just got my sweatshirt!

the way you workin’ that motion, boy you got me in a trance

GUYS THIS HAPPENED THIS IS NOT A DRILL THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED

Throwing Jensen Ackles into my general bubble is basically a surefire way to suck all the air from my lungs and all the intelligent thoughts from my head. Jensen gave me his 10000000 watt smile when I stepped up to him and did his usual “hey there” with that stupid sultry little drawl like wtf Ackles I’m only human, I can’t haNDLE THIS OKAY no I’m fine -deep breaths-

Basically, I wound up holding onto the man’s bicep because I thought I was going to fall over (don’t talk to me about that beautiful bicep because I’ll cry…again) and kept smiling up at him with what were probably literal heart eyes and he had a hand on my upper arm too and was still smiling all reassuringly at me like everything in my universe wasn’t about to just implode and then looked down at my sweatshirt and got this little knowing grin on his face and did the ACKLES APPROVED head nod (ha you think I lived through that BUT I’M ACTUALLY DEAD RIGHT NOW AND TALKING TO YOU FROM BEYOND THE GRAVE - also if you’re wondering, I was wearing my Never Quit hoodie which is the foundation/motto coined by Marcus Luttrell, the author of Lone Survivor aka the military memoir turned movie that Jensen really wanted to be a part of) and he said “niiiiiice”. *heartttt eyeeeees*

Anyway, after that, Jensen was like “so what’re we doin’??” and I finally got out “how about just a really special hug?” ((((tbh I can’t remember if I said good or special))) and he nodded and was like “sure thing, honey”

njNFDJKSFNDJKSNFDSK?!?!?!??!?!?!/1/1//1/?!/1K2JWHQUDSHUYJ^%&*(%^7YWEUHJFBE79FIYUSKJDNSDSFD? !!!!!!!!! H O N E Y?!?!??!/11!!!

I WOULD LIKE TO JUST SAY THAT I SWEAR TO GOD I WAS SMILING HUGE W/ TEETH WHEN JENSEN PULLED ME IN AGAINST HIS CHEST BUT THEN SUDDENLY THAT WENT AWAY BECAUSE I FELT

A HAND

ON MY HEAD

I FELT. JENSEN ACKLES’. HAND. ON MY HEAD. He was cUPPING MY HEAD. HIS HAND. MY HEAD. And literally I have no idea what happened after that like suddenly the world went black because all I knew was that Jensen Ackles had his hand on my head and was holding me against his chest and I wasn’t ready for any of it.

And the outcome of this photo op? I realized when I asked for a special hug, he gave me a “Dean” hug. This photo op ain’t Jensen. It’s Dean. Jensen Ackles Dean’d me.

And now it’s time to cry. *RIP*

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