Untitled by Johannes Huwe

Shot with more than 10 years expired Kodak Gold film.

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“Life is a journey, sometimes a battle. Totally unexpected. Sometimes you focus on the destination, and forget to focus on that journey. When you fall, it allows you to get up stronger. It allows you not to lean on your own understanding, give in to faith and believe in something bigger than yourself and find your purpose”- Justin Bieber


         For those of you who don’t know, I’m Hadassa. I was born in Rostov-on-Don, Russia. I was taken from my mother when I was 2. I lived in an orphanage until I was 8 and I was adopted and brought to America. I keep in touch with my brother by writing letters until he was 16 (16 in Russia is like being 18 here. He was discharged and sent on his own). I’ve been back to Russia once since I left trying to find him which if you know how large Russia is, is ridiculous.

          I’m planning a trip back in mid October to continue looking. From what I know, he lives in Moscow. Or he did in March at least. I made this tumblr to track the journey and to keep in touch with friends and family while I’m there. My friend thought it would be a great idea and whoever wants can follow it on here too. I am really excited and nervous and I have already met a few people on here that are the sweetest and most supportive ever.

         So basically the update: I have my passport ready, I have a hotel booked and last night I was up until 5 AM (the time difference is killing me). I found his last job and was speaking to the owner. My Russian is HORRID since I haven’t spoken it since I was young but He stopped working there in March. A coworker who wasn’t in yesterday will be in today (4 AM my time) and I can call him to see if he has any more information about where he is/works etc. I’m so nervous and I’m hoping for the best. Wish me luck!

Opportunity, Challenges, and Hope

It honestly felt really good not have to wake up super early to go to work on a Saturday. Matty and I got to spend the weekend together. I’m keeping my fingers crossed for the last two interviews I had this week. I think they went pretty well. And I am focusing and ALL positive things this year. I now have opportunity and growth.

If you are currently searching for work, take note that there are a lot of scam companies out there to be aware of. They will find ways to mislead you into taking the job. This declining economy and recent technology has made it even easier for scam artists, con artists and toxic people to disguise themselves. But I have the ability to see through their lies and deceit quicker before they have a chance to talk themselves out of them. But you must always be on guard. Anything that seems too good to be true probably is. And be aware that a company with a good name, may not always be all they are cracked up to be. In the past things were different, but nowadays good companies have been on a major decline with work environments and the people who pay the most for this are the employees. My advice to managers, Ceos and all companies: Treat your employees like they make a difference and they will. Create better working environments. Give inspiration and encouragement. Always give appreciation to those that work hard.

A good site to do your research is glassdoor. It gives employees a place to voice their opinion on how they are treated, their salaries, and the working environment. But it is the truth and the truth sometimes is painful to hear. We need to speak up. Do your research before applying anywhere.

One of the things I had to work on is to walk away from anyone who has unrealistic expectations or changes they purposely make to throw off or get rid of good employees. That’s why it is called unrealistic. You will never be able to live up to them. So instead of falling short and being unnecessarily hard on yourself, learn to just walk away. Fairness is really very important. Know what you are entitled to and know your worth. Remember your accomplishments when you are faced with setbacks or failures. 

I had to make major changes with my last employer. I may not be currently employed any longer, but I feel grateful for the time I now have to concentrate on things that are important in my life: like my upcoming wedding, my vacation, opportunities for growth in a professional working environment, and to keep on writing, editing and submitting future query letters/book proposals for my upcoming novels to good publishers.

Here are some words of advice: “Release others’ expectations. If you focus on what others expect of you, you’ll continue to act on and attract more of what they desire for you. But when you can shift your inner thoughts to what you intend to create and attract into your life, you will no longer have to give mental energy to what others want for you.”

—Dr Wayne Dyer

Remember, life isn’t going to sugarcoat anything. It wants you to know what bitter tastes like. In the end you had to learn how to deal with the taste or find a way to improve on it. No matter what life has to throw at me, I have the ability to get right back and toss back those lemons. I don’t need them. I don’t even like lemonade. But if it is lemonade that you want you will always have the chance to make it. You will have the opportunity to buy the water and the sugar to add to it and look back at life and say: “Hey, I made it!!”

Honestly, most people are quick to judge before they give the chance to understand. Employers will try to weed out personality types they feel won’t fit in with their place of work. But trying to justify who is strong enough is the biggest blow to a person’s self - esteem and the biggest slap in the face. No one has the right to determine who THEY think you are by a bunch of questionnaires on an online quiz or in an interview. But with that I am quick to weed out potential toxic employers who will not offer me anything positive or room to grow. I will do whatever I will need to do to get the job done, but I will not cater to anyone’s needs if they have not made an effort to live up to mine. 

Money is not everything. But in this day and age it seems like its the only thing companies care about. Yes, I want to be employed and it would be great to make money at something that I love to do without coming off as a hypocrite. But deportation of my character, my life and my personal goals is not worth a single penny.  it is important to be true to who you are. Never let a person’s judgement be the last word.  

Remember challenges will always be present, but you will need a chance to over-come them. Work hard for those chances and never lose hope.

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