Darren Criss attends the Richard Chai LOVE Spring 2015 show as part of Mercedes-Benz Fashion Week, New York City, September 4, 2014

Darren first wore this custom Richard Chai jacket on the NYC leg of his Listen Up tour last year.

Richard Chai Custom Burgundy Bomber Jacket

Worn with: Persol sunglasses, Todd Snyder shirt

Also worn in: New York City, June 27, 2013

Chanbaek Timeline? #updated

ok guys.. this post gonna be long or not idk yet.. but this is important and i really want to share it with you guys.. 

Before this i posted a post answering an ask from someone about Chanbaek rings and timeline..

here is the post (click here)

This are my initial timeline of chanbaek.. I will try to update this and making it a little bit more complete.. 

  • 4 June 2013 - Happy Camp recording ( they do the lovesign)
  • 14 June 2013 - Wolf Fansign (fight?)
  • August 2013 - Growl
  • 8 August 2013 - EXO Youngstreet (duet with weird expression)
  • October 2013 - EXO Showtime
  • ** Feb 2014 - BY said to start dating (EXOST still in recording)
  • 17 June 2014 - Baek come to Roommate
  • 18 June 2014 - Baekyeon revealed
  • 17 July 2014 - TLP Shanghai
  • 15 August 2014 - SM Town 2014 (another lovesign)

in that post i said about how i think chanbaek probably already in some kind of relationship even on debut days.. and how their relationship develop through time and how they handle all the bumps in their relationships these past years.. 

and recently there is a buzz in kpop about the same sex couple that are threatened to be outed by a news outlet that can cause ripple in the kpop industry (here) .. many of us Firelights pray it would be Chanbaek and some of us already made some analysis about it and perhaps it could be them.. 

@awkwardmickey​ made few posts about what she thinks and how chanbaek could be the couple mentioned in the news article.. (here) and (here)..

and just now someone shared with me another piece of information, but i cannot be very sure about its authenticity.. however the OP that posted this thing post it on 2012 and the event are scarily similar to what happened after the post was made..


she did mentioned about Chanbaek and how she think Chanbaek was asked to interact by the company.. 

According to this OP chanbaek was just an act created and asked by SM to interact because they are very easy going and their interaction can cause hype.. and the OP also said that “their relationship is pretty good”.. 

yes i do realized that Chanbaek are more open with skinship during MAMA/debut days as you can see how Chanyeol took care of baekhyun in airports and how they are very skinhsippy and touchy on stage and during ISAC..

lets assumed that at this time Chanbaek was TOLD to do all these skinships and interactions.. they are best friend so maybe they thought why not? its not hard to be all teasing and touchy with your friends right?

however if it is true that they are only asked to do those things and no feelings involved, why are they sometimes awkward and flustered with each other? especially behind camera??

like this one.. if they are best friend and are asked by the company to interact why are they cannot look at each other in the eyes?? 

when chanyeol hold baekhyun see how Baekhyun look kinda surprised and didnt expect that chanyeol will hold him like that.. why is that?? in 2012 during MAMA era, EXO was not very popular.. so theres not much camera around them but these moments and interactions happened..
in the post i linked to you with the OP in 2012, she said something about KaiStal too.. i’m not saying that KaiStal now are not true or it just a play by SM but she said it 4 years before the actual dating scandal come out.. idk if its true or not but yeah..

ok for this one.. i read somewhere.. another gay guy on the internet make a post about who he thinks is gay in EXO.. i know that we can’t believe some random guys in the Internet but he stated his point.. and one of the members he think are gay is Kai.. (here is the post) he got the point with Kai tho.. idk the truth behind it but we can just ignore that now..

back to chanbaek.. 

ok.. this is a timeline that me and my another ninja friend talk about and discussed about..

it could be real or not but just read it and you judge..

like in the past post i said that maybe Chanbaek already have feelings back in trainee or debut days.. 

this one probably just fanservice.. but also could be that chanyeol really want to protect baekhyun because if this was just an act why he still take care of baekhyun till now..??

what about this one.. the person who took this picture took it secretly and based on the way they hold each other you still think its just a “normal way between friends”..?? 

After MAMA, History and then Wolf era.. in my last post i do mentioned about how suddenly Chanbaek refused to do anything fan request related to chanbaek in a fansign event.. its weird knowing that just few days before the fansign, Chanbaek being all lovey dovey and making ILY sign during Happy Camp shooting.. what happened in between..? ok my guess? BaekYeon.. maybe during this time Baekyeon already being in preparation.. you know, all the posting on instagram and such.. they have to make it believable.. so maybe during this time Chanbaek already told not to feed Chanbaek shippers anymore or atleast to tone it down a bit.. however, during Growl and EXOSHOWTIME, they were ok again.. Baek give Chanyeol present on his birthday (different present not the one he were told to buy)..and they are fine in EXOST.. 

this is probably during growl era.. they are very hyper and sweet and cute during Growl.. i love growl era Chanbaek.. but why i said that during this time Chanbaek already got distant maybe because of SM, because Chanyeol used to call Chen his new soulmates.. i emphasized “NEW”..

because Chanyeol used to call Baekhyun as his soulmate #1 in a magazine interview before.. (here

you can see how dark and sad Baekhyun’s expressions are.. he didn’t even blink at that word from Chanyeol.. like i said, maybe during this time they already know that their relationship will be in trouble and maybe SM already asked them to start new OTP besides Chanbaek.. because SM crew knows about OTP..



Shim Jaewon is the Choreographer of SM and in instagram he goes by id beatburgerjae.. so its clear that SM crew knows about the OTPs and they are acting and doing something considering the OTPs.. either to make the hype or to conceal it.. Jaewon said he make Playboy choreo based on how close the members in the practice room.. is that means he pair those who are closest together or not close together..? and since he said its not for “our” fantasy aka OTP, that means he intentionally did not pair Chanbaek up for something right..? ok enough with Playboy.. Playboy era is way after everything heheh..

after what happened during Growl, Overdose came.. this is when everything went hare wire.. lunatic..

this picture is right after Baekyeon was released.. maybe the very first airport pic of Baek and chanyeol after that scandal.. i’m so glad that Chanyeol still with Baekhyun eventho he dont have the need to do so anymore.. 

During these time, Chanyeol suddenly become so close with Kyungsoo.. chansoo is a new popular thing in EXO.. Chanyeol openly shows his interactions with Kyungsoo while Baekhyun also being all emo and sad.. 

this is probably one of the times when Baekhyun’s heart shattered.. i can see how disapproving Baekhyun is with Chansoo.. after a months of nothing.. nothing at all suddenly Baekhyun do something.. 

after a month of silence about his dating scandal, Baekhyun finally said something.. its very vague but we know he is trying to explain everything to his fans and to anyone who reads.. ok i think this thing have something to do with Chanyeol.. because the very previous day before he posted this, Chanyeol posted something.. i’ve talk about this before in my post but this is the moment where they solve their problems and clear up their relationship…

a day before Baekhyun posted his apology letter, Chanyeol posted a song lyrics.. Love is a losing game by Amy Winehouse.. look at the lyrics he posted..

its a song about regrets and sadness.. Chanyeol posted it on 16th July 2014.. a day before TLP in Shanghai.. Baekhyun posted the apology letter on 17th July, the day of the concert.. but the weird thing is he deleted it few hours after posting it.. it seems like he doesnt want many people to read it.. maybe the letter are just for certain people..  because somehow, in Shanghai, Chanbaek have actual moments again.. 

this happened.. after months of avoiding each other and having to be close with other member, i guess they just have had enough.. i think both of them got each other’s instagram on notification.. my bet is on Baekhyun actually posted that letter for Chanyeol and some of the fans.. because after Shanghai, Chanyeol posted another picture.. 

“Heart Shaped Leaf”.. well, i think Chanyeol feels better the next day.. this picture was posted on 18th July 2014..

ok now we need to talk about TEL.. The Exo’Luxion concert..

During TEL chanbaek got many moments.. however those interactions stops, totally stopped after their hug in Manila..

Sehun made them hug and that day was marked as a historical day for Firelights.. but after that hug, Sehun’s Time changed to Chanyeol’s Time.. for 3 times straight, Chanyeol’s target was Baekhyun.. 1st with Sehun, 2nd with Kai and 3rd with Kyungsoo.. 

look at Baekhyun’s face.. 1st was ok.. 2nd was nahhh.. but 3rd? Baek just cant take it anymore.. i dont know why Chanyeol feel the need to aim at Baekhyun each time.. 

During EXOLuxionDot in Seoul all 3 days, we see less Chanbaek moments.. minor yes but nothing major or obvious.. not even intentionally made.. they seriously look like they are avoiding each other.. i always noticed that Chanbaek always being extra careful whenever they are in Korea unlike when they are overseas.. 

lets fast foward to last week.. when EXO went to Shanghai for K-Friends Concert there.. we all know how at the airport on their departure to Shanghai Baekhyun was walking weird and Chanyeol looks like he is avoiding him yet still stay close to him.. i bet you know it coz it went viral that day..


here is the video of clearer shot that Baekhyun is indeed walking funny.. and to make it worst thanks to K-Friends shitty management, they didnt get proper stage makeup and somehow some strange red marks are visible on Baekhyun’s neck..

his funny walk are gone but this marks appeared.. some said its just a rash but yeah right.. he don’t just have it on his lower neck, he also got some on the back of his nape.. before we said its just a rash, could we just think why Baekhyun all covered up at the airport earlier that day.? maybe to cover up those marks on the back of his neck and all over it..?? some people also noticed some swollen marks on his lips.. 

what worst is the next day.. Baekhyun walk down at the airport covering his face with mask and new marks.. ok.. it cannot possibly be a rash or something because there are rumors saying that last night Chanyeol and Baekhyun were roommates.. and what Chanyeol got the next morning after the concert? yes a lips with a cut on it.. 

ulser? serously..? do you even know what an ulser looks like..?? sigh.. i said before that Chanbaek been so careful whenever they are in Korea right..? why i said that because in shanghai on 27th March 2016, only Baekhyun wore face mask at the airport.. but when the arrived in Korean, Chanyeol also wear mask.. 

why they were wearing mask..? i think its because both of them got similar cuts.. they don’t have any major schedule from then until 1st April.. 1st April is when KaiStal was confirmed.. but thats not the point, its another thing [Pann] said in the statement they released..

the piece where they said that “theres another EXO member will be reported and it will be a big news”..

many people i know had been worried if this is the news about the same-sex couple or is it true that there’s another member will be reported dating.?

they said Chanyeol posted this on 11th March 2016.. some people said he sounds provocative when he said that “I am not even dating at the moment” as if he is trying to show that he is not dating anyone but in a sarcastic, rude way.. idk.. i dont feel it rude or provocative but somehow, later the below article burst out..

this article went out on 12th March 2016 before EXOLuxion in Malaysia .. but some people said that this article went out before once, but just faded away.. and suddenly it comeout again, and honestly i blame this news that my chanbaek seems to trying so hard to avoid each other.. they have barely any interactions in Malaysia besides a few.. gosh i hate them [the news outlet]…

but on 1st April there is a rumor saying that an OP saw Chanbaek in a car together and went to Han river..

i dont know if this is an April Fools jokes or not but lets just put it here.. 

ok.. so in conclusion let me outline the timeline existed in chanbaek..

  • 4 June 2013 - Happy Camp recording ( they do the lovesign)
  • 14 June 2013 - Wolf Fansign (fight?)
  • August 2013 - Growl
  • 8 August 2013 - EXO Youngstreet (duet with weird expression)
  • October 2013 - EXO Showtime
  • ** Feb 2014 - BY said to start dating (EXOST still in recording)
  • 17 June 2014 - Baek come to Roommate
  • 18 June 2014 - Baekyeon revealed
  • 17 July 2014 - TLP Shanghai
  • 15 August 2014 - SM Town 2014 (another lovesign)
  • 9th Jan 2015 - Chanyeol and Baekhyun shopping in Barcelona (here)
  • 25 March 2015 - Baekhyun made his comeback on IG
  • 23 May 2015 - Dream concert 2015
  • 25 June 2015 - Chanyeol went to Brunei
  • 25 June 2015 - Baekhyun posted the jelly picture (click here)
  • 27June 2015 - Baekhyun posted Elephant cloud post
  • 30 June 2015 - Chanyeol posted “I’m fine” pic 
  • 14th September 2015 - Baekyeon broke up (here)
  • 23rd Jan 2016 - TEL Manila (Chanbaek hug)
  • 11 March 2016 - Chanyeol posted the comments
  • 12 March 2016 - TELinMY and the news about same-sex couple
  • 18-20 MArch 2016 - EXOLuxiondotInSeoul
  • 26 March 2016 - K-friends Concert (Baekhyun walks funny)
  • 27 March 2016 - Chanyeol lips got cut
  • 1 April 2016 - KaiStal & Chanbaek alleged Hangang date..

so yeah.. thats it.. 

tell me what you think.. i wanna see if my point of view matches with anyone or clashes with anybody.. i need better and wider picture of the whole thing.. so talking to lots of  people helps me a lot.. 

Fuhhhhh… thats one long post.. it took me a whole afternoon and morning to finish it.. hahaha… like i always said in all of my posts, most of the post are based on my opinion.. based on what i saw and what i believe.. maybe you don’t believe it and maybe its was different than your opinion.. i’m openly welcome any ideas and opinions and additions to the post and timeline, but if you come to my page and wanting to throw hate at me, don’t bother.. i’ll just delete it anyway.. you’re not worth my tme.. haha..

Happy weekend and happy April (?) to all my Firelights.. keep is save and keep loving chanbaek nae.. 

stay pretty and awesome.. !!



Chanyeol already have that cut even during the K-friends concert..

and yeah that Hangang date is not true.. how can they have a date when they have concert at the same time..? hahhaha… the OP claimed the date on 1st April 2016 but using picture of 21st April 2015

this one is true.. but this is a picture of last year.. ^_^ haaaa… how i pray for this day to come again.. ^_^


love - Aishah -


Girls&WomenToKnow: Mayor Aja Brown

Brown made history on June 4 2013 as Compton youngest mayor ever to be elected. She won by a landslide defeating mayor Eric J Perrodin and former mayor Omar Bradley. Before becoming a mayor brown have worked for change behind the scenes. In 2006, she  began working for the City of Inglewood, California as an Urban Planner.

 In 2009, she began working for the city of Compton’s Redevelopment Agency as a Redevelopment Project Manager. Where she was responsible for creating community benefits legislation, initiating community-led downtown revitalization action committees, overseeing the Agency’s urban planning and economic development initiatives, forging strategic alliances, and leading the re-branding and marketing efforts of the community redevelopment agency. Brown have created and implemented Compton’s Apprentice Program designed in order to create jobs for local residents on city-funded or assisted capital improvement projects. 

In 2011, Brown co-founded Compton-based Urban Vision Community Development Corporation (CDC), a non-profit organization dedicated to community economic development and youth development in the City of Compton. Urban Vision offers programs that aid in the revitalization of Compton.  

Brown have 10 years of experience in managing environmental site remediation projects for cities, which have led to the procurement and leveraging of millions in grant funding toward the reclamation vital land to local communities. 

Mayor Brown has launched a “12-Point Plan” to strategically advance the city of Compton. During Brown’s tenure as a city employee, she recognized that the essential components needed to foster a healthy, thriving city were either outdated or non-existent. She has made her “12-Point Plan” accessible for the residents to follow along with the progress of the city.


Brown graduated from the University of Southern California in 2004 with a Bachelor’s Degree in Public Policy, Urban Planning and Development. In 2005 she earned her Master’s Degree in Urban Planning with a concentration in Economic Development.
Brown is a Democrat
Sources: Elle.com, Vogue.com, Wiki, and LinkedIn.



Best vine ever.


i know it’s not the 4th of july. i am aware.

what clara means to me

When I was catching up on Doctor Who before the fiftieth (I watched 5-6 on Netflix and up through Name on some now-defunct website all in Augustish through November 23, 2013, while starting my first semester of grad school), I’ll have to admit, I didn’t ‘relate’ to Amy at first. I thought she was awesome, and I connected with the idea that both her and the Doctor are running away from emotional issues. I understood Amy better on a rewatch, and now I love her, but I wasn’t Amy. (She was for others, and I love her for that, for her passion and her pain and her stubborn belief, but I wasn’t her, and that was okay. I was learning from a story of someone different than me, which is something fiction is a vehicle for.) I wasn’t someone who was able to run away from my looming responsibilities. I wanted to stay and I wanted to run and there was absolutely no way I could do both.

But Clara? Almost as soon as I met her, I felt the jolt of hearing a character say things that I wanted to say–”Well, for your information, I’m not sweet on the inside, and I’m certainly not–” (which on a sidenote makes Clara ‘bigger on the inside’); “Dare me” regarding the idea of doing something that’s scary but adventurous at the same time; “Come back tomorrow” because here was someone who wasn’t dropping everything to run away with the Doctor, who also keenly felt the call of home and friends and family and responsibilities.

I mean, she put traveling on hold to help people out! She’s young and wants to do things but she’s staying put and being responsible and that describes so much of my life up to a certain point. “I keep the book because I’m still going,” she says, and so adventure is not shut out from her life forever. (Nor out of mine.)

And she got to run away with the Doctor, albeit on Wednesdays. But I liked that, too, that she (tried to) maintain both of her lives. She’s only a year older than me, and we’re the same height, and we both studied English in university. (I even taught English for a while.) And so, in a way, I got to run away with the Doctor, too.

Sure, Clara and I are not the same person. (I, for one, am not imaginary. To my knowledge.) I’ve never been in a relationship before, but knowing myself, it would probably start out as foot-in-mouth as Clara’s relationship with Danny started. I’m not sure if I would end up lying to my significant other (and to myself) in the way Clara did, but then, I haven’t lived through what Clara has (fictionally) lived through. But I watched her get more confident, more bold, more risk-taking, and thought, I could do that too.

She still cared, of course; it’s why she looks after Courtney, it’s part of why she can’t drop the Doctor with scorched earth tactics, and it’s why she’d (even in a dream) threaten the Doctor in the hopes (however slim) she could get Danny back. She’s fierce and loyal, recklessly cautious, bold and brave with tears in her eyes, and I saw her and I thought, “I could do that. I could be brave like that. I could let my brilliance shine like that.”

And then…and then her brilliance and her recklessness and her fierce protectiveness caught up with her. She faced the raven, and I was devastated. (I am still tearing up, thinking about it, fyi. The latter glory does not dim the feelings of Face the Raven for me.)

Like, truly, properly gutted. It was the one fate I did not want for Clara. ‘Let her walk away like Martha, or let her do something, but please please do not kill her,’ I thought. I didn’t want her to die like the Ponds or River or Danny. I didn’t want her cut off and trapped like Rose. I didn’t want her wiped of all her character development and adventures like Donna. But most of all, I didn’t want her dead at age 28. (My age, by the way.)

I couldn’t even. I hadn’t cried at Doomsday–sure, it was sad, but I hadn’t sobbed. Same with Last of the Time Lords, or Journey’s End. Or Angels Take Manhattan. Or in the Library. Or in Dark Water. I hadn’t even cried for the four total regenerations I’d watched, but I cried when Clara faced the raven.

I couldn’t talk about it (in fact, this is my first time actually addressing it). Although I intellectually grasped that Clara wasn’t me, that Clara is a fictional character used to tell a story, I emotionally felt that part of that story had been mine, had been about me. It was like I was lying on that trap street, my adventures cut short by a risk I’d had taken in order to protect someone.

So I focused on the Doctor for Heaven Sent because I couldn’t think of the reason he was motivated to punch his way out of hell. And the fact that he was angrier than I was at whoever had set up the trap in the trap street (not because they killed Clara, but because without them, Clara wouldn’t have ended up in a position to be killed).

I love the Doctor, he’s probably my favorite character of anything right now, and Twelve has become my Doctor, but I was still staggered over Face the Raven. (Some of you had some chats with me, so you know what the depth of what I’m talking about.)

And then…and then Hell Bent happened. Part of me still can’t believe it happened, part of me wants Time to get over itself and just let Clara be alive again (but what is alive? is the question begged by lots of Doctor Who, isn’t it?), and part of me thinks it’s really really fitting. It’s by far the best thing that could have happened (I’m still not sure how much the Doctor does or does not remember). Here I am, a week after having watched Hell Bent, and I think of its ending and I cannot stop myself from smiling.

Because Clara has three mirrors, and I’m reflected in one of them, and I’ve been reflected in one of them since “Hello the Chin!” even if I didn’t know it until “Doctor Who?” and “It’s full of stories, full of history”.

Because 7B, 8, and 9 were just Clara’s origin story, the prologue of her story; chapter one has just begun. Where I’ve been before has led me today and the future is wide wide open. And just because I have responsibilities and can’t actually run away from them doesn’t mean I’m cut off from adventures. Life is an adventure, and I’m just taking the long way round.