just literally the worst

i love ks but the fandom is a fucking disaster

orchestra according to an oboist
  • piccolo: do ur best my tiny son
  • flute: please tune to me I literally just played the a
  • oboe: either your worst enemy or best friend, you still complain about reeds with them no matter what
  • english horn: bae
  • clarinet: please stop playing rhapsody in blue to warm up
  • bassoon: good, very pure
  • contrabassoon: also good, but more devilish
  • trumpet: dontcrackdontcrackdontcrack
  • trombone: usually fine
  • tuba: enjoy ur 28 notes in Dvorak 9 lol
  • french horn: dontcrackdontcrackdontcrack
  • violin: please tune to me I literally just played the a
  • viola: usually cool until you turn around and stare during the oboe solo
  • cello: solid,
  • double bass: so low, the Borf of the orchestra
  • percussion: if you play the last movement of shosty 5 during break one more time on timpani I WILL come back there and slice everything you love with my reed knife

ghost
is what they call you;
soldier
weapon
asset-

entropy
is what you are;
volatile
disorder
chaos

—  they should concede to call you Ares | s.m.

82 reasons harry’s ootp anger was totally justified

(because a 400 page thesis is not doable)(for

@fleamontpotter

1.    he’d just come off a very stressful school year in which (surprise) someone had been actively trying to do him in

2.    a sliver of the darkest soul of all time was stuck inside him :)))

3.    darkest wizard of all time was actively messing w/ his brain

4.    his literal worst nightmare had just come to life before his eyes

5.    voldemort’s red eyes actively haunted him, waking and sleeping

6.    he’d squared off against the man who murdered his parents (!)

7.    and the man who’d betrayed his parents to their deaths

8.    he’d been tied so tightly neck to ankle that he couldn’t even turn his head

9.    he was stabbed

10.  he’d just learned the blood protection that had previously kept him safe was worthless

11.  he was jeered at and hexed at by a group of adults who wanted him dead

12.  he’d been crucio’d for fun, taunted, and chased after

13.  he’d just been psychologically tortured as well

14.  his classmate and co-competitor died and he was powerless to stop it

15.  he’d just seen the imprints of his dead parents

16.  his dead classmate had to be pried from his grip

17.  he blamed himself for cedric dying – survivor’s guilt

18.  he was forced to relive his entire horrific experience just after it happened

19.  he’d learned his teacher, whom he trusted, had actively been plotting against him

20.  his godfather literally got to see him for an hour before leaving again

21.  the minister of magic, who had always before been genial, called harry a liar to his face

22.  he had to return in exile to the home of his abusers

23.  while there, his cousin tormented him and the neglect of his aunt and uncle continued

24.  he was cut off entirely from the wizarding world, desperate for information

25.  he had no guarantee voldemort wouldn’t show up on privet drive at any moment

26.  no one was properly communicating with him

27.  and then he was attacked by two dementors (!)

28.  and he saved his cousin, and was nearly kicked out onto the street for it

29.  he spent the last month of the summer wondering if he’d be expelled from school

30.  all his wizard friends had been conspiring for the entire summer and had told him nothing

31.  he was suffering from chronic nightmares, i.e. not sleeping

32.  his godfather, embroiled in his own trauma, remained distant and broody

33.  he had to stay in a gloomy house which lbr would bother anyone

34.  uh his friends were chosen as prefects which led to him feeling further ostracized from dumbledore and isolated from them

35.  his mentor/grandfather type figure was actively ignoring him

36.  he’s unable to write to sirius, which had previously been one of his favorite things and greatest sources of comfort

37.  the government that was supposed to protect him sent an infiltrator to his school, violating his one safe space in the world

38.  said infiltrator stripped away everything he held dear

39.  said infiltrator also abused him repeatedly, forced his own body to abuse itself, and took great pleasure in watching it happen

40.  no one believed him

41.  even his dorm mate, who harry had previously considered a friend, disbelieved him

42.  he was ostracized and ridiculed by the entirety of wizarding society

43.  until he learned what threstrals were, he genuinely thought he was going mad

44.  he couldn’t participate in quidditch, the one thing he was naturally super talented at and greatly enjoyed

45.  even his broomstick—his favorite thing—was confiscated

46.  he blamed himself for mr weasley’s attack

47.  P T S D PTSD P T S DDDDDDDDDDDD

48.  DADA, the only good thing he had going for him, was taken away

49.  dumbledore, the only thing that made him feel truly safe, had to leave

50.  he assumed guilt for dumbeldore having to leave

51.  he knows shit is going down (the Order is protecting something) and he’s not able to help, and he’s not able to put it all together, and that drives him mad because he’s a person of action who’s been encouraged to follow those impulses for his entire hogwarts career

52.  no one in this entire time sat him down and helped him work through any of this

53.  and spent a few days wondering if he’d been possessed by Voldemort

54.  he sort of dated the girl he liked but it turned into a mutually traumatic and horrific thing

55.  even the newspaper led a smear campaign

56.  every adult he trusts is failing him on (nearly) every level

57.  spent two months worried about where on earth hagrid had been

58.  spent seven months worried hagrid would be fired & what he was up to in the woods

59.  hagrid left (again) and he had to deal with the stress of caring for a giant (??)

60.  watched his favorite teacher be brutally ambushed and attacked

61.  child worried about everything tbh and he was always taking the world on his shoulders

62.  OH he had to watch ron suck @ quidditch and it was just terrible b/c he couldn’t fix it or make it better and sigh

63.  he was actively worried about his godfather, who was clearly in a very bad place

64.  he had to endure horrible lessons with the teacher who hated him

65.  he knew voldemort actually had access to his mind, which is terrifying

66.  however, the lessons only seemed to make it worse

67.  he was a child

68.  he’s been abused his entire life and has never been taught healthy coping mechanisms

69.  so he sticks with the standby of repress until it explodes

70.  which just does not work at all, but he doesn’t know any better

71.  his stress level just walking around daily is 8/10, no wonder he can’t cope???

72.  he learned his teenage dad was the kind of bully he’d been afraid of his entire life

73.  AND HE LEARNED IT IN THE WORST POSSIBLE WAY

74.  and that sent him into a spiral of depression wondering if everything snape had ever told him was correct

75.  he spent weeks wondering if his mum and dad actually ever loved each other

76.  his godfather and teacher only provided minor comfort; harry’s concerns weren’t really assuaged

77.  normal student stresses like studying for the most stressful exams of school career

78.  enduring a domineering hermione w/ the study schedules and whatnot during said exam times

79.  he suffered frequent, brain-splitting headaches

80.  mass breakout at azkaban is actually terrifying for him because he knows what those people are capable of

81.  he was a very small child

82.  people, he was only fifteen

literally the worst thing on this website is when you see a post and it’s like “u know that feeling when all u really want to do is get into bed and lay down with all the lights off or like when ur friends text u but u just don’t have the energy to have a conversation with anyone” and then someone reblogs it and adds “actually, that’s a symptom of depression!” like…… no………….. that’s not how it works just because you sometimes feel tired and sometimes don’t want to talk to people it doesn’t make u depressed it makes u human and there’s nothing wrong with having depression and depression is definitely something that needs to be destigmatized/talked about but diagnosing people over like tumblr posts is not the way to go about it

2

And nobody died.

I scribbled something incredibly pointless because I can’t wait for Sins of the Wreckers 5, this is my ideal ending where nothing hurts and things are okay for everyone aka the thing that isn’t gonna happen

Steven just…. stop. I know you’re a kid but this is literally the worst way you could choose to make Amethyst feel better.

And she knows it too. Amethyst has always been a very angry person like myself, but I don’t think she’s ever shown anger directed at Steven directly, which already shows that she does have self control.

I feel so bad for her, because she reminds me of me.

WHO THE FUCK DESIGNED THIS.

And the worst part is that you can’t really be outright mad at them because they’re really just trying to make you feel better.

And knowing that only makes you more angry and it all goes downhill from there.

Blessed screenshot.

Also Steven you’re still the worst liar out of this whole family.

Instilled homophobia is some crazy shit

I just sat here realizing how much instilled homophobia courses through my veins. Due to grandparents, parents, uncles, and aunts. Most of it has passed, I’ve stopped looking at gay/lesbian relationships as anything but natural, but you know where it still sticks?

With me. Inside, telling me that certain behaviors are not tolerated. 

I have a tiny voice in my head that stops me from enjoying the same sex. I turn away from those scenes where woman strip in movies because I know a relative has looked at me and asked why I was watching so intently. 

I dance around my compliments of other women, when I say a woman is beautiful, I add in a obligatory “I wish I looked like her.”

When I see anything referring to women, I get on guard. My little voice says “It’s ok if others enjoy that type of thing, but not you, oh no, your father/grandma/uncle/brother would not approve of that.”

Hell, I dig guys who wear traditionally feminine clothes, but I always wonder how my family would feel if I dated a cross dresser, if I dated a guy who likes walking around in dresses. 

But you know what? Fuck that man. I can’t keep letting that little voice sit in the back of my head, telling me that I cannot enjoy the same sex. That somehow my sexuality will be a disappointment to my family, that feeling some type of way about another woman will make me someone else. 

That little piece of me, saying “No no no, you can’t look at her that way” is not me, it’s homophobic lessons that my family has ingrained into my head. 

I’m officially coming the fuck out, when ever I say “I don’t have a type, I like what I like” that translates into I’m…pansexual.

Typing that just made me burst into tears. I’ve been shutting others down for years, telling them that I just have a healthy appreciation of the opposite sex but….yeah man, I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to post this, because there’s this weird guilt in the pit of my stomach, like I’ll have to go around telling people this shit, like I’ll have to face my father and disappoint him.

But I guess you pals are the only ones that I feel like telling. I’m pretty sure this post will get buried anyways, but there ya go, my two cents on ingrained homophobia/coming out. 

fish-tetris  asked:

God I just had literally the worst revelation, like in theory Hisoka's bungee gum thing would allow him to Spiderman around on walls and shit right? And now I'm just imagining him scuttling across the ceiling like something out of a horror movie and I'm even more uncomfortable than I usually am when I think about Hisoka

omg i showed this to resident clown trash @rabbitsteaparty and she said she had to draw this and i’m posting this publicly so that she feels obligated to follow through on that

Critical Role Rewatch, Episode 44 - Part 2!

I know, I know, this part’s late, and it’s definitely not because of what happens at the end of it ooohhhhhh god.

  • The twins walk right into the weird Mud Circle, and immediately start sinking lmao
    • Grog just stands and watches. “Grog, you dickfuck!” “We’re slowly dying over here!”
  • Every time Zahra and Vex refer to each other as “dear” or “darling”, my heart grows three sizes ❤️
  • The moment Vax almost gets cut in half by two giant blades on pendulums ohhhhh dear.
    • Percy: “We get two tries each to disarm it, it’ll be great!” perCIVAL!!
  • Zahra reveals she has a cloak that lets her fly, Vex: You can fly?!? 😍😍😍
  • Vox Machina vs. Their Worst Enemy: Doors
    • “We should just leave.”
  • Literally all Grog needed to do was roll a 2 to hop across the hole lol
    • Grog and Trinket have a Mufasa and Scar moment, as Trinket keeps Grog from falling into the hole!
  • “Kima’s been very quiet about everything!” “You have nine people travelling with you, and a bear. You mass-travelling assholes!”
  • The Battle
    • The truly epic description of Kash’s flame strike: his eyes go pitch black, and as a single feather falls amidst the three fish people, it becomes almost made of shadow, and then - fire.
    • Everyone’s faces and reactions when the Beholder appears lmao
      • “Happy anniversary, you fucks!”
    • The added stress of having to try and figure out the Beholder’s no-magic space so casters aren’t in it when they attack :/
    • RIP Kima’s BAMF-ness, Beholder Fight #2 and taken out of action once again!
    • Sam: “Remember Laura, you can move a little bit faster now because you’re 30 Gold lighter!”
    • Beholder slime starts generating its own eyes and rays oh sweet lord. And then they start grabbing at people!
      • Kash gets fucking restrained by the stalks, and then hit by a petrification ray 😧
    • Kiki goes Earth Elemental, vanishes into a gap in the stone and starts wreaking havoc from behind the walls ❤️
    • “~~If you shoot him ri-i-ight! You’ll end his li-i-ife!~~”
    • Bigby’s Hand Fastball Special!!!
    • Matt’s rolls don’t bring up the interesting Beholder rays, and the party keeps rolling high saving throws - “I’m not bitter,” he says bitterly, with a bitter expression.
    • Zahra: “Nat 20!” Kash: “That’s my Zee! That’s my Zee right there!”
    • HDYWTDT for Zahra yay!!!!
  • Kash immediately walking over to heal Kima is a nice moment :)
  • JFC, I still cannot believe how ridiculously close The Moment was?!? If Vex’s check for traps had happened a second earlier, if Percy had waited to touch the armour a second later - it was just, fuck.
    • I rewatched it and the moment Percy says “I’m going to reach in a grab the armour” I shrieked NO!
    • The second Matt realises Vex rolled a Nat 1, his face just…drops. His eyes just flick back and forth between Laura and his notes.
    • The fact that Vax doesn’t even know for a moment? That he’s still climbing up the rope, cheerful and relieved - only to see his sister’s body, lifeless, lying on the ground. Fuck
    • Kash chooses the revive Vex, even though it could attract Vesh.
    • Percy using a symbol of his home to help bring Vex back :(
    • Zahra uses a symbol of her Old One, a symbol of the power that changed her life!
    • Vax - just. His vicious, fierce impassioned cry to the Raven Queen. “Take me instead, you Raven bitch!”
  • Vax tries to convince Vex that she only fell unconscious, Grog: “You fucking died!”
    • Honestly, Vax, did you really think that was going to work?
  • Keyleth to Vex: “You know, he loves you very very much.” 😭😭😭
  • Zahra to Vex: “I’m not sure what just happened, but I need you to know you’re very dear to me, though I’ve only known you a short period of time.” And then she gives Vex a fucking dragon-slaying arrow
    • Which, after that ep of Talks Machina revealing Percy’s arrows were flirting? Just further confirms my thoughts that Zahra has feeeelingggsss for Vex!
  • Kash: “I believe in life. That’s all I was raised to believe in. And when you’re married to death, that’s all you really have, life. And I didn’t believe in any person until I met Zahra…she started to teach me what it meant to have family.” OH GOD I’M CRYINGGG
  • “Between us we’ve had three kisses, I think we’ve done pretty well!” “Yeah, high five!” Kashleth are kind of unbearably cute in this moment?
  • Kima finds out Allura’s in Whitestone, immediately decides she’s going to go there lol.
  • “Helping out in Whitestone would be better than killing things here for cash! I don’t know, to each their own, it’s just a noble cause, helping your friends, whatever.” KIMA I LOVE YOU
So im listening to the jontron/sargon livestream

Yall just mad because hes right

You guys are out here making him seem like hes the worst human

Hes literally just saying the truth

Like the reaction is exactly what he was critiquing and this is hilarious