judged

I hate feeling helpless.
I hate feeling stupid.
I hate feeling like I’m not good enough.
I hate feeling like everyone around me is judging me and laughing at my mistakes.
I hate feeling this level of frustration.
I hate feeling this sadness.
—  12/3/15
Writing On The Wall

The mocking,

The sickening,

The reckoning

Comes for us all.

We can’t avoid 

The words that stare back

From that painting of the high horse on the wall.

Judge me,

Forgive me.

Understand

I gave it my all.

Becoming the martyr;

Unforgiven.

The one destined to fall.

~ from the mind of my alter-ego Sophia Sparks

Non-Appealing Characteristics

Emotional instability

Lacking boundaries

Rudeness

Self-absorption

Being a bore

Being too accomodating

Entitlement

Lack of purpose or direction

Lack of empathy

Antagonism

Interrupting

Narcissism

Not being attentive

Lack of responsiveness

Low self-esteem

Not being appreciative

Whining

Not smiling

Being self-conscious