Me:Okay, I'm going to save the rest of this for tomorrow.
Me 45 minutes later:Fuck it, you'll figure it out. IT WONT EVEN HELP THAT MUCH TOMORROW ANYWAY, MIGHT AS WELL GET WASTED TONIGHT SO I GET MY MONEY'S WORTH, FUCK 'JUST GETTING BY' YOU'LL DEAL WITH THE PAIN
do you ever sit on your bed thinking why you are still alive? after all the overdoses, the cigarettes you smoke, the new drugs you tried? you’re still alive after all the alcohol, the accidents, the drawbacks. you live even if you destroy yourself every day, despite you are conscious of you actions. you are still fucking alive and you don’t even know why