do you know what really fucks me up? what pulls me out of the dark abyss every time? knowing that even after andrew’s past–always in a state of impermanence, moving from one pre-packaged house to another–he still managed to give neil pieces of himself throughout the trilogy. from a key to a home that wasn’t just a room with four walls, to allowing neil access to the rooftop, which is his token safe space where he f e e l s the most. he gave neil a key to his car, something entirely his, and that speaks volumes. it says, “hey, I’m trusting you with a piece of me. something that’s solely mine because I know that you won’t break it.” It’s trust and honesty and safety, it’s feeling calm when neil’s around and slowly seeing the transformation from his to theirs. to ours. and for andrew, that truly shows how much he cares and appreciates neil.
MMMmmmMMMMMmM Y'KNOW HOW YOU BEAUTIFULLY DREW SQUALL IN THAT BELT JACKET MMMMmMmmM I FOUND THE PANTS TO IT AND THOUGHT, mAYBE LIVERMAMA COULD DRAW HIM IN THE COMPLETE SUIT?? although I don't really know how to send them to you ;;