“Never in my life have I felt this.  N o t h i n g  l i k e  t h i s . I’ve felt shame and cowardice, weakness and strength. I’ve known terror and indifference, self-hate and general disgust. I’ve seen things that cannot be unseen.

And yet I’ve known nothing like this terrible, horrible, paralyzing feeling. I feel crippled. Desperate and out of control. And it keeps getting worse. Every day I feel sick. Empty and somehow aching.

                       L o v e  i s  a  h e a r t l e s s  b a s t a r d .

I’m driving myself insane.”