5 ft 3) and honestly finding clothes in the men’s section in American stores is so hard when they don’t carry stuff in my size. I would say just dressing to your body type could help? Like I’ve heard vertical lines help and horizontal lines “breaks up” your body and makes you look shorter?? Just make sure your clothes fit because baggy / too big clothes actually ends up making you look smaller (trust me, I’ve seen this in action). Be confident! Stand up tall! That’s really all I’ve got, but standing up tall really helps even though all I do is slouch because of my chest hahahahha