I woke up today with wesley not beside me. I checked my phone and I had a text from him saying :I’ll be home about 3 today babe. In the studio love ya :): you didn’t respond because you didn’t want to bother him. You laid there for a few more minutes on, twitter, then Instagram, then tumblr, then you felt like throwing up….
You got up from the bed and ran to the bath room as quickly as possible… You threw up. You flushed the toilet and brushed your teeth you pulled your hair up in to a messy bun.
You went and grabbed a bucket and a trash bag. And went back to your room. You turned on the tv and watched Cartoon Network.
You decided to text Wes and tell him what’s going on. And hoping he wasn’t recording at the moment…
: Hey Wes I don’t mean to bother you. But I threw up a couple minutes ago…:
You waited for a text back wich came about ten or fifteen minutes later. : okay I’ll bring home some medicine: he responded with. You didn’t respond back cause you were to tired.. You felt your self drifting to sleep.
- couple hours later-
You woke up to your door shutting. You sighed and got up. You felt really sore. You walked to the living room to find wesley standing in the kitchen reading the directions on the medicine bottle… You walked up behind him and him and you put your head on his back. “Hey y/n” he said turning around “hey” you replied. He picked you up like it was nothing. He carried you to the bath room. -well I think this is about to take a awkward turn lol😂- he sets you down on the sink. He runs in to your guys room. He comes back with a pare of your pokadotted pj pants and a tank top and a bra and undies. -like I said. Vary vary weird turn right know- he started the bath and put your fav bubbles in the bath. “Take a bath and I’ll take you to the Er -not the emergency room. Like the doctors office with out a appointment…- you nodded. He left the bath room and let you do your things. You got dressed. You threw up again -in the toilet not on your self- you brushed your teeth. And left the bathroom. You walked out in to the livin room and laid over Wes’s lap.
He got up and leaned you up. He went and got your boots. -like uggs- and your socks. He put your socks on you and the. Your boots. He picked you up and carried you to the car. He started to drive to the er.
- after the er-
You came out with the flu. You guys went home. You took your boots off. You walked to the living room. Your floors are hard wood. You didn’t make it to the couch so you laid down on te floor.
"WES why is the floor so cold” you sorta screamed at him cause he was in the bathroom. You here him walk out. “I don’t know cause it is” he said laughing at how you. He bent down and got you off the floor. And put you on the couch.
Wes was about to walk away when you grabbed the back of his tank top and pulled him back. “Y/n I’m grabbing your Meds"Wes said as you let go. You nodded. He brought back the Meds. He poured the right amount in the little plastic cup thing that comes with it. In it. And gave it to you. You drank it as fast as you could so you didn’t have to taste the bitter taste of it. Well you failed. He gave you a cup of water. And you drank that to get rid of the taste. You have him both if them cups back. He came back to you and leaned you up and laid your head down in his lap.
You turned to face him. You fell asleep like this. You woke up in the same place but him on his laptop -the laptop was on the arm of the couch- you leaned up to see what he was doing. Of course he was on twitter. You sat your head back in his lap. And turned to watch the tv. Friends marathon was on so you watched friends.
"Y/n do you care if I do a live stream??"Wes asked.. "I don’t mind just don’t show them me cause I’m sick and in look like crap,” you said. “Okay” he said. He started the live stream. A lot of people where asking for you. “Guys she can’t join” Wes says to the laptop. “ cause she’s sick right know” he said putting his had on your head and messing with your hair. You fell asleep again…
-couple hours later-
You woke up and you notice Wes isn’t with. You. And you look over at him and he’s sleeping. You chuckle and cral over to him and cuddle.
Hope y'all liked it. It took me thrity minutes to write. But any ways. Y'all can request!!! -Keaterpansnapback
“Hey tay” i say as i sit next to him,
Waiting for his reply,and surprise surprise,he doest reply,
“Well thanks” i say moving away from him,
“Wanna do something? Im bored”
“Go away” he says flatly,
I sigh and get up,walking out,
He doesnt even look up from his phone,
It honestly doesnt get to me anymore,he ignores me all the time,so its no different from any other day,
I walk into the kitchen and grab so chips,i sit on a stool by the counter,when i decide to go up to my room,
As im passing the living room, i hear y/t/n and taylor talking,
“Can we go to the beach?” She asked sweetly,
“Of course we can” he smiles at her,
I cough slightly too let them know im here,tears streamed from my eyes and ran down my cheeks
Taylor whipped his head around,
And saw me standing there,his face turned to sadness then guilt,
“I know where im not wanted” i say quietly,
I walk up too my room,and lock the door,i slide down it cry for atleast 40-60 minutes.
“Y/n open the door” taylor says
“Go a-away” i said still crying
I got up and opened the door
“What do you want” i said
“Im sorry” he says staring at me
“You’re sorry? is that all you can say is im sorry,you pretend asif im invisible,you love y/t/n mor-”
“Thats not true”
“YES ,YES IT IS TAYLOR,AND I DONT KNOW WHAT I DID TOO YOU,BUT YOU STILL CHOOSE TO IGNORE ME,I HATE YOU TAYLOR,DONT TALK TO ME EVER AGAIN” i scream slamming the door in his face and locking it,i carry on crying for what seems like forever.
“Mattew,are you coming with us to the mall?” mom shouted
I heard ruffling
“Yeah i gotta get a few things” he replies
“Ok hurry up”
Me,mom and y/t/n walked out to the car and waited for matt,
About 2 minutes later he walked out and got in the car,
I stuck my headphones in and listened to all time low,
When we got to the mall y/t/n ran out squealing ,i trudged behind her
“Mom can we go in this shop?” She asked smiling,
Of course mom said yes.
I was dragged into the shop,there was dresses everywhere.
I walked slowly over to the racks and skimmed through them,
Then i saw the most beautiful summer dress,im not usually the dress
Type of person,but this dress was just wow.
I picked it up and saw it was a size smaller than i am,but im quite small
So it should fit,i ran into the changing room with it and saw the rest of my family
Well mom and mathew,y/t/n must be in the changing room
“Mom can i see if this fits?” I asked
“Of course honey” she smiled,
I went behind the curtain and put it on,
“Right i want both of you too come out at the same time”
Mom said,she sounded happy so i couldn’t say no
“1…2….3” she said
I whipped open the curtain,
Moms eyes were on me,and matthews were on y/t/n ,he looked at her
“You look lovely”
Then he turned to me,his face dropped and he looked disgusted
“Mom can you come with me too the register,i wanna pay for these” y/t/n
Her and my mom got up and walked off,
“What do you think..?” I asked matt,
“It looks too small,either that or you too fat” he laughed.
I looked at him in disbelief,he’d never taken it this far before.
He knew i was self conscious,because we used to be close,then
Y/t/n took over, i used to tell him everything,
Tears streamed down my face as i hid behind the curtain
I took the dress off and threw it on the floor,i got dressed and ran out of the store
Leaving them behind,
I ran to the other end of the mall and cried with my head down,so nobody would notice
I wiped my eyes and looked up,i saw matt walking slowly towards me,
I cried even harder,
He sat down next to me
“Im so sorry y/n..” He said sniffling
I turned my head away from him
He put his hand on my shoulder
“Matthew get off me right now” i said sternly.
“Please just listen to me” he pleaded
“No,i dont what to listen to you,youve done what you’ve done,you knew how self conscious i am,yet you still call me fat,just FUCK OFF” i shouted,now everyone was looking at us
“I hate you” i said as i walked off leaving him there.
(There is self harm in this story)
I cried silently looking at the roof,everything was too much
Everyone expected me to be perfect,just like y/t/n,when i couldnt
They all put pressure on me,why dont you dress like y/t/n?
Why arent you pretty like y/t/n,why can you do well at school like y/t/n
What ever i did,she always did it better,they expect me to be exactly like her,
Today nash had gone too far,he called me “fat,ugly and dumb” and he told me
He loved y/t/n more than me and that i should kill myself, i couldnt handle it anymore, i
just want to die,
So thats whats going to happen,im going to die,everyone will be happier,
I will be happy.
I got up and sat at my desk,i got a pen and some paper,and began writing
Dear mom and dad,
Im so sorry im not as perfect as y/t/n,im sorry im an ugly dumb bitch
Thats a disappointment and an embarrassment,but you wont need to worry about
All that stuff now,becuase by the time you read read this,ill be dead,in
a place ive wanted to be for so long,
Tell Nash he got what he wanted,tell him he made my life miserable,he
told me to kill myself.so i will.
Tell him he wont need to remind me im not good enough or that im
Worth it anymore,becuase i wont be there for him to tell me that.
I hope he feels guilty for my death,because he’s the one that drove me too
I love you mom,dad,hayes,sky,and even y/t/n
I will watch down on you from heaven.
I folded the paper up and put it on my desk,i wrote mom and dad on the front.
I walked into my bathroom and pulled out my blades and looked at them,
The cold metal danced on my wrist,when i made the first cut,i carried on and on untill i couldnt see
My skin,my vision blurry and my head started spinning,this is it,
I felt bad after telling y/n all that stuff,i didnt mean it obviously,
I dont even know why im so horrible too her,i know she hates me,
I mean who who wouldnt, i decided to go see what shes doing
I walked up to her room and knocked on the door
“Y/n” i say,she doesnt reply
“Y/n” i say abit louder,no reply,
I started to get really worried,but then i realised shes probably
Giving me the silent treatment,i knocked on her door and walked in
She wasnt here..weird,i walked over to her bathroom,the door was open slightly
I pushed. It open and i saw my baby sister lying there with bloody arms and a box of
Blades next to her
I instantly started to cry
“Y/N PLEASE GET UP” i screamed shaking her
“PLEASE IM SORRY” i pleaded
“PLEASE” i cried shaking her
“NASH WHATS WRONG” said y/t/n as she walked into her room,
She looked at the mess and looked at me
“THIS IS BECAUSE OF YOU SHE SCREAMED”
“YOU TOLD HER TO KILL HERSELF YOU BASTARD”
I just cried,i shook her and shook her but she wouldnt wake up
These are so bad,im thinking of doing part 2 though idk.