just experimenting really


This is going to sound crazy, but hear me out: 

I see a lot of Kylo Ren, and a bit of Sith, in Party Poison. Not that he’s evil, but in the sense of larger scale philosophies.  

*star wars-y words like “sith” “master” and “apprentice” are used loosely. I don’t actually think poison is literally a sith, just that he shares ideology

I don’t think Poison left the city intending to join any sort of rebellion, let alone become the leader of one. Hell, he saw those people, even the peaceful ones, as terrorists, even after leaving the city. But the thing is, he really thrives on hatred, if he lets himself. He can hold a grudge, he can get himself riled up. He can make nothing seem like the end of the world. 

And he genuinely believes everything he says about the city, even the things he’s exaggerated or made up over time. Like, no, most of the things he believes about the city aren’t 100% true- he’s definitely a bit delusional, at this point in his life. But he will fight for those thing until he dies because he BELIEVES that he’s doing the right thing. And he does have exceptional power – not the force obviously, but he’s charismatic, he’s convincing, he’s passionate– and if he can convince himself that he endured unspeakable things in the city, he can convince others that they have too. He can convince others that they deserve more power than BLI, and that they should do everything they can to get it. He can and does use the power that he has to further his own agenda.  

As much as he claims to care about people– and to be fair, in many ways he does– there’s a part of him that is just hungry for any power at all, not so much to “rule” people as much as to have influence over them. He lives for people’s admiration and respect, he loves that heads turn when he walks into a room, that he’s a notorious figure. He loves the fact that people will listen to him, that he can tell them things and they’ll believe it, he can tell them to go to war and they fucking WILL. He feels like he was made to be the leader of a rebellion, and he feels like he knows best. He’s got a bit of an ego, tbh.

Through his time in the Desert, and through his exposure to other prominent killjoy figures at the time, I think he’s become a lot more radicalized, to a point where he wants to fight and genuinely thinks they need to bring down BLI. His ideology has really changed, and he no longer connects with Dr. D like he once did (i see him as an obi wan type figure, sue me)

More specifically relating to Kylo Ren, I think Poison was really taken advantage of early on after leaving the city, and thats what got him to the point he’s at now. He was at a point in life where he was not only extremely vulnerable (unprepared for the bleak reality of desert life, homeless, starving, trying to cope with a brother who just wasn’t coping, etc) but also terrified. There was someone, probably a killjoy who’s no longer in the picture, who saw Poison’s potential as a leader, and bred his fear into anger and hatred. This was the spark that lead to his belief the the city had fucked him over specifically, that BLI was responsible for all of his suffering. Poison became, in a sense, the apprentice. He was suddenly so angry with the world that he could justify almost anything in order to get even. He was willing to accept it when his “master” told him that BLI needed to be not just escaped from, but destroyed. I think he, as powerless as he had ever been, enjoyed the idea that he could “reclaim” his status, that he could be BIGGER than the director herself. It escalated from there. 

I think Poison allowed that hate to continue, and he fostered it. Like, I keep coming back to the image in my mind of Kylo Ren hitting his own wounds because that is EXACTLY what I imagine Poison doing, physically and mentally. He dwells on what angers him in order to maintain his motivation. He stays up at night brooding because it energizes him to fight, it makes him want to keep going. He’s not against violence if it furthers his cause, and he sees some people, like dracs, as deserving of death. And I think that, at this point, he probably could be convinced to kill his own parents, if someone put it in his head that they had held him back in life. But the thing is too, that he, like Kylo, does have an attraction to “the light side”, if you will. He has to constantly remind himself why he’s angry, he has to purposefully BE angry, if he wants to continue on his path. He isn’t just naturally like that, his instinct is to be peaceful.

Anyway, yeah, Poison’s rebellion is more about the past than it is about the future. In his current frame of mind, he couldn’t care less about helping people or making positive change. What he wants is revenge and chaos, he wants the control and power and opportunity that he feels the city stole from him. And the rebellion he leads is honestly a little bit selfish; its about his personal vendetta. He’s not super active about it, he’s not building fucking super weapons or anything, but his politics are extremely aggressive, and it would only take a little push for him to declare war. 

People talk a lot about how Harry Potter taught them about friendship and bravery and love overcoming evil etc and of course I think that’s very important but like…

Harry Potter also taught an entire generation of kids that the news media can’t always be trusted to tell the truth, that the government can often be corrupt or incompetent, that the legal system isn’t always right, that the people in power don’t always have your best interests at heart. That bad things sometimes happen to good people, that your heroes aren’t always as perfect as you think they are, that even those with the best intentions can be wrong, that everyone can make mistakes and that often in order to make things right it takes a lot of hard work and sacrifice.

…and I think in a way that’s every bit as important as the more positive messages.

astrological signs in love
  • aries: likes to fall deeply in love with incredibly insecure people and have an explosively passionate, yet volatile relationship... but hey at least it's interesting
  • taurus: likes to pretend they're so heartless that they don't even know how to fall in love, fails terribly every time
  • gemini: likes to fall in (and out of) love with anyone and everyone that crosses their path, multiple times a day. confuses all their friends (and themselves tbh) to the point of not even listening when they talk about love
  • cancer: does not like to fall in love, does it very grudgingly, throws adorable temper tantrum when they get called out on it, sulks, repeat
  • leo: falls in love rarely. completely, 100%, OH MY GOD BARBARA CALL THE POLICE stuck in love when they do. painful to watch honestly, but shit it's cute
  • virgo: likes to fall in love with nerds. every. single. time.
  • libra: likes to fall in love way too fast and make a complete fool of their weirdo selves trying to woo their unsuspecting prey (endearing and surprisingly successful)
  • scorpio: likes to bullshit their way through multiple "serious" relationships for years and years until one day they realize that they're in love w their gross best friend... but in a cute way
  • sagittarius: likes to fall in love from afar and watch the object of their desire go about their daily life, hoping senpai will magically notice them in their quiet little world of reflection
  • capricorn: falls madly in love, shows it, "JESUS WHAT HAVE I DONE", terrifies self and lover with erratic, confused behavior, takes it all back, runs away, pines for months, tries to be friends again and act like nothing happened (until alcohol attacks)
  • aquarius: ?? ?!?! ?? ? :) !! ? :(
  • pisces: likes to fall in love with people who have fallen in love with them, basks in love's glow for a few months, realizes they just needed attention, formulates an escape plan
Quick PSA

I am not selling my art anywhere except society6 (currently) && I have not given anyone permission to sell/reproduce/distribute my art.

So basically aside from the few (like, 6 pcs lol – and that’s just because people wanted me to put them up for sale) prints up on my society6, I make no money off of my art as I only make them purely for my (and the fandom’s) enjoyment.

If you see anyone selling my art, please do not buy from them as they most likely stole it from me and are unfairly making money off of it. Also I would appreciate it if you report them to the proper personnel (if it is at a con or something) or tell me (if you saw it online).

IDK what to feel about this because I’ve been getting a lot of reports about this happening lately so aaaah ;;; I don’t want to upload smaller res art because I want people to be able to look at them properly so I think I should just make the watermarks more visible? I don’t knowww hahaha omg this is all new to me

nerd shaming


“I want to feel safe again. I want to go home to Ravka.”

“Then I’ll take you there. We’ll set fire to raisins or whatever you heathens do for fun.”

ck countdown challenge week one: favourite ship → matthias x nina

Hancock offering the sole survivor rad-x before and then radaway after they sleep together bc he’s worried the rads infecting his body would rub off on them

Hancock offering to test the potency of rad infected waters and food

Hancock insisting he be the one to investigate the area around nuclear material barrels

Hancock taking the time to closely inspect the survivor for any signs of ghoulification, torn between being relieved of finding none but also disappointed

lanebird  asked:

when you're drawing fanart, like the pair skate practice (super cute btw), do you use ref pictures for the poses? i'm struggling with putting characters in poses i don't have an image of them in,, why is art so hard

art is so hard, totally agree. to be honest, i don’t ;; i use references when i practice things i don’t know how to draw - excessively until i know how (for the time being. repeat forever basically). but when i draw fanart or my comic i prefer to use my imagination because i need to use the things i learned without any help. if i would use references for every comic panel i would neeever ever get it done. which is why my stuff is still full of mistakes and i hope no one uses it as proportion or anatomy reference shdfj

my drawings often start off of my gesture warm-up sketches (one sketch takes 10 - 30 seconds). i do a lot daily just to get my hand warmed up and when i like a pose i’m going to keep it for later

that’s where most of my ideas come from…  plus 1. it’s daily practice!! 2. good for when you don’t know what to draw 3. just let your mind wander while you draw pose after pose and good things will happen

it is a bit different when you HAVE a scene in mind and want to draw it (like, how i do with comic panels) but quick gesture drawings are always a help, even in this case. looks too stiff? draw it again and again until the character looks natural and only then add details!! this is really important i think

don’t get too hang up in details before you’ve finished the pose. it’s easier when you see how the pose will look in the end. only when the whole movement seems right add their faces, and hair, and everything else

and if that doesn’t work at all, use many references of real people whenever and as often as you need it, until you don’t need them for this part of anatomy anymore <3 and when you need it again, just repeat. best way to level up skills


Part of Jared’s contribution to the first promo for I Chose Life (video)


When will they be safe and happy? Probably never.