It’s funny how a name can be just a name. It was never anything special till someone came alone and made what was once so insignificant one of the most extraordinary words in your vocabulary. That one word, that one name now has the ability to brighten up even your darkest days. That one name that was once so insignificant now means something to you.When you read it in a book or hear it on the radio or in a conversation between the two strangers on the bus even though they are undoubtedly referring to someone else, to you it’s THEM. That special someone who made the name significant to you to begin with. So no matter where or how you hear the name, it’s always going to be them. Now, the problem with that is people can be careless with each other’s hearts. It’s the eternal flaw of humanity; we can be cruel. So, when that person with that iridescent name walks away, as people usually do, their name that once caused so much happiness can now cause enough pain to knock the wind out of you. The once significant name becomes a source of significant turmoil. Then on that business meeting with perspective new clients, when one of the partners introduces themselves by that certain name, all you can do to stop bursting out in tears is take deep breaths and pretend it’s all okay. Just hold it together and hope and pray that maybe, just maybe, one day even 5 years from now; that name will go back to being as insignificant as it once was and it will no longer be a source of grief for you. And in that moment, you will be whole again.
Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #338