just part of my rant

You know what? I told myself I’m going to stay out of this scandal because I know myself too well and I don’t want to bother about what fans say about Super Junior (I’ll include them all because SJ is a group and not only Sungmin and Kangin). 

I am so dissapointed by everyone right now. I’m dissapointed because of Sungmin deciding to leave just because a few korean ELF are talking non-sense stuff (or fans, because they are not ELF to me anymore and I don’t care what you’re going to think of me saying that). I’m dissapointed because of Label SJ for “respecting” Sungmin’s decision and listening to a few fans who are standing against him. I’m dissapointed because of the actual ELF who promised to respect their decision but said they’ll leave instead just because Sungmin “decided” to not be a part of their comeback. I’m dissapointed because I couldn’t keep myself calm and shut the fuck up (I have an urge to swear right now and that doesn’t really happens to me often). 

So, congrats to everyone who “won” this. Enjoy your time because Sungmin will be left out and enjoy Super Junior member sadness for couldn’t help him more than this. Congrats for giving yourself joy but giving the others sadness.

Besides all of this, I am going to stay Super Junior’s side until the very end. I am going to support this comeback no matter what will happen because I am an ELF.

I get really upset every time I see someone say that Derek and Stiles hated each other, and people say it all the time, and it’s really getting to me at this point because I do not believe that they ever really had reason to hate, as in not being able to stand each other, detesting/loathing each other. And what I hate even is more is saying that SCOTT BROUGHT THEM TOGETHER BECAUSE NO.

Stiles was the first one to trust Derek. He didn’t think Derek had ill intentions. When he saw Derek drive Allison home from the party , Stiles saw it as a nice and kind act and he didn’t think there was anything to be wary of - until Scott started claiming Derek was the killer and Stiles of course trusted Scott more than someone he (as far as we know) only heard about, someone who lost almost his entire family in a suspicious fire and who then disappeared. Stiles probably recalled all the villain stories he’d heard/seen/read and concluded, hey, Derek had all potential to be that villain. Except that Allison was safe at home like he had expected in the end. Nonetheless SCOTT GOT BETWEEN DEREK AND STILES FIRST and was the reason that Stiles suddenly had no idea what to do with Derek because he was unsure what was going on. And Scott stayed wary and uneasy around Derek long after Stiles fully trusted him.

Stiles’ first instinct was to trust Derek.
Then Scott ruined that and kept ruining it, even when Derek proved otherwise.
Then suddenly Scott went to Derek for help with his shift, whereas he totally disregarded Stiles’ attempts to help. Scott was becoming a part of something that Stiles couldn’t be part of and so it probably felt like Derek was taking away the only friend Stiles had. Derek, who Scott claimed was dangerous. He knows Derek’s a werewolf, which could very well justify him being dangerous.
Then they find half of Laura in Derek’s yard, and yeah, Stiles is scared. He has all right to be. (Fear doesn’t equal hate though)
This new werewolf thing is way over his head, and it’s distancing Scott from him and people are dying and they don’t know what’s going on, and Derek is suspicious.

I don’t see any hate in that.

Stiles might say he wants Derek dead but we see in later seasons that that’s just one of the things he says. I mean, he looks terrified of Derek dying from the wolfsbane bullet in Episode 4. He doesn’t actually want to experience Derek dying. As early as in Episode 4. And I can’t remember when I last watched the show and which episodes I watched but as far as I can remember their relationship only builds and gets better after that.

None of the behaviors showcase any hate to me. They’re in life threatening situations, they don’t trust, they CAN’T trust, and they threaten each other because of that, they are rough toward each other because many lives are in danger and because they are in over their heads, not because they personally have something against each other

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wonwoo & ѕeυngĸwan Ғrιendѕнιp 🌺 (parт 2, part1)

TwO MoRe DAYS!!!!!!!! And it’s starting to really hit me that this show is going to be over. *cries in the corner*

Dipper and Ford’s relationship has got to be one of my favorites in the show. Dipper looks up to Ford so much and Ford genuinely cares about Dipper and its so cute and adorable and fluffy and Im sORRY I JUST LOVE THEM SO MUCH OH MAN

A little Riddler rant…

I don’t understand when part of the fandom likes to paint Ed as illiterate, disinterested in learning or reading, only likes to eat and nap and have fun.
While I wont deny that Ed can be a chatter box so painting him in the ‘relatively annoying’ light is not wrong, you have to remember that he’s a genius. His entire deal is literally about being smarter than everyone. As Joker once said, “Eddie likes to pride himself on being a learned man.”

Any skill only takes someone so far without actually learning and studying. As an artist people always call me ‘talented’, but the truth is whether I was born with talent or not, nothing I draw would be even half as decent if I didn’t practice and study light and colors and anatomy. He might be a genius, but he wasn’t born with the knowledge of mathematics.

I can understand if some people would like to argue that Riddler would be similar to Hemingway; in that he only wrote but refused to read books by other authors (which I still call BS on and nothing more than his own cry of arrogance), but Ed would still need to learn the basic formula and equation of things before he could start his own version of them, therefor he would have to read and study. Often.

As an obsessive compulsive and someone who focuses his OCD on his work and its hindering of his success by his inability to ever lie completely, he would have to dedicate even more time and effort into his work each time in a feeble attempt (and blatant stubbornness) to overcome his past failings. Therefor I don’t see him as neither the lazy type, nor the sort who search for an excuse to just have fun and be silly.

im no dear evan hansen expert but even i can point out that telling a girl all the things you love about her (in a blatant romantic connotation unbeknownst to her) while lying under the guise of her dead abusive brother is pretty damn disgusting

anonymous asked:

Hello Rachelle Im Eleven and just wondering on your old video's you didn't curse right? so why are you just starting to curse now? Please stop and listen to my comment please stop cursing or it least only say crap or hell please consider this for your youtube channel

damn i wish people would stop telling me how to talk or act in my videos :|||||

LAST GAME: Kagami's announcement

Okay so I just watched the Last Game movie (finally!) and first and foremost let me say…I was kind of disappointed in it. I mean, I knew the film wasn’t going to be great (deviating from the manga and all wtf with that ending =_=) But it just felt so…shallow. This is just my opinion, but when I compare it to the series that I’ve loved for like 3+ years it really falls short. Of course, I still laughed with some parts, and of course getting excited towards the end as we do with these basketball dorks. It can’t match up to the series though, just my personal thoughts. 

But I thought this scene was handled relatively well (and was probably the most real moment of the movie) when Kagami made his announcement.

Warning: SPOILERS UNDER CUT

So after he told everyone he was leaving, it was kind of like “…what o.o” from Seirin - which I totally get, because it really did come from left field. I felt Kagami leaving for America was a really weak plot line, just thrown in there to make the plot supposedly more meaningful, but it was really only mentioned at the start and end points of the movie with very little emotional depth. 

(excuse the movie title in some shots, my bad guys)

After the shock, everyone turns to Kuroko, asking if he knew. This shot is really important, since Furihata, Kawahara and Fukuda (pls correct if I messed any of their names lol) are representing us basically, the audience. They’re upset and confused, and Kuroko has this slumping posture. He’s clearly saddened too, even though we can’t see his face. Kagami doesn’t say a word during this exchange, which I find interesting. It makes me think he’s already had this conversation with Kuroko, and countless times Kuroko’s reassured him that this was the best path for him to take. 

Now we see his face, and he’s so clearly conflicted. Even though he had known from the moment Kagami received the call from Alex, it’s still hurting him. I wish we had seen more of just Kuroko and Kagami knowing about it, the conversations they had about it. At first, was Kagami reluctant?? Was Kuroko the one who convinced him to go??? In my mind, it seems that way. Kuroko is not the type of person to let the past hold him down, or anyone else for that matter. That’s why, when Kagami came running back to him at the airport he was firm until the end that it was only right Kagami should go. To leave him there, to move forward. Even when he’s so upset, he won’t let Kagami be held back (especially not by Kuroko’s own feelings about it)

Then, they all ask Kuroko, “Are you okay with this?? To send him away like this???” Like…I’m sorry but this scene was so romantically coded for me. It’s just like if a couple has to part, one of them has to leave and the other is left behind. Kagami is still silent at this point, but notice he’s standing by Kuroko’s side. They are each other’s support, which is why Kagami decided to tell the team with Kuroko, rather than have Kuroko pretend not to know or to really hide the truth from him. He can’t lie to Kuroko, and Kuroko knows him better than anyone. 

But then, Kuroko lifts his head and stands tall, like he always does, and SUPPORTS Kagami. He does NOT want Kagami to go. Yet, he would never tell Kagami to stay and sacrifice his chance at making his dreams come true. And despite the two of them not being a couple, this is what real love looks like. You don’t hold back the person you care dearly about, even if it hurts you so much. From the start, Kuroko has believed in Kagami - and Kagami has completely trusted Kuroko as well. It’s because Kuroko believes so much in Kagami, more than anyone, that he can send him away with a smile and his fist extended warmly towards him. 

If there is a message (there’s not many tbqh) I could pull out of watching Last Game, it would be the timeless saying “if you love something, let it go”, and if it loves you too, then it will find it’s way back to you…

…”Let’s meet again!”

(THEY LOVE EACH OTHER THANK YOU GOODNIGHT)

Okay, I’m gonna say it: I’m not happy at all with the fact that the malec kiss in that teaser looks just like the others we got in 2a.

It’s like a continuation of the almost kiss in 2x07, with a sprinkle of the one from 2x06 on top.

These directors fucking suck when it comes to malec intimacy and it’s getting on my nerves. How freaking hard must it be to insert some freaking variety? Another angle? More passion? A wider shot? Them hugging while doing it? Anything?

There was more variety, emotion and detail in their first kiss in 1x12, than in all of those from s2 put together, and seeing as the actors are the same, the blame is not on them, but on those who direct and shoot those scenes. S1 had its flaws, but how malec was handled was not one of them, which is why it got a freaking award for it.

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Bonus:

Merry Christmas, @missmarilove​! Have some awkward and cute (and very pink) “morning after” talk. This is your gift for @creekalldayeveryday​’s secret santa, I hope you enjoy it!

I also hope you can read my shitty handwriting, haha…

I’m not one to do these long, rambled things, usually, as I like to lay low and just do my own things without drawing much attention to myself or what have you…
But I’ve had quite a few moments over the past couple of days where I’ve just been sitting in silence and thinking. I’m just so amazed at how quickly I went from a “lonely nobody” with very few friends (whom I cherish with my entire life still, if any see this just know I love you so much!) to gaining a handful of great, new friends in a span of 2-3 months. Some artists, some not; but they’re all so great and so valid, and I care about them so much already. 
This all just absolutely blows me away… because I know that I’m new to this whole artist/art scene and community. Not necessarily My Little Pony, or anything, but rather Tumblr and the Tumblr circle of likened artists (Adge, Apri, Pasu, etc). And I know I’m new to a lot of the things they’re affiliated with in terms of headcanons, AUs, Next Gens, stories, etc; and each other. Although I’d LOVE to catch up and feel a part of everything with that, be included and help with some things, as well as contribute with my own things, and I’m certain I can at some point; I always feel like I’m just being a nuisance and trying way too hard to fit in to be included. That’s just my anxiety and everything though (hopefully). Everyone is so nice to me, and I question how I came to be so deserving but I’d never take it for granted. In fact, I absolutely appreciate it with my entirety. So thank you all for your patience for putting up with me and my awkwardness. Try as I might, I know I’m not up to speed or as close as you all are to each other. Maybe one day! I can only keep trying. But seriously thank you for allow me the opportunity to call you my friends, and to be where I am right now. it’s absolutely incredible to think this is all happening. <3
As for my art, and lack of confidence; I really know I’m not a great artist, not even a good one. Not yet. I want to be, and maybe one day I can be! I’m still trying and doing my best regardless. I also know I have a lot to learn in art obviously. I’m fully aware that I need a lot of improvement. And I am trying! I’m just a little smol who’s still learning and practicing art, slowly. I should try harder but I often feel immensely discouraged about my current skill level and style (since I do not have a natural knack for drawing among other things)…which sadly leads to unnecessarily long bouts of procrastination and periods of not drawing anything. I want to get better at that, because it only makes myself feel worse that I haven’t drawn anything or that I’m not taking the steps I need to improve. I have a horrible habit of comparing myself to others, too. Hopefully that’ll change. Though… huge shout-out to everyone who encourages me to continue, and tells me that I’m getting better despite it all. Gretchen, Adge, Rob, Kathleen, Sal, and any I’m missing. You know who you are. Thank you. You’re all amazing.

This has turned into a huge, random rant of unnecessary rambling that’s all over the place and inconsistent. I am so, so, so sorry! Please ignore this! Just had a lot on the mind and felt like getting it out there for my own sake and sanity.
I really hope everyone has an amazing morning/day/evening/night. I love you all very much, and you deserve nothing but the best. Smile!
~Umbra 

oooooh look, another list of aus for your writing pleasure: 
[sorry if any of these have already been done!]

+ you’re the cute barista and i’m the indie artist who plays at your coffee shop. i’m totally doing it for the pay and not to stare at your face for three hours every week, what are you talking about.
+ i’m the librarian and you’re the person who, in an attempt to flirt, just asked me if we carry books here.
+ you discreetly come into my bookstore every day just to play with my cat that i let wander. you think i don’t notice, but i totally do. don’t worry; it’s freaking adorable.
+ you are the lead singer of a rock band, and i’m the fan who you just called up on stage to sing a song with you. wow, you are way hotter in person and now i just forgot every lyric of yours ever.
+ you’re the cute trainer at the gym and i just fell off my treadmill because i couldn’t stop staring at you. 
+ we’re the only two people in this theater and i’m taking note of all the parts of the film that make you laugh so i can talk to you after. 
+ you’re selling cookies for your sister’s girl scout troop and you’re so adorable and awkward while doing it that i buy fifteen boxes.
+ you just started telling me your life story on the bus without even giving me your name first, and wait did you just say that you’re involved in the mafia?! 
+ you’re the tech guru on campus and i keep getting viruses on my computer just so i can come talk to you. 
+ we’re rival vloggers who are forced to do a panel together at vidcon, but it’s hard to despise you when you’re that much cuter in person. 
+ you’re an actor on my favorite tv show and i’m your biggest fan. needless to say that when i meet you for the first time, i get so excited that i accidentally punch you in the face. 
+ you’re a pirate and you were unaware about your feelings for me until a siren took my image. 
+ you’re my tutor but i keep getting distracted because you’re so pretty.
+ even though i’m about to be carted off to the er after my car accident, i’m still gonna try to flirt with you, the cute emt. 
+ i’m an escort but not that type of escort. if you play your cards right though, i could be. 
+ i own an esty shop and you’re the cute worker at the post office i keep running into. 

Musing about being a POC and queer individual in the TMNT fandom:

I think the hardest part of being in the TMNT fandom for me is the fact that I am not white, am not straight, am not cis, or even neurotypical, and… I identify fairly hard with the turtles because of those things. 

But then… they’re drawn or written as all of those things probably 90% of the time when people are humanizing them, and its just. so hard. to let that go, even though those people have no idea they’re affecting some random person across the internet. Compared to the hundreds of others who don’t feel this way, my personal opinion doesn’t really matter.

I don’t hold it against anyone for their headcanons, and I have never a day in my life sent hate to a person for having those headcanons, since I know those depend almost entirely on the personal life and experiences of those individuals.

They still bother me though, since I feel like it erases a large part of what the turtles’ identities are, which is being a minority among minorities.

They’re the only four of their kind, and pretty much utterly isolated from the rest of the world. They’ve never fit in, and never will, because they are inherently different from the rest of society. They are, in a phrase, freaks of nature.

My circumstances aren’t as extreme, not even close, but I know that feeling on a personal level regardless. Having them portrayed as the socially acceptable norm, it erases a large part of what makes them so interesting; which would be their sheer alien-ness from the rest of us. By making them ordinary cis white straight etc etc in humanized headcanons, I feel it takes away from their original characterization as a minority.

And it just really bothers me, as a single individual in the fandom, to have characters I identify with so strongly become pretty much the complete opposite of who and what I am, and thusly become no longer relatable. It’s just a difficult thing to deal with sometimes, especially since I have no power to change it other than ignoring the content I don’t like.

I hope no one takes this as an insult to their personal headcanons about the series; its just the words from someone who’s never fit correctly to any box, and found a strong connection to four characters who I felt were similar to me in that sense.

Not that I had any claim to it as it wasn’t mine before, but I’m so curious who took the name Pengu. Can’t imagine that in the little number of people from both servers within the first few hours after maintenance, someone would take it. It’s not a popular name like let’s say, Angel, Chocolate or Potato, sure it’s short for “penguin”, but I really don’t think someone would take it just for that reason and rather look for a more unique name. I mean, you’re in the first few, your choices are nearly unlimited, why stop at half of a penguin?

My only guess is that either of my followers or subscribers took it. Or someone who just wanted to mess with me because of whatever problems I apparently caused them. Don’t fall for any fake Pengus.

Well you snooze you lose I guess (literally was 3-4am here when maintenance ended, was snoozing). At least I cut my name shorter to Xue, rip people pronouncing it.

YouTube

Jordan Fisher x Reader
Words: 915

I FINALLY REWROTE IT! SO I CAN FINALLY POST IT! and this is just part one my friends, there’s so much more to come! 

before i rant, i’d like to thank my friend Dani for suggesting this. I can’t remember your tumblr @ but you know who you are.

but continuing, i thought i’d let you know, i’m going to be a little bit busy over this coming month (school, music, etc) but i am going to try my hardest to write as much as possible! i might have to go back to waking up at 5 and writing in the mornings.

anyway, this is part one of YouTube Enjoy!

Masterlist

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“You know, you’ve never asked to be in one of my videos.”

You looked up from your phone, raising your eyebrow. “And this is important because?”

Jordan shrugged, sitting down next to you on the couch. “Well, all of my friends have begged to collab with me because apparently it’s good publicity or if we were true friends, we’d be making a video together… but not you. Like, when you’re in my vlogs, my fans get really excited? It’s kinda… weird. They think you’re cute.”

“Everyone thinks I’m cute. But I’m not. I’m really tough. I can beat you in an arm wrestling match,” You stated, smirking and putting your phone down on the coffee table.

“Well honestly, I beg to differ. My fans think you’re the cutest thing. Especially when we take photos with the dog filter on Snapchat. Trust me, they eat it up,” He stated, crossing his arms

You rolled your eyes, picking your phone up again and scrolling through Tumblr. “You’ve got to be kidding me.”

“No, it’s true! Trust me for once please. They have so much love for you, it’s insane!” Jordan exclaimed, poking your cheek and flashing his signature grin.

“You know, you can’t just smile and think the world will fall at your feet. I’ve grown resistant. I have a soul.” You put your phone down once again and turned to face Jordan, who was now trying his best at giving you “puppy dog eyes”.

His bottom lip was poking out and he was whining softly, holding his hands like paws. “Please? I’ll pay you in food?” He suggested. You rolled your eyes, slapping his arm gently.

“Stop that. I’m sure that even if you asked, they wouldn’t want me in a video.”

“So what If I do ask? Would you do it then?”

You paused, biting your lip slightly. “If your fans say yes and you buy me food, there may be a possibility of a video. But it would depend what the video is and what kind of royalties I get.”

“Royalties? Wow. You sunk low there,” Jordan huffed, crossing his arms. “That’s one hard deal.”

“You could’ve gotten a real job and we wouldn’t have this problem.”

He faked shock, letting out a loud gasp. “Oh gosh! My heard has been struck by this vile person who does not know how to feel emotions. Wow, it’s as if my world has ended!” He fell into your lap, looking up at you and smirking.

“You should’ve become an actor. You could’ve lazed around the same amount, but got paid even less. Doesn’t that sound nice?” You said sarcastically, poking his nose.

“Well, I was in a drama class a long time ago. And there was this gi-“

“I’ve heard the story before Jordan. If you tell it one more time, we’re going to have a problem,” You interrupted, putting your hand over his mouth. He licked your hand, causing you to squeal and pull it away. “You disgust me.”

“So do you want to hear my video idea or not?” Jordan asked, sitting up and crossing his legs.

“Sure. Fire away.”

“Well, I’ve been looking at all the trends, both old and new, and I’ve decided that some of them need to be brought back,” Jordan started, fiddling with the sleeves of his jumper absent-mindedly.

“You know bringing back YouTube trends never ends well. It could end your career, or my social life. It’s risky as anything and I think you’re a mad man if you decide to go through with it.”

“Well, I already have decided to go through with it if you join me. But you know what? It’s going to be the most popular video my channel has ever produced, because you’re in it!”

You raised your eyebrow. “You really think I’m going to go through with this, don’t you?”

He shrugged. “Well, as my best friend I was hoping you would. But, getting back on topic. The boyfriend does my makeup challenge was the cutest thing ever. And of course, I wouldn’t want to embarrass you, so you could do my makeup instead which would be fun! Imagine how glam it would be!”

“Woah woah woah! You’re not my boyfriend! Let’s get that straight before we continue,” You said, crossing your arms and glaring.

“Of course I know that! But… we could make it the best friend does my makeup challenge? It’d be the cutest thing to exist! And we could make a vlog where we go shopping together and buy the makeup!” Jordan exclaimed, smiling wide.

You sighed softly, taking a moment to contemplate. You knew Jordan wouldn’t stop bugging you if you were to blow him off, so you took the only answer you could think of that wouldn’t hurt his feelings.

“So when does all of this begin?”

The smile on Jordan’s face grew wider. “Right now!” He exclaimed, jumping up and grabbing his wallet from the kitchen bench. He grabbed your hand, yanking you out of the apartment. Your eyes widened as he dragged you through the streets.

“I didn’t sign up for this!”

“Oh, but you di- damn. I forgot my camera. I’ll be right back.” He dropped your hand, turning around and bolting back down the hall towards his apartment.

You shook your head in disbelief, tapping your fingers against your leg anxiously. All you wanted in life was to make your best friend happy… so saying yes had to be the correct decision, right?