just because i love you so damn much

anonymous asked:

I come to your blog in times of need as way to understand parts of myself because your writing reflects something in me. I have a problem. A boy, a beautiful lovely boy, broke my heart. He promised me forever and marriage and a future. He told me 3 days ago he couldn't be happy and that he loved me too much and was scared of sacrificing his future for me. He said no matter what he just couldn't be happy with me. I love him so damn much it hurts. I need your words more than anything right now.

I wish I had a cure for your heartache. I wish I could take your pain from you.

You will find what you need in a boy that will love you for everything you are and aren’t. Your heart will heal and you’ll become stronger for this. You deserve an all encompassing love and nothing less.

My heart is still on the mend. I know how you feel, I was there months ago and it’s taken a lot more time than I actually want to admit but we all deserve happiness. He wasn’t the one sweetie. You will find someone else when your heart is ready to.

Let him go.

Love yourself more than another human being. (advice I need to take).

If you need anything else I’m here. Always.

BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW IT HAPPENED ON THE BEST WAY POSSIBLE?

BECAUSE I WAS EXPECTING IT TO HAPPEN BECAUSE VICTOR WANTED TO “SEDUCE” HIM OR DESTABILIZE HIM OR SOMETHING, BUT NO, IT WAS GENUINE AND PURE, HE WENT FOR IT NOT BECAUSE HE HAD A PLAN, HE WENT FOR IT BECAUSE HE ABSOLUTELY FELT HE HAD TO DO IT BECAUSE HE LOVES YURI SO DAMN MUCH HE COULDN’T JUST NOT DO IT. IT WASN’T A BAIT, IT WASN’T A MISTAKE, NOR AN ACCIDENT NOR A PLAN, IT WAS LOVE, JUST SIMPLE AND PURE AND OVERWHELMING LOVE AND I CAN’T BELIEVE I WITNESSED IT IN OUR DAY AND AGE

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tv meme: nine female characters » cj cregg [5/9]

“You know what? I’ve spent the last 14 hours being snickered at by United States Senators, being ostracized on the World Wide Web, having my own colleagues question my ability to do my job, and I let it get to me. So, I don’t think it really matters whether I’m gay or straight or just the best damn women’s basketball player in Ohio Valley history, no one should be treated this way.”

Good things about TLD (in no particular order)

- John looking genuinely offended when people don’t believe he writes the blog

- “the man we both love”

- Sherlock asking John if he’s okay because he doesn’t want him to leave yet

- HUG + “it is what it is”

- “I’m Sherlock Holmes I wear the Damn hat [ISN’T THAT RIGHT MARY?]”

- Mycroft being asked out by Lady Smallwood and just not ??? getting it ???

- Sherlock complaining that the vase he’s drinking from isn’t clean

- Imaginary Mary being hilarious and adorable and a total badass (also seemingly a hardcore johnlock shipper)

- Learning so much of what John thinks but doesn’t dare to admit through imaginary Mary

- “You’re done with the world being explained to you by a man. Well who isn’t.”

- “I DON’T WANT TO DIE” (broke my fucking heart)

- Bad cereal puns

- “IT’s funNY CoS It’S TruE”

- MRS HUDSON kidnapping Sherlock in a boot and forcing him to meet John and owning a badass car and being on the phone with the British government while driving way past speed limit listening to Beethoven and being chased by the police.

- Spelling Fuck off on the tracer

- “You’re suicidal, you’re allowed chips”

-  “Taking your own life. Interesting expression. Taking it from who? Once it’s over it’s not you who’ll miss it. Your own death is something that happens to everybody else. Your life is not your own. Keep your hands off it.” honestly one of my favorite quotes ever

- The way the episode dealt with self harm and suicide in general really

- Faith / Eurus was so charming for some reason

- Yay Irene Adler mention

- John Watson owning up to how shitty he’s been lately and hence allowing me to stop hating him

- Also John finally being able to cope with his grief and guilt and reaching some kind of internal peace with Mary and himself

- Sherlock and John reunited again

- thE TWIST AT THE END (I genuinely thought it was Moriarty for a second though)

Sometimes I just get overwhelmed by just how important Jack and Shitty are to one another. Like, holy fuck. Jack would literally die for Shitty and Shitty would go to the ends of the earth for Jack. It’s cannon that frog Shitty fought some upperclassmen because they were making fun of Jack. There is no doubt in my mind that Jack has called Shitty his brother and they both cried and hugged for like an hour. Just, their relationship is so important to me. They love each other so damn much and we need to talk about it more.

I look at you and all I can picture is the way you look at her. and its not fair. Its not fair that a person can make you love them without the intention of loving you back and thats what you did to me and thats what she did to you. 
and it still doesn’t make sense because I’m the one whose here. I’m the one whose always fucking there. and she isn’t. 
and Its so hard not to feel so fucking shitty when you give someone every single good thing inside of you when they dont even fucking want it. 
and I just can’t figure out how I’m not enough? I can’t figure out how you made me love you so damn much and I couldn’t get a feeling out of you. 
and I love you. I love you so much it hurts and you just hurt me. 
you hurt me over and over and all I do is apologize and make excuses for you. and I don’t know if that shows how much I love you or if that just shows how much of an idiot I am because I think its both. 
I can’t even start to describe how much you mean to me, and no one sees that. and you don’t see it.
Its not just a crush, its not just hard getting over you. this is completely different. I just want to talk to you all the time. I want to call you when something good happens, I want your arms wrapped around me when everything is falling apart. I just want you. I just love you so damn much, I feel like my heart is going to explode. 

and you feel none of it. 
you are cold and distant, and you are only there when you want to be. you are only there when you need something. 
everything that I feel for you, you feel for her.
While I am looking for you in a crowded room, you are looking for her. 
and its not fair, she doesn’t deserve that and I don’t deserve this. Unrequited love is one of the worst descriptions of love and i cannot even hate you for it because I know every horrible feeling I get from you, you are getting from her. 

I just wish you loved me back. I wish there was something here other than “good friends”

—  unrequited love is a bitch
Dating Cassian Andor would include...

Originally posted by asnipplesonabreastplate

I’m in love with Diego and he’s my son, bye

  • Calling him Cass
  • And calling him captain, especially when he’s a little bossy, just to annoy him
  • You calling him captain becoming a little kink…………….
  • K-2SO being your boring, sassy and cool son with Cassian (that droid loves you lol)
  • Meaning so much to Cassian that he can’t even remember how his life was before meeting you
  • A lot of PDA because he doesn’t give a damn about what people may think about him
  • And now that he found you, now that he truly knows what love means, he has nothing to be ashamed of
  • Being his weakness
  • Totally having him wrapped around your finger
  • Cassian hugging and kissing you whenever and wherever he can (which means all the damn time)
  • Him singing for you to sleep
  • Sleeping on his arms
  • Being the big spoon sometimes, like when he’s angry or sad
  • Running your fingers through his perfect hair to calm him down
  • Giving you passionate and soft kisses
  • I mean, have you seen his lips??????
  • Cassian being gentle at sex because he likes to slowly make love to you, not to fuck you
  • But having hickeys on your neck the next morning (and Cassian being proud of it)
  • Him being quite jealous
  • Cuddling a lot because he’s so warm
  • Kissing and caressing his body when he can’t sleep, especially his back
  • Letting him cry on your chest because he finally has someone to talk to, to tell about his fears and mistakes, etc
  • Secretly being in touch when he’s away on a mission (Mon found out one day, but she doesn’t care, she knows how important you are to Cassian)
  • Having late night dates on Yavin 4
  • Kids? He doesn’t actually want them, at least not now, but is a subject that he definitely wants to bring up again someday
  • Always making him laugh, and basically, just making him a better person and a happy man

love is a word (you gave it a name) | harry/louis | 21 400 words

“It’s worth it anyway,” says Harry, looking into Louis’s eyes. He’s untucked his hair from behind his ear, and it falls down in silky strands to obscure his face. He looks so painfully young, even after everything. Louis’s strong, strong boy. “Just for the two of us. We get to be selfish for a little while.”

it’s christmas. in between snowman building, tree shopping, and ill-advised skating on a frozen lake, louis and harry get ready to take the most important step of their lives.

for inkedrope; written as part of the h/l winter exchange

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DRABBLES

SERIES

Do Something Bad, Too

It’s like every single Alpha on the planet won’t rest until they’ve confessed their eternal wish for you to mother their children, and it’s getting old. Luckily, that’s a problem Bucky might be able to fix.

This Is Where I Leave You

The day Bucky Barnes stumbles into your clinic with a bullet in his side is the day your life changed forever.

Ease My Mind (Completed)

Bucky Barnes is your best friend and, of course, you’re in love with him. But apparently Bucky is just fine with your platonic relationship - you’re going to have to do something about that.

Heartlines (Completed)

When Reader moves into Avengers Tower to finish her PhD in safety, the last thing she expects is to have something in common with the shy insomniac Bucky Barnes.

these days (i can’t take too much)

Reader used to be a villain; a stone cold killer. But she doesn’t do that anymore. Helping the Avengers stop her old boss once and for all leads to a lot more than she bargained for, especially when it comes to Bucky Barnes.

DRABBLES

There is this thing people in Merlin’s fandom don’t seem to realize: he is not a cinnamon roll, he isn’t a little ray of sunshine. 
I mean, he was, at the beginning. He was the best damn human being ever. He was The saviour.

But towards the end, you can’t deny that he changed. He became this suspicious dark man, he became an  executioner rather than a saviour. His actions led to the finale we had.
And I love it.
I love it, because at some point it wasn’t about Albion and Magic anymore. It was just about Arthur. 

And it is sad, and unfair, and if you think about all the time he had to realize that… My heart really breaks. 
But I love it so much.

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Aqours 3rd Years (´。• ᵕ •。`) ♡

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oindri  asked:

What did you think of the final problem if you dont mind me asking?

hello :-) and not at all,,,

well. i LOVED it. people keep saying that this episode wasn’t like sherlock at all, but to me it was the perfectly imperfect culmination of a sherlock holmes i first met in 2010. the plot - with its gaping holes and weird narrative devices so badly done it was almost art - served only to develop and complete the characters for me.

i am not going to dwell on its faults because frankly its like moftiss didn’t really care too much; they put together what was basically an entire season into one episode so loose ends be damned.

but i like how mycroft was exposed for the terrified, more insecure brother who just wanted (as always) to protect his family. how molly - in that awful, manipulated moment - could actually hear sherlock say “i love you” in a way that was truthful. (i always felt sherlock grew to understand that molly is a force of nature and someone who always in his heart. and the coffin smashing moment was so powerful. not just because of his rage at being played, but also because he hurt someone he truly values). and john as the soldier as well as his best friend; the man who is so doggedly moral and who has kept sherlock grounded forever. and who now equally keeps him grounded. the lying detective was the mirror on their relationship; i liked how in TFP he was truly by sherlock’s side.

and sherlock; made me fucking cry all the way through. if we please ignore the atrocious beginning, he to me is becoming not just good. but complete. i missed the deductions in this finale but i loved how he solved the “case” by…. feeling. the harmonious ending with eurus reminded about he is now her bridge to reality, the way john has been season after season for sherlock.

i can see that some of the loose ends are pretty significant; we are no closer really to understanding sherlock’s sexuality i guess. the adler things with the violin, the boys basically being parent!lock back in baker street, the i love you to molly. who knows. for me though this was never a driver for Moftiss. that wasn’t their focus. 

i’m putting it into my top three (the lying detective and a scandal in belgravia also on the dais)… i keep thinking of TFP as the Eurus of the entire series; brilliant, unexpected, batshit crazy, often lacking a palpable motivation and yet under it all, just being about love.

and the final “butch cassidy and sundance” moment, running out of Rathbone Place, to me was a statement that this origin story is now complete. here now are our Baker St Boys; Holmes and Watson, and they’re on the case…

Love Notes from the Venus Signs

Venus in Aries:     
     It was like a moment of clarity, the day we met; a sunny blur cast on morning dew and you glimmered like the god damn ocean itself. Maybe I shouldn’t have grabbed your hand, or I shouldn’t have run or screamed, “you- attractive one.” But when you see so much light in one person, you just have to do it. Nothing matters, then, just them. Just you.

Venus in Taurus:
     I never fancied romance novels because there was too much plot and too little character. Men aren’t so dynamic and girls can’t hold their tongues. But you have the finesse of fine wine. In your silence I find comfort and in your irritation I know that what we are is real. Because books don’t explain the way a lover’s hand on your hip can silence the chaos in your mind and lull you to sleep. You are the most difficult person I’ve ever had the pleasure of interacting with, and I will fight for us, I will fight for our love.

Venus in Gemini:
    I don’t know where to start. Remember that bird we saw a few days ago- yeah the pigeon I think. Well I know you think street birds are dirty, but when it flew off into the air and circled us, you wrinkled your nose a little. You didn’t see me smiling because you were watching the pigeon, but I was mesmerized. You’re beautiful, not just because of your nose or eyes or wonderfully erotic body, but because of everything you do. And when you pulled me away for cover, I couldn’t stop laughing. Partly because you stepped in a big wad of gum, but partly because I’ve never been this happy. I love you.

Venus in Cancer:
   Nights with you are the best. Your arms are a coven, a person reminder that I am part of something greater than myself, that I am worth something. Before you, there was a loneliness that never left, a creep of darkness that followed me and swarmed me as I slept. You are my everything. I will support every decision you make, I will be here when you can’t hold a strong front- when life gets too hard. Because, love, if anyone understands, it’s me. And I know how to be soft, how to hold you until your tears dry and how to bake your favorite cookies. I will tell you I love you every morning and every night as long as we are together, and I will mean it every time.

Venus in Leo:
   People saw a lot in me, maybe they still do. You always have. The thing about people is they come and go, but they don’t know me. You know the way I like to sleep in until noon and what dumb memes will make me laugh. You know how to make me feel special when everyone else sees someone who doesn’t exist. Your kisses are important to me, not because you mean it, but because you understand who I am and you’re still willing to fight for me. Cuddle me into the night and tell me those joke your coworkers like, they make me giggle. I love you for everything that you do, I love you for making me feel real. 

Venus in Virgo:
    This is a confession, nothing more and nothing less. I am neurotic. I find solace in cleaning and can’t have sex knowing that their are dishes in the sink. I know that I am riddled with a touch of crazy, but you see more in me. You find me charming and understand that everything I do for you is because I love you. For whatever reason, telling you isn’t easy enough. I want to show you. I want to help you shop for groceries and then satisfy you fully in bed. I want you to know that I can change for you, but you never seem to mind my quirks. You are how I know love exists. 

Venus in Libra:
    My divine, I never doubted your existence. I wish I could have saved every first experience to share with you, and only you. There is a softness when you look at me, when you graze my body and conjoin our fingers until they are so tightly interlocked I believe we may never separate. It is in your presence, in your spontaneous flowers and mountain retreats, that I know this is where I’m meant to be. Nothing is full without you. Even in your bitterness I am contented, although I will do anything you make you happy. You are my whole heart, my other half, my love. 

Venus in Scorpio:
    The world is cruel. We grow up with pain, reoccurring and pungent in our viscera. It doesn’t always heal either. And people will cause it with their carelessness, using others as if they are puppets. It is in you that I can heal, from your scent, within your laugh, and in the breath of your sleep. There is purity within you, a truth that I am fixated upon. I want to delve into the depth of your mind and comfort your pains, I want to hold you and understand you until you are fully exposed and fully fixed from the trials of your past. There is no person as rich with depth as you, no person so worthy of complete love. You have given to me without hesitation, and I long to share with you everything I have.

Venus in Sagittarius:
    The world seems small when you think about it long enough, or when you look up at the midnight sky and see the flaming memories of stars that once were. We are that, a microcosm of existence- a memory recurring time and time again. But no matter how small I am, I am overwhelmed with the concept of you and you totality. There is no person worth this short trip, no one except you. Your company is valuable, your opinions intrigue me, and you have a curiosity for this world that rivals mine. It’s okay that we fight, I think, even when you’re wrong. You are a star in my mind, ever-present until the day I die, and maybe in another lifetime. 

Venus in Capricorn:
    I am not one to share myself. I find solace in safety, I find solace in predictability. You fight everything I have refused to share. You don’t let me leave, even when I’m certain that I’m best left to my own devices. I never wanted you gone, I never wanted silence between us, but my head is raging with fear. I can’t handle heartbreak and I can’t handle humiliation. I promise that as long as you don’t let me leave, I will help you. I will be loyal, I will hold you when you sleep, and I will be here when you need support. You are worth the risk an I love you with all that I am.

Venus in Aquarius:
   There are moments where I find myself totally lost and totally irrational. The moment I knew I’d fallen for you was when you’d become too invested. I thought I’d drop you like I’d done with others in the past, but I couldn’t. You were too important- someone I cared about, someone I craved to touch. And now, honey, I think about you every freakin’ day. I think about you from the crack of dawn to the moment I fall asleep. And even when I need to be alone, I think about you. You’re special: curious, insightful, interesting. I see the world in you. And now, well, nothing can convince me we’re better apart. I love you with every strange thing I am.

Venus in Pisces:
   Nothing blisters my skin so gently as your morning kisses, which I cherish. The haze of midnight holds your last breath, the one before I elicit the most delicious of moans, and fall into a daze of dreams about us. I am hopelessly risen from this earthly pull, I am devoted to our love, one which I knew to be destined. With you I will be ever-present, and ever-kind. You are what makes flowers bloom and raindrops crystallize. With you, I am completely enamored and totally in love.

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daughter of Hades|punk|feminist|Slytherin aesthetic

She was the kind of girl who
could make you think your life was
not complete unless she was in it.
— Adi Alsaid 

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“You ask me if I hate you, and I can’t believe you still don’t get it. You think I stopped talking to you because I hate you but you don’t understand that I could never hate you, that I wish I could hate you because then everything would be so much easier, you don’t understand that you could break my heart over and over again and I still wouldn’t be able to hate you. I stopped talking to you because i’m in love with you and oh god I wish I could tell you that, I wish I could scream, “no, I don’t hate you, I love you, I love you so damn much it hurts” but I can’t because that just opens a door the needs to stay shut, because i’d rather have no love than a love thats only halfway. I’d rather be alone than with someone thats here one day and gone the next. And that’s what you were, loving you was like falling in love with the ocean, its so blue and full of life and then suddenly you’re pulled in and waves are drowning you out and your so deep that the water isn’t blue anymore or green, its just so dark, and there is no sign of life and you don’t understand how something that looks so beautiful can be so deadly.
So I guess the point of this is to let you know that i’m sorry, I’m sorry that I couldn’t even reply to you, I’m sorry that I was always there and now I can’t answer your text to give you some kind of explanation and oh god I just want apologize to myself for even wanting to apologize to you because you are never here, because you leave me out in the cold for days and I never get an apology,. But ’m sorry, I’m sorry I couldn’t do it anymore. I can’t hold onto something that doesn’t want to be held. I don’t want to be in dark waters anymore, I just want to breathe, and the only way I see that happening is if I’m not swallowing water for you anymore. So I’m sorry that we don’t talk anymore, but I’m also sorry that I felt the need to give you this apology when you probably barely noticed I was no longer there.
I guess this is more of an apology letter to myself than to you.”

[Werewolf AU] When They Meet Other Members as Puppies For The First Time (BTS)

Requested by the lovely @leftmyheartinyokohama <3

*Don’t own the gif/s yo*

Author: Taebaby

NAMJOON:  He’d have such a great time. He wouldn’t even mind that one pup (Taehyung, was it?) decided it was his mission to chew up Namjoon’s favorite shoes

YOONGI: I don’t think he’d be too into the energy levels of the pups, but once you hit him with those puppy dog eyes, he couldn’t say no to letting them run wild through the house

HOSEOK:  Just as energetic as the pups, you’d end up watching him too lol

SEOKJIN:  No one would squee like him. Mama-jin mode activated, he would helicopter over them all day 

JIMIN:  He would be so excited, hot damn. You’d almost think he was a puppy himself by how much he jumped around

TAEHYUNG: Although I bet he’d love to have the puppies around, he might also become a little more needy for you attention (because he’s the only pup for you)

JUNGKOOK: He’d be a mix of Jimin and Taehyung, because he’d have an absolute party with the pups, but he’d want you to himself at the end of the day

happy tfc hcs to get u thru the day;

  • neil looking up at random moments during the day like when the foxes go out for dinner together or the light from the sun rising  filters through the stadium just as they’re doing their morning stretches or when someone makes an amazing goal, or when wymack ruffles kevin’s hair with a scowl on his face and just being… so filled with warmth and love and practically feeling it leak out of him because he is alive and he is alive to see this and he has the privilege to see the sun rise every morning for the rest of his life and feeling so damn grateful and lucky that it evens feels a little sad, like that ache in your chest when you think about how much you love someone
  • dan and allison and renee having girls nights together where they talk shit about the guys and cuddle and do each others makeup and at 2 am when they should be asleep but are eating popcorn and watching silly romcoms, dan just says, “i love you guys so much” . allison teases her for being sappy and renee says i love you guys too right back and they’re all at peace and happy together for a night.
  • nicky is completely happy and comfortable with his sexuality and misses his boyfriend like hell so when they finally visit each other its like an explosion in his heart and he never wants it to end
    • nicky seeing his cousins repair some of the damage done between them and being so fucking proud becuase they’re growing up and they’re healing in their own way and they’re not the tortured, abused kids he first met
    • nicky having the realization that he doesn’t need to take care of them 24/7, and he can take care of himself sometimes.
  • kevin finding other interests other than exy. kevin learning how to be slightly less obsessed; watching the History channel instead of just exy games on tv, reading books, trying new things and new habits and seeing who he is outside of exy. kevin being happy. kevin recovering. kevin accepting the fact that he’s not the best at everything and he doesn’t have to be. that he can make mistakes and be awful at something and it can be fun and silly and have no real weight in his life.
  • i made a seperate post about this but andrew learning to trust other people in his life enough to let them touch him – that not everything has to be sexual or violent, he can be touched casually, and nicky can pat his arm, and renee can throw an arm around him, and neil can spend hours tracing his back or playing with his hair without the pressure of it ever becoming something else. andrew letting himself be vulnerable to the people he cares about because its an important part of his recovery.

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Dragon Ball Super Episode 74

I loved it!

TBH, I wouldn’t mind having more episodes like this.

And may I just add

I knew it!

I freaking knew it!

Poor Gohan, but he’s just too clueless to see it coming.

and btw,

Damn Jaco! I hope you know you’ve made a lot of enemies with that comment.

Because all of us love him!!!!! (Where are all of my Gohan fans???)

But can we just see how loyal Videl is?

She trusted in Gohan! She knew there would be a logical explanation! And she stood by her man!

And then Gohan said get out of my house! He’s stepping up!!!!

And she had so much faith in him!!!!!

Real quick tho…

When was the last time we saw her fly? Man, I miss that.

and I just don’t know what you want from me. 
I mean, one day you’re here and the next you’re so damn distant. One day were floating on top with the sun shining and I can honestly say nothing has ever been more clear to me than the way I love you but then 2 minutes later, and we’re drowning. 
We’re 10 feet under and I can’t breather or see a damn thing. And I just don’t know what you want from me.
If you don’t want to float on top with me, then please just let me go because I’ve spent too much time underwater just to be pulled back under. I’ve spent too much time learning to swim, just to learn what it feels like to drown all over again.
—  love me or leave me, I don’t care anymore just please choose one.