josie-rambles

Ravenclaws who get locked out of their common room because they can’t figure out the riddle and who pray to Merlin to get a C on the upcoming test but love old philosophers and scientists and their wealth of knowledge

Gryffindors who are literally scared of anything and cover their eyes during scary movie commercials but grew up watching superheroes on TV fighting in dangerous situations and saving everyone with their bravery

Hufflepuffs who are sarcastic little shits and are unintentionally mean all the time who take short cuts and cheat but desperately want to be the nice people who say good morning even if they don’t know you and look up to those who work hard instead of cheat

Slytherins who grew up never knowing what they want to do and watching the rest of their house ambitiously fill out applications to places like the Ministry while they fill one out for McDonalds and they wish they had more drive

Because your Hogwarts house is just as much what you value as what you are

I won 2 tickets to Minneapolis comic con

That’s exciting because I had tickets for it last year but I had to give them away because I was in the hospital

Now I have to figure out which of my friends is gonna go with me. I don’t want to pick!

I feel like the Unova gym leaders are so much more close than the other region’s gym leaders. During Black & White, they all met up and thought of ways to deal with Team Plasma, and even at the end of the game they all come together at N’s Castle to help. I don’t really see that in other regions, I think it’s so sweet

A little late on the follow forever train but I’ve never done one before and even though I’ve completely changed my blog and have been following a lot of new people I decided to do one of the people who I know I see on my dash!! Sorry if we’re in mutuals and you’re not on here, I don’t know who all my mutuals are, you can message me (◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

✿friends/mutuals are bolded✿

#-g:
7e221f, aggressiveanus, alaskas-clover, anomazingavian-dynamics, baptisms, beelzebark, bewareofmpreg, bevsi, bleach-at-the-beach, bleeply, bossy-becky, bpdcole, brightness, brotagonist, bumbleshark, callithump, centelle, chartreusefloyd, chihirofujicutie, cipherking, clivies, columbiasgreatestminds, constantlyflustered, crookedmen, crosserofanimals, ctoons, dakkori, descolethearchaeologist, dpdkouha, drakegeorgemerwin, dumbucket, enerds, flora-file, gasaii, greyjioys

h-o:
hobbitwentz, hollykitt, hooglandbride, hunterexams, indiviolet, itsprobablyhubris, itsrandomdj, kaawoshin, kaburagis, kamikakushigoto, karcathy, klefable, lakelantern, lethalpoisonforthesystem, luketriton, lunarotic, magifran, mareepe, narwhalnel, nerdylovely, nge, odbytea, odetoquatremains, ouranhighschoolhottiecluboutcense

p-u:
paranoid-rose, pastelfaun, patroclvs, peachdork, planths, planticide, popularly, professsorlayton, razorsoulzach, riotslug, rizes, rniracleromance, rubberbird, ryu, saumenschliesel, schleyme, seansoo, shinjinotikari17, sn00z-cru, son-of-a-namek, sparrowkisses, spooksandspices, srnallshinji, starghouls, sudoki, tipsymaple, thedoctorheretohelp, watashinji, undergroundghosts

I know there are tons more people that I could put on here, why can’t follow forevers just be a list of everyone you follow??

Just one of those nights.

So I was about to fall asleep. I was finally in bed and I’m starting to drift off when I feel my blood move a little differently. No, please no. I just want to sleep. I turn over and try to hope that it’s nothing. Or that it’s not bad enough to wake me. Soon I start shaking and I reluctantly haul myself out of bed and down the stairs to make myself bleed.

The meter says 89. That’s not so bad, I have some nice soft cookies waiting for me and I’ll be asleep in no time… Right? I grab a few cookies and eat them in the dark before snuggling back into my bed. Soft and warm and safe.

… And then the shaking gets worse. And I can feel the beating of my heart and the blood as it runs through my veins. I let out a sound, somewhere between a whimper of “why now?” and a growl of “goddammit” before pulling away from the comfort of my blankets.

This time the meter says 66. For fuck’s sake. I go to the kitchen to find something more substantial. The tremors in my hands would be noticeable from the other room by now. But there’s no one up to see. It’s 3:30am. Again.

Looking in the fridge, the first thing I see is the pop. Liquid carbs, would be absorbed quickly. No, that has caffeine, I don’t want to be awake any longer than I have to. By now my stomach has gone from the “nice and satiated” it was 20 minutes ago to “I haven’t eaten in days”. I pull some taquitos out of the freezer and throw them into the microwave. I try to ignore my body screaming at me as I wait for them to heat up. My doctors say it’s important to be patient and measured when dealing with a low. Well it’s hard to be measured when you body is yelling “IF YOU DON’T DO SOMETHING RIGHT NOW YOU ARE GOING TO DIE”. I know it’s being melodramatic but it’s effective.My brain steps back and lets my body take over.

I start to cry as I grab a pop and almost choke because I try to drink it so fast. I burn my mouth because I eat the taquitos too fast. I feel like I might throw up because I barely chew. Eventually I start to slow down and I begin to feel ashamed. How high am I going to be in the morning? I put my plate down and I begin to write this note.

Some nights I can just go through the motions. Test. Eat. Go back to bed. This is not one of those nights. Some nights I fall apart. Some nights I make myself sick trying to get better. Some nights I wish for nothing more than someone to hold me and tell me I’ll be alright. This is just one of those nights.

I kinda want to make another tumblr account

One where all I do is go on the “diabetes” tag and then ask folks who tag like a piece of cake saying “lol diabetes”, to kindly not do so and give them some educational material on what diabetes is

EDIT: the first thing that came up on the diabetes tag after I wrote this was “I’m surprised i haven’t got diabetes yet” with #candy, #mmm, and #sugar