Another quiet day
Today has been another quiet, kinda rainy day. These are always kinda nice, but it does lead one to thinking, and an idle mind without much to think about can be a dangerous thing.
I’ve dug myself a bit of hole, and that has only gotten deeper today. I keep saying I’ll be back soon, and I want to. I want to do all these things, but I just can’t, and I don’t know when I’ll be back to being “me” again.
I’ve done some bad things, and today has been a day of reflection, reminding myself of those things that I can’t undo. I’m doing my best to move on from my mistakes, but I have been doing my best for upwards of a year now.
The best I can do is bury it all, and try to forget about it. But the harder I try to forget, the more I am reminded of what I did and who I was back then. There’s no changing it. What’s done is done, and I can’t go back. It should be simple and easy to get over, but it’s not, and it hasn’t ever been.
I guess all I have open to me for now as options are just to sit and wait this one out, hopefully with the continued love and support of my wonderful friends. I do adore their company so much, and I want each and every one of them, of you still reading this post, to know how much I value our time together. Yes, even you. Yeah, you right there behind the screen. That’s you too~
Thank you for being here, and for reading this. It does mean a lot. I just… guess I need more time. I’ll be back eventually. I’ll stop promising soon, but things should return to normal eventually. Until then, I’ll still be here to chat or talk about whatever.