just because i was thinking of her when i made the s

anonymous asked:

Does Rose actually remember being the Bad Wolf? That's one thing I've always wondered like I think she does?? But also idk

Oh, one of my favourite topics! And just in time for Meta Monday, too. 

Yes, she does. Remember in Doomsday, when she looks Dalek Sec straight in the eyestalk and tells him that she took the Time Vortex and poured it into the emperor and turned him to dust? 

The question I always have is when and how does she remember. Because that’s the only time (that I recall) that Rose references being Bad Wolf in all of S2. There is one reference made by the werewolf, but Rose doesn’t say it, and she’s obviously a little confused by it. 

So… did Tooth and Claw trip her memory? Did she start dreaming about it? Did she remember on her own, or did she ask the Doctor? 

We don’t know any of that. Oh, we do know that they had talked about Bad Wolf, and about its real meaning, because the way Rose mentions that their final conversation is on Bad Wolf Bay indicates they both know that the other knows the real story. 

My personal thought is that she started dreaming about it and asked the Doctor. I don’t think he’d willingly bring it up without her asking. But that’s influenced partly by my belief that he hid the memory from her when he took the vortex out of her–so he wouldn’t be the one to bring it up, if he purposely tried to hide it from her. 

If you think that Rose just forgot about being Bad Wolf because of the trauma and that the memories came back on their own and fairly quickly, that might be a different situation. 

anonymous asked:

Headcanon for Osoro Shidesu,Mida Rina,Muja Kina and Amai Odayaka please.

I dont like Mida so ..im not gonna include her

Osoro

  • Despite being in a gang she prefers to be alone
  • At home she has 2 big dogs that love her a lot
  • She doesnt do weapons, she prefers to use her hands when fighting, her star is because someone cheated in a fight with her
  • She’s a tough mom to her gang “i only yell at you cause i love you”

Muja

  • She’s always wanted children of her own but she’s a workaholic and sees the students she works with as her children
  • Cat person! has a kitty at home
  • She’s sometimes clumsy due to so many things on her mind 
  • The pink hair is dyed

Amai

  • She wants to fight Gordan Ramsay but also get a picture with him
  • Cooking is a big thing in her family, everyone is chub and jolly
  • She is very allergic to mushrooms (hint hint Dev)
  • Despite being known for her baking, she’s likes to experiment with gourmet food

i hate it when people think Taylor’s debut album could easily not exist because we literally got the gems TIM MCGRAW,  TEARDROPS ON MY GUITAR and OUR SONG and those songs made her really popular and are very iconic? I just love every album so bye

rollerskatinglizard  asked:

Made up fic title - Five's Company (/And/ A Crowd)

I feel like you had poly in your heart when you sent this, but.  Okay.  

Have you ever played Sardines.

It’s like Hide And Seek except only one person hides, and then every subsequent person who finds them has to cram into the place they hid and hide with them, and then when the last person shows up everybody jumps out and screams SARDINES.  Y’know, like sardines do when you open a can of sardines

MY POINT IS please imagine the Burners playing this game because it would be hilarious, and it could stick strictly with the person who went and hid and then the increasingly cramped situation everybody is finding themselves in, and in the end they’re all there and it turns out Jacob was also supposed to be playing but he went and fell asleep in an armchair somewhere instead and now they’re all just crammed into a place together.

………….this could actually turn out poly now that I think about it.  It’s like 0% sexually charged when you play it irl but if you were writing fic about it?  Boy howdy the UST could go through the ROOF.   

EDIT: I have been informed that when other people played sardines it was definitely sexually charged.  I have never recognized a sexually-charged situation in my LIFE, so that’s probably on me.  possibly b/c I’m ace as hell??? hm

fatherjerusalem  asked:

Top 5 favorite Veronica Mars fics. Top 5 superheroes. Top 5 swear words.

Well, when I saw this I started my list of swear words out loud, so I’ll just do that one first:
1. Fuck
2. Motherfucker
3. Sweet Fancy Moses (I used to work with kids and I said that a lot around them)
4. Cocksuckingmotherfuckingsonofabitch
5. Asswipe (My 4 year old heard me say it in traffic and now says “a-swipe” and her brother thinks it’s hysterical.)

Top 5 Superheroes
1. Wonder Woman
2. Hawkeye (Clint)
3. Hawkeye (Kate)
4. Jessica Jones
5. Batman (but only the Adam West one)

Top 5 Veronica Mars Fics
(Please refer to list #1 of swear words before I attempt this…)

1. “Haunted” by @scandalpantsstuff …because she made secondary characters that are so rich that I didn’t care that Logan and Veronica were with other people.

2. “The GFE” by jennygirrl …because it is what all good smut should be: hot and heartwarming.

3. “Duplicitous Hearts” by @lisawolfe80 …because she made me feel bad for Troy, a character I was glad to see go on the show.

4. “Breaking the Rules” by @kmd0107 …because “Florist Logan” doesn’t sound like it should work but it totally does and is an amazing AU story.

5. “A Graves Turn of Events” by @nicemom93 …because while we were all debating online how Chase Graves was/was not like Logan, she actually went out and came up with a scenario where he IS, in fact, Logan and it blew me away.

Thanks @fatherjerusalem Hope you enjoy my answers. ;)

anonymous asked:

I see people comparing Nesta to Rowan in hof and there's a lot of differences there. Rowan and Aelin were both hostile toward each other. Feyre provided for Nesta, and made sure she was fed for years, and what did she do? Insult the one thing Feyre took pride in and enjoyed doing? Both Rowan and Aelin said rude things to each other and started fights. Maybe I just relate to feyre more because I know how she feels, but I still can't forgive what she did.

It’s completely alright if you can’t forgive Nesta. There isn’t one “right” way to read her character. I think what we have to try to do, as a fandom, and especially when it comes to Nesta’s character, is to stop being so defensive. Or, at the very least, people need to be understanding that there are always going to be multiple ways to read her character. Some people really connect with her because I think she reminds a lot of us of ourselves. She certainly reminds me of the many times I’ve lashed out against comfort and against my family. But even though I understand where Nesta is coming from, and what motivates her actions, I hesitate to defend them completely. The fact is, she is very mean to those who care for her. As someone who is also, at times, mean, I get it. But…that makes neither of our actions “okay.” I wish people could say “i dislike how Nesta treats Feyre but still love and relate to her characters and find her interesting.” Like those two things aren’t mutually exclusive, but the fandom does get weird about discussing negative qualities of characters they adore (see: Rhysand). 

You are allowed to not forgive Nesta. You’re allowed to decide that there are aspects of a character that make them irredeemable for you. I agree that Rowan and Aelin are both horrid to one another. I doubt anyone would argue that Aelin is ever a perfect saint, and the same can be said for him. The difference between Rowan and Aelin and Feyre and Nesta is that when Rowan met Aelin, she meant nothing to him. She was someone his queen had asked him to train. And I think that Rowan reacted so negatively to her because she was the first thing is hundreds of years that caused an emotional reaction in him. But still, they owed one another nothing and were barely even friends at first. As soon as she starts to matter to him, his behavior changes. Nesta, on the other hand, is Feyre’s sister. Family. It’s natural for us, as readers, to expect that one treat their family well. Especially when Feyre was providing for her sisters and caring for them. They would have starved without her. So equating Rowan and Nesta is…not a very thorough or well reasoned reading of the text. It ignores a lot of context. 

Frankly, the debate over Nesta bothers me. People who love her see **one** thing about how someone can’t forgive her for sibling abuse and they FREAK OUT over how the fandom treats her. But…I find that many people actually really adore Nesta? She’s a uber popular character, especially as part of a ship with Cassian. 

I think that maybe some of the Rowan v Nesta stuff has to do with how harshly the fandom seems to treat female characters compared to male? I think in this instance Rowan v Nesta is a false comparison. But, I do think that the fandom just utterly falls for some of SJM’s male characters while…disliking female ones? I mean, Rhys and Aelin are v similar, but we all know that some ppl HATE Aelin. Azriel is always called a poor baby bat, and Mor is raked over the coals for not loving him (pre acowar anyways). Lorcan is just…accepted despite his many faults, while a character like Nesta is really polarizing. There is more beef in this fandom concerning the female characters than there is the males (with the exception of Rhys v Tamlin). 

Though, like I said, I do think there is a significant difference between the Rowan/Aelin relationship in HoF and the Feyre/Nesta FAMILIAL relationship that makes the comparison between Nesta and Rowan a bit muddled. They aren’t situations that seem equatable or similar enough to me to really be compared to useful effect. So really, these conversations are a bit more complex than “why do we hate the women and love the men,” though that in itself is not a false statement. 

What really sucks about the way Joss Whedon writes is that he sort of has this idea that if he writes about women being strong and confident, that is all it takes for women to appreciate his work. Like, even if the villain constantly belittles a woman for being a woman and people are constantly harassing her and sexualizing her, it’s okay because she’s strong and she can take it.

The biggest difference between Whedon’s version of Wonder Woman and Jenkins is that in Whedon’s version Wonder Woman is A Woman. She (and the audience) must be constantly aware that she is a Woman, that she is Sexy, that she is overcoming incredible odds because she has the terrible disadvantage of Being Born A Woman.

Whereas in Jenkins’ film Diana simply exists. There are some points made by other characters about her being a woman, like when Steve won’t sleep with her because he feels it’s improper, or when his secretary says, “Oh yes, put specs on her, like after that she won’t be the most beautiful woman you’ve ever seen”, but Diana is almost completely unaware of her status as a Dreaded Woman. Her excitement over a baby? She’s literally never seen one before. Her little makeover seen? Spends the whole thing looking for something comfortable she can fight in. She basically never mentions the difference between men and women, never even says that women are better or whatever because she was raised by them. 

Joss Whedon would have never let Wonder Woman forget she was a Woman. She would have constantly been making comments about it, wether positive or negative, as would everyone around her. In Whedon’s heyday that might have flown a lot better, but now women seem to be a little sick of grrrrl power. They just want power. They just want to exist, both on screen and in life, without constant reminders that they are Women and that they must pay for that at every turn.

Dr Maru’s notes, translated

As an Assyriologist-in-training, I was pretty excited about cuneiform’s little cameo in Wonder Woman- there are no films at all about Mesopotamia, so even three seconds of flipping through a notebook of the languages I study was pretty exciting to see on the big screen. Now, I assumed at first that the writing in Dr Maru’s notebook, would simply be gibberish, but one thing about it stuck with me: how well copied the letters were. Now, Cuneiform writing was designed for clay and stylus, and it is BRUTALLY hard to write cuneiform symbols with pen and paper. You’d think you could just draw a bunch of triangles, but nope; the system was so clearly designed to use nuances only possible with stylus and clay, they’re nigh on impossible to accurately reproduce using pen. And whoever wrote that piece of paper did a damn good job of it. So, I remained convinced the text might actually have some meaning, and when I got home I started tinkering with it.

First things first: though the notes were described in the film as “Sumerian and Ottoman”, they’re not Sumerian. Dr Maru’s notes are very clearly written in the quite distinctive script of Neo-Assyrian Cuneiform, which was used on official inscriptions of the Assyrian Empire from around 1000- 700 BC. Sumerian died out as a spoken language in around 2000 BC and though it continued to be used in writing long after that in the same way Latin was in Europe, it was probably never written in the formal Assyrian script.

I’m going to safely assume the man who mistakenly called the page “Sumerian and Ottoman” got it wrong, but the fact that Diana doesn’t correct this, despite her vastly superior knowledge of ancient languages is interesting. Consider this though: historians estimate the destruction of the site of Hissarlik, which is thought MIGHT be the inspiration for the Troy legends to around 1300 BC, around the time of the Bronze Age collapse and dawn of the Greek Dark Ages. If we take this as the end of the Greek Mythic age and the hiding of Themiscyra in the DC Universe, Diana would only have been able to study Cuneiform scripts written before this period so she would know only Old Babylonian Cursive, or possibly even only Old Babylonian Lapidary. Neo-Assyrian script would be just legible with effort, but difficult for her to read.

Now, the way cuneiform works is that any one cuneiform symbol can represent one or more alphabetic sounds, OR syllables, OR entire words. Most stand for a number of those things, but some represent only one. The symbols that represent entire words are called Logograms, and they remained largely consistent through all the changes of the cuneiform writing system. If Dr Maru’s notes were primarily written in Logograms (which they turned out to be), it would make sense for Diana to still be able to read them despite the considerable changes between Old Babylonian Lapidary and Neo-Assyrian script, and also that she wouldn’t have to know Assyrian-era Akkadian to understand the logographic signs (because they represent whole words at once rather than spell them out alphabetically, they can be understood by speakers of multiple languages who know the signs).

So having sorted all that out, I began to translate. Virtually all the symbols were logograms standing for words like mountain, woman, king, builder etc, but a limited few stood for single syllables like “ru” or “ti”. This made no sense, because the signs used were consistent enough with the actual context in the film to make some sense and logically repetitive. Whoever wrote this knew what they were doing. Why intersperse them with random letters? I finally realised: Dr Maru is a chemist. The way her code works is that she uses mostly logograms, but uses signs for syllables when those syllables are our modern symbols for chemical elements. Every sign where a syllable-only translation was my only option, that syllable matched up with the abbreviation for a chemical element in the periodic table.

So, working with the assumption that Dr Poison’s code technique is using Logograms to represent whole words, and the symbols for sole syllables like ka, ga, la etc in their standard transcriptions from cuneiform to represent chemical elements, here it is at last, the first page of Dr Maru’s notebook:


 

To divide the town, one unit of the weapon to the throne of the builder: to please the builder, in the company of the god: lithium, 1 grain/seed of europium. 1 daughter of gold woman -  yours. Country [given?] to god and then [to] lord/god/king. Ruthenium possibility, carbon disulfide*, and then rhenium. May it be pleasing to the country. Animal shoulder** Uunhexium*** . Lord/god and then gallium, and then radium. Weapon, iodine, administrator.


*This sign can mean “tree, wood” or, just stand for the sound “s”. So, i was left with a choice between carbon and sulfur, and settled on the compound

**I have no fricking idea why that’s in there, but it’s definitely that sign. Maybe she wants to make a pot roast and scribbled it down? Someone draw me happy dr maru and her pot roast pls

***This sign was VERY hard to identify, but i finally settled on the Old Babylonian Lapidary sign for “uuh”. Uuh also happens to be the chemical symbol for Ununhexium or Livermorium, a rare earth element not identified until the year 2000. This is strange, because this sign is CLEARLY Lapidary, while all the others are in the Neo-Assyrian script. So my conclusion is that Dr Poison isolated Uunhexium 92 years ahead of the game, it’s her big secret, and decided it needed a unique Logogram of its own, for which she adopted the sign for Uuh.

anonymous asked:

i think one of the reasons why female shepard going through all of ME affects me more than male shepard is bc while men are expected to carry the weight of the world Stoically, women are expected to handle Everything- to handhold and take the blame onto ourselves and, when put in positions of power, act just as stoically. jane's story KILLS me because it's a completely plausible story- she suffers and she suffers and is told she's crazy and when everything's gone to hell she still has to fix it

i’m attached to femshep primarily BECAUSE i feel like her story is just a tad bit more powerful when you portray shepard as a woman. 

like i’ve seen men talk about mass effect and how disrespected the council made them feel. the council brushed shepard off, called them crazy, and then came crawling back when shit went awry. “why didn’t they just believe them in the first place?” they say, “the evidence was there, and they blew shepard off.” 

meanwhile EVERY single woman i’ve talked to about mass effect related to shepard. she was slandered, spit on, and told she was delusional. almost every woman has been called crazy for seeing a problem that ‘wasn’t there’, whether it was a family issue, a societal issue, or even a business issue. and then, in the end, shepard had to clean up the mess anyway. 

and while maleshep’s story rings a little bit cliche– man saves the galaxy through sheer force of will– it feels…. stronger, more original, more powerful as femshep. this woman was backhanded and gaslit so many times, and she still rose up and did the impossible anyway. 

bioware has a fuckton of problems, and i know there were issues with how they treated femsheps character, but overall? 

the mass effect trilogy, when headed by femshep, is honestly one of the most feminist stories i’ve ever seen. 

Our Little Secret-Part One

Summary: After a hunt and quite a few drinks the boys learn that you aren’t as ‘experienced’ in one department as they thought you were. Dean thinks he can rectify that

Series Masterlist

Characters: Dean, Sam, Reader

Pairings: Dean x Reader

Square Filled/Kink: Oral Fixation for @spnkinkbingo

Word Count: 4700

Warnings: Smut, oral (male and female receiving), insecure reader, language

A/N: Thank you so much for reading. This is the first part of what I hope is a lengthy and smutty series. Any feedback is always appreciated. This is also for @emilywritesaboutdean and @wheresthekillswitch ‘s Do It Like TFW Challenge (The gif is near the bottom)

A thank you to my beta @ayeronda for betaing at an ungodly hour and being so wonderful.


It’s been a long ass day and an even longer hunt. You were more than happy to be sitting on Dean’s bed in the boys’ motel room, sipping on your second, or maybe it is the third beer. And that was just here, it wasn’t counting the four or five shots you had had down at the bar. So now you were here and Sam was riding Dean hard about his strikeout at the bar.

“Dude, you were never going home with her.”

“She doesn’t know what she’s missing out on.”

You can’t help but chuckle, “What? Two whole minutes?”

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Compilation doodles + Name explanations for the OC kids in the YOI Future!verse ABO AU

^ Literally the above, because I thought WAY too hard about these for legit months (the twins were conceived in my mind back in DECEMBER and Arisa in January >.>;;) and I want to rant about my reasoning for all of them. :P

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IF YOU ARE NEW TO THIS AU: It’s Yuuri-centric polyamory in an ABO setting, Yuuri’s married to four mates (Victor, Yurio, Phichit, Minami) and the above are their kids.

BASICS of this AU

INTRO to how ABO works in this AU

OTHER POSTS (comics + illustrations) in the Future!Verse ABO section of my YOI Masterpost.

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Please keep ship bashing out of the comments/tags. Don’t like, just skip <3 Thank you.

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PLEASE DO NOT REPOST, EDIT, OR OTHERWISE USE MY ART WITHOUT MY EXPLICIT PERMISSION. More detailed rules available on my Rules & FAQ Post.

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DISCLAIMER: I don’t know any Russian or Thai and my info comes from not-so-trustworthy Google-sensei though I did my best to triple check from multiple sources including non-English ^ ^; I am however native and fluent in both Japanese and English and also consulted a Japanese linguist regarding my kanji choices ^ ^; If I made any mistakes please be gentle, and also understanding that this is a low-stress self-indulgent near-crack AU >.>;;;

Onwards! vvv

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You wanna know why I think Padme is interpreted so differently by different people, or just completely ignored by most? I don’t think a lot of people want to reconcile with the fact that Padme is a smart, strong leader who can stay cool under pressure with the Padme that’s also so unapologetically romantic. They don’t want this to be the same person, because they just don’t think they go together. But Padme is. And a lot of women are. And you almost never see women be both in the media. They’re usually one or the other.

That’s why to some she’s the strong woman that George Lucas made completely out of character or she’s this weak, awful mother who didn’t stick around when her two children should have been able to rely on her, all because of a man. They don’t think that the 14-year-old girl who defeated the trade federation could also be the 27-year-old woman who had her heart completely and totally broken by her husband (though I don’t believe that was the only thing that broke her heart that day. The two things she had devoted her life to, The Republic and Anakin, had crashed and burned all in the same day, right in front of her eyes. That would take a toll on anybody.)

And, also, where did this concept of her making totally rational decisions all the time come about? She married a guy, like, 2 weeks after she saw him again for the first time in 10 years. Idk why people always take her actions in rots as out of character. She has a track record for not making totally smart decisions when it comes to Anakin.

The Data Theory

This theory was originally developed by derekscorner and revised last night. I delve into the theory a little bit myself and came up with something pretty incredible. Again, most of this theory is in credit to derekscorner. All I’ve done is branch it out a little more. You can read the original post along with what I came up with here.


Kingdom Hearts is never entirely clear on how it’s universe works. The only trustworthy information you can get is spoken by characters in cut scenes, usually rather vague and said with symbolism, or it’s hidden somewhere in the “Reports” you recover throughout all of the games.

Because of this, the game can constantly flex it’s rules to bring about more scenarios and fix discrepancies it might have had in the past. But assuming, with the release 1.5+2.5 for the PS4, all of those discrepancies were fixed and the game is official, theories about this game will now become all the more relevant. And sensible.

Most things in Kingdom Hearts can be explained away in a rather convoluted essay. However, there are still select few scenarios that fans can’t seem to tackle because it wouldn’t make sense for how the game’s universe operates. One of these leading scenarios is the issue of bringing the lost Nobodies back into existence. I’m talking about Roxas, Naminé, and Xion.

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Tantalizing: 07

Originally posted by jikookfantasy

Tantalizing: 01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08
Ship: Jungkook | Reader
Description: Back in high school, you were nothing more than a nerd Jungkook wanted to deflower, to get a good fuck from. When he sees you at the club, though, things have changed drastically, and his dominance starts to teeter on the edge.
Warning: Dom!Jungkook, Intercourse, Oral, Blowjob, Hair Pulling, Tons of Fucking Angst, Masturbating, Exhibitionism, Overstimulation, Slight Degrading Names?
Word Count: 6,631

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so many scenes in wonder woman made me cry, not out of sadness but out of an overwhelming sense of pride and awe (the battle on the beach! the liberation of veld! no man’s land), but only two moments truly stunned me:

  • when steve+crew held up the metal door for diana and cried “shield!”
  • when the crew urged her on as she raced passed their smoke signal toward ludendorff’s base

both of these moments lasted only a few seconds, but i think the reason why they moved me so much was because they depicted something that almost never happens in superhero movies—namely, a woman getting to be the protagonist, the invincible hero, the warrior that everyone trusts to defeat the villain. at no point did steve or his crew doubt diana’s abilities; instead, in true sidekick fashion, they gave her an opening and watched her conquer. this was her time, not theirs. 

when diana leapt off that metal door, when she tore through the field in pursuit of ludendorff, it was like she was sending a message. we are strong, she said. we are stars. yes we can. 

By Way of Spontaneity (End)

Summary: On a whim, Bucky declares you to be his girlfriend to his grandma and mother. They’re eager to meet you and he asks you to pretend to be with him for just one dinner with his family. But is that really all?

Word Count: 1,185

Warnings: None.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Part 7 Part 8 Part 9 Part 10 Part 11 Part 12

A/N: Thank you for coming on this journey with me! Here’s to the next series! <3 

Originally posted by buckysqueenbitch


Bucky felt like a lab rat, being observed and analyzed to the deepest parts of himself. Fidgeting, he glared at Steve and Peggy. “What?”

“What?” scoffed Steve. “We should be asking you that. What the hell is going on, Bucky? You don’t really look like you care so much that your girlfriend is cheating on you.”

Bucky raised a finger and gave him a cheeky smile. “Actually, I have fed you the incorrect information?”

“Fed us?” asked Peggy, voice filled with indignation. “What are we, your pets?”

“I’m just sayin’! I haven’t been completely honest with you.”

“Then what is the truth, Buck? Because it’s all pretty confusing right about now, and your ‘girlfriend’ is not exactly the best of persons at the moment,” said Steve, crossing his arms over his chest. He looked every bit the part of a father and Bucky stopped himself from teasing his cousin.

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Home Run (M)

Anonymous said to oppamansae:

“I still cannot get baseball jungkook damn that was amazingly HOT ! God damn ! Baseball jungkook X Cheerleader Reader ?! <3 Smutttttttttt~~~~~ with a fluff ? XD - ok im still imagining baseball player jungkook *heart eyes*”

Yeah as shitty as the title is, I can’t think of anything else. BUT YES HERE YOU GO BEAUTIFUL ANON. BASEBALL PLAYER ROOKIE JUNGKOOKIE. 2,036 Words

Pairing: Baseball player! Jeon Jungkook x Cheerleader! Reader

Genre: Fluff, Smut, Baseballer au!

Warnings: (slight)fingering, riding, JEON JUNGKOOK

Originally posted by mayfifolle

“And Jeon Jungkook is getting ready to take the next ball. One more home run, and this came is over. All the plates are empty – will he be able to make it?”

The entire arena cheered his name along with the cheerleading squad which belonged to the team containing the star baseball players of Korea, BTS. Not only were their visuals amazing, but they were all-stars, especially the main batsmen, Jeon Jungkook. 

“Takada Naoki is getting ready to bowl, and–” There was a thunderous ‘bang’ which irrupted from the bat of the brunet. “Amazing hit!!”

The crowd went wild as the player immediately dashed off the home plate. You cheered from your stage along with your group of girls – maybe you weren’t the main cheerleader, but you tried your best, kicking and waving your white and blue pom-poms from your position on the side.

“Jungkook! Jungkook!” 

The entire stadium chanted as he made it to third base, the Japanese team finally getting the ball, ready to pass it to the keeper. All the cheering stopped for a moment as soon as the ball was in the air, breaths being held in anticipation. The male soon slipped into home base as the ball was caught, the referee bringing the whistle to his lips.

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Writing gay romance between Jewish characters with two differing levels of observance

I’m writing (or, right now, more planning/outlining, with occasional writing of small scenes that I can’t get out of my head) a novel about two Jewish men who fall in love in a very Xtian, conservative town. The older of the two (late thirties) is more closeted, reclusive, and is somewhat separated from his Jewish identity as a result of a combination of assimilation and intermarriage further back in his family. The main character (mid-late twenties) on the other hand is very involved with his synagogue, works at a Hebrew summer camp, keeps shabbos, etc.

My issue is that I’m very observant (conservaform) and so is my family; I know a few folks who go to my synagogue who are “high holy day Jews”, or might also come for a wedding or bris or bar/bas mitzvah, but not many who are non-observant to the degree of this character (hasn’t set foot in synagogue since being a child, didn’t have a bar mitzvah, has a pair of somewhat observant grandparents and some cousins/etc who are observant, but most of his immediate family isn’t observant). So I’m not sure how to portray the secondary character without someone going “why not just write a Jewish guy in love with an Xtian guy” or something, because even if his relationship to Judaism and Jewish culture are somewhat distant, they’re still there. I’m also afraid that someone is going to say “why are you bashing Xtianity” about some of the subject matter (as someone who has lived in a small town, I have a decent bit of material from personal experience on Xtian antisemitism), but really the main point is that I want to portray two Jewish men loving each other.

I want to write this but don’t want goyim in particular to try to argue that I should have just made my MC’s romantic interest Xtian in the first place, because one main theme I want to explore, which I haven’t seen explored much in fiction, is being gay and Jewish. Specifically, one concept I had for the second character is how his being closeted comes largely from a place of being raised in a Xtian-secular household in a very Xtian town, and homophobia being very religiously where he lives, and so him sort of being reluctant to explore religion at all; but then seeing how the MC is Very Jewish and somewhat-openly gay, and feeling both nostalgic for the parts of his grandparents he sees in the MC (speaking Yiddish, cooking traditional Ashkenazic food), as well as longing to be as comfortable with both his sexuality and to have a relationship with G-d as the MC does.

I don’t know if this is a weirdly specific character/plot concept, but it just came to me I guess and it’s been at me long enough that I’ve started to try to outline writing it. I just want to see more gay fiction with religious, specifically Jewish, characters. Thanks for any advice you can give.

Thank you for submitting a question so close to my heart! Looks like I need to break this down into several parts: 

1. How to portray secular Jews as something distinct from Christians, secular or otherwise - this may not be as hard as you think it is because you’re Jewish and your factory settings, your defaults, your unexamined ideas, may already be different from the Christians around you. Like, I was in my 30’s before I found out that gentiles don’t do the chair dance. I thought everyone did that. Give The Upside of Unrequired by Becky Albertalli (review here) a read – her main character tells the audience that “we’re the kind of Jewish family who eats bacon” and religion itself isn’t really a presence in her life, but she still finds it meaningful that the boy she’s working with at her new job turns out to be a fellow Jew.

Other possible markers of secular Jewishness:

  • Finding Jewish representation/acknowledgment of our existence in fiction (or the Jewishness of celebrities) meaningful
  • Casual use of the most common Yiddishisms (maybe not entire curse phrases, but, like, using the word ‘kvetch’ in ordinary conversation)
  • General feeling of alienation or otherness around super overt displays of Christianity
  • Foods like matzo ball soup or latkes (for your Ashkie characters, anyway; this might be different for other subgroups of us.) 

In my new release Knit One, Girl Two, the main character Clara is a secular Jew and one of the details I used to illustrate that is that her first kiss involved sneaking off with another girl during a friend’s bar mitzvah reception. She also refers to her grandparents as Bubby and Zayde and has strong opinions about which Jewish foods she does and doesn’t like. She’s slightly awkward around the love interest’s higher level of observance, which is something secular Jews might feel out of self-consciousness—if the character cared. A secular Jewish person and a gentile person don’t approach an observant Jewish person’s observance in the same way. The gentile may misunderstand or have misconceptions; the Jewish person might feel self-conscious for not participating. Or feel nostalgic for observant people in their past (like “oh, my grandma used to –!”) 

2. How to portray your own marginalization without sounding like you’re bashing the privileged group. Now, you’re not really obligated to watch out for the feelings of a group that has hurt you by having power over you… but at the same time I 100% understand not wanting to step on toes just to save your own peace of mind. Some suggestions for this:

  • Having some of the Christians in the town be nice, but powerless to stop the jackwagon ones.
  • Flat-out having your character say “I’m not mad at Christianity; these people don’t even seem like they’re following Jesus in the first place”
  • Cut down on the more painful elements and focus on your main characters’ reactions to their hurt rather than describing the bigotry itself. That will cut down on how much your bigoted characters hurt your RL readers, so they’ll be mad at them for your main characters’ sake but not for their own sake and it’ll give them a little distance. (Example: “OMG, I can’t believe how much of a jerk Todd was being, saying all that garbage about Jews and gay people.” Instead of “Todd walked into the room and shouted that Jews are X and gay people are Y!”)
  • Try to cut down on having the most bigoted characters belong to groups marginalized along another axis. You’re going to perpetuate fatphobia if your most bigoted character is also your only fat character, and if I were reading this story I’d be uncomfortable if the homophobic/antisemitic characters were Black unless a Black author was writing it because from a white pen this could easily be read as blaming those two -phobias on Black people instead of white supremacy where it belongs. 

3. I don’t think you’re going to get “you might as well have made him Christian” coming from outsiders because you’re a Jewish person writing Jewish characters. Just speaking from personal experience.. In any case, a secular Jewish character is not a Christian character. Sometimes they can come off that way when gentiles write them, because they won’t know what kind of details to add to make their being Jewish not seem arbitrarily pasted on, but I doubt that would happen from a Jewish writer. 

4. “One main theme I want to explore, which I haven’t seen explored much in fiction, is being gay and Jewish.” 

I have several recommendations for you! 

First of all, Jordan S. Brock’s just come out with a m/m novel called Change of Address based on her own experiences with PTSD and a service dog—it’s even dedicated to the service dog. Like her, the love interest is a Jewish adoptee, and the character’s observance mirrors her own – he and his father don’t allow bacon in the house but they’ll eat pepperoni as long as it’s somewhere else, for example. 

Out of print but easy to find in libraries through ILL is The Dyke and the Dybbuk, Ellen Galford’s paranormal f/f comedy about a demon who possesses a Jewish lesbian cab driver and makes her get a crush on an Orthodox woman as a prank. (Review)  

I also collected this list of free queer Jewish SFF short stories, which includes nonbinary representation. As far as my own works go, I really tried to infuse the Tales from Perach collection with all the joy and gratefulness both Judaism, Jewishness, and queerness have brought to my life – there’s a lesbian’s grateful prayer of thanks for her relationship with her wife, an elderly trans woman and her husband attending services, and a royal family with two moms and two dads putting on an exceptionally lavish Purimspiel that includes a scripted swordfight. 

I’m glad you’re writing something to add to this and expand the body of LGBT Jewish literature, especially something where both members of the couple are Jewish.

–Shira

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also, can you believe that this is totally something that isak and sana just do, sometimes? throw random science questions at each other, in the middle of a conversation? it’s just so them. and you know what? isak probably already knew the answer to that question he was asking, but this is something that’s familiar and safe between the two of them, it’s one of their usual things, and something he knows will get sana to talk to him, and he can see if the sana he knows, his sana, is still there, and she was! and she replied to him, fully. and you can see how her face softens up when you compare the look on her face as he asks the question and the look on her face by the time she answered the question. there’s this hint of a smile. it made her feel better, in that moment. i think isak didn’t ask the question because he wanted the answer to it, he asked the question because he knew that answering it would be a good for sana

it really bothers me when people reduce what happened here to Mikasa thinking that she should at least confess her feelings to Eren because they were gonna die
even if that was also something that was conveyed along with what she said, that was NOT what prompted her words!

I just hate how much this implies that Mikasa didn’t care about anything that was going on and just decided to take a selfish moment to herself not caring about Eren’s state and feelings, when it’s the absolute opposite!

what prompted Mikasa’s words was exactly seeing Eren in that desperate state! she thought they were gonna die and she didn’t want him to go like that, depressed and self-loathing and feeling useless, she didn’t want their last moment to be that way!

and her point and feelings reached him, because Eren stopped wallowing in his self-hatred and decided to stand up instead and fight protecting the people he loves!
and that’s the whole beauty of the moment!

Mikasa’s words made Eren realize his worth and that he was never useless, Eren’s words made Mikasa realize he would always be there for her, if Eren wasn’t able to control the titans then and that was indeed their last moment, they still wouldn’t have regretted going like that!