journey to the center of my mind


“When I was first working on your mind, there was a pyramid I thought you needed to scale, so I gave you a voice, my voice to guide you along the way. Memory, improvisation, each step in order to reach the next step, but you never got there. I couldn’t understand what was holding you back. Then, one day, I realized I’d made a mistake. Consciousness isn’t a journey upward, but a journey inward, not a pyramid, but a maze. Every choice will bring you closer to center or send you spiraling to the edges, to madness.

I think we need to talk about Mikey’s anger. 

In “Journey to the Center of Mikey’s Mind”, when his brothers are trying to find Mikey’s inner self they’re confronted by 4 aspects of his personality. Anger, Gluttony, Annoying, and Weird. 

Out of all of his personality traits: Anger is the biggest. While his other personality traits are regular sized with the exception of his annoying side which happens to be quite smaller than his brothers probably expected. 

But Anger is huge, his anger towers over all the other personality traits and you would think that he would act much more like Raph with his temper and angry outbursts. 

Look at Leo, Raph, and Donnie’s reaction to confronting Mikey’s anger: 

They’re shocked. And while it’s hard to see their exact facial expressions, you can definitely see that Donnie & Leo’s eyes are widened with shock and awe at Mikey’s inner rage. It’s like they never knew Mikey held this much anger within him and that’s what this post is all about: Mikey’s Anger

We all know Mikey to be a laid-back guy with a big heart, he doesn’t like conflict and he would rather have confrontations sorted out with a hug rather than a fist. But he’s willing to fight when push comes to shove and he’ll do anything to protect his family from harm. 

Besides the exception of Leo and Master Splinter, Mikey’s able to keep his anger under control better than Donnie & Raph combined (at least in the 2012 version. Donnie in the 2003 series was the biggest pacifist). He’s able to take a breath and calm down before jumping to conclusions. 

So imagine their surprise when they confront his anger head on inside of Mikey’s mind. How this towering giant is looking down on them and their sudden realization that their baby brother has been able to keep control of this monster of emotion. 

And the realization that Mikey has more pent up anger than he leads on

Mikey keeps his anger under control by moving forward and staying kind & positive in the situations around him. But that doesn’t mean that his anger is gone because it’s a constant part of who he is. 

Can you imagine if Mikey lets this anger loose on a enemy or even worse: on one of his brothers? I think he has enough anger inside him to kill someone. 

This was a great insight of Mikey’s mind and how it works, but I just hope that they don’t throw this entire episode away in favor of more slap stick situations. I want Leo, Raph, and Donnie to treat Mikey a little different after saving his inner self. 

(PS: Please Don’t Remove Anything From This Post. Thanks

we trust each other
and in this moment I know I made the right choice
following you into the eye of the storm
into the center of the inferno that is our beating hearts

because we had to learn each other’s scars
and see that we shared the same bruises, the same aches
we had to learn that the other’s weakness is our strength
that we end up being partners in the journey to the stars

and in this moment, when you touch like I'm precious
when you say my name like I’m worthy, I find myself falling
and my heart whispers yes while my mind rebels 
but in the end, there is nothing that my head can do,
to stop my soul from loving you

—  All I Have by Abby S
Why my goddess is Hathor not Isis

This is going to be long but here goes. When I first started my journey with being a devotee (or priest if you will) of the egyptian gods several years ago I had only started with Set. I felt a strong connection to him and he still is the front and center of my altar and the one with most importance in my life.

After him I started to feel the need for Horus, also known to be a consort of Set. (Please keep in mind I do not follow the Egyptian writings after the invasion during the middle kingdom when the decision to rewrite many of the tales happened, in which Set was rewritten to be a bad guy, and so forth. I feel this, along with much of the Book of the Dead are not accurate)

It was then several months ago I had to make a choice. I realized I had to have a goddess.

Many people who aren’t even Kemetic chose Isis as the mother goddess and even as I write this it sickens and terrifies me. In many ancient texts and stories, Isis is not a good person. She lies, and uses anything possible to trick people into doing what she wishes. She even uses a poisoness snake to trick Ra into giving her his real name for her own personal gain.

Perhaps it’s my connection to Set that makes me very against her but in my mind I still can’t understand the use of her as a mother goddess. Yes she can be considered a mother goddess but do you know who fits even better? Who is the image of love, female power, sexuality, kindness and motherly ideals?


She is the wife of Horus, she is beautiful and just. In my mind, there was no other perfect goddess for me to bring into my life. Along with the fact she is the wife of Horus, she also was created from Sehkmet, who was created by Ra who then turned her from a bloodlusted, crazed destroyer of mankind to a goddess that is about love and kindness. In fact I have had no problems between Hathor and Set.

I’m not condemning you if you wish to worship Isis, but this is simply my personal beliefs.

(I would also like to say, most of the information above is from 15+ years of studying ancient egypt and its religion, and three plus years of being Kemetic)

The Illustrious Xeno-Infiltrator: Great Lord, I have arrived!

Great Lord Abythos, Ruler of Space, Time and All That Lies Between: Your arrival has been foretold by the ancient prophecies, Illustrious Xeno-Infiltrator, and also by my day planner. Approach!

Infiltrator: I have journeyed far beyond all known realms, to the farthest reaches of space, and I have brought back an artifact of a most mysterious and unlikely kind. Behold!

Great Lord: It is most peculiar indeed! Its shape brings to mind the cosmic rays at the center of the universe, except for this funny-looking end here. Please explain to me, what manner of object is this?

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anonymous asked:

Re: Differences between FFN & AO3 readers (and their comments) I'm having a hard time understanding, why someone would think BTGOG is solely about Sam.. You have created a multi-dimensional story that simply CANNOT be told from a viewpoint of a single character (no matter how important he is).. The way I see it, is that each and every viewpoint adds another layer to this humongous & vibrant picture your words are painting for us.. And the end result will probably blow our minds.. <3 YOU ROCK <3

I can’t tell you how much this message meant to me, Nonnie.
I have looked at it almost every day since you sent it.  I’m sorry it’s taken so long to respond to it, but I wanted to keep it in my inbox so I could look at it. 

You are very correct–while this series is centered around Sam, it is told through the perspectives of many different characters.  And it is THEIR story too!  Everyone’s journey is equally important because each path intersects.

Heaven’s brokenness has to be addressed…especially if Sam is to visit down the road!  I can’t just magically fix it “off-screen.”  And if Sam is to have any type of relationship with Michael, then readers will need to trust that the archangel’s journey is genuine–that his healed, new self is honest.  Not just the face he puts on when the main characters see him. 

I understand the impatience to see what’s going on with the bunker crew.  Lots of intense stuff has happened there in the last story…and there’s the new character of Morpheus that everyone wants to see more of, and that’s super exciting to see as a writer!!  I guess I just wasn’t prepared for the sheer number of people who freaked out over the prospect of three chapters away from Sam.

There is an “endgame” that I am (very slowly) building toward.  And I certainly DO hope it blows readers’ minds!!  But they won’t get the full experience if I cut corners ;)


Originally posted by zechs

I live for this: 5 pm sunsets, where the colors in the sky seem to smile at me. I live for road trips, for quiet walks, for days when I’m surrounded by my favorite people. I live for those moments, you know, when I’m reminded that the world isn’t that hard and cold of a place. Experiences that bring me back to my own center, long enough for me to rediscover my own light … and to realize what it means to be alive. 

Blessings & More … Our Journey to Balance 


4/25/2017 morning and lunch walks. Forgot to post. My mind is literally not with me. Sorry y'all. And, note in the morning walk, obviously, that I did not spend my entire day at Dunkin donuts. LMFAO I forgot to record my walk back to the government center. So morning was actually some like 1.4 miles. Sigh… Sorry

baddaygooodlife  asked:

sorry for liking so many posts of yours, i just love books :) i was wondering if you could make some suggestions for me. My favorites authors are Marya Hornbacher, Ned Vizzini and Sylvia Plath. I really love memoirs and anything having to do with mental illness as i struggle with severe depression and an eating disorder myself. I don't know, anything is good really. :)

yes! (and no need to apologize). i love memoirs & books about mental illness, too. check these out:

An Unquiet Mind by Kay Redfield Jamison
The Shock of the Fall by Nathan Filer (on my to read list)
Brave Girl Eating by Harriet Brown
The Hours by Michael Cunningham
The Center Cannot Hold: My Journey Through Madness by Elyn R. Saks
The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls by Emilie Autumn
Unbearable Lightness: A Story of Loss and Gain by Portia de Rossi
Gaining: The Truth About Life After Eating Disorders by Aimee Liu
The Silver Linings Playbook by Matthew Quick
Mrs. Dalloway by Virginia Woolf
The Cranes Dance by Meg Howrey
Zoe Letting Go by Nora Price
Wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson
White Oleander by Janet Fitch
Stop Pretending: What Happened When My Big Sister Went Crazy by Sonya Sones

please be careful when reading these, though. especially the books about eating disorders. books like many of these can be triggering. if you ever want to talk, message me any time. xx

flinnybillymoonexplosion  asked:

Hello!! I love your blog!! I am also a rock and roll freak, so the albums I want you to rate are my fave records: LAMF (JOHNNY THUNDERS AND THE <3BREAKERS); ACID EATERS (THE RAMONES); SMELL OF FEMALE (THE CRAMPS)!! Thank you very much!!

hello :) I’m so sorry for the extremely late reply. so my songs from most to least favorite are:

LAMF: I love you, get off the phone, its not enough, all by myself, I wanna be loved, Chinese rocks, pirate love, one track mind, born to lose, let go, baby talk, going steady

ACID EATERS: 7 and 7 is, somebody to love, substitute, cant seem to make you mine, when I was young, have you ever seen the rain, surf city, out of time, I cant control myself, the shape of things to come, journey to the center of the mind, my back pages

SMELL OF FEMALE: faster pussycat, surfin dead, beautiful gardens, psychotic reaction, you got good taste, she said, thee most exalted potentate of love, call of the wighat, .I ain’t nuthin’ but a gorehound

Thank you so much for the questions :)


bringsyouwings  asked:

Favourite episodes with Iris? ^^

My first thought was ‘this is difficult’ but when I started thinking about it, it really isn’t that difficult. I don’t know the numbers or names but I do remember what happens in them. The one in which she takes care of the Deino at the day care center stuck to my mind, she cared about that little one so much (for example, she was genuinely shocked when she saw that dude whom she mistook as Deino’s trainer) and was able to handle it even though no one else (besides the trainer ofc) was. Another one that was a bit similar in a way was the episode in which she tamed the Hydreigon that couldn’t handle its power. And of course her catching her Dragonite. To me those episodes showed how much she had grown since the start of her journey! It is not true at all that she didn’t develop.

(btw I’m loving the game Iris too, she’s so protective of Bianca :’))
Thank you for this and the other asks I’m planning on answering soon! :)

Leo Called Mikey “Little Man” In Our Recent Episode!

After Lil Mikey defeats the Neutrinos, Leo runs to Mikey and you gotta listen close, as hes running he says. “Yea little man!” and picks up little Mikey.



It was not uncommon for Dr. Patrick Turner to be on the receiving end of sighs or glances of pity from those who laid eyes on the cluttered chaos of his desk. 

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Simple Stress Relief Stream Spell

Components Needed:

  • Clear, Clean, Swift-Flowing Stream, Creek, or River
  • Three Stalks of Heal-All (Common Self-Heal, Prunella vulgaris)*

At the creek bank, touch the heal-all to each shoulder, and as you draw them away, visualize them pulling with them a tangled, snarled mass.

Dip the stalks into the stream, visualizing the cold water sweeping the tension away, cleansing the stalks, and say:

My body relaxes.

Touch the stalks to the center of your chest, visualizing them drawing out heavy, viscous oil.

Dip the stalks into the flowing water, visualizing the heaviness washing away, the stalks cleansed, and say:

My heart lightens.

Touch the stalks to your forehead, and as you lower them, visualize the stalks removing dense, hazy smog.

Dip the stalks into the cleansing water, watching the creek dissipate the fog. Say:

My mind clears.

Toss the stalks into the water, to take and transform your stress as they journey  downstream. As you watch them swept away, say:

By stalk and stream, and by my will, so it be.

* If you can’t get heal-all, you can substitute three stalks of fresh rosemary.