june 2010,

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Day 1
Day 2424
Today I’ve been feeling up and down. Loved and ignored. Happy and sad. No matter what I’ve been feeling I will always be grateful in one thing: trusting myself. I am so happy with the person I am today, 2424 days into hormone therapy, and I thank that little boy in the first picture who had the courage to do something I am still in shock of. I was scared and depressed before day 1 but I found a community of people online who supported me and will forever attribute the bravery I had on that day (June 16th, 2010) when I started hormones, to them. Since then the community has grown into something beautiful and I am so blessed to be part of it. Now it’s my turn to help people and it feels amazing that everyday I look online and what I’ve always wanted has happened. I’ve always just wanted to help people and be a resource for them. Here I am, 6.5 years into this, and feeling so fulfilled by the work that I do. Helping people is what I am meant to do and maybe this comparison will help people, maybe some people will hate it. But I’m so proud of who I am today and even though I feel low, ignored, and sad. I’ll always have the feeling of love and happiness by my side, especially coming from you guys, the amazing online trans community that we all built together. ❤🐝

Jay-Z, Beyonce and Aziz Ansari, photographed together backstage at the Bonnaroo Music and Arts Festival in Manchester, Tennessee on June 12, 2010.

That night Hov had performed a blazing 90-minute set to over 75,000 people as the day’s headlining act. Earlier Stevie Wonder had performed, and stayed side of stage for Jay’s set. “Wait till I tell my mama that Stevie Wonder stuck around for my set!” an ecstatic Hov told the crowd. The festival’s review in SPIN magazine crowned him “King of Bonnaroo” and declared that “every major worldwide music festival should probably keep him on retainer as headliner.”