joseok

~to the stars and back~

It was Sunday morning. You were in the kitchen cooking breakfast. The window was wide open, filling the entire room with sunlight and fresh air. All was quiet until a sudden odd noise caught your attention.

*Gwaaaaa!*

What was that?

Curious to find out what the noise was, you tiptoed upstairs and followed the sound right to the baby’s room. You peeped in, the noise becoming louder with your close proximity.

“Gwaaaaa!”

Hoseok was leaning into the baby’s crib, making cute little noises and flailing adorably. He then reached into the crib, lifting your baby girl up, out, and into the air, peppering little kisses all over her chubby cheeks.

He began spinning her around, the sound of both of their laughter filling the air. It was one of the most beautiful sounds you’d ever heard, that most pleasant sound of joy, and you would never tire of it.

He lowered her from the air and cradled her in his arms, adoration and love shining brightly from every facet of his features as he gazed upon your child.

“Hope. Our beautiful little Hope.”

His eyes began shining with a new light as if he’d just thought of an idea.

“Want to hear a story?” He walked towards the rocking chair in the corner of the room and sat down, slowly rocking Hope to and fro.

“Your mother and I, we’ve been in love for a very long time. You know, I’ve loved her since the first time I saw her smile. That bright, beautiful smile. It lit up her whole being. I’ll never forget the first time she smiled at me. Or the first words she said to me! Do you know what she said, Hopey? She said hello!”

He laughed, recalling the memory. “It came out as a stutter. I could tell that she was really nervous. It was at one of my group’s fansigns. She could barely get her words out, haha, but I enjoyed talking to her regardless. I was disappointed because I didn’t have much time to speak with her, but that was all it took. A single minute for everything to change.”

A soft smile played along his lips as he became lost in the memory for a few moments. 

“Before she could move down the table to the next member in my group, I asked her to pinky promise me that she’d come to another fansign. She said she’d try, and the way she said it, the promise in her eyes, I knew she meant it. And she showed up at the very next one. With the more fansigns she came to, the more comfortably she began speaking, and I loved that she became that way with me.”

You smiled at the memory, shifting into a more comfortable standing position so as to prepare yourself to listen to the entire story.

“Of course, she couldn’t make it to every fansign. But the fact that she continued coming when she could meant everything. She even came to see us perform! Those were the best days, when she was there. I could always spot her out in the crowd, no matter how many people were there. It was as if I was drawn to her somehow. Her being there, always supporting us in every that way she could, it warmed my heart. Still does just thinking about it! ”

“I fell in love with her laugh, and her smile. The way her eyes shined when she talked about what she was passionate about, like our music. Mommy loved our music very much, just like you do!” Ah, I just loved everything about her.“

His eyes began shining even brighter as he continued with the story.

"It was only after our company lifted our dating ban that I finally asked her out. Hope, daddy was so nervous! Ah, I couldn’t stay still that entire day. But guess what? It went well! She said yes! Mommy said yes!” And with this he began ticking Hope’s tummy, her laughter ringing throughout the room.

“I didn’t even plan our first date. Different, right Hope? But I did get her something special. I remembered her telling me at a fansign that her favorite color was purple, and I went looking everywhere to find the perfect gift for her. Do you know what it was?”

“A purple rose.” he said, you mouthing the words along with him.

“She smiled so much when I gave it to her, and it made me happy just to see how much that simple gesture meant to her.”

“That night we wandered around, doing nothing in particular but enjoying each other’s company. It was one of the best nights of my life, actually.”

“Do you know what the second one was, Hope? When she said she’d marry me. We’d been together for exactly two years and eighteen days, but it felt as if it had been much longer than that. But you know what? I had always known in my heart that she would be the one. My one.”

“And the third was when you arrived in this world. Your mother is my universe, and the second we learned of your existence you became my universe too. You’re everything to me. My beautiful, beautiful girls. I love you both to the stars and back.”

You smiled widely, silently tip-toeing back to the kitchen to finish cooking breakfast.

A few minutes later you suddenly you felt two strong arms wrap around your waist, a head resting gently on your shoulder, and a kiss being gently placed on your cheek.

“Ja'nee, my Ja'nee. Why are you so happy today, hmm?” Hoseok asked, noticing the huge smile that was still on your face.

You turned around in his arms, planting a sweet, loving, passionate kiss on his lips before lacing your fingers through his.

“Because I love you.”

And even though that was something you said to each other each and every day, it was clear that the effect was never lost. You loved each other and your child more than anything in the world. More than anything in the universe. And you could see it in each other’s eyes, feel it in every touch, and sense it with every part of your beings. You were happy. Completely. And that was all you could ever ask for.

Hope Night

It was Saturday night. You were over at Hoseok’s apartment, the two of you sitting next to each other on his sofa watching a movie. Lately Hoseok had been incredibly busy with Bangtan promotions and because of that the two of you hadn’t spent time together in quite a long time.

It was a romantic comedy. You were enjoying the movie, laughing at all the funny parts and “aw”-ing at the cute. Hoseok, on the other hand, wasn’t paying it any mind. He couldn’t keep his eyes off of you. Whenever you felt his stare you’d meet his eyes and smile, and he’d give your hand a little squeeze. Another funny scene came on and you laughed, once again feeling Hoseok’s stare on you. But this time it felt different. You slowly turned your head to meet his eyes, and the intensity of his stare caused you to lose your breath. Slowly he lifted one hand, using it to cup and caress your face. Still gazing intently into your eyes, he tenderly whispered your name, “Ja’nee…” ,before leaning in and closing the gap between your lips and his.

Just like his stare, this kiss was different too. There was a sense of longing for the time you’d been away from each other. Hoseok tilted his head to deepen the kiss, and you wrapped your arms around his neck to bring yourself closer to him. But this was not enough. He wrapped his long, slender fingers around your waist, lifting and placing you onto his lap. There. He let go of your lips to nibble on your ear, and in response you moaned, lifting your hands to run your fingers through his hair. His lips then moved to trail kisses down your neck, stopping to suck at a pulse point before continuing.

The movie was long since forgotten about. All that mattered right now was the man you were straddling and this moment you two were sharing. Hoseok had begun running his hands up and down your sides before moving them towards the hem of your shirt. He broke the kiss, tilting his head as if asking for permission before continuing. You smirked, surprising both of you as you removed the piece of clothing yourself and tossed it across the room.

This was the first time things had progressed this far, but you were completely comfortable with it. You looked into each other’s eyes, both of you breathing heavily. Without another word Hoseok lifted you up and off of his lap, standing up and stepping a few steps back. “What’s wrong?” you asked, your mind backtracking in an attempt to figure out where things might have gone awry. “I’ve been away from you for so long. I missed you every second I wasn’t by your side. I may not have been able to do anything about the distance barrier then, but I can now. There won’t be any barriers between us, not tonight.” And with that he began removing his clothes, piece by piece, eyes never leaving yours for a second.

He was beautiful. That was something you had always believed. There was beauty in everything he was, from the way he spoke to the way he danced. Especially in his most simplest of acts. But this was different. The fact that he felt he could bare his everything to you was beautiful in itself. You stood slowly, joining him in shedding every bit of your clothing. Suddenly feeling shy, you shuffled awkwardly on your feet, shifting from one foot to another. It was the way he was gazing at you: lips slightly parted with an awed expression. Hoseok closed the only barrier left between you: the few feet you stood away from each other. Taking your hands in his, he murmured, “Don’t be shy, this is a first for me too. We’re in this together, remember?” With this he smiled, pecked you on your cheek, and turned, leading you towards his bedroom.

This was it. It was finally going to happen. So many thoughts had begun running through your mind: “What if I don’t do this right? What if I ruin this somehow? What if-” Hoseok could visually see you tensing up, so he walked up behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist and resting his head in the crook between your shoulder and neck. Just that simple action made your worries go away. And he suddenly began tickling you. You laughed and broke free of his arms, running around to the other side of the bed. Ha! That’ll show him. He moved to the left, thinking it would make you come out, but you mirrored his movements with a smile that boasted “What are you going to do now, huh?” Hoseok gave you the exact same smile before quickly dashing around the bed before you could get away again. Next thing you knew, you were hanging over his shoulder before he plopped you both onto the bed.

He immediately began another tickle attack on you, but you couldn’t put up a fight this time. You’d already run out of breath from laughing so much. After deciding that you’d had enough he stopped, both of you laughing together until it melted into silence. He gazed upon you with a such a look of pure love and adoration that it took your breath away and left your heart skipping beats. “You are beautiful. And you are everything to me, do you know that?” No man had ever come close in making you feel the way Hoseok did, and this was one of those times.

He lowered himself so that he was lying on top of you. Kissing your forehead, he said “I love your smile.” “I love the way your eyes light up and sparkle when you’re happy.” With that he kissed your nose. “I love your cooking-” “You know I can’t coo-” “But you try, and that’s what matters.” And with that he captured your lips in his once again, interlocking his fingers with yours and lying them above you on the bed.

Hoseok lightly tapped your bottom lip with his tongue, and you allowed him entrance, engaging in a battle of tongues that ended with you laughing. “But more than anything, I love you.” To show you just how much he began trailing kisses across every inch of your body, leaving no inch of skin untouched by his loving lips. Once he was finished he looked into your eyes, and you knew exactly what he was asking without any words having to be said.

Your answer was to pull his face back to yours, initiating the kiss again. He ran one of his hands down your body and towards one of your your legs, rubbing soothing circles into it before lightly lifting and shifting it to the side. Hoseok slowly inserted himself into you, moving gently so as not to cause you any pain. And it was perfect. There was no rushing. You had all the time in the world. Each and every moment felt like a thousand years with him. A thousand years full of love and happiness. He was your first, you were his, and although it wasn’t said, you both knew in your hearts that you’d be each other’s lasts.

Afterwards you lied in each other’s arms, his wrapped around your waist with your head tucked into his chest. You couldn’t see, but he was smiling that smile that you loved so much. The smile that only you could put on his face. “You know I love you too, right?” you asked Hoseok. “Yeah, I know.” he replied with a kiss to your head. You sat up in a flurry of excitement, looking directly into his eyes. “And tomorrow I’m going to show you just how much.”