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How to tame your hedgehog

African pygmy hedgehogs are becoming more popular as pets and with this rises the question on how to handle them. A quick glance at hedgehog fora and Facebook groups shows threads and posts titled “my hedgehog doesn’t like me” or “my hedgehog hates me”, “anti-social hedgehog”, “very angry hedgehog” and so on.

In order to understand the behaviour of our pets we have to look at the animal itself. What kind of animal is the hedgehog?

First off, hedgehogs do not “hate” people, nor are they “angry”. They are physically incapable of feeling such a human emotion. When handling hedgehogs we need to be careful not to project our own emotions and feelings onto the animal; this does not help us understand the needs of our pets. Instead, we need to go back to the root of it all: the natural instincts and behaviour of the hedgehog.

African pygmy hedgehogs (Atelerix albiventris) became more widely available to the exotic pet trade around the late 80′s/early 90′s in the US (and a decade or more later to other parts of the world). This isn’t that long ago. We need to realize our pet hedgehogs are not fully domesticated yet - in fact, they’re basically still the same (behaviour-wise, at least) as their wild cousins. I have seen wild caught animals which were more “social” than captive bred ones, and the other way around. This is also why I chose the word tame for the title of this post. While they might be captive born, our pets are still quite wild.
We cannot compare hedgehogs to animals we share an extensive, sometimes thousands of years old relationship with. But besides that, hedgehogs will most likely never become like a dog or a guinea pig simply because certain behavioural treats are not in their nature.
Learning how to handle your hedgehog starts with having the right expectations of its behaviour.

Hedgehog behaviour

Hedgehogs are relatively small prey animals. They are nocturnal, spend the nights foraging for food and sleep in their burrows during the day.
They are solitary animals and only come together to mate.
They are not aggressive by nature but have a marvellous defence instead: thousands of sharp quills. When threatened, they roll into a tight ball and wait until the predator has left (or in rare cases, fight, but only if they’re forced to).

So what does this mean for someone who has a pet hedgehog? 

1. Do not expect a similar bond as with e.g. a dog. Dogs are social animals that were bred from an animal that lives in packs. Hedgehogs are solitary. They are not social by nature. They do not need you and while they might get used to you being around, you’re mainly the Food Bringer and the Warm Thing To Sleep On but little more. There will not be much interaction. Your hedgehog will not come up to you when you call its name nor will it “love” you as its owner, simply because it can’t.

2. Being defensive prey animals, you can seem threatening to them. Balling up is an automatic response to a possible threat. This is totally normal hedgehog behaviour.

3. Since they’re nocturnal all they want to do during the day is sleep, not interact with you. And they do not interact or play the way some other mammals do. Most of the time you’re spending together will consist of the hedgehog either running around and doing stuff on its own, or sleeping on your lap.

These things are all very important in helping you understand the behaviour of your hedgehog. There are reasons your hedgehog is displaying these behaviours and if you know those reasons, you can use them to make your hedgehog feel more comfortable around you.
Arguably, other than looking cute hedgehogs don’t really have much going for them when it comes to being what most people think of as a “good pet”. They are definitely not suitable for everyone, but if they’re your type of pet they can be very interesting and wonderful animals to have!

Tips on handling/taming your hedgehog

Before I start I’d like to point out that every hedgehog is different and there’s not just one right way when it comes to handling. This is how I do it, coming from my experience with captive bred and wild caught (as well as actual wild hedgehogs) and from well socialized to not socialized at all. Besides the socialization of hoglets by the breeder, character plays a major part in hedgehog behaviour. Some hedgehogs seem to be naturally social and more open towards interaction (or at least let you interact with them) while others will remain more defensive for their entire lives.
The key with hedgehogs is patience. Do not expect a hedgehog to stop huffing and balling up within a week. If you just got a hedgehog it will need to get used to its new environment and owner, which takes time. How much time varies. Some will get used to you within a few weeks, others take months.
“Used to you” is also relative, as this doesn’t necessarily mean your hedgehog will stop balling up or quit huffing at you entirely - that’s very unlikely, since this is normal hedgehog behaviour.

Hedgehogs have bad eyesight and rely mainly on their excellent noses. You can make use of this by giving your hedgehog an old, worn t-shirt which has your scent on it. Alternatively, if you don’t have an old shirt, you can sleep with a piece of fleece in your bed for a day or two and give that to your hedgehog.
By putting this in the enclosure for the hedgehog to sleep in it will get more used to your scent.

The more you handle your hedgehog, the faster it’ll get used to handling. Don’t be afraid to handle your hedgehog; use your bare hands or a piece of fleece but no (leather) gloves, because then your hedgehog won’t be able to smell you properly. Do not reward unwanted behaviour (such as biting or extensive huffing/clicking) by putting the hedgehog back into its enclosure. Instead, enforce positive behaviour, e.g. by offering treats like live insects (I always use tongs so they do not mistake my hands for food).

Some people prefer a more “manhandling” way when handling hedgehogs, I personally don’t really like this for most hedgehogs but it’s a thin line: after all, you’re always forcing your pet to be with you when you get it out. If a hedgehog clearly shows it doesn’t like to be petted on the quills, I don’t go on petting it that way. But I don’t put it back either. Instead, I try to search for a way of handling with which this particular hedgehog is more comfortable right now. And yes, sometimes you have to do something they don’t particularly like, but be sure to reward positive behaviours - you don’t always need to reward with food, but it could also be simply “releasing pressure” (like giving them some space for themselves for a bit instead of continuously petting them, for example).
Handling should be seen in a very broad sense. Some hedgehogs prefer to sleep when out while others are active explorers. Try to adjust your ways of handling accordingly.
Because hedgehogs are nocturnal, some do much better when you take them out in the evening and/or when there’s dim lightning in the room.

When I have a new hedgehog which isn’t well socialized or simply has to get used to me and its new surroundings first I like to start by having it explore the (hedgehog safe) room or play area. I sit down on the ground and let the hedgehog do its own thing. If it likes to explore it can explore, if it likes to sleep it can sleep on my lap (most hedgehogs don’t like to sleep out in the open so a fleece bonding bag works great for this).
In the following days I will start to move around more. First still in a sitting position, then walking around, so the hedgehog gets used to my movements and me simply being there without me really interacting with it directly. You can do this both when the hedgehog is exploring or in its cuddle bag on you lap. For many hedgehogs it’s a combination of the two, some explore time and then back to sleep (especially during the day).
Depending on how much time I feel the hedgehog needs I keep repeating this for the following days or even weeks. With some, the slightest movement causes them to raise their quills. Others don’t react at all and could do fine with skipping these steps.

After that I start doing more “hands on” interaction, touching them more, trying to see if they mind petting on the quills or not, or the face, belly etc. Again rewarding wanted behaviour. It’s a constant search for what they really don’t like, what they tolerate, and what I think is necessary for the process. This is something you can’t just know without experience, it’s something you will have to learn and that’s completely fine! And simply being around them, having them sleep on your lap is bonding too. You might not be really doing much but the hedgehog will get used to your presence.
Even if you bought a hedgehog with the intention of not handling it much (which should be fine, as long as it gets enough enrichment from its habitat) handling should be a part of hedgehog ownership. You need to be able to check for injuries, clip the nails, etc. These “medical checks” are part of my handling routine: I hold the feet, check the hedgehog all over including their teeth (if possible). Your vet will thank you for this as well! Even when I have no intention of clipping their nails I still hold their feet, not only to check them over but also to make them comfortable with me holding them, which makes for easier nail clipping.

So it all boils down to this: have lots of patience, take small steps, and don’t have expectations a hedgehog simply cannot live up to. Accept that some hedgehogs, even with extensive handling, will never be “cuddly” simply because that’s how they are. All those hedgehogs you see on the internet, the ones that are getting belly rubs and petted while looking extremely chill: these are not the majority. This is rare. And even if you see a hedgehog that tame, remember there’s a lot you’re not seeing: possibly many weeks, months or even years working towards that moment, and it still is just a few minutes out of the hedgehog’s life. They don’t show you the times the hedgehog is huffing and clicking and balling up. Don’t feel bad if yours is, be open and willing to learn about hedgehog behaviour and never stop asking questions. And most importantly, listen to your hedgehog by watching its body language, because that’s going to tell you more about your hedgehog than my posts about general hedgehog behaviour ever could!

Special Programme: Perfume "Collaboration" Excerpts

Morisanchuu: How will Perfume be like when everyone turns 50?
N: I think we’ll still be together.
K: Yeah, We do talk about it quite a bit huh - how the 3 of us will be like. I wonder if we’ll still be able to dance when we’re 50.
A: That is a problem huh. 50 years old - that’d be around the same age as my mom.
K: So it wouldn’t be weird to have a 20 year old daughter huh.
N: Well, but I get the feeling that there’ll definitely be something interesting that we can’t imagine. Don’t you think so?

Kimura Kaela: If you were to change your hairstyle, how would it be like?
K: Since I’ve always had long hair, I want to try having hair around as short as Nocchi’s, or maybe even Kaela-san’s.
A: Since Kashimama’s is short too, it’ll probably look good.
K: What about A-chan?
A: Huh, I don’t have any in mind.
N: What about the colour?
A: Ah, well, it seems like it’ll be really fun to wear black clothes with hair that’s browner and brighter.
K: That’s true, huh. It’ll change their impression on others.
A: So I guess, maybe a bright colour or something?
N: In my teens, I had hair about as long as Kashiyuka’s. But right now, I really feel like having a fringe again.
K: You haven’t had a fringe in some time huh.
A: Nocchimama has that hairstyle too. (Laughs)
N: Yeah, all of my female family members have started having that hairstyle.
K: Well, since everyone has more or less the same image, it probably looks good on everyone.

Takahashi Yuu: How do you keep the things you treasure?
N: Well I do have a treasured items box.
K&A: Me too.
N: With like our matching bracelets.
K: And straps.
A: And costumes, as well as letters from fans - as much as six boxes.
N: That’s amazing!
A: That’s why I keep mine above.
K: Ah, so you’re the above type? I’m the below type. The things I don’t have space for at home I leave at my parents’.
N: I guess I’m the below type too. But they’re all scattered about in various places.
A: Please keep them together! (Laughs)

Yuusuke Santamaria: What do guys do that make your hearts skip a beat?
N: I like nasally voices. Nasal inflammations are the best! So if we’re talking about actions, I like it when they cough. Like “eghem” or something.
A: Ain’t that no good! (Laughs)
K: I like it when they make a face like nothing’s happened after they almost fall. Like when they think no one saw, and without letting out their voice, they gaze off to the side.
A: Something that makes my heart skip a beat… The person I like!

MIKIKO: What are the moments that make you most happy for joining Perfume?
N: Though there a plenty, recently it’s been when we receive choreography from Sensei, and being able to dance that really cute choreography makes me go, “This is the best!”
K: For example, when we have our first lives at overseas locations, the moment we start, I often think, “Our dreams are coming true! Right now! Ah, I’m so glad that it’s the three of us, I’m so glad that it’s this team. There really isn’t any moment that’s happier than this!”
A: Yeah, I understand that. We get really nervous, right? But somehow, standing on stage, overcoming our nervous selves, being together with our precious comrades, and at the very end, we say “Well then, we’re Perfume! Thank you very much!” And then when we bow, I often think that I’m really glad to have joined Perfume. Like, nothing can replace that sense of accomplishment, and I can’t get enough of it.
N: It’s a bit complex, but I get it. And I’m sure Sensei thinks the same.

Miyagawa Daisuke: What are the parts about the others that you dislike, or wish would be changed?
N: Well, I mean it’s not like I wish for it to change, but if I had to say it, there is something… So A-chan likes to eat tasty things, but she has a small appetite, so when she gets full in the middle of a meal, she’ll become a little moody. The first bite is her peak, like “it tastes so goood!!”
All: (Laughs)
K: I also have something about A-chan.
A: Oh no! What could it be? Why is everyone choosing me? (Laughs)
K: It’s not like I dislike it or want it changed, so it’s like just some info, but there are times when she really gets into the choreography, and gets into a groove, and becomes unable to dance normally.
All: (Laughs)

Pornograffiti: What kind of house do you live in right now?
N: I’ve tried out various spacious floor plans, but the clutter began to build up, so now I’ve tightened it up.
A: You remodeled a lot huh.
N: I did. It’s left me worn out.
K: You threw away quite a lot of things, right?
N: Yeah.
A: All at once, right?
N: Yup.
A: As for me, my kitchen doesn’t have partitions to separate it from the rest of the living room, so I have to keep it clean. Other than that, the scenery is pretty.
K: Because it’s high up, huh.
A: Yeah.
N: Kashiyuka’s room is the probably the one I’ve seen the most photos of.
K: Ah, maybe so.
N: Inside anan (the magazine).
K: It’s scary how much of it is available to see. (Laughs)
A: She has plants, and she’s an animal person too. She really loves raising things. (Laughs)
K: Yeah, I have many living things.
N: If you look it up in anan you’ll probably more or less understand how it’s like. (Laughs)

Maeda Kenta: Do lives feel good?
A: Well, it feels suuuper great.
N: Feels suuuper great. Nothing can take its place.
K: I want to experience even more of it.

Chatmonchy: What kind of pajamas do you wear to sleep?
N: Recently, I’ve been wearing rompers, the one that look like a pair of shorts and a T-shirt joined together. The thin one.
K: I’m finally wearing the one I got from A-chan.
A: Really? I’m happy! The organic cotton one right?
K: I got it for my birthday but I thought I’d be too cold if I wore it in winter since it’s thin. So I’ve finally gotten to wearing it recently.
A: Recently I’ve been particular about the materials. To begin with I already have 80 or 90 sets, but I really really love pajamas, so there are times when I’ve bought one before I know it. Like, why’s this in my bag? (Laughs)

Maximum the Hormone: If you had to get a tattoo, what and where would you get it inked?
N: I think, I’d get something tattooed onto my scalp after shaving my hair.
K: How scary!
A: Wouldn’t that be troublesome for the tattoo artist? (Laughs)
K: I’d tattoo a triangle onto the back of my neck.
A: Ah! The fashionable sort.
K: If I got something like that, I wonder if it’d make feel like an android.
A: I can’t imagine it, but I like the kanji for strict (厳) because I think it’s the most balanced.
K: You’ve mentioned it before, huh. (Laughs)
A: Yeah. I’d tattoo that.

Manabe Daito: What’s the hardest challenge you’ve faced from using technology?
N: The pressure from Cannes was overwhelming, huh.
K: Yeah.
A: We had to wear the machinery on our shoulders for about an hour huh.
K: Yeah, on standby.
A: Yeah, after putting on the costumes and turning the switch on, the nervousness continued to build. Usually for our lives we put on our costumes right before the performance begins. But for Cannes, we didn’t know when our turn would come, and we didn’t know if we could smoothly put on the machinery, so we decided to get dressed earlier.
K: But overcoming that slow build-up was really fun, right? Like, the feeling of slowly getting closer to our goal was really enjoyable.
A: Yeah. That’s why we’d like to continue to challenge new things, so we’ll continue to await any new proposals too.
N: We’ll be in your care.

Seki Kazuaki: What MV(s) did you dislike filming?
A: Wasn’t the reverse playback really difficult?
K: That’s what I thought of too.
N: (Groans)
A: (Laughs) But, y'know, wasn’t Seki-san waiting for that answer?
K: All that hard work…
A: In the second chorus of Magic of Love, though it looks like we’re dancing normally, the truth is that we danced it in reverse.
K: From the way our hairs fly up, and the balls move backwards, you can tell that it was in reverse.
A: Yup yup. And the movements were a little weird too. (Laughs) That really was difficult..
N: We had to download a reverse playback application.
A: Yeah, and we recorded a lot with it, and because it was so difficult, we had to save all of it.
K&N: (Laughs)
A: And when we tried doing it for real it looked really bad.
K: We took quite a lot of takes huh. But it turned into an interesting MV, huh.
A&N: Yeah.
A: I really love that MV.

Notes from the Nakata interview
- It’s been about 14 years since they became acquainted. Nakata was about 22-23 at the time. Perfume were around 14-15.
- Nakata used to look much more like an uncle than he does now. His hair was short, and was blacker. He was wearing sunglasses too. It’s because he thoughts adults were cooler, so he wanted to look like one sooner.
- A-chan practiced hard to get the strange rhythm for Oishii Recipe down, but Nakata was very cold during the recording, which made her feel frustrated and tear a bit.
- Nakata talks about why he gets his vocalists to sit down while recording but I don’t really get what he means because it’s too abstract.
- Nakata uses auto-tune just because he thinks the songs would sound better and cooler with it.
- It’s not like Nakata has always had confidence in his music. But from some point, he began having confidence in the tracks he gives to Perfume.
- Computer City was the changing point in Perfume’s attitudes towards Nakata’s music. It was the song that made Perfume understand what Nakata was going for with his music. They brought the single’s poster to their high school to promote it. Before that, they used to be embarrassed about and keep quiet about their activities.
- Nakata has never told them, but he has always planned for their music to go in a cooler direction when they grew a little older. And looking back, they went in that direction earlier than he expected.
- The reason Nakata doesn’t really go to Perfume’s lives is because he doesn’t want it to change his impression of what songs he should be making for Perfume.
- Nakata thinks it’s important where a person is born, and he tries not to make music that can’t have its place of origin identified by the listener. So he doesn’t really go overseas much because he’s afraid of having his music sense changed.

Darren Criss & Brother Chuck Talk New, 'Unapologetically Fun' Alt-Pop Project, Computer Games

Darren Criss was always destined to make a career out of music. He studied the violin from age 5 well into his teenage years, picking up other instruments along the way, while also pursuing a love for musical theater. But he credits his own musical endeavors to the environment in which he grew up – particularly his older brother, Chuck, who brought other musical interests to the table especially when they were in high school.

“Music has always been the backbone of our relationship and our household,” Darren tells Billboard. “We both had a voracious appetite for music, but I think high school is when we started playing together and being to communicate on a level that changed everything. I think the kind of music we played is probably loud garage rock, because we were just playing in the basement.”

Once they graduated, though, the Criss brothers decided to take their own paths. Darren independently released a solo EP, Human, in July 2010, just months before debuting in his breakthrough role as dreamy choir head Blaine Anderson on Fox’s hit musical dramedy Glee, while Chuck found a home in New York City and became a founding member of indie-rock fivesome Freelance Whales.

With Glee seeing its end in 2015 and Freelance Whales’ most recent album hailing from 2012, both Criss brothers were itching to do something new musically – so they thought, why not relive the days of the brotherly collaborations? And come March 8, 2017, behold, the Criss alt-pop project Computer Games.

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WRITING TIPS: Dialogue tags

OKAY I realize this is a bird blog and not a writing blog, so probably this post will not get a lot of traction (if any). But I am, outside of my bird-blogging life, a professional editor, and I just needed to rant real quick about some of my biggest writing pet peeves, which can translate into TIPS FOR WRITERS, and I have no other venue for this. So here goes.

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I know I look crazy...

Alright I may look like a total psychopath but i really would like you opinion

@squirrellygirlart and @mr-hawkmoth 

Because you are me and my sisters idols I would really like your guys thoughts oh and sorry for basically online harassing you Squirrellygirlart    

Anastasia Au

(DISCLAIMER: They are not ladybug and chat noir)

Adrien has been in a orphanage for basically his whole life.

The King and Queen of England (Gabriel and Mama Agreste) are really sad because it’s been 15 years since their child went missing.

Adrien has the same first name though! And can speak english too

He had a lullaby he always remembered (Once upon a dream!!)

Con artist Plagg, his wife Tikki and their daughter Marinette are trying to find a fake Adrien Agreste to give to the family and get a reward

Plagg helped The queen and king escape when the kidnappers got into the palace when they took Adrien 15 years ago and took Adrien’s music box from the queen’s room (he was going to give it to her but they got split up.)

Plagg and Tikki go to jail for stealing money and they get caught so Mari is going to get the Ten Million Euro reward (DAMN) to 1) bail her parents out and 2) have more money.

She finds Adrien and convinces him he is the missing child.

Adrien has a cat named pooka and she comes along (to basically be Anastasia’s dog, if you have seen the movie.)

Her partner Rose Lavillant (yeah deal with it) helps ‘Train adrien’

He runs away with them.

When they get to London she realizes that Adrien is the REAL Adrien Agreste

Mari also realizes she is in love with Adrien.

Adrien finds out that Mari tricked him and thinks she thinks he is not the real adrien.

He gets mad at her and refuses to talk to her and only talks to Rose.

Mari convinces The parents to let Adrien see one of the royal family members.

Adrien meets Gabriel  late at night (like 11:30) in a guarder room in a separate house in London.

Mari argues with the king to see Adrien and gives him the music box.

“I’m done with seeing impostors trying to pull of as my son.”

“I’m no impostor sir! I am Adrien Agreste!”

“Enough with this!”

“Sir please! I am your son!”

“Do you think i’m some fool?!”

“At Least let me see Mrs. Agreste!”

“My wife is to fragile to meet another Imposter! When she found that the first boy who came wasn’t Adrien she was heartbroken!”

Gabriel goes to leave the room

Adrien starts singing his lullaby with the music box

A: “I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream

I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam. And I know it’s true that visions are seldom all they seem.But if I know you, I know what you’ll do You’ll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream”

Gabriel remembers that him and his wife sang that to Adrien every night before he was taken.

G: “But if I know you, I know what you’ll do. You’ll love me at once. The way you did once upon a dream”


A + G: “I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream I know you, that gleam in your eyes is so familiar a gleam And I know it’s true that visions are seldom all they seem But if I know you, I know what you’ll do You’ll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream”

Gabriel hugs adrien

(Quietly) “You are my son”

Adrien meets His parents


The king and queen offer Rose a job and she accepts

They offer Mari the reward money… but she doesn’t take the money.

“You sent for me, your grace?” Mari asked

“Ten million euros, as promised, and my gratitude.” The King said.

“I accept your gratitude, you highness, But I- I don’t want the money.”

“What do you want then?” The queen asks

“Unfortunately, nothing you can give.”

“Young woman, where did you get the music box? Your father was the man who saved us? Then you restore our son to us, yet you want no reward.”

“Not anymore.”

“Why the change of mind?” The king asks

“It was more of a change of heart…I must go.”

Adrien’s parents are like ‘Damn she hella in love.’

She leaves the room and runs into Adrien on the stairs.

“Hello, Marinette.” Adrien spoke coldly


“Did you collect your reward?”

“My business is complete.’

“Uh, young lady, you will bow.. And address the prince as ‘Your Highness” the servant said

“No that’s not necessary” Adrien said

“Please” Mari responded “Your Highness i’m glad you found what you were looking for.”

“Yes. I’m glad you did too.”

“Well, then, good-bye, your Highness.”

“Good-bye” Adrien spoke quietly.

Mari goes to say bye to rose

“Well, if you’re ever in the scummy part of paris again, look me up.” Mari said “So long Rose.”

They shared a quick embrace

“Ah, Marinette… you’re making a mistake.”

“Trust me… this is the one thing i’m doing right.”

She goes to pet Adrien’s cat

“So long, cat.”

Pooka lets out a whine.

“I can’t stay. I don’t belong here.”

The epic Ball/party/dance starts for Adrien being found.

They are looking through the drapes.

“She’s not there.” The queen spoke to her son.

“Oh, I know she’s not– she, who’s not there mother?”

“A remarkable young woman… whose father found a music box.”

“No, she’s probably too busy spending her reward money as fast as she can.”

The queen looked off quickly before speaking again “Look at them dance… you were born into this world of glittering jewels, and fine titles, but I wonder… if this is what you really want.”

“Of course!” Adrien answered. “Of course it is. I found what I was looking for! I found out who I am, I found you!”

“Yes you did find me– and you’ll always have me–” She pulled Adrien into a tight hug “but is it enough?…. My darling, she didn’t take the money.”

Adrien pulled back, shocked “She-She didn’t?”

“Knowing that you are alive, seeing the man you have become…brings me joy I never thought I could feel again.” She said before giving him a kiss on the forehead.

“Whatever you choose,” The king said walking through the curtains. “We will always be a family.” He walked over to Adrien and kissed his forehead.

“Mother, father, can’t you tell me the–” Adrien turned around to see both of his parents had gone through the curtains, to the dance floor.

He looked through and took a step out, before stepping back.

He hears a noise and pooka hissing

He runs outside to see men with long metal rods ready to beat the living shit out of him, and probably kill him. (They were the guys who abducted him when he was a baby.)

Mari jumps out to defend Adrien and gets beat the shit out of, but the guys left injured.

“Mari” Adrien said flipping the unconscious (Probably dead) girl on her back.

“No.” he cried into his knees facing away from the girl

Mari groans as she gets up, Adrien gasps

He throws his arms out and accidentally slaps her lightly as he goes of a big hug.

“Ow! Let go, let go.” she said before falling back in pain

“Sorry. Sorry”

She groaned as she propped herself on her knees.

“I thought you were going back to paris?” Adrien asked

“I was.” Mari said

“You didn’t take the–”

“I couldn’t.”


Mari leans closer to the blonde boy. “Because… I-”

Adrien started pulling Mari into a kiss

Pooka meows with the crown around his neck.

“Oh…” Mari said before taking the crown off the cat’s neck. She holds in in her hands as she looks at Adrien. They both stand up. “They’re waiting for you.”

He take it from the dark haired girl.


The king puts down the crown made for his son, picking up a note in a room full of guards and servants looking for his son.

Dear father and mother,

Wish me luck. We’ll be together in London again soon.

Love, your son, Adrien Agreste.  

The king passed it to his wife she read it over quickly

“Oh! They’ve eloped! Isn’t it romantic? It’s a perfect ending!”

The king smiled. “No. It’s a perfect beginning.”

The queen goes by his side as the gaze at the stars knowing that their son will be back.


Adrien (still in full prince attire) and Mari are ballroom dancing and then kissing (much to Pookas disgust) on a boat taking them back to paris, but just for a bit, they need to meet a lovely dark haired young woman’s parents.

Adrien picked her up (bridal style) and spun her in circles, Marinette couldn’t contain her giggles.

“Don’t worry London,” Adrien shouted out to the air “We will be back soon!”



Someone goes back in time to make sure adrien’s parents never meet and he goes back to get them together Au

(DISCLAIMER: They are ladybug and chat noir)

Somehow an akuma gets time travel power (Like a time machine, not like time breaker)

They hate Adrien and are all salty and they’re all like “Ha Adrien Agreste i’m going back in time to stop your parents from meeting!”

Adrien and Mari (both transformed) (plus alya and nino cause the get sucked in for some reason) go back in time to 1986 (Both of his parents are 24)

And because the go back in time Adrien and Mari get EXPOSED (Because 16 years ago they didn’t have their kwami) and the gang freaks out for a bit and then adrien’s like “Yo i’m really happy Mari’s ladybug but the akuma kinda wants me dead.”

Adrien’s parents meet at a coffee shop when Gabriel was just a broke design student. (Mama Agreste’s name will be Mia for the sake of the woman having a name)

But the akuma messes it up and thinks that their work is done.

BUTTTT the squad breaks into a concert that Gabe and Mia are going to.


Adrien notices that he’s slowly disappearing.

Mari, Alya and Nino go out into the crowd to try to push the two together

Adrien hijacking the finale performance.

He pulls a Brian in ‘Meet the Quagmires’  


Mia and Gabe walk towards each other thanks to Nino, Mari and Alya’s coaching.

They first meet and Gabriel is like “I know this sounds weird but… can I kiss you?”

“Yes you may”

They leave the concert to go on a real date.

Adrien isn’t disappearing!!

Mari and Adrien kiss in the V-J Day in Times Square style and a photographer gets it.

Because the akuma fails they go back to their time.

Ladybug captures the akuma, blah blah blah

The next day they go to school the next day and they do modern history.

“And here class (on the projector) is a picture from 1986 that got famous for being an inspiration for Gabriel Agreste’s first very popular clothes line. As you see the three pictures are taken as the boy leans in for the kiss. As you can see this was also very popular because it was an interracial couple kissing very similar to the V-J day kiss.” AND ITS ADRIEN AND MARI KISSING BACK IN THE 80’S AND THEY ARE TRYING NOT TO FREAK OUT.

“Nino, Alya, Marinette, and Adrien do you have a comment about this photo?”

Alya dying laughing “No-no we, were good.”

The whole class is like ‘Wtf guys what’s so funny?’

The squad just giggles the rest of the lesson and almost gets kicked out like 70 times.

When class is over Adrien picks up Mari and just runs the fuck out

And is adorable. And everyones like WTF? What happened since yesterday like Mari couldn’t even talk to him and now the are like a couple???

And someone’s like “Hey that couple from the picture kinda look like Mari and Adrien”

Everyone: “…… Nah!”


Modern au six of crows

Just some hcs about the dregs gang in modern times I guess

Kaz Brekker

-black coffee
-lock pick
-honestly like the rest of them will Come in and he’ll already be inside
-I’ve been waiting for you
-pick pockets his “allies” all the time
-gloves? Yes
-has a slight fear of touch
-it used to be really bad but he’s
Overcoming it
-cane? Yes
-he fell out of a tree when he was little and broke his leg so he uses his cane
-plus It’s fun to hit people with
- has the dregs tattoo because he loves crows and he’s an extra little shit who’s an edgelord
-he’s in fights like all the time
-they don’t call him dirtyhands for
-so smart
-has social media but only posts cryptic aesthetic shots or out of context remarks
-uses his talent for evil mostly
-his teachers still love him tho????
-very fascinated in psychology
-and business
- b o o k s
-mostly crime but he’s such a closet
-you can pry Harry Potter from his
Cold dead hands
-loves the stars
-and the moon
-and Inej
-has to put up with the constant
-points to random crow
-kaz it’s u
-actually the originator of #getbrekked
-will never admit it
-all started when Jesper pranked him
-covered every inch of his room with post stick notes. It blew up on YouTube
-well the is kaz Fucking brekker
-was he going to stand for that
-so he sets up his own YouTube account
-films his first video
-his revenge
-he tinfoils all of jespers room. Even the socks.
-the video blows up he gets tons of subscribers and his revenge
-but most important from this one comment. From one account that has never been active since the tag
-was born.

Inej Ghafa
-ultimate secret keeper
-knows everything tbh
-the one who can just turn up out of nowhere??
-where did you come from
-this place called outside
-instagram queen
-it’s usually loads of aesthetic shots and sunrises but every now and again there’ll be a video of her shouting parkour and chasing after a squirrel
-loves to dance
-the best at hide and seek
-only uses Snapchat for blackmail
-Kaz?? Sleeping??? S n a p
-keeps a photo book you can fite me on this
-her parents took her to the circus when she was little and she fell in love with the tightrope and the acrobats
-so she became great at it
-really good
-sometimes she does it to scare kaz
-he pretends it doesn’t work but sometimes he’s so freaked out
Like how are you bending your body like that??? Wtf????
-doesn’t swear
-the original fricketyfrack
-interested in culture history language and photography
-aspiring poet
-social justice
- plans to start a movement when she’s old enough
-tea over coffee

Nina Zenik
-one word: queen
- her and Matthias are everyone’s otp
- social justice in high heels
- every social media
- YouTube? You bet ya
- fashion hauls make up tutorials and
The ever growing list of videos
Featuring Matthias
- likes indie music would die for Ed
- really interested in languages and fashion
- she wants amazing designs to stay the same in plus sized clothes
-high heels
- cannot cook
- at all
- blew up a microwave trying to
Warm up leftovers
- hot chocolate and blankets
- binge watching tv
-somehow knows everyone???
- hey Nina
- hey zoya
- who’s she
- oh just somebody
- smart but will never revise
- why revise when I can eat
- grades Nina
- waffles matty
- red
- once tried to start a band
- can speak three languages

Jesper Fahey
- ADHD? I’m gonna say ADHD
- danced but doesn’t do it seriously
- mostly does it to embarrass Wylan
- Jesper please
- what? My hips don’t like wy
- listens to shakira
- huge gamer
- debates
- politics
- he’s smart but he never tries. Prefers to argue about homework then do it
- finger guns
- with sound affects
- 80s music
- and you better believe that he once entered the classroom singing all star
- constantly flirting with Wylan
- freakishly good aim
- hey kaz, do you bet I can throw this pencil in ninas bun from here
- do it
- worst and best taste in fashion simultaneously
- one day it’s great. Shorts and t shirts, hats and then the next it’s lime green checkered pants.
- red cowboy boots
- farmer sayings
- loves it when Kaz gets them
- p r a n k s t e r
- youtube Chanel is literally just pranks but he has so many subscribers
- always puts things on the highest shelf

Wylan van Eck

- Wylan van sunshine or Wylan van rekt there’s no In between.
- usually quite sweet and innocent but every one Knows he’s anything but. Eveynow and again these comments just slip out like
- yeah that’s not the only thing Kaz wishes he could be doing
- r u n
- was bullied pretty bad for his dyslexia but now he just doesn’t really care???
- I’ll just draw my bullied drowning
- a r t I s t
- his art teacher adores him
- only has tumblr to post his art work
- really big on tumblr
- dog person
- massive nerd
- superheroes?? Sign me up
- amazing at chemistry and maths
- puns
- so many puns
- you think you can beat me at mariokart? I was a lonely kid with no friends and too much free time. You will never beat me at Mario kart
- fuck
- watch your fucking language Wylan
- sweaters
- always covered in ink???

Kuwei yul bo

- the odd one
- he’s always there but he’s always not
- the child of the group
- he’s basically the weird thought you have at 4 am
- not innocent
- not at all
- he kinda just sits back and observes
- but that means he knows everything
- he and Inej share so many looks
- he’s a nerd in every imaginable level
- him and Wylan fight over things all the time but they’re bros
- has memorised the entire periodic table song
- somehow has kissed more people than both Nina and Jesper
- it’s 3 am and there’s a murmuring voice in the darkness
- this is the periodic table nobl-
- shut u p
- chemistry and physics
- can actually cook
- rly close to matty and Nina
- that one kid who purposely makes things explode
- fire? FIRE
- rlly bad at comebacks sometimes he just walks away

Matthias helvar
- sports fan
- all sports
- doesn’t actually play them that much? He mostly just hits the gym
- long hair
- very philosophical
- the mum friend
- when I’m the voice of reason you know something’s wrong
- can cook really well
- always baking for Nina
- gives the best piggybacks
- everything looks so high from up here
- Wylan loves it
- tattoos
- so many deep meaningful
- he can’t go a day without saying they’re all horrible
- he’s always searching for the truth
- can tolerate really cold temperatures
- plants
- the sea
- stands up for what he thinks is right
- is actually how he met the crows
- he was beating up some kids who were mocking someone with dyslexia
- so he bears them up and when he rounds the corner guess who’s there
- Kaz Fucking brekker
- and so the induction starts

WDW TBT - River Country in Florida

February 5, 2015

Today’s Throw-Back-Thursday is for a now abandoned water park here in Central Florida.  River Country at Walt Disney World was a seasonal park located near the Fort Wilderness Lodge. This first water park at WDW opened on June 20, 1976 and ceased operations on November 2, 2001. Four years later, Disney announced it would stay closed permanently. With Blizzard Beach and Typhoon Lagoon now open (they both opened in the ‘80’s), one more water park, especially a very old and small one, just isn’t necessary. In the almost 15 years since Its closure, the park is decrepit and falling apart; an epitome of a ghost park.

(Above: River Country when open)

Surprisingly, while I was raised here in Central Florida and went to WDW a lot, often camping in Ft. Wilderness, I never went to River Country. The water park looked like it was designed as some kind of cross between Tom Sawyer and Big Thunder Mountain Railroad; “an old-fashioned swimming hole” was Its theme; right down to the tire swings and rope bridges. Of course, back when it was created, the Imagineers didn’t understand the possible repercussions of some of their design choices. Such as, damming Bay Lake and using untreated, though filtered, fresh water for the park. This resulted in a water-born disease (with a 95% fatality rate) that killed at least one child.

(Above: Goofy was the official River Country Mascot)

(Below: The same slide today)

The park continued struggling on, barely making a profit with the competition of the two, newer water parks. Then, citing declining tourism rates everywhere after 9/11, the decision was to close the park, with a possibility of reopening at some point. However, that idea was abandoned in 2005 when Disney announced it would not reopen. It may also have had to do with “a change in Florida laws, which prohibited unchlorinated natural water bodies from being used for water park attractions”. [Wikipedia] It would have taken major overhauling to accomplish this change, and it just wasn’t worth it.

(Above: Main swimming hole then, a fresh-water lake… Below: and today)

Want to hear something REALLY creepy? The park has been closed 14 years. Occasionally, people sneak in to the park, taking pictures or video. Let’s face it…who ISN’T intrigued by abandoned amusement parks? I’ve got a whole board on my Pinterest page dedicated to just that subject! ( www.pinterest.com/guinnesswench )More than one person reports that path lights, water fountains, and plumbing still work and the park’s banjo MUSIC IS STILL PLAYING. Here’s a video of two guys who snuck in at twilight. Eerie. 

(listen for the music about 3 minutes into the clip)

I haven’t been able to find any reason why the park was simply abandoned instead of being demolished. Most of the park was left in place, even towel boxes, rafts, etc., as if it fully planned to reopen for business. You would think that demolishing it would be preferable both for a liability issue (you just know at some point, some idiot is going to sneak in and get killed) and an environmental one. I can tell you, it doesn’t take long for things that are left neglected in Florida to be reclaimed by swamp. I just can’t believe the deterioration doesn’t hurt the environment. And why not use the land to create something useful?

(Water slides and pool then and now)

At any rate, if you never made it to River Country, it has to go on the “Things you’ll never see again at Disney” list. Then head over to Blizzard Beach or Typhoon Lagoon for a bigger and better water park.

(Above: What remains of River Country)

Time: Chapter 15

Summary: Soulmate!AU/Reincarnation!AU. Female!Reader lives in a world where alien invasions threaten Earth, hordes of death robots destroy entire  towns and past lives and soulmates are very real. Like most people, she gets brief glimpses of her past. Although a person’s past lives and their current life may have little to nothing in common, soul mates tend to transfer between lives, the core of a person staying the same throughout the eons. You and Steve have finally gotten back together after 80 years apart, but fate throws a wrench into your happiness.

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Female!Reader, Steve Rogers x Female!Reader

Warnings: Language, angst, fluff, mentions of torture

Word Count: ~2,515

A/N: We’re getting close to the end, guys. I think one, maybe two more chapters?

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“Bucky,” Steve breathed, putting the glass down gently on the counter, all thoughts of rehydration forgotten.

“Yeah, they’re waking him up. They figured out how to get that Hydra shit out of his head. They sent it to us this morning, but it took Scott and Clint a while to-”

“Send me the details. I’m going. Now,” Steve said, hanging up the call without another word.

Why? Why now? Bucky was so important to him, but (Y/N)… you and Bucky had history, to say the least. Bucky had shattered you, not unlike how you’d shattered him when you’d left him at the hospital all those years ago. He’d finally moved onto the next level of your relationship and-

He shook his head clear of those dark thoughts and focused on the only two that mattered just then.

Bucky was waking up. And Steve had to get to him.

Steve left a note on the bedside table, on top of his unfinished sketch of you. He left you sleeping. He didn’t want to leave you there like that, but needed to get to Bucky as soon as possible. He wasn’t sure what he’d find when he got there, and wouldn’t risk putting you in harm’s way, even though he knew how much Bucky cared for you. Loved you, even.

He kept telling himself it absolutely wasn’t for other, selfish reasons.

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Hey I am doing Pickup line Prompts from now until the day before my birthday! (March 1-16) (My birthday is the 17th.) I would do it on my birthday but I have a surprise for that day… 😜. Anyways, so here are the prompts below just tell me number, person, fandom (optional.), any specific things you want (also optional.) Don’t forget you can reblog and use these (please give me credit if you repost cause it took me awhile to find all these pickup lines.) so here are the prompts:

1. Baby, you must be a broom, cause you just swept me off my feet.

2. Baby, you’re so sweet, you put Hershey’s outta business.

3. Didn’t I see you on the cover of Vogue?

4. Excuse me, I don’t want you to think I’m ridiculous or anything, but you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen. I just felt like I had to tell you.

5. Have you always been this cute, or did you have to work at it?

6. Hey, don’t I know you? Yeah, you’re the girl with the beautiful smile.

7. Hey, I know you! You were Miss Maryland last year, weren’t you?

8. I feel like Richard Gere, I’m standing next to you, the Pretty Woman.

9. I hope you know CPR, cuz you take my breath away!

10. I just had to come talk with you. Sweetness is my weakness.

11. I know milk does a body good, but baby, how much have you been drinking?

12. I think I can die happy now, cause I’ve just seen a piece of heaven.

13. I’m not drunk, I’m just intoxicated by you.

14. If I told you that you had a great body, would you hold it against me?

15. If this bar is a meat market, you must be the prime rib.

16. Is it hot in here or is it just you?

17. Nice to meet you, I’m (your name) and you are…gorgeous!

18. Was your dad king for a day? He must have been to make a princess (or prince) like you.

19. Was your father a mechanic? Then how did you get such a finely tuned body?

20. Were you arrested earlier? It’s gotta be illegal to look that good.

21. Were you in Boy Scouts? Because you sure have tied my heart in a knot.

22. Were your parents Greek Gods, ‘cause it takes two gods to make a goddess.

23. What does it feel like to be the most beautiful girl in this room?

24. What’s that on your face? Oh, must just be beauty. Here, let me get it off. Hey, it’s not coming off!

25. Ya know, you look really hot! You must be real reason for global warming.

26. You are the reason men fall in love.

27. You know, you might be asked to leave soon. You’re making the other women look really bad.

28. You look like my third wife. She: Oh, how many time have you been married? Twice.

29. Oh my sweet darling! For a moment I thought I had died and gone to heaven. Now I see that I am very much alive, and heaven has been brought to me.

30. If you have a chance to become anything on earth what would you want to become?“ [the answer] you: ” well to me, I want to be your tear drop: I was born in your eyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips.

31. You’re so hot you would make the devil sweat.

32. If I had a rose for every time I thought of you, I would be walking through my garden forever.

33. Excuse me…..Hi, i’m writing a term paper on the finer things in life, and i was wondering if i could interview you…

34. If god made any thing better than you he keep it for him self.

35. Guy: Sorry, but you owe me a drink. Girl: Why? Guy: I looked at you and dropped mine.

36. Damn, I thought “very-fine” only came in a bottle!

37. Hey, how did you do that? (What?) Look so good?

38. If beauty were time, you’d be eternity.

39. Are you a parking ticket? (What?) You got fine written all over you.

40. If you stood in front of a mirror and help up 11 roses, you would see 12 of the most beautiful things in the world.

41. Presents the person with a single rose and say: “I just wanted to show this rose how incredibly beautiful you are.”

42. I betting that you cannot wait until tomorrow, because I bet that you get more and more beautiful every day.

43. You look like a cool glass of refreshing water, and I am the thirstiest man in the world.

44. Are you a tamale? 'Cause you’re hot.

45. You are so beautiful that you give the sun a reason to shine.

46. Most people like to watch the (i.e. World Cup, Stanley Cup, Super Bowl, NBA playoffs, etc..) cuz it only happens once a year/every 4 years, but I’d rather talk to you cause the chance of meeting someone like you only happens once in a lifetime.

47. Where’s your paper bag? (What?) Your paper bag to put over your head. (Excuse me?) It’s dangerous for someone like you to be out in public with all of these horny people around. Don’t worry, I’ll protect you.

48. When I saw you from across the room, I passed out cold and hit my head on the floor…so I’m going to need your name and number for insurance reasons.

49. Do you want to see a picture of a beautiful person? (hold up a mirror)

50. Stop, drop, and roll, baby. You are on fire.

51. Baby, you’re so hot, you make the equator look like the north pole.

52. Babe, your beauty makes the morning sun look like the dull glimmer of the moon.

53. Even though the ugly lights are shining bright, you still look beautiful.

54. There aren’t enough “O”’s in the word “smooth” to describe how smooth you are.

55. (Walk up to them and touch them) Thank God, I thought that you were only an illusion(mirage).

56. If beauty were a grain of sand, you’d be a million beaches.

57. You must be going to hell, because it is a sin to look that good.

58. Come live in my heart, and pay no rent.

59. If it weren’t for that DAMNED sun, you’d be the hottest thing ever created.

60. That’s a nice watch [Thank you] Actually, that’s a nice dress. [Again, thank you] Come to think of it, everything is nice on you.

61. How is your fever? [What fever?] Oh… you just look hot to me.

62. (Walk up to someone and bite them anywhere) Person: What are you doing?!?!? You: Sorry, taking a bite out of crime. Person: WHAT?!?!? You: Well it has to be illegal to look that good!

63. Excuse me, I’d like to have kids someday, and I wanted to know how your parents created such a beautiful creature.

64. When God made you, he was showing off.

65. If all the stars in the sky were summed, not even words that many times stronger than “beautiful” could ever be used to describe you.

66. If you were a laser gun, you’d be set on stunning.

67. The drink: $6. The room: $100. The night with you?: Priceless.

68. Listen to this: my buddies over there said that I wouldn’t be able to start a conversation with the most beautiful boy/girl in the bar. Wanna buy some drinks with some of their money?

69. If I received a nickel for everytime I saw someone as beautiful as you, I’d have five cents.

70. I don’t know you, but I think I love you already.

71. You look beautiful today, just like every other day.

72. Are you an interior decorator? When i saw you the room became beautiful.

73. You know I’d like to invite you over, but I’m afraid you’re so hot you’ll skyrocket my air-conditioning bill.

74. [You] Here are my keys [Other] Why? [You] Here’s the key to my house, my car,…and my heart.

75. You had better direct that beauty and femininity somewhere else, you’ll set the carpet on fire.

76. When I’m older, I’ll look back at all of my crowning memories, and I’ll think of the day my children were born, the day I got married, and the day that I met you.

77. Is your name Summer? 'Cause you are as hot as hell.

78. Fascinating. I’ve been looking at your eyes all night long. I’ve been looking at your eyes all night long, 'cause I’ve never seen such dark eyes with so much light in them.

79. Fat Penguin. WHAT? I just thought I’d say something to break the ice.

80. You know that I think about you only twice a day? Once when my eyes are open, and once when they are closed.

81. If I had to choose between one night with you or winning the lottery…I would chose winning the lottery…but it would be close…real close…

82. If I were a stop light, I’d turn red everytime you passed by, just so I could stare at you a bit longer.

83. Damn, Sugar, settle down. I’m diabetic.

84. You need $20 and a friend. Give friend the $20. Walk up to target. Friend says, “You’re right. Those are the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen.” Hands you the $20 and walks away.

85. So last night I had the same dream over and over - always the same thing, but in a different location every time. I kept dreaming that I was asking you out, but every time before you answered, I woke up, and I’m dying to know what your answer was.

86. If I had a star for every time you brightened my day, I’d have a galaxy in my hand.

87. (If s/he is looking at you)You know, my mother always told me it was impolite to stare… so what do you say we dance?

88. See these keys? Ya like em? I wish I had the one to your heart.

89. Do you have a twin sister? Then you must be the most beautiful girl in the world!

90. I think that your attractive and simply amazing from what I’ve seen so far. Can I get your number and meet your personality.

91. All the other girls are just rough Drafts …. but i think you are the FINAL COPY!!

92. If God had a refrigerator, a picture of you would be on it.

93. You’re so beautiful that you made me forget my pickup line.

94. A thousand painters working for a thousand years could not create a beauty that equals you.

95. If you could put a price tag on beauty you’d be worth more than Fort Knox.

96. You’re so hot, I’d better smother you with my body before you burst into flame!

97. You’re single. I’m single. Coincidence? I think not.

98. Kissing Burns 6.4 calories per minute. Wanna work out?

99. Let’s play a game. Winner dates loser.

100. You are perfect, but there’s one thing I wanna change about you. (What?) Your last name.

Voltron Character Analysis

If there is anything that cartoon enthusiasts have learned, is that there is nothing accidental. Nearly everything has a purpose in a cartoon, rather it be the color of a character’s hoodies or a throwaway line spoken at the last second. The fandom will analyze and break it down in order to flesh out the characters more fully. Voltron is certainly not immune to his and is perhaps under even more scrutiny because of its temporary wait until season 2. The fandom has time to sit down and analyze out different theories and characters and I wanted to take a look at something that seems fairly obvious.

Voltron is composed of five pieces. A head and torso, two arms, two legs. Easy enough. But why are the Green and Red Lions the arms? Could they also be the legs? Or are they configured that why for a certain reason? And if so, how do the pilots of each Lion fit into the scheme of it? I made some observations and narrowed it down to three characteristics that explain why these characters might have been chosen by their lions, the relation to their position on the team, and how it defines them.

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Originally posted by caps-bucky

Can you do one for either Bucky where the reader is an only child and her dad is her only family so she arranged for her dad to meet Bucky and he doesn’t know how to act bc he just got home from a long mission and wasn’t expecting the sudden visit (I know it’s long sorry) - anon

A/N- I couldn’t think of a reason why ‘your’ dad would want to visit Bucky so I made this up, so ‘your’ dad would have had you at like forty or something in the 80’s

“I know him,” you dad spoke up one day, pointing to the television.

“What was that, dad?” you asked, coming in to see what he was going on about.

He was pointing at the tv screen which was showing a newsreel about some guy called Bucky Barnes who was thought to be dead but was now found alive. “How do you know him?” you asked.

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…when you’re looking at your fic and you know you need to take a part of it out but you’re reluctant because every freaking word of the fic has been bought in blood, sweat and tears and you’re like “wasted work noooooo ;;;_;;;” And so you make a little deal with yourself that you can put it on tumblr so it won’t be 1700 words of heavy labor all for naught.

So this is more of an outtake than an excerpt from the wip (which is now at 49K, yay). Anyone who’s beta’d for me knows that I have a bad habit of using flashbacks, sometimes nested convolutedly, and I think we can all agree that 1700 words is way too long to ask a reader to temporarily exist in another time-frame. This scene is a memory Jon has of spring 2014, and it’s drawn very much on my own recollections of Kaner post-Sochi and what was going on with him, as well as speculation about the contract negotiations that could take place starting July 1. The ‘Kevin’ mentioned is Kevin Hayes, and is pretty much confirmed as accurate. I wrote this last summer before we knew what was going to happen with Panarin, and it’s very cheering to see what a positive, even spectacular outcome it turned out to be.

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A Thing About 1994

This is self-indulgent and ranty so don’t expect more or less, it’s something I wrote last week but never posted because I was like “eehhhhh too self-indulgent" 

I promise, there’s a point to why I’m talking about this. :D Nothing bad, I promise! Everything’s okay, no one hurt me, haha. But 1994 has been a weird, wacky journey even this long after the fact. So here are some words HAVE SOME WORDS.

I don’t want this to open a huge dialogue or anything, I just want to put this out there and leave it be, hopefully an ultimately positive message. TYFYT.

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Thank You, Kendrick, For Not Becoming a Sellout

“Got a high tolerance when your age don’t exist”

This lyric is from the first song I heard by Kendrick Lamar, “ADHD”, from his album Section.80. I listened to it sometime in 2011 and was in love. The song centers around drug abuse. At first, I thought the previously stated lyric meant that people often don’t believe they can become addicted to drugs when they’re young. However, it could actually mean that many become exposed to drugs due to their mothers using them while pregnant. Another line of ADHD states “you know why we crack babies, ’cause we born in the 80s”, which might refer to to popularity of cocaine in the 1980’s that led to some babies being born with a higher tolerance.

In the first verse, Lamar explains that someone he knows is “trippin’…again” (likely an overdose), so he tries to put this person into cold water and give him/her vicodin. The following line states “Hope to take the pain away from the feelin’ that he feel today.” Later in the same verse, he says “cause you are…a loner. Marijuana endorphins make you stronger.” To me, Kendrick is explaining that abuse/addiction is often a result of using drugs to cope with life’s pain.

People do drugs to have fun. People do drugs when they want to escape from everything life’s thrown at them. Kendrick Lamar gets that – and for that reason, I love him. This song’s borderline cutthroat honesty is so beautifully raw.

People really started to notice Kendrick Lamar when he released his next album, Good Kid m.a.a.d City, in October of 2012. It seemed like everyone I knew obsessed over two songs of the album’s sixteen – “Backstreet Freestyle” and “M.a.a.d City.” They’re both crazy songs that were worthy of the radio and everyone’s shouting voices for late 2012 and early 2013. They didn’t resemble the slow paced, truthful “ADHD”, but I didn’t care much because they were still quality songs. Lamar was finally famous.

I love these two songs, along with the rest of the album. I also love “ADHD” and Lamar’s other work. I love Kendrick Lamar, and I thought everyone else did too. Well, I guess they loved Good Kid M.a.a.d City. Kendrick Lamar released a new album on Sunday titled To Pimp a Butterfly. After listening to this album, I felt like I knew more about Lamar. He shared so much with us through this collection of songs. In “Complexion”, he states that one’s skin color doesn’t matter (“Complexion don’t mean a thing…it all feels the same”) And oh my gosh – “The Blacker the Berry” might have brought me to tears. The song describes some of Lamar’s thoughts on being African American in the United States in 2015 and his dislike of black – on – black crime. He makes it clear that he is, in fact, black. This is followed by “You hate my people; your plan is to terminate my culture.” The line that I remember the most is “I’m as black as the heart of a[n]…aryan.” Shortly before the song finishes, Lamar asks himself why he sympathized with Trayvon Martin after his death yet doesn’t flinch at blacks inflicting violence on blacks. The album has so much of his heart inside of it. I’d definitely recommend you to listen.

You’d think that an album this moving would be a success – especially considering that many of his fans have been anticipating new music. I guess not, though. Sure, I could list name after name of people I know that appreciated To Pimp a Butterfly. But it doesn’t compare to the amount of people that practically worshipped “Backstreet Freestyle” and “M.a.a.d City.” Some people said that they were disappointed by this album. But, how?

I’m disappointed in everyone that’s disappointed by this album. They don’t know how to appreciate masterpieces, I guess.

Furthermore, it saddens me that not as many people know about “ADHD” because it’s still relevant today. I’m not against the usage of drugs. However, I feel that many illegal psychotics are glamorized as an “experience.” People go into it thinking that because these substances are “cool”, they’re fine to irresponsibly experiment with. But addiction can develop, and it can be a losing battle for many. Some even die after just one use. I feel that a lot of people don’t want to use drugs like LSD, cocaine, or ecstasy responsibly – while hydrated, in a comfortable environment, and only in amounts that one can handle – because they feel that they don’t need to. They think they’ll turn out okay. But sometimes, by the time they realize that they didn’t, in fact, turn out okay – it’s too late. They need that substance just to survive. Or, they stopped surviving and had to pay the ultimate price.

Lamar somewhat confronted this in lyrical format – but not enough people know about it, in my opinion. He confronted more issues, still through music – but this time, it was after his huge surge of fame. He could’ve chosen to instead release music that appeals to a larger amount of people – like, music that has little to no lyrical content but sounds wild – instead. And I’m sure he would’ve gotten even more famous and made a copious amount of money that way.

But maybe, that’s not what Kendrick Lamar cares about. I believe that he makes the music that he wants to make, whether it follows the trend of other mainstream songs or not. After listening to his most recent album, I realize that he isn’t necessarily interested solely in appealing to others. So, maybe some people don’t know the meaning of these new songs. People might not even know that there is meaning. Or, they can comprehend what he’s saying, but don’t care to truly listen because it’s too difficult.

I guess this is just my way of saying thanks to Kendrick Lamar. Thank you for continuing to demonstrate your musical variety years after I learned your name. Thank you for challenging me to reconsider what I thought I knew about the word, even though it was difficult for me to do so. Thank you for giving me an album that I’ll always treasure. Thank you, Kendrick, for not becoming a sellout.

Believe in Swan Queen

Okay, I’m finally doing this! 

I am Swen

Hey everyone. I’m Dom (Dominique to my mother, but only when she’s yelling at me). I’m a 21 girl who has no idea how to adult. I was born and raised in Pennsylvania, USA. I was raised a Dallas Cowboys fan, so for those of you that like football, you would know that being a Cowboys fan where I’m from is a big no-no. Tbh the only bullying I’ve ever experienced in my life was just the fact that I liked the Cowboys. I could rant about that forever, but no one needs to hear how I get when I talk about football. I don’t really think I’m that good at much. I’m good at bullshitting life. Does that count? I’m counting it. My favorite color(s) are all shades of blue really. Mainly navy blue (this relates to the football thing really). 

I’m the least healthiest person you’ll ever meet. I know, it’s horrible, but I just hate almost every food that’s good for you. My favorite drink is Sprite. I drink at least 2 cans a day. It use to be more so don’t judge me. I got a little better. My favorite food is a cheeseburger. My favorite movie of all time is Forrest Gump (with Imagine me and You and Love Actually in second and third. Now thatI’m thinking about it Pitch Perfect 1 and 2 are probably in from of Imagine Me and You now-a-days). One of my favorite genres of music is country. My favorite show is Grey’s Anatomy seasons 1-7. I don’t like to think about seasons 8 and after. Some of my other OTPs, oh jeez, I’m gonna try to keep this as short as possible: Jori (Victorious), Rizzles (Rizzoli and Isles), MerDer (Grey’s Anatomy I hate everything), Bechloe (Pitch Perfect), Clexa (The 100), Siophie (Coronation Street: I use to ship them so hard tbh), Naomily (skins), Spashley (South of Nowhere), Ryan and Marissa (The OC), Jax and Tara (Sons of Anarchy), Tig and Venus (Sons of Anarchy)…remember when I said I was gonna make this short? Idk what happened but I’m forcing myself to stop right now.

I LOVE Swan Queen

Okay, so I started OUAT when it first premiered in 2011. I just remember my mom and I kept seeing commercials and ads about this show everywhere so we were like, why not watch it? It looked good. I started shipping Swan Queen full on by 1x05 (That Still Small Voice). I truly thought Regina was going to kiss Emma when she walked up to her at the mines when they were talking about saving Henry. Like why else get that close?! It still blows my mind that they didn’t kiss. I’m a huge sucker for the classic season 1 Swan Queen. I like when my ships bicker like crazy. But I’m also a HUGE fan of season 4 Swan Queen. My babies have come so far and it just so amazing to see the difference from season 1. I love it so much much, it hurts. My favorite season 4 moment? hmm too many to choose just one. I would have to say when Regina magics herself out of the bug and is all like “Thanks for trying, Miss Swan”. But then that stupid looking monster flies over the town line and Regina looks at Emma. You know, THE LOOK. The look that killed us. The look of true love. 

Anyways, why I love Swan Queen so much. Why I’ve devoted my life to them over any other couple. Well, even though the OUAT writing team aren’t saying this right now, Swan Queen is actually the greatest love story I’ve ever seen. It’s the perfect modern fairy tale. What’s more romantic than the person created to break the Evil Queen’s curse is also said Queen’s true love? It’s fucking beautiful. AND THEY HAVE A SON. I just want them to all have their happy ending with each other. Why is that so difficult, A&E? Honestly, I have so much to say about them, but there’s just too much to say and this post is already long AF.


This fandom is beyond incredible. I never thought in a million years that when I joined Tumblr, I’d find a group like Swen to fall into. And no matter how much I hate OUAT now (I do, I really don’t like the show anymore, I’m purely watching for Regina and Swan Queen/ Swan Mills moments) I just can’t give up on Swan Queen. I’m way too deep now to just walk away, no matter how many times I say I will. Also, I truly believe Swan Queen is endgame so I’m waiting for the day it happens and then just go ape shit all over the internet about it. I’m so excited. Anyways, I’ve met some amazing people through Swen. But, I must say you guys, the fanfictions are what I live for. I honestly don’t see the point in reading books anymore when Swan Queen fanficiton is so much more entertaining. I could read about Emma and Regina falling in love 80 trillion times and I’d still cry every single time. Speaking of Swan Queen fanficiton and crying, I would like to give a special shoutout to purple-hershey and hunnyfresh. You guys are the reason for most of my tears and I couldn’t be more thankful. The fan art, the vids, this fandom is damn talented! Shoutout to every member of Swen. This fandom goes through hell and back and yet we come out stronger every single time. And once again with this Believe in Swan Queen movement (thanks by the way dakota829snow and ethan-8!) we continue to grow stronger as a fandom that refuses to be silenced. It’s amazing. All you guys are amazing. Never change. 

Best Of 2015:

Artist of the Year: 

Let us mull over this idea of Brandon Flowers being the Artist of the Year for 2015 shall we….

For some, this may seem crazy, for others, well deserved and that’s totally understandable. Brandon Flowers seems to bring about some polarizing opinions, there are those who love the guy (and really love him) and those who absolutely view him (and or The Killers) as awful. Over the years I’m sure there’s become some sort of middle ground, and of course there’s those who simply don’t give a shit either way. Then there’s those who, in light of this promising solo venture, view him as a perfectly fine Pop star, one who skirts the line between massive world wide success and one who embodies a somewhat grounded-in-their-record-collection type who longed to be like their heroes (Moz, Bowie, Gahan); and that is where I stand.

Brandon Flowers, lead singer of the successful pop group The Killers, embarked on a second solo outing this year and made his first huge step at becoming a (bigger) Pop Star who attracts (even more) attention from both sides of the aisle. Less of a vanity project and more of a “need to keep creating” moment, Flowers hit on something new with this sophomore solo jaunt. By embracing capital P pop music, Flowers in a way became more of an outsider artist, which is of course contradictory, but nonetheless true. At a time when “going pop” is all the rage within “indie” circles, Flowers decided to not only embrace this ideal, but he manged to do it better than everyone else around him. But how, and why? The answer is simple, it’s because…. 

……..Brandon Flowers is a very smart man. A calculated man. A man armed with an astute musical acumen. A true student of pop music history, who has gone to great lengths to show it over his very successful career.

All of the truly great rock/pop frontmen possessed these traits. Why was Morrissey such an enigmatic and powerful figure, because he knew his way around the Pop music history books. Ian Curtis, Morrissey, Julian Casablancas, Flowers etc; they were all devout fans growing up. They weren’t just fans of pop music, they showed extreme devotion to those who came before them. Where would Casablancas be without Lou Reed, or where would Brandon Flowers be without Morrissey (and where would any of them be without Bowie!). These individuals all studied those who preempted them, and again, they weren’t just fans, they were obsessives. 

Brandon Flowers, from the get go, was destined for stardom. The Las Vegas native who put in work by obsessing over albums and the pop stars of yore wanted it. And yes, success came rather quickly to The Killers, compared to other groups, but the groundwork had long been laid by an eager Flowers. But this isn’t a career retrospective, this piece is about what took place within the last year or so, which in many ways, was the birth of a new artist…..

‘The Desired Effect’ is the second LP to bear the Brandon Flowers name and can almost be seen as a debut of sorts or at the very least, a new incarnation of the singer’s ever evolving persona. In 2015, there’s no denying that Flowers is a famous “rock star”, but this time around something feels different. With The Desired Effect’ Flowers has taken even further strides in becoming a Pop auteur, but he did so by embracing the idea that certain strains of pop music could be seen as new and invigorating. Simply put, this is his Bryan Ferry coming out party…..

Flowers has always been a bit of a chameleon re-inventor (something he no doubt learned, in a far less extreme way, from Bowie), one who appropriates a new look every album cycle. From the eyeliner of ‘Hot Fuss’ to the leather jacket clad bad boy of ‘Battle Born’, Flowers has always had keen sense of his image. In the lead up to his new album, that already sharp sense of style transitioned into a debonair Bryan Ferry/Chris Issak/Robert Palmer/Luke Perry type phase, both stylistically and musically. Throughout his career he’s managed to take on some of the corniest schtick the 80’s had to offer and completely owned it, without a single trace of irony (which is the key). 

Never one too shy away from the corniest of corny shit, Flowers pretty much pulls it off with aplomb and never makes you doubt his sincerity. Everything he does is fully realized, from the music to the overall aesthetic. The man is without a doubt my favorite Pop Star, and he surely designed it that way. Taking bits and pieces of every male icon I’ve ever desired or longed to be and (custom) stitched them together, creating a finely tuned adult idol….

‘The Desired Effect’ has been a success, both artistically and commercially. It broadened Flowers musical range by reinterpreting past forms of Pop and presenting them as fresh. Sure, there’s still some of that Springsteen Americana that The Killers adopted post-’Hot Fuss’, but there’s also some trickier pure pop elements in play. Flowers, the aforementioned studied and detailed Pop auteur, created an album that ranges widely from tropicali new wave to Dire Straits 80’s rock, but with all bravado Flowers can muster (which is a ton). 

Flowers’ conscious decision to collaborate with Ariel Rechtshaid on ‘The Desired Effect’ proved to be a wise one. The former indie rocker turned go-to producer was the perfect “co pilot” for Flowers’ big tent desires. The singer has openly stated how Rechtshaid pushed him out of his comfort zone during the making of the album and credits the producer for his contributions to the overall sound and focus (my favorite story regarding Rechtshaid and the recording process being, in Flowers words: “I’m telling you it was tough….I wanted to fire him. Four times. He knows. I remember my wife was in the kitchen; I got a song from him on my phone. We played it and I said: ‘I can’t fire, him can I?’ She said, ‘No, you can’t. That’s too good.’”). 

While the album as a whole is great, it’s the singles that really catapult Flowers into the higher reaches of the Pop stratosphere…..

……..“Can’t Deny My Love”“Still Want You”“Lonely Town”, and “I Can Change” are massively fun (and intricate) songs and obvious surefire singles. These felt like tailor made singles from yesteryear, from the actual music on down to the aesthetically themed album covers (not to mention that their place within the album is a damn good job of sequencing). 

Honestly, I had little intention of listening to another solo Flowers album; until I laid eyes upon the early promos and the album artwork (see above). My interest was suddenly sparked, but that early interest wouldn’t have meant shit if the songs weren’t good, so thankfully, those early singles more than exceeded my expectations. 

From the very beginning (with The Killers) Flowers was creating music that seemed BIG. It was the type of earnest and anthemic music that influential artists like Depeche Mode or U2 were making in their heyday and the kind that attracted both casual and serious music fans alike. And that’s important, because the modern world needs great Pop songs and capable Pop Stars creating them. Rarely are things both popular AND good, especially nowadays, yet Flowers manages to cover both (maybe that’s reason enough right there for him to be the artist of the year). 

Another reason why I’ve chosen Flowers as my Artist of the Year is that he’s something of an anomaly in the modern Pop world (besides the whole being both popular and good thing). Flowers is a walking strutting contradiction in many ways. A practicing Mormon who’s own religion stands against the idea of same sex marriage, yet Flowers is the dandiest motherfucker there is. He’s the aesthetically ideal gay icon in pose and song, yet is a married family man who is seen as a rare “conservative” in the Pop world. This all leads to Flowers being one interesting subject and one who’s private life I find honestly refreshing.

While I, a “serious music fan”, may be heaping praise upon Brandon Flowers, there’s plenty of “serious music publications” who continue to deny their love, or at least respect, for the artist.

It’s downright laughable that the “indie” sites have continued to shun Flowers, while continuing this ridiculous courting of acts like Bieber, Swift, Beyonce, and whatever other click bait artists they can wrangle. Look, I completely understand the Poptimist case and I’m fully capable of being on board with crossover appeal, but holy shit, it’s starting to border on parody now. It’s basically the equivalent of an “indie zine” in the 80’s dedicating the same amount of ink to The Smiths, Wham!, R.E.M., Debbie Gibson, Mission of Burma, and Menudo…..but whatever, I get it, it’s something to do with mono-culture, Poptimism, and get off my lawn blah blah. Just give the guy his due.

Holy shit, let’s wrap this up shall we. Brandon Flowers is my Artist of the Year because he pulled off a rare feat, he took an already successful career and manged to make an artistic statement while perhaps becoming even more popular(?). He manged to become the updated version of an 80′s Bowie / Ferry / Knopfler / Estefan / Springsteen hybrid. He manged to outwit and outdo the Levine’s and Twin Shadows of the modern world and did so without a trace of irony. You can agree, or you can disagree, I’m just glad we made it to the end. 

An Explanation

At this time of year I often feel a need to explain myself.  Especially this year. I apologize for the length of this.

I’ve never been to Romania. I am not Romanian, though I am of Romanian ancestry; my relatives came to the United States in the early 20th century.  While I had little contact with actual Romanians, my grandfather would often comment on various things as hints of “Romanian-ness” I suppose as a way of keeping memories of that culture alive, although he too was born in the US.  "You like black pepper so much because you’re Romanian", and so on, though I have no idea whether Romanians even like black pepper better than anyone else. Still, even though I had never been there, and knew little of the culture, the idea of Romania was always there in the back of my head somewhere.

24 years ago I was a junior high school student in a suburban town in the San Francisco Bay Area in California.  While we were, at that time, still recovering from a massive earthquake it was otherwise a quiet, safe, and generally boring place.  At the same time, events were unfolding on the other side of the world which captivated me then and ever since.   That summer we had seen the protests followed by massacre in Tiananman Square in China, while simultaneously the Solidarity movement in Poland grew to a boil.  And then in November came the fall of the Berlin Wall. The “thaw” spread quickly, to Bulgaria, Czechoslovakia, Hungary, and Romania. I was fascinated by these events, particularly the dramatic and violent form that revolution took in Romania, where “my” people had come from.

Many years later, in 2005, I had already been making electronic music for some time, had already released a couple of albums, and had an old Yamaha DX-11 synthesizer and wanted to do a project in which that instrument played a central role.  At this same time, Youtube was brand new, and in exploring the massive amount of video content that had already been uploaded I quickly found that the site contained quite a lot of historical footage of the events of 1989 in central and eastern Europe.  I spent hours and hours poring through all of it, focusing largely on Romania.  As someone who has always been interested in history it was mindblowing to have such a massive collection of historical footage at my fingertips.  And so naturally I began to play music along to this footage. The DX-11 synthesizer was itself built around this same time, and the sounds I had created on it (some of them many years earlier) seemed a perfect fit. 

That’s where the idea began to make an album focused on the events of 1989 in Romania, using sounds from this historical footage and compositions written for the DX-11.  I decided to include a couple of other elements - found sounds recorded from industrial and construction sites, and samples of Romanian music of the late 80’s, both the state-sponsored “ethnic” music of the time, and pop music.. especially that of the singer Mihaela Runceanu, whose beautiful music and sad story I found while doing background research for the project.  I began cobbling these elements together into a whole, the sounds and samples wrapped around melodies written on the synthesizer, and created a structure that loosely followed the chronological order of historical events as I understood them through reading and watching.

At many points I stopped and questioned my “right” to make an album about a historical event I had no part of, in a country I had never been to, a culture to which I was connected only very loosely by long dead relatives and the strange interpretations of my grandfather.  But I never stopped long. To be honest, while I am constantly driven to create music, I’ve never been quite as driven as I was while making this album.  It was a very different process from anything else I’ve done before or since, and now seven years after the release of 1989 I still look back on it as something very different from all of my other work. The issue of my “right” seemed secondary to the fact that the music itself wanted to be made.  As deliberate as the structure was, I realized I was not entirely in control of what I was making.  It was because of that compulsion, and because of the fact that it was not meant to be a historical “document” but rather an artistic impression of the ideas of Romania and its revolution that I continued the project and, when it was complete, released it to the public. 

This was in early 2006 and I was, of course, completely unknown. Releasing an album to “the public” meant putting it on my barely-trafficed website and a couple of forums I frequented.  Social media as we know it today was only just barely coming into existence, and I knew absolutely nothing about promotion.  And yet, somehow, the music found its way to Romania. Not in a major way, but it was covered by several Romanian blogs, I was contacted by a journalist from a fair sized Romanian newspaper.  At which point, I was told, there was even an article about it in Romania’s equivalent of “Entertainment Weekly”, though I’ve never seen it and maybe someone was pulling my leg.  The response was unexpectedly positive, though obviously some people had not wanted to hear the voice of Nicolai Ceaucescu again.  For a time I received occasional emails from Romanians both in the country and abroad, thanking me for the work. No one challenged my “right” to have done it.  And yet I continue to challenge myself with that same question.

In spite of the subject it covers, 1989 is not a political work. It is not “counter-revolutionary” or “anti-Communist” nor is it “pro-Communist” or any other kind of statement on Romania’s system of government before or after the Revolution of 1989.  It is in many ways a very personal album, a response to the ideas and the aesthetics of what I had seen and felt when the events happened on the opposite side of the world of where I was growing up, and when I re-watched those same events through the footage I found many years later. 

Today is the 27th of December, a date often referenced as the end of the revolution. 24 years ago today, Romanians were beginning to put together the next phase of their country’s life - and many complicated events have happened since that time, and are still happening today.  At many points this year, protestors have filled the squares of Bucharest and other Romanian cities, and I continue to watch from the other side of the world. 

Much has changed for me as an artist since I made 1989.  I’ve become a sound designer and composer in the theatre world in NYC, I have released several more albums as Disparition covering a number of other themes and concepts, and thanks to the show Welcome to Night Vale the audience for Disparition has grown enormously.  An audience, I suspect, that was mostly very young or maybe not even born yet when the Romanian Revolution occurred. 

When Joseph Fink emailed me asking if he could use my music for Welcome to Night Vale I was happy to agree, and made no restrictions or rules as to what he could use or how.  And so the use of the music in the show is based on how he and Jeffrey feel individual pieces best fit individual plot points and other parts of the podcast. Consequently, some of the individual pieces from 1989 have found their way into the show.  I get occasional emails from people telling me that they are unable to track down this or that piece of music from the show and could I help them find it.  For some reason, one of the most common pieces of music people tend to ask about is the track “Timisoara”, from 1989, which is used in several episode of the show.

I often wonder if the people who are discovering my music now look at the track titles and the name of the album and piece together what it’s about.  Obviously, anyone from Romania, especially anyone my age or older, will probably get it.  But since a lot of the people who listen to my music now are younger, and grew up in an time when the Eastern Bloc seems like ancient history, maybe it’s not so obvious.

And so, I’ve written this to explain myself- what the album is really about, and why I as an American decided to make it.  I make music about all kinds of things but if there is one central underlying theme, it is history.  The name of this project is “Disparition” partly because that’s what history does, it disappears.  With the advent of technologies such as audio recording and photography and video and now the ubiquitous camera phone, maybe it will start to disappear more slowly than it has in previous centuries, but while artifacts can remain for millennia it is meaning that fades.  We can look at graffiti carved into walls by the ancient Romans, but we can’t know what they felt while they were doing it, and their reasons can only be guessed at. 

1989 is not an artifact, though it contains some.  It’s not a documentary in any sense.  It is not meant to convey any truth other than my own personal emotional response to my perception of these events, a perception from a distance.  I’m explaining this in the hope that at least some people have gotten down here to the end of this rather long post and will look into this time and place and attach their own meaning and response to it, whether they were there in the flesh or had as little to do with it as myself.  And in the hope that, at some point in the future, I can remove some of the distance between myself and this place, and take this music in person to where it really comes from and belongs.