just remembered and having an attack of feelings

A nurse has heart attack and describes what she felt like when having one

I am an ER nurse and this is the best description of this event that I have ever heard. 


 I was aware that female heart attacks are different, but this is description is so incredibly visceral that I feel like I have an entire new understanding of what it feels like to be living the symptoms on the inside. Women rarely have the same dramatic symptoms that men have… you know, the sudden stabbing pain in the chest, the cold sweat, grabbing the chest & dropping to the floor the we see in movies. Here is the story of one woman’s experience with a heart attack: 

 "I had a heart attack at about 10:30 PM with NO prior exertion, NO prior emotional trauma that one would suspect might have brought it on. I was sitting all snugly & warm on a cold evening, with my purring cat in my lap, reading an interesting story my friend had sent me, and actually thinking, ‘A-A-h, this is the life, all cozy and warm in my soft, cushy Lazy Boy with my feet propped up. A moment later, I felt that awful sensation of indigestion, when you’ve been in a hurry and grabbed a bite of sandwich and washed it down with a dash of water, and that hurried bite seems to feel like you’ve swallowed a golf ball going down the esophagus in slow motion and it is most uncomfortable. You realize you shouldn’t have gulped it down so fast and needed to chew it more thoroughly and this time drink a glass of water to hasten its progress down to the stomach. This was my initial sensation–the only trouble was that I hadn’t taken a bite of anything since about 5:00 p.m. 

After it seemed to subside, the next sensation was like little squeezing motions that seemed to be racing up my SPINE (hind-sight, it was probably my aorta spasms), gaining speed as they continued racing up and under my sternum (breast bone, where one presses rhythmically when administering CPR). This fascinating process continued on into my throat and branched out into both jaws. 'AHA!! NOW I stopped puzzling about what was happening – we all have read and/or heard about pain in the jaws being one of the signals of an MI happening, haven’t we? I said aloud to myself and the cat, Dear God, I think I’m having a heart attack! I lowered the foot rest dumping the cat from my lap, started to take a step and fell on the floor instead. I thought to myself, If this is a heart attack, I shouldn’t be walking into the next room where the phone is or anywhere else… but, on the other hand, if I don’t, nobody will know that I need help, and if I wait any longer I may not be able to get up in a moment. 

I pulled myself up with the arms of the chair, walked slowly into the next room and dialed the Paramedics… I told her I thought I was having a heart attack due to the pressure building under the sternum and radiating into my jaws. I didn’t feel hysterical or afraid, just stating the facts. She said she was sending the Paramedics over immediately, asked if the front door was near to me, and if so, to un-bolt the door and then lie down on the floor where they could see me when they came in. I unlocked the door and then laid down on the floor as instructed and lost consciousness, as I don’t remember the medics coming in, their examination, lifting me onto a gurney or getting me into their ambulance, or hearing the call they made to St. Jude ER on the way, but I did briefly awaken when we arrived and saw that the radiologist was already there in his surgical blues and cap, helping the medics pull my stretcher out of the ambulance. He was bending over me asking questions (probably something like 'Have you taken any medications?’) but I couldn’t make my mind interpret what he was saying, or form an answer, and nodded off again, not waking up until the Cardiologist and partner had already threaded the teeny angiogram balloon up my femoral artery into the aorta and into my heart where they installed 2 side by side stints to hold open my right coronary artery. 

I know it sounds like all my thinking and actions at home must have taken at least 20-30 minutes before calling the paramedics, but actually it took perhaps 4-5 minutes before the call, and both the fire station and St Jude are only minutes away from my home, and my Cardiologist was already to go to the OR in his scrubs and get going on restarting my heart (which had stopped somewhere between my arrival and the procedure) and installing the stents. Why have I written all of this to you with so much detail? Because I want all of you who are so important in my life to know what I learned first hand. 

1. Be aware that something very different is happening in your body, not the usual men’s symptoms but inexplicable things happening (until my sternum and jaws got into the act). It is said that many more women than men die of their first (and last) MI because they didn’t know they were having one and commonly mistake it as indigestion, take some Maalox or other anti-heartburn preparation and go to bed, hoping they’ll feel better in the morning when they wake up… which doesn’t happen. My female friends, your symptoms might not be exactly like mine, so I advise you to call the Paramedics if ANYTHING is unpleasantly happening that you’ve not felt before. It is better to have a 'false alarm’ visitation than to risk your life guessing what it might be!
2. Note that I said 'Call the Paramedics.’ And if you can take an aspirin. Ladies, TIME IS OF THE ESSENCE! Do NOT try to drive yourself to the ER - you are a hazard to others on the road. Do NOT have your panicked husband who will be speeding and looking anxiously at what’s happening with you instead of the road. Do NOT call your doctor – he doesn’t know where you live and if it’s at night you won’t reach him anyway, and if it’s daytime, his assistants (or answering service) will tell you to call the Paramedics. He doesn’t carry the equipment in his car that you need to be saved! The Paramedics do, principally OXYGEN that you need ASAP. Your Dr. will be notified later.
3. Don’t assume it couldn’t be a heart attack because you have a normal cholesterol count. Research has discovered that a cholesterol elevated reading is rarely the cause of an MI (unless it’s unbelievably high and/or accompanied by high blood pressure). MIs are usually caused by long-term stress and inflammation in the body, which dumps all sorts of deadly hormones into your system to sludge things up in there. Pain in the jaw can wake you from a sound sleep. Let’s be careful and be aware. The more we know the better chance we could survive to tell the tale.“

Reblog, repost, Facebook, tweet, pin, email, morse code, fucking carrier pigeon this to save a life!

I wish I knew who the author was. I’m definitely not the OP, actually think it might be an old chain email or even letter from back in the day. The version I saw floating around Facebook ended with "my cardiologist says mail this to 10 friends, maybe you’ll save one!” And knew this was way too interesting not to pass on.

Beware the false flags

Just a warning to everybody, please be aware of white supremacists bloggers posing as minorities saying wildly inflammatory, offensive things in an effort to bait other groups and sow discord within the left.

I just caught out a blogger pretending to be Black saying Jews were leaches on society and that Hitler had been in the right. They started off with a vaguely SJ-sounding post but then their language descended into alt-right speak real fucking quick, and I knew there was no goddamn way they were who they claimed. One look at their archive proved they were a white supremacists who had actually posted years worth of violent anti-Black commentary.

I know it’s easy to get worked up and taken in on here when we feel attacked—we’ve all fallen victim to trolls—but if somebody claims to be a Black person but uses Nazi language about Jews, or a Jewish person but uses German eugenics-based anti-immigrant language, or Arab but uses old Confederate language about Black people, and so on, please be very wary, check, and block.

They have been doing this on Twitter for a while, creating almost laughably bad accounts of what racists think Jews, Black folks, Latinxs, etc. sound like, and obviously Tumblr is the next frontier.

Just beware, trust your instincts, and remember: IF IT SOUNDS LIKE A NAZI, IT’S PROBABLY A NAZI.

Dear Eva, do you remember that time Vilde thought it would have been a good idea to call you a slut for “stealing” Jonas from Ingrid? SANA WAS ONE OF THE FIRST TO STAND UP FOR YOU WITHOUT JUDGING WHAT YOU DID! And do you remember when Iben punched you in the face because you kissed her boyfriend? SANA WAS THE FIRST ONE TO DEFEND YOU AND ATTACK BACK REGARDLESS THE FACT YOU WERE ACTUALLY WRONG IN THAT DRAMA!

Dear Noora, do you remember when you felt like shit for liking William and you thought he was a mean person but then Sana made you feel better and opened up your eyes and encouraged you to talk to Vilde because she would have understand and talk to William about his actions? DO YOU REMEMBER HOW THE ADVICE SHE GAVE YOU WITHOUT JUDGING YOU ACTUALLY HELPED YOU? And do you remeber when everyone was just curious to know the latest news about you and William instead Sana was the only one who cared about your feelings and was like “you know what? If he makes you suffer fuck William, I’m here for you and we’re going out to have fun” …did you forget about it?

Dear Vilde, do you remember when you had a massive crush for a guy who treated you like shit and Sana was the only one talking some sense to you and keeping your feet on the ground because she didn’t want you to get hurt? And do you remember when Sara and her friends called you a slut for making out with you crush and in the middle of a party Sana threw water at them to defend you? Or what about that time you drank so much you blacked out and Sana carried you all the way to Eva’s home, let you threw up all over her and then let you fall asleep in her arms? Have you forgotten how since day 1 she took care of you like nobody else did without judging you not a single time?



anonymous asked:

You really give real trans people a bad name. Like you went 0-100 full blown lesbian to demanding masculine pronouns in less than a year and you wonder why people think gender identity is a fad of the times? Get it together girl.

people don’t always come out of the womb knowing exactly who they are. especially in a society catered to cisgender heterosexuality.
It takes time.

I’ve also demanded nothing. I’ve answered questions to the best of my ability and shared my life w strangers online for the prospect of someone’s benefit. While I do enjoy making people laugh, I’m naturally reserved when it comes to personal matters and I don’t actually enjoy sharing details about my private life most of the time. Which is why this all may seem out of the blue for you but it’s been a process that I’ve been carefully going through for more than a few months. But when I realized that watching me find myself this publicly could potentially help a lot of people through just plain and simple representation, I chose to include my followers on this road to self discovery. I would have given anything when I younger to be able to see someone I looked up to go through finding themselves. Had I had that, I might have figured out myself earlier. That’s why this is even public to begin with.

Now, I’m curious as to why you feel so upset by my truth. I’d encourage you to look within and re-evaluate why someone else’s identity might make you feel so personally attacked. Remember that we are not bound by our labels they are merely there for community and self awareness. I want you to remind yourself that, so you can live freely in whatever label you choose to hang on to. We all deserve to find peace.

1. Sometimes, the only way to survive the day is to breathe and that’s okay. Breathing is enough. You’ll get through this. Just don’t give up.

2. Don’t feel bad about yourself when you haven’t accomplished what needs to be done. You still have tomorrow. Everything is going to be fine. And don’t let your emotions and panic attacks take control over your whole being.

3. Do not breakdown when you are under pressure. Calm yourself. Inhale. Exhale. Repeat. Keep in mind the reason why you started what you’re doing in the first place and always be open to failures. Take failures as a lesson to make bigger progress on your next step.

4. If you feel like giving up, just remember the endgame on why you’re doing such thing. Always remember the prize that awaits after all the hardship that you’re going through. It’s going to be worth it. Believe in yourself and in what you can.

5. Rest when needed. Do not exhaust yourself. One step at a time. Rediscover your passion when needed. Concentrate. Focus on what you want to achieve. You will get to your destination, I promise

—  5 things i’ve learned after having anxiety attack for days | vegaaskies. 

The results are in! With 478 respondents who were given the ability to vote for up to 5 characters per person (1,644 votes total), you guys have decided who are the most liked characters from Attack on Titan within the Tumblr community! 

Of course, it is important to remember that this is only a sample size of the fandom, that all of these characters are loved, and that this was in no way intended to be contest. We were just curious! While certain results were expected, some of these actually surprised us a bit, and in a very good way! We’ll be curious to see people’s feelings again after Season 3 airs and how perceptions and feelings have shifted. 

Tumblr’s Top 10 AOT characters are:

1. Levi
2. Armin Arlert
3. Hanji Zoe
4. Eren Jaeger
5. Erwin Smith
6. Mikasa Ackerman
7. Jean Kirstein
8. Ymir
9. Annie Leonhart
10. Reiner Braun

For the rest of the results, please click here

Thank you to everyone who participated! We look forward to doing more polls moving forward! 

That Student Of Mandarin Language Feel 

  • you understand all those words separately but not in that sentence
  • people asking you to “just say something in chinese, anything is fine!” 
  • people asking you what’s their name in mandarin and you have to explain that you have no idea and then they get angry
  • having to remember all 7642 meanings of 点
  • you can read whole texts but get panic attacks when someone asks you to write 
  • accidentally offending someone cuz u mispronounced the tone 
  • accidentally saying 不有 instead of 没有 and your teacher looking at you like you just cursed their entire family three 
  • having to explain that cantonese is a different language and that you do not, in fact, speak it
  • seeing a character with double/triple pronunciation and feeling like stabbing yourself 
  • people asking you to translate other people’s badly done hanzi tattoos 

“Of course, every soldier is prepared to die. But these people aren’t just pawns on a chessboard. They all have names, families and feelings in their hearts too. They are all humans who live and bleed. You have the responsibility to ensure their death will not be in vain. No matter what may come, remember this in your naive heart, and be ready to die to fulfill that duty.”

- Shingeki no Kyojin

happy birthday, our blue boy

lance thinks no one remembers about his birthday. he doesn’t mention it because they have more important things like saving the universe. so lance sits quietly in his room, repeating the names of his parents, siblings, nephews. he tries to remember their faces and panics a little when he needs more than usually to remember his little niece’s laugh and the way her eyes would light up whenever she talked about something she loved. 

he used to have a picture of all of them from his mother’s birthday but he lost it on one of the missions, so now all he had was his imagination and he was scared that they look different in his mind than they really do. 

when the clock hits midnight, lance mutters a quiet “happy birthday to me”, but then the alarm roars through the castle. lance runs out of his room but he can’t find anyone else. suddenly he hears hunk’s scream, he was shouting lance’s name from one of the hangars. blue’s hangar.

it doesn’t take lance long to get there because despite what everyone else thinks, he’s quick to react when he knows that something is wrong. but when he enters the hangar, his lion is where it always was. it’s dark and suddenly very quiet. 

“what is it, girl? where’s hunk?” lance asks, putting one hand on blue, but there’s no answer. lately he got a lot better at communicating with her, so it’s weird that she doesn’t want to talk to him, especially on his birthday. it’s not like she knew, lance was sure even hunk was too busy to actually remember.

after few seconds, blue opens her mouth. a clear message for lance, get in here. so he does, still not sure what to make of all this. the inside of his lion doesn’t light up the way it usually does when lance walks inside but lance is sure he can hear something…

“surprise!” the loud scream is in a perfect sync with the lights that suddenly burst around lance. the boy is so shocked he almost falls on his ass when he sees his friends in front of him.

hunk, pidge, allura, shiro, coran. even keith, despite their loud argument that happened after yesterday’s mission. lance looks from one face to another, feeling the tears forming in his eyes. they remembered.

“you guys even have a cake!” lance squeals with excitement, blinking rapidly to make sure it’s not a dream. but no, there it is, in allura’s hands. a cake that looks almost like the ones he got for his previous birthdays.

“we didn’t really know much about the traditions on earth but the other paladins helped us a lot,” coran explains cheerfully. 

and lance lets the tears fall because they didn’t have to do anything. they were fighting zarkon and the galra could attack at any moment, but his friends remembered and did all this… for him. he wants to tell them he doesn’t deserve this, that he wouldn’t be upset if they didn’t remember. but he can’t utter a single word, he just stares at them and feels like the love and happiness will flood out of him any minute now.

hunk steps out first, holding something bright in his hands. “we know how much you miss the earth. we all do, but i’m pretty sure you want to go back the most,” he starts, looking at his best friend. “coran told me you miss the sunlight the most, so… it’s not really the same but me and pidge made this for you from the quintessence. it’s not as hot as the sun, but it’s always warm and the light looks very similar,” hunk explains. 

then he puts his gift in lance’s hands and lance shivers. it’s a small ball made of glass with quintessence inside. it’s bright, yellow and so warm. yes, it’s not like the sun, but it’s still more than lance could have asked for. he couldn’t remember when was the last time he actually saw the sunlight, but what he held in his hands right now was probably the closest he’ll get to it in a long time.

“thank you guys,” he sniffles, half-hugging hunk and ruffling pidge’s hair. he can’t stop looking at the yellow light shining through his fingers, he’s afraid that if he’ll turn his gaze away, it will burn out and lance will be in the darkness again.

but then keith comes closer, awkwardly clearing his throat and scratching his neck with his free hand. in another one he holds something small. at first keith’s not saying anything, he just pushes something into lance’s chest so the taller boy has to give hunk his small sun to take what keith gave him. he looks down and breath catches in his throat. 

it’s a picture of lance’s family, the one lance thought he had lost forever. it was put in a blue frame with little stars on it. the picture was worn out because lance always kept it folded in a pocket of his jeans or tucked under his uniform, but it was right there and lance couldn’t believe his eyes.

“how did you-”

“i found it,” keith cuts him off in a rush and when lance looks up he can see a blush on his cheeks. keith doesn’t quite meet his eyes. “one time when you got off your lion, you dropped this and i found it. i wanted to give it back but we were all tired after the mission, so i just left it in my room and kind of… forgot about it? yeah, and then we were in this space mall and i saw this frame, so i thought that if you put your picture in it, you wouldn’t lose it again, and then hunk mentioned your birthday and…” keith rambles, unable to stop. lance hears shiro’s chuckle from behind but all he can see is keith.

keith who usually fights with lance, keith who acts like he doesn’t care about anything, keith who actually notices more than anyone. keith who, in some ways, brought lance’s family back to him when lance thought they’re so far away. lance pulls keith into a hug, squeezing him so hard he’s sure a little more pressure would break keith’s ribs. it’s awkward at first because keith isn’t used to being hugged. but it’s not that keith doesn’t like hugs, lance knows that for a fact, he’s just touch-starved, so after a moment he returns the hug, relaxing a little.

“thank you so much,” lance chokes out, trying to get a hold of his own emotions because damn it, he’s not a crybaby.

keith pats his back. “don’t sniffle on my jacket.”

lance laughs and pushes keith away, and then shiro tells him to make a wish and blow the candles, so lance does. he closes his eyes and thinks “go back home with all of my friends after defeating zarkon”, then he blows all of the candles.

“happy birthday, our sharpshooter,” shiro says, hugging lance.

and when lance looks at their faces again, sees their smiles, hears their laugh, he thinks that it is. it is a happy day. he turns to thank them again, and that’s when he hears blue’s voice in his head, soft and caring. she says,

“happy birthday, our blue boy.”

lance thinks it sounds almost like his mamá. it’s almost like he’s… home.

I can’t be the only one that wants to see this pic turned into an OVA

Just look at them all. Ishi is getting all emotional because his team came in fourth. Fukawa’s wearing the biggest smile ever since she probably won first for her team or something. Owada patting Fujisaki on the head after he got third in a “ya did great, kid” sort of way. Celes not only taking off her drill-like clip-ons and gothic lolita wear, but willing being photographed in this state. Even the despair sisters seemed to have had as good a time as they ever could.

Not to mention… a bit of confirmation on either NaeGiri or NaeZono. Because that is one very cheerful, emotion-filled smile Kiri’s got there. It also semi-suggests Naegi and Kuwata might have been close, which, if true, throws some tragic weight on the first trial.

I’d like a lot of major events turned into an OVA at some point: I want more of Munakata, Yukizome and Sakakura’s school life expanded on along with Andou, Izayoi and Kimura getting the same. I want to see some Hope’s Peak politics with Kizakura and Headmaster dealing with the Steering Committee, and maybe Tengan too to see his thought process under a different light. I want an origin story for the Neo World Program that finally gives some characterization for the real Miaya Gekkogahara, that finally gives Matsuda a voice, and finally reveals Fujisaki’s connection with Nanami. I want some of the core scenes from DanganRonpa/0 to be fully animated, like Madarai’s fight with Ikusaba in front of the fountain and Ryouko’s later escape from him (and perhaps they decide to animate the first time Kirigiri dodged some furniture from her own encounter with the Madarais). I want some of Future Foundation’s day-to-day workings leading up The Final Killing so we can learn more about Bandai and Gozu, or see what each of the branch heads primarily do with their time. I want to see the first few chapters of Killer Killer animated to advertise that series coming to a close. And of course, I want DanganRonpa IF to be fully animated so that Ikusaba won’t have to suffer the same fate in front of the populace at large as she did in canon: being remembered by the people she cared about as just a mindless attack dog for her sister.

But of all those hypothetical OVA’s, I think we’ve waited long enough to see the original 15 happy and grown past their insecurities through their friendship with each other enough to enjoy a sports festival together (and it’d be fun to watch Enoshima seething with fury through this experience before begrudgingly giving in and deciding to smile over all the despair she’ll feel from destroying these happy memories one day). Just to give some context to the memories the final 6 may or may not have regained by now.

Can we have this? Please, Lerche and Kodaka?

miyakokurono  asked:

Hey, request for a Levi x reader where they're either sharing a bed or in the office and it's really really quite but not awkward but then the reader sneezes and ends up scaring the hell out of Levi (bonus points if they're the only two in the office)


[permanent + fluff tag]: @mrs-myself

You shifted in your chair.

As you shuffled papers and fixed the schedule for the cadets, you couldn’t help but glance at the man seated by his desk a few feet away. He seemed to feel your eyes on his skin and raised his own dark, intense eyes to yours but you looked away immediately, sweat beading on your neck. 

Why me, You thought, strangling Erwin in your mind. The bushy eyebrowed man had basically banned you from your office, telling you that you had better try to get along with your other ranking corporal and stop acting like a brat or else he would demote you.

You stewed angrily, jabbing your pen across the page. Okay so you deliberately avoided Ackerman. It wasn’t your fault! The guy actually scared the pants off of you, and you had once delved into a whole group of titans without a single nerve. It was something about his eyes, the way he seemed to see past your every facade, the way he effortlessly grasped your confidence and dug it into the ground. 

And the most frustrating thing of all was that he did it all without knowing. He didn’t specifically target you, in fact you doubted he even remembered your name.

The silence was comforting at least - you didn’t have to talk to the demon - and it helped to drown out your thoughts as you settled into the process of mindless work.

Until you sneezed.

It wasn’t a cute, flowery, sneeze either. It was loud and brazen, a speck of dust going right up your nose and you coughed into your hand in embarrassment.  

Levi had been nodding off - he actually slept wow you thought he was a vampire  - but at your loud exclamation he jolted upwards. You remembered vaguely that he had been up all night with a task from Erwin as well.

His hands came up instinctively in a blur you couldn’t track, reaching for double blades that weren’t there. His eyes dilated and searched the area like the trained soldier he was, the lean, toned muscles in his arms rolling underneath his shirt. 

His eyes met yours and you stared for about another couple seconds before it was broken by a muffled sound coming from your throat. You tried to cover it up but you were laughing, and hard. For some reason just the way he had reacted after such long silence, accompanied with his wide eyes and the fact that you hadn’t gotten much sleep either had you in hysterics. This was the first and only time you had ever seen Levi like this, surprised. It was actually kind of…cute?

You bit your palm and turned away, shoulders still shaking as your chuckles filled the air.

A throat cleared.

You spun, stopping immediately, but biting your lip to stop from smiling. Levi was back to his normal expression, face smoothed over into an unamused stare. 

“Something funny, Corporal Y/N?” His gravel baritone was as smooth as butter, running straight through you.

“Nothing at all sir,” You whistled, returning to your work. You would have liked to take another jab at him but you didn’t feel like dying that day and innocently submitted.

The silence came back but it was lighter, refreshed. You hummed as you wrote, sneaking another look at Levi only to see him looking right back. You averted your gaze and bit your lip again. 

Maybe, just maybe, you thought, remembering his taken aback features, those beautiful - beautiful? - grey eyes wide and thin lips slightly parted. 

Somehow you may have had the wrong opinion on this guy.


I have an opinion...

I’ve seen a few posts about Dom and Kat on here and I’m sorry but why is it so hard for two women who play a couple on a tv show to be friends in real life without people thinking they have feelings for each other? I just don’t get it.

Back when Glee was still airing, a lot of people did the same to Naya and Heather which resulted in them not hanging out in public with the way fans went over the top going as far as attacking their partners.

Everyone please remember, Dom and Kat aren’t Waverly and Nicole. Lets be respectful of the actors and who they are dating. It isn’t fair to the actors in any way to assume they want to date each other just because who they play on screen. Dom and Kat are friends only and frankly, they have such an amazing friendship. I haven’t seen one like it in some time and I would love to continue to see their friendship behind the scenes and in interviews. It would be a shame for them to not be able to be around each other in public due to being harassed by fans.

Let’s be respectful to the people who give us this amazing couple and not just keep it at Dom and Kat either. Every cast member deserves to be kept separate from their character. They have their own lives just like we do. Please remember that.

(I apologise for the rant. This just needed to be said)

Something that will infinitely amuse me and hit me deep about Breath of the Wild is just the radical change in character we have in Link between the hundred years he was asleep. Like, from the memories we learn that he was a dedicated knight who lived by his code and in service of the royal family. But the Link that we play as has none of those constrictions. He’s not duty or honor bound, but chooses to save Hyrule because he feels like it’s the right thing.

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even if it's fake || stiles stilinski

word count: 4793

warnings: swearing, angst

request: hi could i get a stiles imagine where he and the reader broke up then few days later reader messages him saying before he can block her she’s making him say ‘i love you’ even though he doesn’t mean it. if only i could send you the pic of where i got this idea 😭😭😭 hope u understand this TY AND ILY 💕💕

author’s note: sorry that this took so long to get written! i sort of changed it up a bit, but i hope you enjoy it. thank you to @dumbass-stilinski who gave me a few ideas, and @stilinski-jpeg who read it before it was finished. and also hay and soph for reading this after i finished it! @sincerelystiles @sarcasticallystilinski


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I feel like all the people calling Will’s speech “anti millenial” weren’t listening close enough. He didn’t imply anything against younger queerlings, just reminded that we need to remember who and what came before us. Remember how bis were attacked with a certain gatekeeping rhetoric, which was then reused on trans individual, was then used in on aspecs? Ever notice how it’s always the older people in the community who have to remind us this shit has happened before, and when we don’t remember and don’t actively try to prevent it, it creeps back in?

“I just dont want you to forget those who were fighting for rights you don’t even know you didn’t have”

The show said it was going to be tackling more modern queer topics, and face it, our generation not knowing shit about the history of the community until a self described “community gramdma/pa” steps in to teach and remind is something that happens. A lot. It’s not about insulting and disparaging millenials. It’s about appreciating those who came before us for the way things are now, and reminding everyone that there is work we still have ahead of us.

I just wanted to put a little PSA out there

It’s okay to hate a ship. It’s okay to love a ship. It’s okay to feel indifferent about a ship. What isn’t okay is when people hate on other people because they don’t love, hate or feel indifferent about the same things they do. If we all felt the same about shows, movies and books fandom life would be pretty boring. While it is okay to have healthy discussion in your said fandom, when it turns to pure hateful personal attacks on a person you most likely don’t know a line must be drawn. Feel free to love and hate aspects of shows, movies and books just remember to love each other in the process.

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kyasuu  asked:

So I don't usually do scenarios but imagine: Lance has a bad dream where he thinks everyone is angry with him, and when he wakes up he's so sick he's delirious and he thought the dream actually happened. So when he leaves the room everyone sees how sick he is and is like D: and when he mumbles he's sorry they're so confused like Lance what are you apologizing for??

*writes you a fic to show my unconditional and undying love for u*

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i know people like to imagine Jack going to shul and stuff, but like imagine if you will that the Zimmermanns were really trying to be practicing when Jack is little, like going to service one a week, having big get togethers on the High Holy Days, etc etc. Well, imagine as Jack gets older, with his parents careers and hockey, that once a week becomes once every two weeks, then once a month, then just going for holidays, then just saying “Oh, Alicia, did you know today is Rosh Hashanah?” “Haha, let’s get some Chinese to celebrate and try to be all together tonight then”. So Jack feels like he lost something along the way. He loved the structure of services, how they were always the same but the meaning you can give to different prayers can change the entire experience; how no one asked him about hockey, just school and friends and pinching his cheeks and asking if he wants more food; how calming the music was to him, how singing a certain prayer could help him when having an anxiety attack. He feels like he’s grown up and lost this. So, after the overdose, doctors and his parents ask him what they can do to help him gain structure, some sort of home base, and he just kind of gets embarrassed but says “Take me to Temple?” and so he starts going every week and getting sort of involved with the goings on, maybe teaching the b'nei mitzah kids Torah trope because he remembered he liked the patterns and was good at it (i headcanon hes a good singer dont look at me) and that’s how Jack Zimmermann rediscovers his Jewishness on his own terms, choosing to become more religious as an adult.

im dead and also cryign bc everytime i think abt jack zimmermann rediscovering his jewishness in the aftermath of his od i get really emotional??? like he doesnt have a lot of time for it at school or w the falconers but he tries to go to shul when he can and sometimes he just sits in the synagogue and he feels more peaceful

okay so im stubborn so im going to reply to touch adverse mika anon
basically they said “since mika has been abused for so long, do you think he’d be jumpy when it comes to people touching him?”
and basically the short answer is: he doesnt like being touched by people he doesnt know, but he is extremly touch starved, and REALLY craves affection, but after years of emotional abuse he feels like he cant have it and shoves people away
so my first example is with krul. remember that time mika came storming into her throne room and jumped her? and afterword, she hugged him, and he sat there for a few seconds, before shoving her off 

because he basically just attacked her and he felt gross and like he hurt her, even if krul immediatly tells him its alright, he still hates what he did and feels like because of this he isnt deserving of affection even if he wants it so badly 

another time we see mika do something similar is with yoichi, where yoichi grabs him, and it does startle him, but after yoichi calls him “Mika-kun” mika pauses for several seconds before shoving him off.

 because mika has only ever been called kun by ferid, who really only did it in the back-handed way ferid does most things, but also because he realized that yoichi wasnt grabbing him out of anger but in a protective way, and it sent mika reeling because no one touches him who doesnt want to hurt him or whom he didnt just hurt, so he doesnt know how to process it. of course he shoves him off, but it just goes to show how much mika may crave to be just, held i guess? which goes into my next point. what is the FIRST THING mika does when he gets ahold of yuu for the first time?

so yea. while mika may be adverse to people touching him outright, he just craves it but at the same time despises it. its a confusing relationship, but when it comes to behaviors and feelings as a result of abuse, what doesnt feel confusing?