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Thrift store haul from today!!!

I got an amazing brown leather vintage coach briefcase to carry my GRE books and laptop in, and three dresses.  It was a bit of a splurge; about $45 total.  It’s the kind of thrift store where you can’t try anything on but I got really lucky today.  The only one I don’t love is the rosy colored one.  (PS all machine washable!!!!)

Soooo… self care?  I finished it off with a bubble tea.

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Guys! I think I’ve picked out my interview outfit for my grad school interview!
It’s not supposed to be as formal as a suit; more like something you would wear to work eventually. Obviously I need to iron the sweater. We are supposed to be a bit “quirky” and show our personalities. The top is a dark charcoal gray in a thick knit with a peplum and the pants are a heathered light gray. The colors aren’t showing up great in the photos.


Question: like or comment if you could see a young counselor or therapist wearing this to a session.

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I haven’t done a cupcake selfie in a while, so here ya go. My friend came over to help try and make me feel better about the breakup situation and also occupy my mind. She also brought cupcakes, which was so incredibly kind and caring. I’ve been having a lot of urges during this week/weekend with the extra stress and sadness, so I need to get back on track. Somehow I was back to being afraid of having a cupcake, but I managed it in the end. The breakup stuff is pretty unbearable right now.

I went to see Andrea Gibson last night and it was everything I hoped it would be and more. After the performance ended, I waited in line to see Andrea and I told a story: 

When I was in treatment, we discovered that three of our group of about 7 girls in the day room had coincidentally brought Andrea’s book, “The Madness Vase” with us as one of the few possessions that accompanied us to the hospital. We spent all night reading Andrea’s poems out loud to each other until we were chastised for being up and out of our rooms after curfew. It must have been during one of the blizzards if they were being that lax, but it’s one of the nice memories I have from that pretty terrible time. 

 I bought this shirt because it felt appropriate given my circumstances, and Andrea signed it. I’m worried that the marker will wash out. I am not the kind of person who goes to get things signed, so I didn’t bring the book or CD to get signed. The only thing I could find in my bag was ironically a list of my upcoming nutritionist appointments. It was funny because one of my favorite poems by Andrea is “The Nutritionist.” (tw)

Andrea also performed “I sing the Body Electric, Especially When My Power’s Out,” (tw) which Andrea wrote as a self-directed body love poem.

Look up Andrea’s stuff sometime. It may change or save your life.

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Wow, today really sucked but at least I looked cute. I hate spending my whole day off having appointments. I didn’t get cleared (REJECTED IN BIG LETTERS, actually) to start my new job by employee health, so I have to go get an appointment with my GP to sign off on a bunch of things that I am capable of doing. They also refused to do my bloodwork because of their uncertainty about my health.
My GI decided that we are going to do a barium swallow and a pill camera. I had three appointments today, and I forgot my wallet when I left for the third one. I got stranded at my therapists office a 30 min drive from home and finally convinced B to come rescue me. The upside was that I persuaded him to get us pinkberry on the way back. (Try the chocolate peanut butter shake please!)

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Holiday party outfit!

I got to see my friends last night at a potluck/holiday party, prominently featuring homemade pakoras and cake pops.  It’s almost time for me to fly back home and spend time with my family.  I am just hoping for good vibes and good things.  I’m hoping to be able to make other people happy for the holidays.  The holidays are often a turning point for me in terms of mood and behavior.  I am focusing on bringing more good things into my life.

B and I went shopping yesterday!!!  I got a few dresses and a pair of shorts (!!) in a size that’ll fit for this summer.  I absolutely cannot wait until I can pack away all the winter things, knowing that my life may be entirely different when it comes time to unpack them again.  That always feels special; like spring cleaning on another level.

Right now I’m queueing up some Cute Report entries for the next month because I haven’t set that up since before I left for treatment, so it hasn’t been posted in a while.