are we out of the woods? ; josh dun imagine
Hurry up, would you!“ your best friend joked with a chuckle and turned around to see you dawdling behind him, eyes glued to the pavement below you. His smile dropped as he noticed your previously heartwarming smile was nowhere to be seen. Josh’s eyes softened and he immediately stopped and waited for you to catch up to him. Once you did, he intertwined his fingers with yours and gave it a reassuring squeeze, the sudden contact snapping you out of your thoughts and made your stomach explode with butterflies.
Today was such a spectacular day. You and Josh had been exploring the new surroundings of LA all day. You were so excited that you both finally moved in together, into the city of your dreams. It was such a thrilling experience to get lost in the large city, not knowing where you were going but only having each other, walking aimlessly through large buildings and forests, hand in hand with your childhood friend. However, throughout the day there had been a looming grey cloud over your head and it wasn’t coming down.
You hated having days like these. You’d be having the time of your life, yet sadness would hit you unexpectedly like a ton of bricks. Lucky, you had somebody like Josh by your side, shielding you from the darkness of your mind and not letting you surrender to the unforgiving thoughts.
"Hey, where’s that smile?” Josh asked and stopped in front of you, cupping your cheek with his free hand. The corner of your mouth tugged upward and your lip trembled, eyes still on the cement, not willing to look up at Josh.
You felt as that if you were to look up at Josh you’d see the disappointment swirling in his eyes, that he was so heartbroken over the fact you weren’t happy all the time. You couldn’t imagine how much a tole this would take on Josh, after all he is your best friend and you are his. You wish you could stay happy for once and not bring down the positive mood constantly.
There was a reoccurring thought that dominated your heart and brain and made it difficult to cope in any situation, especially this one since it absorbed your being. It had been bugging you for quite some time, but you were too afraid to address it.
You really had deep feelings for Josh, but you didn’t know how to say it. Every time his hand slipped into yours, your stomach erupted with butterflies. When he planted a reassuring kiss on your forehead when you were having bad thoughts, your mind immediately was at ease, despite your crimson cheeks. You were so deeply head over heels for this boy, but you were so terrified that he didn’t feel the same, so you always kept your mouth shut.
You always feared the scenario of Josh finally having enough of dealing with your problems and ditching you. He’d have enough of being pushed away time, and time again, after trying to hold you close. He’d have enough of you crying on his shoulder, you pouring all of the emotions out from your dismantled heart. That he’d finally leave and find somebody who would give him the attention that he deserved.
“J-Josh,” your voice was small, quiet and shaky, making Josh worry. You looked into his eyes and tried to stay confident. You needed to ask this before it destroyed you.
Josh rubbed his thumb against the freckled skin on your cheek, searching your hopeless eyes in worry.
“D-do I mean anything to you?” You asked bluntly, hoping that the answer of this altering question could help you have some closure. You swallowed hard and exhaled a sigh.
“What, are you kidding me? You really ask that?” His mouth hung open for a few seconds in utter shock. Something had snapped in his brain and you saw it happen. You watched in horror as disappointment and frustration swirled in his eyes, a sight you never wanted to see. Josh’s hand slipped out of yours and ran them through his hair, tugging at it. He spun around and had his back to you.
At that moment you knew he was about to walk down the street and leave you. You couldn’t bare the silence over of how petrifying the thought of Josh leaving you for good, so you came clean with your emotions.
“J-Josh I love you!” The three words you’d been dying to tell him slipped out from your lips and you didn’t feel the slightest hint of regret. “God, I love you so much, Joshua Dun,” you said bursting into tears. Josh’s frame froze and his legs locked into place, his back still to you.
“I’m so truly, madly and deeply in love with your dumb ass and I wish I said it sooner. I’m so sorry I’m a mess. I’m sorry I always bring down the mood because of these fucked up thoughts I have. I’m sorry I push you away when I need you the most. I’m just sorry that I can’t be the person you need. ” You stopped yourself from babbling any long and you took a deep breath to gather yourself.
“Please don’t go. I know you deserve so much more than what I could give you, but for the love of all things holy, please don’t go.” You soften your voice and sniffle.
“You never fail to make me feel better when my thoughts take over. Without you, I don’t know if I’d still be here. I just need to know if you feel the same way. I need to know you love me too,” you finished. You hear Josh exhale and before you knew it, he had turned around and looked into your eyes. Tears were streaming down his face, his once soft brown eyes were now red and puffy. Your heart broke at the sight.
“I love you, I-I love you too. I’ve loved you this whole fucking time,” Josh practically yelled and pulled you into a hug, his arms secured tightly around your waist and your arms wrapped around his neck.
“You are not a burden to me, you never were. You always make me laugh with your cringey jokes, I love the way you put too much milk in your coffee so it doesn’t taste like one. I love how you itch the tip of your nose when you’re nervous. I don’t see any flaws when I look at you, I see a beautiful human standing right in front of me. I swear to God you’re an angel that was sent here for me.” Josh’s words were muffled in your hair.
You detached yourself from him and sniffled in relief, but there was a small hint of doubt in your chest.
“I know you kinda professed your undying love for me,” you giggled through your happy tears.“But if you’ve had feelings for me this whole time, why didn’t you kiss me? I felt like there was a problem. Was there?”
“The problem is,” he said as he leaned in, “if I kissed you, I don’t think I’d be able to stop.” Josh smirked. You rolled your eyes at how cocky he was being and cupped his face, smashing your lips onto his. And just how you’d imagine it, the kiss was perfect. Your lips moulded together perfectly, like two missing puzzle pieces finally put together. His lips tasted of cherry, a taste that you’ll forever be fond of.
“I’ve waited years to feel your lips against mine,” Josh grins as he rests his forehead against yours, running his fingers through your hair.
“I miss it already,” you pout, earning a small chuckle from Josh.
“I can fix that,” Josh places his lips on yours again, this time soft and compassionately. Your fingers roam through his hair, pulling ever so gently. “Now lets go to the cafe like we originally planned before we reenacted a Romeo and Juliet scene,” Josh chuckled.
In that moment, you knew he was your soulmate. From day one had you been searching for somebody to dull your pain by filling your heart with love, and you finally did.
Who would have known that fourteen year old you would fall in love with the boy who moved into the small red head across the street.