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The Doctor Donna

Wanna know the truth behind Girls like Girls?

I have been working on finding my voice for years. As an artist, I always want everything I create to represent what my soul feels and sounds like – whether it’s a video concept or a lyric or melody.

Two years ago on a rare rainy day in Los Angeles, in a songwriting session with Owen Thomas and Lily May Young, I was venting my frustration about my music not connecting the way I wanted it to. Lily looked me in the eye and asked, “Tell me something nobody knows about you, something you are afraid to sing about?“ I immediately thought, well I like girls and that’s what I want to sing about, but even then I struggled to say it out loud. Finally, I told Lily that I always say “you” and “them" and never the pronoun “her" in all my songs because I was afraid it wouldn’t connect. We talked more about concepts and my experiences, and how I loved the idea of stealing another guy’s girl because that was always a fantasy of mine. Growing up, everything I did was always about girls. I took dance because of girls. I got involved in student council because of girls. Not that I ever expected any of them to like me back, but I just felt comforted being around them, even if I could never date them. So there we were. The song “Girls like Girls" was born.

I imagined a very emotional, heart-wrenching but real music video to go along with the song. When we shot the music video for “Girls like Girls,“ I felt like I was finally telling my story for the first time. The yearning feelings I had and also the feeling of being so alone. I think that’s why people connected with the music video. Not only because they too have experienced deeply liking someone, but also the sadness and longing that comes with it. You could be around so many people, and still have the feeling of being so alone and misunderstood. It’s that fear of rejection and uncertainty of whether the person will like you back that makes you question everything. I struggled with these feelings so much growing up. I’d fall in love with girls who would never give me the time of day, or if they would, they had no idea I had other intentions. I had my heart broken over and over again; I never felt good enough. My life was led by these crushes as far back as first grade, when I had a crush on my teacher. That was the first time I realized I liked girls. But the problem is you feel like you can’t share these true feelings with anyone for fear of outing yourself and facing judgement. So you struggle. And feel alone. Growing up, there were some [out] celebrities who were much older than I was and I wondered if I had to wait until then to be happy. I didn’t have role models who I could relate to at the time, where I could think, if they can do it, I can do it.

Most of the time, you become confident after years of struggling during your young adulthood. I want to encourage the youth to find that confidence now. Not later. For them to know their own self-worth at an earlier age. It’s been really cool at my concerts to see all of these young fans showing up alone, and then leaving with friends. The music and stories I create have built this judgement-free safe zone. But most of all, they have inspired me to be comfortable with myself, and to let them in. They unintentionally gave me a gift that I am forever grateful for. Most of my music isn’t necessarily about heartbreak or other people, but more so everyone’s personal journey and falling in love with yourself.

I think that’s why my fans and I relate to each other. My music reassures them that they aren’t alone – that their feelings are valid, that they are enough and they will find someone to love them back. I didn’t have that hope growing up, so I get emotional and inspired (or encouraged) every time I meet a fan who looks at me that way.

It’s hard sometimes, especially after this election, because I feel a responsibility to these girls. I know they are looking to me for guidance and comfort. It breaks my heart that fear is so present in our world right now. School is hard enough and it breaks my heart to see these kids under attack by hate crimes and bullying.

Hope. That’s my cause. I strive to inspire hope through human compassion and through music. Hope leads me through my lyrics, stories, and melodies. You must continue on, and know in your heart you are not alone, and have confidence that love will find its way back to you.

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favorite people: hayley kiyoko

My life was led by these crushes as far back as first grade, when I had a crush on my teacher. That was the first time I realized I liked girls. But the problem is you feel like you can’t share these true feelings with anyone for fear of outing yourself and facing judgement. So you struggle. And feel alone. Growing up, there were some [out] celebrities who were much older than I was and I wondered if I had to wait until then to be happy. I didn’t have role models who I could relate to at the time, where I could think, if they can do it, I can do it.

Five Months

Description: You run into your ex-boyfriend while at a party with your current one and during the encounter are reminded of all the ways he still controls you.  You aren’t entirely surprised to find yourself on your knees in the bathroom with him in front of you minutes later.

Pairing: Namjoon x Reader

Genre: Smut

Word Count: 12097

Warning: Dom!Namjoon, spanking, breath play, daddy kink, demeaning names, punishment, cheating, bathroom sex

A/N: @avveh prepare to die.  I think I listened to The Weeknd the entire time I wrote this haha.  Some of the songs were played over 100 times just during the time I wrote this, particularly “Shameless”, “Earned It”, and “Often”.  

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gaming antics [m]

summary: taeyong has been too distracted by his games lately so you decide to snap him out of it.

pairing: gamer!taeyong & reader insert

includes: smut (fingering, penetration, facial, oral)

wc: 6k

note: Im back! :’) With a new fic about my babe, Taeyong. Haha. I hope you guys like it!


Taeyong had always been an avid gamer.

He would spend hours on end smashing his thumbs all over the game controller while spitting curses to his frustrated friends through a small headset. Those hours sometimes ran into an entire day, and maybe he skipped out on catching a few winks of sleep—to put it short, he was in love with gaming. Since your friendship began with Taeyong you had known how much of a hardcore gamer he was—gaming was how the two of you bonded, so his love for the hobby never really bothered you to begin with.

Not until you started to date him a couple of months ago. He attempted to change his habits and shape himself into a decent boyfriend who could go on multiple dates with you whether they are small breakfast meetups or quick coffee runs. Those lasted for a good while, but he reverted to his original self soon afterwards, almost like the lively dates with you are not as fun as the silly shooter games he spends his life on. He reverted back to the game invested Taeyong—the one that spends more time staring at a flashing screen, furiously pressing on the loose buttons of his controler, than looking at his girlfriend.

You always attempted to talk to him while he took those short breaks. Usually he spent a good five to ten minutes getting water or catching a breath of fresh air outside, but he typically shrugged you off. This time you were going to take a different approach—a very distracting approach.

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Here Are My Colors

Anthony Ramos x Reader

Requested: anthony x reader where reader is anthony’s longterm girlfriend who stuck with him through him never being home, missing out on date nights for rehearsals & performances, & really through everything together. when the show hits broadway, anthony starts staying waaay later than he has to @ the theatre & on readers 3 year anni with him, he insists he has to stay late at the theatre when they already had plans together & reader discovers it was just bc he wanted to hang out with jasmine

Words: 6,149 (i get it man, I’m so extra)

Warnings:  swearing, cheating, AND angst, SO much angst, I’m sorry

A/N: I WANT TO DEDICATE THIS FIC TO THE MOST AMAZING PERSON, ELL @lookaroundlookaroundhowlucky. THANK YOU FOR LOOKING OVER THIS & FOR LITERALLY MAKING ME LAUGH & SMILE EVERY SINGLE FUCKING DAY. I LOVE YOU & I APPRECIATE THE SHIT OUTTA YA GIRL. Y’ALL GO CHECK HER OUT, SHE SLAYS THE GAME EVERYDAY.

ALSO, I have no words as to how PROUD I am of this fic, it’s UNREAL. It took me so long to write and I love it, it’s basically my child. PLEASE ENJOY.

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Garnet lied about Blue

When the latest batch of episodes leaked I could not for the life of me get over how different Blue Diamond was from how she seemed in The Answer. I mean look at this shit

In her story, Garnet portrayed Blue as as a calm, cold, ruthless queen who would had no issue with ordering Ruby’s death on the spot for stepping out of line, that’s a pretty far cry from the big moping blueberry that we got here.

Now you can go and say that this was before Pink Diamond was shattered, but look at Blue’s court. It’s all bluish and pinkish gems with none of any other color, and the rubies assigned to Sapphire didn’t have a diamond on their uniform to show who they were working for. This was right after Pink Died!

Now take a moment to rewatch how Garnet acted when Blue Diamond was involved. Garnet was scared, mortally terrified of Blue, to the point that she didn’t want to get anywhere near her.

Do you think someone this terrified could really have given an accurate recollection of what happened on the day she was sentenced to death?

Don’t get me wrong, I don’t doubt for a minute that Blue called for Ruby to be shattered, but I don’t think it was because Garnet broke some insane interracial love taboo. No, Blue had her sister’s murderer right there in front of her, and Sapphire had confirmed that she would face judgement…

AND THEN RUBY FUCKED SHIT UP!

Does this mean Blue Diamond was right to have Ruby executed? Fuck no it doesn’t, but all the same Blue here isn’t the insane, bigoted, love-hating tyrant that Garnet told us she was. She’s a deeply hurt, deeply flawed individual in a position of power struggling to hold it together after she watched her sister’s killer escape justice because a bumbling guard distracted everyone!

So yeah, she may still ordered an execution, but give Blue a break. At least half a break. This definitely was not in cold blood.

Too Much Undertale AUs!

Undertale AU’s

· Underswap

· Undersail

· Mahoutale

· Freshtale

· Storyshift

· Partytale

· Underlust

· Underfell

· Trainertale

· Haventale

· Undertail ( 2 Varients)
- Sexual Version
- Tail Version
- “Under-Her-Tail” Version

· Understeam

· Surftale

· Fruittale

· Undernovela

· Understuck

· Littletale

· Witchtale

· Underhades

· Undermafia

· Horrortale

· Dancetale

· Gemtale

· Gendertale

· Futuretale

· CPUtale

· Aftertale

· Altertale

· Sugartale

· Fantasytale

· Errortale

· Inktale

· Portale

· Katanatale

· Jaseontale

· Overtale

· Outertale

· Dreamtale

· Abysstale

· Cattale

· Alterswap

· Elementale

· Ultratale

· X-tale

· Auratale

· Glitchtale

· Astraytale

· Blighttale

· Coldtale

· Chesstale

· Cardtale

· Darktale

· Demitale

· Digitale

· Emotale

· Eclipsetale

· Underbed

· Soultale

· Sorcerytale

· Singtale

· Negatale

· Drugtale

· Sonictale

· FNAFtale

· Ponytale

· Gravitytale

· Undertalia

· Steamtale

· Undertoad

· Underwatch

· Spongetale

· HELPtale

· Dusttale

· Reapertale

· Zombietale

· Colortale

· Puppettale

· Oceantale

· Storyspin

· Emotiontale

· Hopelesstale

· Magmatale

· Icetale

· Inversetale

· Humanitytale

· Hungertale

· Legendtale

· Linetale

· Lolitale

· Oppositetale

· MartialTale

· Monofell

· Underwar

· Undernight

· Underhope

· Revoltale

· Underworld

· Underlovania

· Underill

· Underportal

· Underkeep

· Fallen Children

· Twistedtale

· Predatortale

· Lucktale

· Mythitale

· Nextale

· Pastrytale

· Sugartale

· Dreamtale

· Fusiontale

· Anti-Physicstale

· Asylumtale

· Yanderetale

· Underwolves

· Underscramble

· Thundertale

· Undertalia

· Hardtale

· Wondertale

· Underdust

· Amalgatale

· Foodtale

· Underbend

· Underflesh

· Underfates

· Underchild

· Positale

· Minortale

· Undertourment

· Scrambletale

· Alterfell

· Haventale

· Powertale

· Bluetale

· Fairytale

· Cloudtale

· Underlink

· Undervirus

· Underverse

· Echotale

· Undersanity

· Naturetale

· Sugartale

· Flowerfell

· Differentopic

· Tubetale

· Changetale

· Swapfell

· Cattale

· Newtale

· Angrytale

· Sintale

· Underwest

· Colortale

· Uppertale

· Fabletilt

· Fallunder

· Dreadtale

· Hypertale

· Shadowtale

· Wondertale

· Underswitched

· Dreemurr Reborn

· Talemix

· Judgement Hall (2 vers.)
- “Facing Every Sans” version

- “Face Every Charcater” ver = Toriel, Asriel, Mettaton, etc

· Grouptale

· Weabootale

· Vocatale

· DeviantTale

· Crossovertale

· OCtale

· Beatlestale

· Creepytale

· Engietale

· Applefell

· Badtimetale

· Trickstertale

· Understuck

· Fullmetal Undertale

· Undertronic

· Und_rt_le

· Underworld

· Underterror

· Flowey is Not a Good Life Coach

· Babytale

Undertale AU Characters
( Mostly Sans )

· Gaster!Sans

· Bromalgamate/Six Bones

· Comic Papyrus

· Toucan!Sans

· Nightmare!Sans

· Seraphim!Sans

· Scientists!Sans

· Lil’ Skelebros

· GasterBlaster!Sans

· Cross!Sans

· Paper!Jam

· Bill!Sans

· Core!Frisk

· Flowey!Possession

· Cat!Sans

· Amalgamate!Asriel

· BrassBerry

· ClusterGem!Sans

· Neon!Sans

· Drunk!Sans

· Venom!Sans

· Killer!Sans

· Gamer!Sans

· Sexy!Sans

· Gaster!Sans

· Hacker!Frisk

· Monster!Frisk

· Baby!Sans

· Sleepy!Sans

· Ecto!Sans

· Cool!Papyrus

· Goth!Sans

· Palette!Sans

· Corrupt Beast Sans

· Needlessly Complicated Sans

· Santa!Asgore

anonymous asked:

Ohhh, seems like a lot of us are starting Uni soon. I'm quite scared, and anxious hahaha but I'm trying to be positive. And Ally, can I ask something ;;? Like... I love drawing, I'm not bad, I think I'm quite decent but I still have a lot trouble with anatomy and coloring in general, my career is related with art and I'm just anxious people will think I'm not good enough to be on the department for liberal arts and will mock me, my mom says I'm not that good a lot and Idk what to do ㅠㅠ

art is like a battle scene tbh, especially when it gets involved in the world of the industry and social media. comparison helps us push our skills to new heights, but can be detrimental if we don’t know how to properly manage the stress of its pressure. it’s EXTREMELY disheartening to know that your mother isn’t helping to build your esteem but!!!!!

DEVELOP A THIRST TO PROVE PEOPLE WRONG. i started at first with a passive mind, thinking that hey, im just gonna draw and post art as a hobby. maybe i’ll get notes even. and soon it turned into making amazing art friends, getting envious of their breathtaking products/creativity. i tasted the bitterness of jealousy and longing and saw lots of loopholes form in my own art.

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I was 13 years old, on a camping trip with my parents to Niagara Falls. This was the summer that I started to realize that I didn’t like dressing in girls clothes, I slowly started to wear my hair up instead of down, wearing t-shirts instead of dresses. I chose “boy” colors for my braces because pink made me uncomfortable. My parents both constantly questioned me the entire trip. “Why are you so quiet?” “Why are you so sad?” & I never had an answer until now. Looking back at these photos I remember how self conscious I felt about myself. I hated my body, my face, my voice, my hair. Everything. I thought I was unattractive & overweight. I didn’t understand that self-love could come from different places other than fitting into whatever the societal stereotype of that time was. But now I see that boy that was inside me all along when I see these photos, the one who so secretly wanted to be seen but didn’t know how. • Today I’m 21 years old & I’m proud to be him today. I’m proud that I’ve followed my heart to become who I’ve always wanted to be, even if I didn’t know it at the time. I’m proud to be living authentically the way I always should have. • I’m proud of all of you who have followed your hearts to be who you are. It’s one of the hardest things in the world to do, to be true to yourself in the face of judgement in a world that sometimes doesn’t understand us, but that’s okay because it’s their loss. Trans people are some of the bravest, strongest & most compassionate people I’ve ever met & I’m so proud to be a voice for my community ⚡️

friendly reminder under that dark exterior virgil is actually a pure, funny, sensitive and well meaning kid and we have only seen his bitter/edgy/mean side because he’d been upset over the rejection and judgement he’d been facing from everyone around him. now that everyone’s gonna start treating him right we’ll probably see him be more open and act more like himself

Her

Her

 

Hey guys, so this is a fluffy one which I may or may not turn into a series, give a read and tell ya girl what you think.

 

Warnings: None, fluff, Harry being a lil cutie pie angel muffin, he likes a girl, that girl is you if you are short and brown like me (very short, very brown)

Character pairings: Reader/Dickheadish guy, Reader/Harry Styles

Harry Styles was not one to be flustered by people who weren’t famous or his mother. His mother scolding him still made him feel tiny, to this very day. Then he met her.

She was quite the multi-tasker. She painted, wrote stories, sang and was a nurse.

“I’m a nurse part time, steady income” she explained when he asked why all the jobs.

“I like to paint, it’s relaxing” she said when he asked about why she constantly had splotches of green and red and white and orange on her wrists.

“Writing is my salvation” she confessed when they sat up on the roof top of Niall’s party.

“I have a musical family, everyone does something. Plays something or sings” she said randomly.

She was cute too. A little shy, not at all introverted, but she could be shy, despite the fact she was constantly laughing or making filthy jokes at someone else’s expense or being the loudest person, he had ever met. And he was in a boyband for some time.

At first glance, she wasn’t his type physically. Yes, physically. He was only a man after all.

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A Shit-ton More of Undertale AUs!

Undertale AU’s

· Underswap

· Undersail

· Mahoutale

· Freshtale

· Storyshift

· Partytale

· Underlust

· Underfell

· Trainertale

· Haventale

· Undertail ( 2 Varients)
- Sexual Version
- Tail Version
- “Under-Her-Tail” Version

· Understeam

· Surftale

· Fruittale

· Undernovela

· Understuck

· Littletale

· Witchtale

· Underhades

· Undermafia

· Horrortale

· Dancetale

· Gemtale

· Gendertale

· Futuretale

· CPUtale

· Aftertale

· Altertale

· Sugartale

· Fantasytale

· Errortale

· Inktale

· Portale

· Katanatale

· Jaseontale

· Overtale

· Outertale

· Dreamtale

· Abysstale

· Cattale

· Alterswap

· Elementale

· Ultratale

· X-tale

· Auratale

· Glitchtale

· Astraytale

· Blighttale

· Coldtale

· Chesstale

· Cardtale

· Darktale

· Demitale

· Digitale

· Emotale

· Eclipsetale

· Underbed

· Soultale

· Sorcerytale

· Singtale

· Negatale

· Drugtale

· Sonictale

· FNAFtale

· Ponytale

· Gravitytale

· Undertalia

· Steamtale

· Undertoad

· Underwatch

· Spongetale

· HELPtale

· Dusttale

· Reapertale

· Zombietale

· Colortale

· Puppettale

· Oceantale

· Storyspin

· Emotiontale

· Hopelesstale

· Magmatale

· Icetale

· Inversetale

· Humanitytale

· Hungertale

· Legendtale

· Linetale

· Lolitale

· Oppositetale

· MartialTale

· Monofell

· Underwar

· Undernight

· Underhope

· Revoltale

· Underworld

· Underlovania

· Underill

· Underportal

· Underkeep

· Fallen Children

· Twistedtale

· Predatortale

· Lucktale

· Mythitale

· Nextale

· Pastrytale

· Sugartale

· Dreamtale

· Fusiontale

· Anti-Physicstale

· Asylumtale

· Yanderetale

· Underwolves

· Underscramble

· Thundertale

· Undertalia

· Hardtale

· Wondertale

· Underdust

· Amalgatale

· Foodtale

· Underbend

· Underflesh

· Underfates

· Underchild

· Positale

· Minortale

· Undertourment

· Scrambletale

· Alterfell

· Haventale

· Powertale

· Bluetale

· Fairytale

· Cloudtale

· Underlink

· Undervirus

· Underverse

· Echotale

· Undersanity

· Naturetale

· Sugartale

· Flowerfell

· Differentopic

· Tubetale

· Changetale

· Swapfell

· Cattale

· Newtale

· Angrytale

· Sintale

· Underwest

· Colortale

· Uppertale

· Fabletilt

· Fallunder

· Dreadtale

· Hypertale

· Shadowtale

· Wondertale

· Underswitched

· Dreemurr Reborn

· Talemix

· Judgement Hall (2 vers.)
- “Facing Every Sans” version

- “Face Every Charcater” ver = Toriel, Asriel, Mettaton, etc

· Grouptale

· Weabootale

· Vocatale

· DeviantTale

· Crossovertale

· OCtale

· Beatlestale

· Creepytale

· Engietale

· Applefell

· Badtimetale

· Trickstertale

· Understuck

· Fullmetal Undertale

· Undertronic

· Und_rt_le

· Underworld

· Underterror

· Flowey is Not a Good Life Coach

· Babytale

· Undercard

· Sistertale

· Universal Judgement
( Face every universal Sans )

· Underbent

· Zombietale

· Vampiretale

· Undercreed

· Epictale

· Changetale

· Asfaltale

· Hollowtale

· Underfilm

· Monofell

· Asylumtale

· Goopytale

· Wastetale

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Undertale AU Characters
( Mostly Sans )

· Gaster!Sans

· Bromalgamate/Six Bones

· Comic Papyrus

· Toucan!Sans

· Nightmare!Sans

· Seraphim!Sans

· Scientists!Sans

· Lil’ Skelebros

· GasterBlaster!Sans

· Cross!Sans

· Paper!Jam

· Bill!Sans

· Core!Frisk

· Flowey!Possession

· Cat!Sans

· Amalgamate!Asriel

· BrassBerry

· ClusterGem!Sans

· Neon!Sans

· Drunk!Sans

· Venom!Sans

· Killer!Sans

· Gamer!Sans

· Sexy!Sans

· Gaster!Sans

· Hacker!Frisk

· Monster!Frisk

· Baby!Sans

· Sleepy!Sans

· Ecto!Sans

· Cool!Papyrus

· Goth!Sans

· Palette!Sans

· Corrupt Beast Sans

· Needlessly Complicated Sans

· Santa!Asgore

· Drunk!Chara

· Tone!Sans

· Baby Blasters

· Paper!Jam

· Brassberry

· Paper!Sans

· Killer!Sans

· Cute!Asriel