just so you have an idea of how big it is

anonymous asked:

I'm so jealous you met Reba!!! I love her!!

She was SO lovely!  I was getting into an elevator and she came in, so I held the door for her and her assistant. I smiled really big at her, but didn’t say anything because… I didn’t know what to say!!  “I’m a big fan” or “You’re adorable” seemed inappropriate, as did raising my arms and singing “Fancy.”

So she actually started talking to me :)  Chit chat stuff, nothing important, things you say in an elevator. Then she said “I’m Reba and this is Carolyn, what’s your name?” And I just… you have no idea!  Something so sweet and simple absolutely made my day!  MY WEEK!  

We joke about clear skin and thriving crops, but I swear to god that’s how it felt!

askpurrsian  asked:

8, 12, 18 !!!!

8: Name something or someone who influences your writing, art or characterization. 

OK so this is gonna be a weak answer, but.. I have no idea what influences me artwise! 
I just draw the way I like drawing, and pick up tricks from others without even realising it.

12: How do you best learn about another character?

By observing! And analyzing. 
I do this a lot with characters in TV shows or games that I like, that doesn’t have much screentime. I go through their dialoge, their actions, ect. and then I can paint a clear picture of the character! (this helps me make my own characters also, though I’m not that good at it yet)

18: Which other fandoms are you into?

I’m not exactly “in” any other fandoms the same way as with Pokémon, but I’m a very big fan of The Legend of Zelda, The Walking Dead and Harry Potter :’D

anonymous asked:

hi adrian do u think u could recommend some clothes that might help me look more masculine? im a trans guy and im moving out for uni so i finally have the chance to dress how i want but because ive not that before i have no idea about what kind of clothes would help me pass more

sure!! i’d be happy to

okay so uhhh?? oversized clothes are friends, especially if you don’t have a binder yet!! (side tip on that– if you don’t have a binder yet and you’re fairly small-chested, you can layer a couple sports bras and that’ll function as sort of a pseudo-binder in the meantime.) sweaters and hoodies are commonly oversized as like a fashion statement, so it’s easier to go with those. a t-shirt that’s too big for you will just…. look like you’re wearing a t-shirt that’s too big for you. that’s something you probably actually wanna avoid if you can, because having a t-shirt that goes down to your knees will make you look tinier and probably make you look masculine as a result. (that said, it’s okay if your shirt comes down over your hips a little bit, because that can help hide any curves you may have there.)

as for pants, that’s… personally something i’ve struggled a lot with. not necessarily because of my build– i’m not very curvy– but because my legs are so gotdamn short. they’re expensive, but jeans from american eagle are honestly the only things that fit me and look good on me. i personally wear the slim straights; they aren’t so skinny that they cling to everything (which you probably don’t want if you’re trying to look masculine), but they don’t have that weird boot-cut flare-out towards the bottom of the leg, either.

shorts are also an option! if you go this route, try for something loose and baggy. i’ve heard that board shorts are good for trans guys because of the way they fit, but i don’t really like wearing shorts, so i don’t have any personal advice to offer here.

regardless of what you end up doing for pants, you can sink the waist a little lower than “normal” to help hide your hips a little more. instead of letting them sit on your natural waistline, if you push them down to where your hips are widest, then the line of the pants will only follow from that widest point down, giving you more of a taper and less of a hip-hugging shape?? if that makes sense.

you can do pretty much whatever for shoes and socks imo?? it’s a crime in the eyes of fashion but a lot of cis guys wear socks with slides so that’s a low-maintenance way to potentially dress more masculine.

finally a note on buying underwear– you don’t gotta buy the cute trendy ones you see at like american eagle and shit because they’re like, $7 a pair. you can get a pack of like 4-8 pairs at walmart for the same price. (i personally recommend boxer-briefs but you can try whatever you want!)

let me know if this was helpful or if you need more advice!!

1,000 Followers

I hit the big 1,000 today!

I wish I was talented and creative and could do something for you all but I’m not. Although, maybe some weekend soon I will begin writing one of the couple of fanfic ideas I have rolling through my head (I hate work taking up all of my weekdays).

So all I can say is thank you very much and I love you all!

I’ve never even remotely been close to hitting this milestone on here before. It just goes to show how awesome and active the Sherlock fandom is on here!

We may only get three episodes every fifty years but that won’t stop us from continuing to do what we do on here. :)

Originally posted by enigmaticpenguinofdeath

*Just replace morning with fandom.

@ryuzakki @koitoshi @yorozya Hey guys thanks! I think I’m just gonna lump together into ten all together if that’s okay ;w;

  1. I AM CURRENTLY RIGHT NOW RESEARCHING POP MUSIC IN EACH DECADE FOR MY FIFTH GRADERS AND BOY BIG TIME RUSH Y’ALL https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jUOdO5dqPeU PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS AND TELL ME HOW CATCHY THIS IS
  2. I used to be a big disney channel fan holy fuck 
  3. I am trying to eat healthier and work out more but it’s hard when it’s constantly cold here and “distractions” happen… like my bf and i went to eat korean bbq orz
  4. My favorite grade to teach is first grade!! because they are young and innocent still but already have an idea of how to behave! I also like fourth grade!! 
  5. There’s so many things i hate about myself physically like i’m short, i have uneven eyes, and my voice sounds so deep wtf 
  6. i really can’t wait for omocat’s game omori!!! i’m gonna play!!! the shit out of that game!!!!!
  7. i think a lot of followers don’t know i’m into kpop but yeah i am into kpop!! i just post it more on my other blog @erdes 
  8. Speaking of kpop I like bigbang, bts, nu’est, wjsn, twice (to some extent they aren’t on spotify NONE OF JYP IS), april, 4minute, 2ne1, blackpink, yeah and a whole bunch i do try to keep up with the new releases! 
  9. i want to get better at art and a lot of other stuff but my problem is i’m scared of everything sigh….
  10. i still talk to one person from high school and she’s a model! i’m so proud of her!! 

Here is the first trial of Bisquick’s new enrichment! This is the Wurm Ball. The general idea of enrichment is to make Bisquick’s life as interesting and fun as possible, and that includes new ways of offering him food! This is a slightly modified ping pong ball which I then stuffed with red wigglers (his favorite). So instead of just eating the worms as I toss them in he can engage his brain in how to get the worms out of the ball. I started off with a few big holes as you can see, and it was unsurprisingly very easy for him to figure out the general gist of it. This was his first interaction with it, so it’s really neat to see him investigate the ball in the beginning. Trail II will use a pingpong with more worms and smaller holes, that is if I can get the worms into smaller holes. I do apologize for the shaky camera, I’m not 100% used to using my DSLR for video applications.

For those of you who have not yet met Bisquick he is a species of freshwater stingray (Potamotrygon motoro).  Although he is currently small and cute this species (as well as many others) grow to incredibly large sizes; this combined with the fact that they are venomous means they are not for inexperienced keepers. I strongly encourage the average person to merely visit the stingrays at their local aquarium rather than going out and purchasing one. 

So apparently Mike Pence tried to go to a Hamilton show tonight.

There are reports that they had to stop songs at some points because of all the booing and yelling from the audience. (“when your people say they hate you ” and “immigrants - we get the job done” seem to have been big moments.) Talk about walking into the lion’s den.

I have to wonder what made Pence want to see this show. Like, how much did he know about it beforehand? Just that it was popular and about a Founding Father? How much did he know about the casting and why it was done that way, the message it’s meant to send? How much did he know about the style of music? Did he have *any idea* what he was getting into?

Creating Cool Villains: Dragons

Hey,

I know that many of you in the community love to read or write, since DnD is mostly reading through the books and writing out everything for your next session.

So here is just a quick post with ideas on creating cool dragon-themed villains, since every party is guaranteed to fight a big bad dragon sooner or later.

So here are a few tips and examples of using world-ending dragons as villains in your campaign.

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‘That Quidditch Cup’ll have our name on it this year,’ said Wood happily as they trudged back up to the castle. ‘I wouldn’t be surprised if you turn out better than Charlie Weasley, and he could have played for England if he hadn’t gone off chasing dragons.’
— 

Sorcerers Stone, chapter 10

Can you imagine Charlie reading in one of his letters from home that Ginny has been practicing quidditch plays nearly every day? How, the moment she’s done with her lessons, Ginny is out the door and borrowing his brothers’ the old brooms in the shed? Not only that, but she’s good. Shockingly good for her age.

So Charlie starts writing her. Letters telling Ginny about the dragons in Romania and occasionally dropping hits in how to balance better or pull out of a risky dive. When his parents and Ginny come to visit him that Christmas he gives her his old copy of Quidditch Through The Ages for her gift. Molly scrunches her nose as Ginny reads hungrily, asking him about with the notes and doodles he’d scribbled into the margins from his time as the Gryffindor seeker and the team captain. And when they get home Ginny practices even harder, until the blisters on her hands turn to calluses

Then years later when she earns a spot on the Gryffindor team as chaser Charlie demands a play-by-play of every game. Between her, Ron, and the twins he jokes with the other wizards and witches at the dragon sanctuary that he almost has a full quidditch team.

When the war is over Charlie gets an excited letter from Harry explaining that the Holyhead Harpies are trying to recruit her. Halfway through the letter he whoops with joy and announces to anyone that will listen that Ginny will be the next Gwenog Jones. Whenever the Harpies have a game Charlie checks and double checks that a wizard wireless nearby to hear the game.

Not even the dragons are enough to shut him up when his baby sister is mentioned scoring a goal (although several disgruntled dragons try).

Charlie and Ginny talking quidditch whenever there’s a family meal and he’s in attendance, even after she retires as a professional athlete. Because Charlie’s joy and excitement in regards to Ginny’s success as a quidditch player is second only to Harry.

9

Life is hard when you have people who assume things about you. ^^; and when you’re a kinda hot single guy with a cute little brother that gets you unwanted attention. :p 

Also, if any of you don’t remember or know why baby Tsubaki doesn’t like his baby sling, it’s just cause he can’t reach his big brothers face and he gets bored in it. 

I had the “random classmate” of Wrath’s call her “Okami” because it means “Wolf” and I was thinking “man,Wrath sure is a strange name to give your child, especially in a human au……” so I was thinking maybe I should give her a name???? Maybe it can just be a school nickname, if anyone doesn’t like the idea. 

Okay, I thought of this comic when I had the “ adoption headcanon” conversation, and how it would explain how no one in the Servamp family looks alike and then I thought of these 3 scenarios. (I had to make up more random ladies for this comic, none of them will show up again cause I don’t plan on having any OCs.) 

1.) Someone mistaking little Tsubaki for Kuro’s son. 

2.) Someone thinking him and his sister were a couple. Gross. This one has happened to me once irl. 

3.) and then someone thinking Mahiru and Kuro were a couple and Tsubaki was their baby. HHAHAAHAHAHaha

anyways I’m gonna try to answer some more of unanswered asks for age au. ^^;

anonymous asked:

I've got really into hwarang and I was wondering maybe you could do something like how you meet taehyung through filming, say you worked in hair and makeup, this isn't a request per say more of a suggestion, btw I love your blog and your writing

this is a cute idea!!! and i want to get warmed up before writing something longer so here is some cute stylist x actor!au ^^

  • taehyung’s hair is the most,,,,,,important part of his costume as hansung
  • but those extensions are a BIG BIG BIG problem,,,,they get tangled in everything if you don’t treat them right and if your stylist bag gets knocked around while you’re moving around during filming
  • you take out the wig and clip ons and it’s just,,,,,a mess,,,,,,all the brushes and pins are stuck in the fake hair and you have to squat somewhere in a corner and pick them all out and then brush it back to where it look presentable 
  • and this happens way more than it should,,,like today,,,,,and you can hear the director yelling out that the break for lunch is going to be over in half an hour and you’ve just opened up your bag to set up the wig and hair when,,,,,,,,,,of course,,,,,,,,,,,,everything is a tangled monster
  • and you’re like FRICK because aside from the hair you need to help taehyung with makeup too so you need to get this all sorted quickly so you grab the nearest brush and sit down on the floor to get to work,,,,,
  • and you hear taehyungs voice calling out your name and you’re like “sorry i can’t speak right now i have an emergency,,,”
  • and taehyung sits down in front of you and points to the wig in your hands and he’s like “hansungs hair!” and you’re like “yes,,,it got tangled and i need to get whatever is stuck in it out before you get into costume and we get back to filming so please let me concentrate lahkfsljas”
  • and taehyung sits there for a moment and he’s like “should i go steal minho’s wig? our characters basically have the same hairsty-”
  • and you’re like “tAEHYUNG NO”
  • but he’s getting up and you’re like “taehyung tAEhyUng plea S E”
  • and you hear him laugh and he’s like “im joking im joking!! here let me help!”
  • and you look up and you see that he’s sitting quite close to you. his knees touching yours as he reaches out for another tangled strand of hair and delicately holds it up 
  • and you’re like “,,,,,,did you eat? you should have your lunch we’re filming for eight hours straight don’t worry about me-”
  • and taehyung just grins and he’s like “you’re asking me if i ate? i always see you here in the styling booth running around frantically after us actors i don’t think i’ve ever seen you have a proper meal”
  • and you’re like hEY i ate,,,,,,,some chocolate on the way here and taehyung is like “chocolate is not a meal” and you’re like “that depends on who you’re asking” and taehyung is like “ooo sassy are we” and you roll your eyes but smile because he’s made you feel a little better about the situation
  • and you guys are almost done untangling, when you hear the director say filming is back on and you panic but taehyung is like “ill go change first, ill buy you some more time ok??”
  • and you nod as he gets up and runs off to get changed and you’ve got the hair straightened out and you’re getting it back into the high ponytail that is hansungs look
  • when you’re done, you wipe some sweat with the back of your hand and then you feel someones hand on your shoulder and you almost juMP up but taehyung is like “it’s me,,,,did you finish??”
  • and you give him a thumbs up and taehyung suddenly just turns around and gets like on his knees and he’s like “ok!!! im ready for you to put on the wig” and you’re like kdjlgfsd you could sit in the cha- but then you look around and release you didn’t even set up the chair for him and you’re like,,,,,,,,,,,oh god
  • and you’re like “taehyung the costume, you might get it dir-”
  • and he’s just waving his hand like “it’s nothing, i just don’t want you to get in trouble i know the director can be an ass to stylists”
  • and you feel your heart flutter a bit,,,,because you’ve known taehyung is sweet - his fans are always raving about how nice and funny he is - but you never knew he was so considerate too,,,,,and so down-to-earth
  • and so you help get the wig and the extension on and taehyung stands up but you’re like “um can you just lean your head,,,you’re tall” and he’s like “ah! of course!” and you’re finishing up with getting his headband tied 
  • when someone runs by and is like “HANSUNG WE NEED YOU!” and taehyung looks at you with a wink and he’s like “that’s me!!”
  • and you’re like “do your best!!” but before taehyung runs off again with a smile, he fishes something out of his pocket that looks like candy and takes your hand to drop it in your palm 
  • and he’s like “it’s not a meal, but eat it!! you’ve worked hard~”
  • and with that he’s off and you’re standing there holding the candy but when you look down there’s a note among the wrappers and in taehyungs handwriting it says: ‘my stylist who is always by my side, thank you~ from v, taehyung, and hansung ^^’
10 Things Shawn Mendes Definitely Does: A List

got this idea from the lovely @aqua-harry :)))

1. He calls you stupid nicknames like “snuggles” and “pumpkin pie” when you’re in public just to embarrass you and see how red your cheeks get 

2. He kicks gently at your legs underneath the table at fancy restaurants while you’re saying your order to the server because he can tell that the whole uptight atmosphere really isn’t your scene

3. He lets you hold all the puppies in Petland even though he knows he’ll sneeze on the ride home because he feels bad that you’ll never be able to have a dog in the house while living with him

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I’m sorry, how have I read JK’s Sirius and James prequel so many times and never noticed this?? are you telling me that the Order had t-shirts? this is canon?? they were a secret organization created to fight the most powerful dark wizard of all time and they hAD T-SHIRTS? this?? is?? canon????
and if this was the case then there was no way that it wasn’t James and Sirius’ idea. and you better believe that Peter and Lily have some that they wear around the house. and they forced one on Remus and he refuses to wear it at meetings but he takes it on overnight missions with him to remind him of the boys. and James accidentally gets Lily one that’s about four sizes too big but she wears it anyway because “whatever, it’s maternity”.
tbh they probably gave one to Dumbledore too so just stop for a minute and imagine Albus Dumbledore wearing a rock band looking t-shirt to an Order of the Phoenix meeting and just nodding at James and Sirius and their matching shirts like “potter. black. lovely choice of wardrobe today”

Wax Warmer Magic?

So I’m moving into a dorm this fall and we can’t have any candles or incense, both of which I’m big on. We can however use wax warmers so long as they’re powered by a light bulb and not, you know, another flame. I’ve been thinking of how to incorporate this into my practice and I have a few ideas so far: 

-Carving sigils or symbols onto an unused wax block, when it’s fully melted the sigil/symbol has been charged. You could do this until the scent wears off, like inscribing new sigils/symbols each time you want to use it

-Obviously different scents/colours of wax blocks have the same correspondences as candles, but why not combine them? My mom sometimes cuts a block in half and combines scents. You could do this if you were wanting to use different candle colours in a spell. Just make sure the resulting smell won’t be icky

-Find a style of wax warmer that can double as something that has meaning on your altar. I have an owl one, I associate owls with wisdom and tranquility so it’s great to have that at school with me. 

-You could write your spell on a piece of paper, and use the melted wax to “seal” the spell like they did in the good ol’ days

-Empower it to cleanse/charge your crystals, then place your crystals around it so they cleanse/charge to whatever your intention may be

Anyone have any other ideas? I’m so drawn to the city and urban witchcraft can be tricky. I’ve been in the country for almost a year and although I’m ~close to nature~ and that’s awesome, there’s a certain energy to a large city that I love to try and harness. 

What do y’all do with your wax warmers?

PSA: I think you can get wax cubes at Walmart and other discount stores, it’s not just Scentsy that sells them (God knows they’re expensive!), so if you’re on a tight budget this can still work for you!

Dear, Future Self (An H2OVanoss 12MOF Christmas Special)

Some of you may not know that I have had very unspirited Christmases and this year has been no different. Worse actually and the only thing keeping me cheerful is my best friend who is miles and miles away.

I like to write happy things at times when I am not. So I hope whoever reads this, finds joy and I hope you have a very Merry Christmas.

———

It was their twelfth Christmas together. It was kind of funny how the number twelve revolved around their lives.

Jonathan was thirty-eight, Evan was thirty-three. Their daughter Jane was just shy of four and she was an insane work of art. Beautiful, Asian, and so full of imagination and wild stories. Stories she liked to paint on her bedroom wall. Who were they to tell her not to dream and dream big?

Jonathan adored her creativity and he often pulled her into his lap as he doodled another tattoo idea. She would watch in fascination until she came up with an idea she wanted to contribute and he’d let her. He’d smile as she drew small teddy bears discreetly into his design. She was turning into a little prodigy, but he never pushed her nor did he hold her back. He let her art grow at it’s own pace as it should.

Then there was Keegan, their three year old son who was the most lovable human being he’d ever known. He’d find him and Evan asleep on the couch after a long night of Wii gaming. Keegan would wake up first and pull a blanket over his dreaming dad and kiss him on the forehead before retreating to his own bed.

Jonathan would hear him say, “Sweet dweams, Daddy.”

It made his heart melt. Keegan loved his sister just as well. He’d purposely find her things he knew she’d like in the grass or in a shop, anywhere they went just so he could give it to her and see her face light up. For a three year old, he was such a selfless person and he loved to make the people he loved happy.

Jonathan was in love with his life and everyone in it and he knew it would always be that way no matter what.

———

Christmas that year was spent at Ally’s house in North Carolina and the day fell on a Monday of all days. It had always been Evan’s favorite day and Jonathan knew why. He woke from his sleep at five o'clock on the dot and rolled over in the warm guest bed to press his nose against the side of Evan’s face and whisper, “Good morning, bitch.”

He felt Evan smile in the dark and reach his hand up to cup his jaw and kiss him like he always did. It always got a little deeper, a bit wet, but like every other Christmas for the past few years there was the sound of little feet outside the door.

Evan chuckled, “You’d think they’d sleep a little later than five, but they just keep on surprising us.”

Jonathan kissed him one more time before the door cracked open and in ran the kids, giggling madly as they pounced on the bed.

“Wake up! It’s Christmas!”

Jonathan laughed and caught Keegan as he jumped on the mattress, “Okay, little bear! We’re coming. Go get Remi and we’ll see you in a minute, okay?”

“Okay!” Their green-eyed boy wiggled out of his arms and took off to find his cousin.

“And you, sunshine, go see of Aunt Ally and Uncle Devon are up yet.” Evan kissed Jane on her temple and fell back on the bed when she ran off.

Jonathan smiled and ran his fingers up his neck, “Come on, beautiful. Another Christmas down, decades more to go.”

———

The morning was full of laughter, the smell of Jonathan cooking breakfast, and the joyful tunes of the Bing Crosby Christmas album which was their mother’s favorite and a holiday tradition.

It was a white Christmas and the rest of the day was spent outside riding inner-tubes down the neighborhood hills with locals and Luke and his family of misfits, crashing into each other, making memories. It was beautiful and neither Evan or Jonathan could ask for anything more.

———

The new year was closing in and they were hanging around the house that evening, watching t.v., listening to the fire crackle when Ally followed Jonathan into the kitchen and gave him the warmest of hugs.

“This has been such a good year. I know I say that about every year but they always get better.” She grinned up at him and he laughed.

“It’s true though. You found your other half, Remi is growing up so smart and beautiful.” Jonathan hugged her tighter. “Life is finally good for us.”

“It is.” She smiled against his chest and ran off laughing when she stole a piece of his chocolate. “Oh, by the way, I found a few boxes of your old stuff in the attic. It’s still up there if you want to go through it.”

“I will, later.” He poured himself a drink and settled in the living room next to his husband and soon the kids were piled up in their lap, drinking their sparkling grape juice. They were asleep by the time the ball dropped on the television, so he leaned and Evan met him halfway for their first kiss of the new year. They pulled away with content smiles.

“Happy New Year, Owl-man.”

“Happy New Year, Raccoon.” Evan leaned in again and met his lips once more. After all the years he’d spent doing this, he still couldn’t get enough. “I love you.”

———

They put the children to bed and Evan got comfortable in the guest bed, but Jonathan held up his finger, “I’ll be back in a few minutes. Ally wanted me to go through a box of stuff.”

Evan stuck his lip out in a cute pout and sighed dramatically. It got Jonathan every time because it was so fucking adorable.

“But baby…”

“Stop.” Jonathan pointed at him with a grin.

“Was it working?”

“Yes, you know it was.” He laughed. “Give me like, five whole minutes and I’ll be back. I swear. Don’t fall asleep without me.”

“Hurry up then, go.” Evan shooed him away and Jonathan pulled the ladder down to the attic and made the small trip up. There were dusty boxes littered all over but there were about three with his name on it written in his mother’s handwriting. His heart swelled a bit as he sat cross-legged and went through old trinkets and toys that he’d long forgotten. There were stuffed animals, kindergarten paper projects, dried noodle Christmas wreaths, things he never knew his mother had kept. But then something caught his eye in the corner of the attic, tucked tightly into a seam in the wall. He walked over on the cold wood and pried an old white envelope from it’s hiding place and he vaguely recalled the memory of himself putting it there.

When he opened the letter his childhood came crashing down onto him and the weight of his world sat heavy on his chest. He took a deep breath and read:

Dear, Future Self

Are things going to get better? Will everything be okay?

I know I’m only nine and a half and I’m supposed to be a big boy and not cry. But I cry a lot when I’m alone. I can’t cry in front of Dad because he’s mean and calls me a sissy if I do. Mom is sad a lot and I want her to feel better. The only friend I have is Ally. We sneak away sometimes to the woods and pretend we’re in a make believe land, fighting cool monsters and defending our land. 

But then we have to go home and listen to them fighting and yelling. Sometimes I sleep with Ally because I’m scared to be in my room alone. Dad takes my teddy bears and throws them away. Mom always gets me another one.

I just wish our family was happy and not sad all the time. I wish I had friends.

Do you have friends? Are you happy? Are Mom and Dad happy? Can you fall asleep without being sad? Do you still have a teddy?

Sincerely,

Jonathan (nine and a half)

A tear fell on the paper and Jonathan sniffled before he broke down and cried right there on the attic floor like he had the night he wrote that letter to himself. But the more he cried, the better he felt and he found himself smiling through his tears, searching his boxes for a pencil. He settled in the same spot as he did almost twenty years ago and wrote a response to his nine and half year old self. Jonathan dried his eyes and began:

Dear, Past Self

Things won’t be okay for a long time, Jonathan. I won’t lie. You’ll have to endure many long nights of fighting and screaming and crying so hard that you throw up. You’re going to be scared and you still won’t be able to keep a teddy bear. Dad will leave you guys when you’re twelve years old and he won’t be back for a while. Your older sister will lose her mind. She’ll lose you, too. Then she’ll leave and you won’t have anyone but Mom. But Mom slowly loses herself over the years. You’ll take good care of her. She’ll love you and encourage you to be yourself, do what you love. She’ll always be there for you, even when she’s gone.

Things will look up for you. You’ll move out on your own, get inked, and your friend Luke will keep you company. You’ll play video games, keep yourself in good spirits and you’ll meet an old friend that will turn into more than just a friend. You’ll fall in love and you’ll have your heart torn apart by the very same person. You’ll feel alone again, push everyone away, blame yourself. You’ll cut.

But don’t worry. You get better. Luke talks sense into you and and you pull yourself together. You go back to video games, what makes you happy or as happy as you can be and in the middle of all this you send the most important message you’ll ever write in your entire life.

You send a message to a guy named Evan asking if he wants to play a game with you sometime. This is the turning point in your life, Jonathan, and you won’t learn this until years later.

You and Evan become great, long-distance friends. He’s Canadian and a complete dork and you know he’s going to be there for you no matter what. He never lets you down. He becomes your best friend over time and just as things are looking up for you, Mom gets sick again and this time she can’t come back from it.

Mom dies. But you’re okay. You know she’s happier and in a better place. But Dad comes back to take the house. Big fucking surprise, right? 

I’m sorry, I shouldn’t cuss. You’re only nine.

Dad comes back, beats you black and blue and you say goodbye to your best friend because you really don’t know if you’ll ever get to hear him again. But you do. Evan flies his Canadian ass all the way down here just to take you away from all the pain.

That’s when things start to get wild. You move up to Canada with Evan, who’s completely amazing and devilishly handsome and the best thing that will ever happen to you. He takes care of you, makes you laugh, keeps your secrets, makes you fall so god damn in love with him.

I mean, like head over heels straight into the wall, in love with him. You will never feel like that about anyone until you’re with him. You won’t feel anything as good as him telling you to stay in the bed with him every day and not just Mondays, just because he knows you sleep better when you’re with him.

You won’t feel your heart flip like it does when he smiles at you, or when you catch him staring at you like he’s lost in thought.

When he grabs your fingers.

When he wipes your tears away.

When he tells you he wouldn’t want you any other way after you tell him wish your past would just disappear, you wish you could forget.

Evan Fong is going to save your life, Jonathan. You just have to wait for him to walk into it.

It gets better, I promise you, kid.

Sure there are times when you struggle with yourself even when you’re with Evan. Eventually, Dad gets what he deserves. Your old love tries to ruin your happiness. There are times when things get dark. But Evan fixes you, holds you together.

He saves you.

He loves you and he tells you that every day. It’s been eleven years since he first did and he still makes you feel like you are his universe, his sun, moon, and stars.

You’ll have two kids that are so pure and full of hope and promise and everything you could ever ask for. Your sister gets better, sorts her life out, finds peace.

I’m visiting home now, our old home, sitting in the same attic as you, crying just as you are now. But I’m crying because Evan was right. I had to go through all of this to get to where I am. I am what I am because of my past, because of what happened and now that I’m here, I wouldn’t take any of it back.

So don’t be afraid, Jonathan. It gets better. One day you’ll be the happiest man in the world and yes, I have a teddy bear. One that’s permanent and will always hold me at night, every night. I call him my husband and my best friend.

Evan is and always will be my teddy bear. One that brings me peace. One that will always be my own personal space heater and dream catcher. I’ll never spend another day without him.

Give it time, Jonathan. You’ll see.

With Love,

Jonathan (thirty-eight and three quarters, but who’s really counting ;P)

Jonathan folded the letter back up neatly and tucked it away into the same crack in the wood that it had lived in for twenty years. He took his boxes down the stairs and put them with their luggage to be flown back home to California in a few days. The Christmas tree was still shining bright in the living room, the fireworks were still popping in the distance, and the other halves of his heart were all fast asleep. Jane and Keegan were in a pile of blankets, snuggled up with their cousin Remi who always shared her bed with them. Ally and her husband were out like rocks.

But Evan had kept his silent promise and didn’t fall asleep without him.

“Are you okay?” Evan asked softly as he pulled him close beneath the sheets.

Jonathan ran his fingers over the smooth skin that ran for miles down Evan’s body. He ran his fingers over his lips and kept finding himself over and over again in his honey brown eyes. Jonathan sighed, content, and kissed him one more time for good measure.

“I’m perfect.”

“Damn right you are.” Evan caught one of his fingers between his teeth.

Jonathan bit back a laugh, “Seriously?”

“What?” Evan asked innocently as he let his hand find it’s way beneath Jonathan’s briefs. Jonathan couldn’t hold back the giggle as Evan kissed his way across his throat.

“Oh nothing. I just thought maybe you could make it until at least an hour into the New Year before you had sex with me.”

“Are you complaining?” Evan asked, a grin on his lips as he disappeared under the blanket.

Jonathan let the warmth flood him and he smiled into the dark. “Never in a million years.”

anonymous asked:

Hello~! Do you think I could request the rfa with a hopeless romantic MC. She constantly watches old romance movies like Dirty Dancing and The Princess Bride, reads romance novels and has a full bookshelf of them, has hours of cute love-y music on her ipod, that sort of thing? Love your writing by the way! I've been scrolling through your blog all day!! :)

A/N: This was so hard for me because I’m actually a REALLY big tsundere and i just yeah lmao im so sorry ^^;; ~Admin 404

*YOOSUNG:

           -He’s sensitive and all

           -And he’s so hung up on finding love!!! He wants to love and be loved!!! Only wants one person in his life!

           -And it’s you!

           -You have the same idea, so the two of you work very well together

           -So much love between the two of you oh my god

           -ONE OF YOU IS ALWAYS HANGING ONTO THE OTHER

           -Seriously, there’s so many small, cute kisses between the two of you that even Zen pretended to barf

           -The two of you THRIVE off of romance movies!!! Those and Disney movies are about the only things you two watch

           -That being said, he’s a-okay with you being a hopeless romantic, he is too!!!

           -He just didn’t know it until you came along <3

*ZEN:

           -He’s such a hopeless romantic omfg

           -He will burst into rooms with grand gestures

           -Constantly singing love songs to you

           -10/10 you always sing along

           -Always spins you around, pulling you into a dance

           -Completely ecstatic that you’re the same way!! Y e s MC, burst out into love songs from movies and plays, he’s gonna jump right on in

           -He always brings you flowers! And you just live for it you don’t even have to mention it to him hype hype hype

           -Both of you are so emotional during movies but there’s never any judgment

           -He’s even worse than you though??? Like, cliché kisses in the rain happen every time it rains

           -Since he’s 10x more hopelessly romantic than you, he’s completely okay with it, you do you MC

*JAEHEE:

           -Secretly loves those old romantic movies

           -Lowkey judges you for crying at happy movies but you turn it right back around on her when she cries at beautiful love scenes played by Zen

           -The two of you listen to the music on your phone constantly

           -“MC, these are all love songs” “Yes, I’m aware”

           - secretly downloads them all onto her own phone later

           -You’re always dancing around the room with such grace, bringing her along

           -You somehow always seem to sweep her off her feet and she loVES IT

           -She gets so flustered!!!!!

           -Oh my goodness, she has no idea how to handle the flowers you shower her in??

           -MC our house is overrun with flowers where is the remote? The DVD’s? MC where is tHAT DOCUMENT IT’S HIDDEN UNDER FLOWERS I NEED THAT

*JUMIN:

           -He noticed fairly quickly what your taste in novels were

           -You had a shelf full of these romance novels, so he attempted to read one

           - is this truly what MC wants???

           -You come home to a whole floor-to-ceiling bookshelf full of romance novels for you to read

           -He started to come home with flowers every now and then, and you were so!!! Happy!!!

           -The smile on your face was to die for, so he vowed from then on to do whatever it takes to get that smile

           -You love to talk about the future with him, plan your ideal dates, things of that sort

           -YOU ACTUALLY SUCCEED IN GETTING HIM FLUSTERED WHEN YOU TALK ABOUT ALL THE LOVELY THINGS IN THE FUTURE CONGRATS MC

           -Your ideal dates are now reality, he’ll make sure of it

           -Therefore, he absolutely loves that this is part of your personality, because you’re so cute! So innocent! And he is going to do everything he can to enhance it!!

*SAEYOUNG:

           -Both of you cry to 10 Things I Hate About You

           -He put it on for the first time, hoping he could console you at the end

           -Both of you were complete sobbing messes

           -He doesn’t surprise you with actual flowers

           -Makes bouquets of HBC wrapper flowers thanks saeyoung

           -You tell him how much you love him multiple times a day and it gets to him every single time

           -Seriously, he cries sometimes because??? How did he ever get you??

           -The two of you like to talk and theorize about your OTP’s

           -That’s your dinner talk, not “how was your day” it’s usually “sO LISTEN, WHAT IF-”

           -Every now and then, the two of you dance around the house, blasting love songs he puts on a dress and heels and everything

*V:

           -HE’S THE CUTE, QUIET GUY YOU FIND IN THE ROMANCE NOVELS

           -THE ONE WHO ENDS UP SWEEPING YOU OFF YOUR FEET IN A SEA OF LOVE AND PASSION

           -Do I even need to talk about all the adorable candid pictures he takes of you? No? Too bad I just did

           -If you’re ever sad, he hangs up pictures of the two of you EVERYWHERE what a DORK NEED ME A FREAK LIKE THAT

           -You make him playlists full of love songs all the time

           -You even write down why you picked each song!!!

           -God damn he loves it??? He needs someone soft and loving like you

           - somEONE JUST SAVE V, PLEASE, I WANT TO DO VIOLENT THINGS TO RIKA

           -He feels so blessed?? Like, you want to act out your own personal love story with him???

           -Sign him right the fuck up,  he’s so happy and toTALLY DESERVES THIS

*SAERAN:

           -If he’s honest, it makes him uncomfortable sometimes

           -You watch all these romantic movies and cry and just

           -HE DOESN’T KNOW WHAT TO DO????

           -He does like watching you dance around and sing to those sappy love songs of yours though

           -He doesn’t pay much attention to the lyrics, he just pays all his attention to you

           -When you aren’t paying attention, he reads a lot of your romance novels just to see what they’re about

           -He actually gets pretty insecure because?? He isn’t like the guys you read about, he isn’t smooth with his words and he doesn’t know how to be so…. spirited

           -So when you take the role of being the passionate one, he’s actually pretty relieved! Maybe he can learn from you before attempting it on his own

           - still refuses to dance with you though, it isn’t happening

           -He does surprise you with flowers every now and then though, sometimes he even plays a love song to describe the feelings he has for you

Handcuffed // l.h

Originally posted by lipringsandsnapbacks

Requested: no

A/N: So before you start I would like to point out that I have no idea where this idea came from or like… how it turned out tbh. Anyways, this is not smut, sorry to everyone thinking it was some kinky ass sex, it’s not, it’s literally so funny and weird… just read it, you’ll understand then ;))

Pairing: Stranger!Luke x Y/N

“Karen, sweetie. What exactly are you trying to do?” you stopped and almost dragged your best friend away from the house. The bushes and trees covered the white newly-painted walls on the house and the driveway seemed too big, too scary, too rich. Karen didn’t know rich people living in rich houses so you knew already then something was off - however, she did know a lot of people that you didn’t know about, so maybe she actually was friends with some rich people.

“You’ll see.” Karen pulled you towards the entrance and rang the doorbell two to three times very aggressively, making you pull her sleeve because you could hear the annoying bell from inside the house. Whoever lived in this beautiful house would only smack the door open with a grumpy face, after Karen’s endless ringing. But it wasn’t a grumpy face that opened the door for you. Quite the opposite. A guy with a charming smile, bleached hair and glistering eyes stood in front of you. Tattoos were sprawled across his body as he welcomed you inside with a small gesture of his hand.

“M’lady.” He said and did a little bow as Karen walked inside with a cocked eyebrow, just as surprised as you were by the behaviour.

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Tired of hiding

This one is for the lovely anon who sent me the prompt. I really really hope it lives up to your idea and how you imagined it. *crosses fingers* *worries*

(Note to everyone else reading this - the idea and most of the storyline isn’t mine)

Summary: Baz starts going to an LGBT+ club at Watford, Simon finds out and it changes the way he sees Baz

Warning: homophobia (well… kind of. It may all just be a big misunderstanding)

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Show and Tell

Ok, so @alexispoo and I were having a convo and she came up with this amazingly hot idea for a fic. I am merely the writer. All credit for the idea goes to her.

Prompt: You and your man Colin Cassady are starting to get hot and heavy in the bedroom, when Enzo walks in. Big Cass tells him he can watch, but he can’t touch his princess. Some Daddy Kink.

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Twin Felix Au

A slight continuation of this post.

  • After Felix has come to terms with his crush, he just carries on.
  • He’s not going to make a big deal about it.
    • Sure, it’s would be nice if he could date Marinette but she’s head over heels for his brother.
      • Which stings a little but it’s nothing to get worked up about
    • Thinking hard about it, Felix also decides that this is just a crush, not the be all, end all of his relationship with Marinette
    • She’s still his friend first.
    • So he’s not going to angst about not being able to date Marinette.
    • (If anyone has a problem with this, this is how I deal with crushes on friends. There’s no real angsting about it.)
  • THEN ADRIEN FINDS OUT.
    • He thinks it’s great!
    • (He’s a little jealous though)
    • Felix is not getting paid enough to deal with this
  • Adrien wants to set Felix and Marinette up on a date.
  • Felix is going to need so much coffee for this conversation.
  • It essentially goes like this for about three days
    • “No.”
    • “Yes!”
    • “No.”
    • “Aw, Come on Felix!”
    • “No.”
  • Eventually, Felix manages to get a word in and tells Adrien Marinette is head-over-heels for someone else.
    • He makes very pointed remarks about who it is
    • He won’t straight out say it’s Adrien
    • He still Marinette’s friend first
  • Adrien still doesn’t get it
  • WHICH SOMEHOW RESULTS IN ADRIEN BELIEVING MARINETTE HAS A CRUSH ON CHAT NOIR
    • Don’t ask Felix how Adrien got to that point. He’s not sure either.
  • Felix just leaves after this revelation
  • Felix runs into Marinette soon after.
  • He explains he has a crush on her
    • She’s a little shocked
    • He’s pretty chill about it
    • “I just tolerate you more than I tolerate most people. Don’t get too worked up about it. You are still my… friend.”
    • They talk about it at length and it’s pretty open.
  • Felix then tells Marinette that Adrien found out about his crush and that’s the only reason he is telling Marinette
    • Aside from the fact she and Adrien are the only ones who he feels comfortable with talking about ‘feelings’
  • He tells Marinette that Adrien somehow got it into his head that she likes Chat Noir.
    • Poor Marinette’s head pretty much explodes

So Felix having a crush on Marinette, them still being good friends cause nothing can stop this friendship, Adrien being the dense Ray of Sunshine we love and poor Marinette’s head exploding.