i’m such a night owl. i made you all an inspiration filled video
to hopefully paint a smile upon your rosy cheeked faces
*because you’re all blushing.
obviously because you all have a sweet crush on me (:
watch and be happy because this is for YOU ♥ joys first video!
hello m'charming faces, so this was the end result of a home alone joy. a hair curler. and a stash of makeup ;o ps. i la la love how fast my hair is growing, i can even make a mini bow with my hair, see left picture ^^ eeeep happiness. i shall wear my hair and makeup exactly like this, for work tomorrow (: i feel like arial the mermaid. idk why! x o x o

She felt like ending her life.
Her once happy heart had become nothing
but a beat to a song nobody wanted to hear.

With tears in her eyes, she shut them tightly
and remembered the prophecies.

She imagined the planes and the airports
and the passport filled with a hundred stamps.

She imagined the lines on the paper
of the songs she would write
and the ambient melodies to flow along with.

She imagined the twinkle in her eyes
as she stood on a stage before the millions
and the overwhelming sense of Gods presence.

She imagined the lives before her
and how her story would impact the broken hearts,
mending them back together again.

She imagined the heads she would lay hands on
and the miracles of souls set free, healed and
made whole by the power of God.

She imagined the embracing hugs from
the self harmer who got set free from depression
and the tears of happiness falling from the eyes
of the girl who got set free from fear of rejection.

She imagined the girl in the wheelchair
dancing in the isles, praising the Lord
because he had just healed her.

She imagined the children prophesying
dreams, visions and words of encouragement
as thousands fall under the anointing of God.

She imagined the spontaneous and free worship.
The prophetic songs she would sing out
and the declaration proclamations she would
speak over the lives God had asked her to speak into.

She imagined the joy of never giving up,
even if it was just to reach those people.

She opened her eyes, tears streaming down
her cheeks like rivers of living water.

She put the knife down and this she did pray;
‘Lord if this is what you have called me to,
then just as Isaiah 6.8 says
“Here I am. Send me.”
I desire your will above mine.
In Proverbs 19.21 it says;
“You can make many plans,
but the Lord’s purpose will prevail.”
and as my favourite scripture
found in Isaiah 60.22 reads;
“At the right time, I, the Lord,
will make it happen”

I pray you would be a constant reminder
of the bigger picture in my little existence.
'Cause Lord, even if I have to cry myself
to sleep every night until I reach those people
and see this dream come alive and even if it
means resisting every temptation to hurt my body
and it means fighting against the spirit of fear
and rejection and depression and anxiety..
I will do it. You have made me a warrior
and I am ready to go into battle for your people.
I can do this without fear for your word tells me
in Jeremiah 20.11;
“The Lord stands beside me like a great warrior.”
I want to be the David, to whatever Goliath I am facing.

My life is in your hands and I want you to turn
my mess into your message and my test into
my testimony. If I am going to go through hell
to get to those you have chosen me to help,
it will be a war worthy of picking up my sword for.

She felt like starting her life.
Her once saddened heart had become something
like a beat to a song the world needed to hear.

my latests threads have anchors,
ship helms and rope prints on it *how sailor girl of me (:
and i finally found a deep magenta lipstick,
thankyou ever so much to L'Oreal cosmetics ♥ ♥
ps. i la la love you! yessss you reading this ;D
after the service tonight, i got given free cupcakes (:
oh so ever blessed! and pastor peter commented on
how much he loves my zany red hair ♥
and finally i saw pastor bev close up,
my goodness is she a beautiful vision
before my very eyes ;o ♥

A snippet of my three year old little self, singing my all time favourite church song ‘Jesus loves me this I know’ (: This is my recorded proof that my heart and giftings for worship leading, began in the early stages of my life! Oh how I miss the nineties and bless my cringe worthy super strong Scottish accent and how I resemble my cabbage patch doll! I also la la loved clapping my hands alot and proclaiming 'Yay’ or 'Praise the Lord’ ♥ Just a snippet of one of my famous childhood moments from one of my childhood videos, watch this space and expect many more to come (:

happy 21st birthday to me (: thankyou bundles upon bundles to all of my amazing followers who inspire my life and cheer me up when i am feeling blue, you bless my heart (: my boyfriend got me the wreck this journal, mess and this is not a book' collection and a john green book 'an abundance of katherines' which are near to impossible to find in nz. now on the road to visit mum and go out to this fancy restaraunt tonight, blow my candles out in public and pretend i have a thousand friends to celebrate with and later to the park lit up in lanterns and fairylights (: kodak snapping time! wish you were all here to spend it with me x i love each and every one of you x
where romance is absent, i send kisses to Jesus, in the hope that they will reach heavens mailbox and he’ll reply by sending me a charming prince in return ♥ oh the poetical scenarios i muster up, God has got to make some of them come true. #fact - i appreciate miracles alot more than ordinary people ★٠·˙