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TFP and the drink code, a.k.a. John truly hates himself - Mycroft Edition

[This post is my first addendum to the drink code after being written, in light of new canon content. (I wrote the drink code in July 2015. And yes, I didn’t write about TAB because the “CONFIRMED” was pretty obvious).]

One thing that has become clear about S4 is that is false af, and whatever you believe it’s happening there, you also know there’s meaning behind all that fuckiness.  I like the “TFP is John’s Bisexual Bunker Nightmare while dying” theory (and this meta is largely based on that assumption), but even if you believe in something else going on, the symbolism remains. 

We’ve seen John drinking through S4. As a matter of fact, he  is the only one seen drinking in the two episodes before TFP. Or one of his mirrors. Molly has a champagne flute when Baby Rosie is born, he drinks red wine while looking at the camera (fucky…), Vivian Norbury is said to be sort of an alcoholic… It seems alcoholic beverages were used in S4 as an indicator of John’s inner emotions.

So I expected to see him drinking in TFP.  But no. I noticed there’s only one sight of alcohol in TFP. At the first two minutes of TFP, we have Mycroft like this:

Drink code says when a character drinks whisky, they’re scared and are looking for some “liquid courage” (As TAB later confirmed).

If you consider TFP being John’s bisexual Bunker nightmare, everyone in it represents a part of him. The fact Mycroft is the only person drinking in TFP is a sign to indicate something not common in the show’s narrative: Mycroft will serve as a mirror for John. A mirror for that part of his personality that has been in charge of repressing his bisexuality. A mirror working during most of the episode and that could certainly explain why Mycroft is so out of character in TFP.

The drink code just makes it clear that the part represented by Mycroft is scared and looking for some sort of control.

So, what is he scared of? And what does that fear mean?

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Two Hundred And Four Reasons

A seven-part series of informal essays about the exploits of Spartan-IIs John-117 (a.k.a. the Master Chief) and Kelly-087. Moving in in-universe chronological order, these writings examine the contents of the official novels, animated shorts, and comic books. With emphasis on the moments that attest to the bond between Blue-One and Blue-Two, and how their relationship as teammates and friends has been an important part of what has defined both their characters since the inception of the Halo Universe.

A Rocky Start

Into the Fire

Heavy Price Paid

Unwavering Trust

Before Anyone Else

Thinking of You

It’s in the Subtext

John Hall Relationship Headcanons

whisperroses asked:

I saw your Guarnere headcanon post and I loved it! Could you make one about John Hall ( a.k.a Cowboy )? I haven’t seen any reader insert headcanons about him and I was kinda curious if you could make one. Thanks!

  • He’s ridiculously good with technology. If anything needs setting up or fixing, he’s the one to do it. You’ll sit next to him as he does it and he’ll talk you through what he’s doing. When he does this, it’s not a case of him talking down to you. He just likes to share.
  • You two will play basketball together and he teaches you if you don’t know how. He likes to let you win, but he’s not very good about it. As in you always know when he let’s you win.
  • John is a sweetie and absolutely adores to hold your hand, it doesn’t matter where you are. When you’re both stuck waiting in a queue, he will play with your fingers, his fingertips gently stroking over them.
  • He’s totally the kind to take your hands in his and blow on them or rub them, to help warm them up if you’re cold.
  • John’s insecurity, lies in the fact that he never feels like he belongs. He feels like he belongs with you though.
  • He’s very open about talking about his feelings with you. You know exactly how much he loves you, because he’s told you numerous times how you make him feel.
  • Whenever he gives you a birthday card, christmas card or a valentine’s card, he practically fills it with writing. So much so, he usually ends up writing on both sides, because while he has no problem telling you how he feels, he prefers the structure of writing it all down, because that way it’s more organised and he won’t accidentally forget anything.
  • You two love to play board games! You’ll make an evening out of it, a date night. You’ve amassed quite the collection over the years.
  • John is one of the most patient men you have ever met. If you’ve been hurt in the past, he will take the time to show you that he won’t do the same.
  • It’s always a surprise to you, when you see him snap. It doesn’t happen very often and never at you. It’s often the result of someone continually pushing and pushing until he can’t take anymore.
  • There’s a butterfly garden near where the two of you live and he likes to take you there. It’s also the place he’s most likely to propose to you.
  • In fact it doesn’t take John long to come to the conclusion that he wants to marry you. He realises that it’s early in the relationship though and so he doesn’t say anything.
  • Though at times you can almost see it in shining in his eyes when he looks at you.
  • There’s just something very honest and earnest about him.
  • Your family would adore him. He’s always the perfect gentleman around them.
  • At times you like to try and sneak up on him, but it never works as he has ridiculously good hearing. It doesn’t matter how quiet you’re trying to be.
  • He will wait until you are practically right up behind him, before turning around and surprising you instead.
  • He will pull you loosely into his arms as he laughs along with you, before leaning down to press a brief, soft kiss to your lips. “Better luck next time, angel”.
  • He always uses the softest, sweetest nicknames for you, but his favourite is ‘angel’.
  • John loves to lay back on the couch or bed and have you’re body resting right on top of his, your front pressed against his. This way he can softly stroke your back, his hand occasionally drifting up to your neck and down again.
  • You two will talk as you lay like this. The topics can be completely random. Sometimes you’ll talk about your day or some date you both want to go on. Or discuss some film you’ve seen. Or you’ll dream about the future together.
  • If you happen to fall asleep on him, that’s it. He will probably refuse to move because he doesn’t want to disturb you.
  • John’s actually pretty good at patching you up if you ever hurt or injure yourself. He’s got a real gentle touch to him and his fingers will brush softly over your skin as he applies a bandage or plaster, whatever is needed.

this is our destiny ✧ a fanmix for when you’re traveling on faith (or you have nothing better to do), a.k.a john and jaha’s infinite playlist [listen on spotify]

i. band on the run (paul mccartney) ii. tiptoe (imagine dragons) iii. lane boy (twenty one pilots) iv. peace beneath the city (iron & wine) v. whiskey (bearcoon) vi. the world at large (modest mouse) vii. the edge of glory (lady gaga) viii. drive (halsey) ix. the chain (fleetwood mac) x. au revoir (onerepublic) xi. bohemian rhapsody (queen) xii. nineteen hundred and eighty five (paul mccartney)

you can blame @groundrs for this

'Orphan Black': Vote for the best bit of body horror

Attention Clone Clubbers: the series finale of Orphan Black airs Saturday, Aug. 12 on BBC America. All this week, we’re celebrating (and mourning) the impending end of our favorite clone saga, and we can’t do it without your help! Check back every day to vote for your favorite scenes, characters, and clones in a variety of categories.

What is it with Canadians and body horror? Our good neighbor to the North is home to one of contemporary cinema’s premiere purveyors of nightmare-inducing scenes of bodily mutilation, David Cronenberg. And that Cronenbergian touch — which has unnerved audiences in such films as The Fly and Dead Ringers — has manifested itself regularly throughout Orphan Black‘s five-season run. “It’s definitely territory that Cronenberg explored,” co-creator (and proud Canuck) Graeme Manson admitted to Indiewire in 2014. While we don’t know if the director is a card-carrying member of the Clone Club, we imagine that if and when he chooses to binge-watch Orphan Black, he’ll be pleased — and maybe even a little grossed out — with its brand of body horror. Which scene gave you the dry heaves? Vote for one of the five options below.

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Helena Cuts off Olivier’s Tail (Season 1, Episode 7, “Parts Developed in an Unusual Manner”)
“Unusual” is one way to describe the idea of implanting a tail on your own butt. But let’s give long-deceased Neolution flunky Olivier Duval some credit for letting his freak flag fly. Too bad that Helena didn’t appreciate the whimsy of putting a tail where none should be: she chopped that sucker off and then took it with her on the dance floor.

(Photo: BBC America)

Sarah Stabs Rachel in the Eye with a Pencil (Season 2, Episode 10, “By Which Means Have Never Yet Been Tried”)
When it comes to which body part tends to make people skittish, the eyes have it. The thought of anyone or anything puncturing, popping, or otherwise penetrating our peepers is enough to make most of us curl up in a ball on the floor. But Sarah didn’t think twice about employing an eye attack as a means to flee Rachel’s clutches. Transforming an ordinary fire extinguisher into a projectile-launcher, she shot a pencil directly into her nemesis’s left eye in an ingenious, and disgusting, escape.

(Photo: BBC America)

Sarah Visits the Dentist (Season 4, Episode 3, “The Stigmata of Progress”)
Is it safe? Not even a little bit. In the creepiest dentist appointment since Dustin Hoffman paid a visit to Laurence Olivier in Marathon Man, Sarah had invasive mouth surgery to get rid of a “maggot bot” implanted on the inside of her cheek. The hygienist’s cheerful disposition as she warned her patient how the slightest movement would cause “a burst of tendrils” to release a fatal dose of poison only made us more nervous about booking our six-month dental check-up.

(Photo: BBC America)

The Nightmare Baby (Season 4, Episode 5, “Human Raw Material”)
The Neolution-backed Bright Born billed itself as a place where childless couples can create the baby of their dreams through genetic modification. But Cosima’s trip into the bowels of Bright Born revealed that these infants were often far from picture-perfect cherubs. In the O.R. for one such delivery, she witnessed a screaming woman giving birth to a gasping, noseless baby that was quickly rushed out of the room, presumably to the incinerator.

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Rachel Performs Eye Surgery (Season 5, Episode 7, “Gag or Throttle”)
The first time Rachel lost her eye, it wasn’t by choice. Her second eye removal, on the other hand, was entirely voluntary. Realizing that the father of Neolution, P.T. Westmoreland a.k.a. John Patrick Mathieson, was using her recently-installed cyber-eye to spy on her, Rachel cut into her own socket with the pointy end of a broken martini glass. She may not be the nicest clone, but there’s no question that she’s the toughest.

Orphan Black airs Sundays at 10 p.m. on BBC America.

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Above: Not pictured – Superman’s keychain, which would take one hundred men to lift.

The Chronological Superman 1958:
Terms like “Silver Age” and “Golden Age” (and “pre-Crisis,” “post-Crisis,” “reboot,” “pre-boot,” “three-boot,” and so on) are very handy for capturing the essence of a roughly-defined era of stories, or for the cataloguing and branding purposes of collectors, historians and corporations. If there’s one idea which this blog has promoted, though, it’s hopefully that there’s really no such thing as a distinct “border” between Golden Age and Silver Age stories for a specific, ongoing character.

You can say, for instance, that there’s a clear distinction between the Golden Age Flash and the Silver Age Flash, because those were distinct characters with non-overlapping runs. Superman, however, has remained in continuous publication and evolved from year to year since his debut. The Supermen of 1938, 1946 and 1954 are as distinct from one another as a character can be, when he’s sharing the same name, costume, supporting cast and environment.

Superman has been experiencing a sort-of proto-Silver Age existence for the previous several years, setting the groundwork for the iconic 50s/60s Man of Steel so often referred to with loving nostalgia. Some of the foundational preparations have already borne fruit – Krypto, Lana Lang, and a canonical Ma and Pa Kent have all nestled comfortably into Superboy’s continuity at this point, for instance. Meanwhile, precursors for other iconic Silver Age elements – the future world of 1,000 years from now, teen heroes from other worlds, a succession of super-sidekicks – have been road-tested repeatedly.

The Silver Age has crept up on Superman, but it’s fair to say that it has fully landed in 1958. Why?

Brainiac debuts in Action Comics vol.1 No.242 (Jul 1958), bringing with him the Bottle City of Kandor and its millions of tiny inhabitants.  The Legion of Super-Heroes makes its first appearance in the Twentieth Century in the pages of Adventure Comics vol.1 No.247 (Apr 1958), while Bizarro debuts in a three-part story in Superboy vol.1 No.68 (Oct 1958). Red Kryptonite appears twice, in Adventure Comics vol.1 No.252 (Sep 1958) and Adventure Comics vol.1 No.255 (Dec 1958). While its biology-bending effects haven’t yet been fixed in stone, Superman also undergoes weird transformations, given a lion’s head in Action Comics vol.1 No.243 (Aug 1958) and acquiring an “amazing new power” in Superman vol.1 No.125 (Nov 1958).

Kryptonite gets weirder than ever. A giant bug released from the Earth’s core proves to have alchemical powers, and creates a deadly Kryptonite forest in Adventure Comics vol.1 No.245 (Feb 1958). A new foe shows up, powered by Kryptonite. John Corben (a.k.a. Metallo, the Man with the Kryptonite Heart) debuts in the daily newspaper strip in late December. Superboy’s first encounter with Kryptonite is recounted for the first time in Adventure Comics vol.1 No.251 (Aug 1958), a story which also paints a colorful picture of Superboy’s army of replacement robots.

Superman’s arctic fortress was introduced all the way back in 1949, but it reappears in Action Comics vol.1 No.241 (Jun 1958) in the form in which it’s best-known, carved into the side of a mountain and bearing Superman’s many trophies, collections and alien wonders. There’s a Super-Girl (notice the hyphen) who appears in Superman vol.1 No.123 (Aug 1958), and while she’s blonde, blue-eyed and almost entirely a dead ringer for Superman’s yet-to-appear cousin Kara “Supergirl” Zor-El, she’s only setting the template for the teen sidekick’s debut.

“Super-Girl” isn’t the only flying figure to don a Superman costume in 1958. Another ape from Krypton – “King Krypton, the Super-Gorilla” hassles Superman in Action Comics vol.1 No.238 (Mar 1958), and Superboy has to deal with a boy-sized Krypto-Mouse in Superboy vol.1 No.65 (Jun 1958). The newly-relocated Bottle City of Kandor coughs up its first lookalike super-villain in the form of Zak-Kul, renegade scientist, in Action Comics vol.1 No.245 (Oct 1958).

Lois Lane gets her own title – Superman’s Girlfriend Lois Lane – in April, while Jimmy Olsen first dons the rubber uniform, quaffs the stretching formula and adopts the superheroic identity of Elastic Lad (Superman’s Pal Jimmy Olsen vol.1 No.31 – Sep 1958).

The floodgates have been opened! Meanwhile, although unintentionally, the Adventures of Superman television show broadcasts its final season in 1958. The show’s popularity hadn’t waned, and another two seasons were planned to begin broadcasting in 1960. Even the sudden death of John Hamilton, the show’s Perry White, hadn’t dampened the plans. It would take a tragic event in the following year to end the show’s future plans for good.

Not that the producers of The Adventures of Superman didn’t have alternate plans – Whitney Ellsworth was prepared to launch The Adventures of Super-Pup in 1958, a recasting of the show in a world of walking, talking dogs. The pilot never aired.

Whatever the case, the television program ending as the Silver Age fully spreads its wings has a symbolic significance. The show had been a direct descendant of the radio program, which itself branched from the adventures of the original, then-new Superman. With its final season, the last ties to the sedan-smashing, recklessly enthusiastic, grounded and proletarian Superman were gently severed.

exploding-spartan  asked:

Hey im a huge halo fan and im extremely excited for guardians ! I want to ask who is blue team ? Are they in the novels or something ? I havent heard of them before, I know I must sound like a total amature here :) be great to hear back #huntthetruth

Hi there, exploding-spartan! Glad that you’re so excited for ‘Halo 5′. And if you’re looking for some information about Spartan-II Blue Team, you’ve come to the right place. :)

They’ve been a part of the Halo Universe since it premiered in 2001, but have only appeared in Extended Universe materials up until now - novels, comics, animated shorts, etc. So if you’ve only ever played the games it’s no surprise that you haven’t heard of them (a lot of people are in the same boat as you too, so don’t feel bad). Make no mistake though, they are very important characters and play a huge role in the Master Chief’s own story. So hopefully this brief primer will help get you up to speed, and possibly encourage you to check out some of the books, videos, and comics that chronicle Blue Team’s past adventures before the next game comes out…

I’m going to assume you know at least a little about the SPARTAN-II Program: in which Dr. Catherine Halsey (with UNSC/ONI approval) orchestrated the abduction of 75 children in the year 2517, and over the next 7 years had them extensively trained and physically augmented to become super-soldiers. Halsey is also the mind behind the development of the Spartans’ signature MJOLNIR Armor. The Spartan-IIs were originally meant to be the soldiers that would help the UNSC quash the human rebellion in the outer colonies, but after the arrival of the Covenant most of them spent the majority of their service fighting the hostile alien forces (though they were still assigned to neutralize rebels from time to time).

Blue Team has had it’s share of Spartans that have come and gone throughout it’s existence - some notable ones being Samuel-034, William-043, and Kurt-051. But as it stands currently the core four members are John-117 (a.k.a. the Master Chief), Kelly-087, Frederic-104, and Linda-058.

  • John-117

The Master Chief has been the leader of Blue Team ever since he was in SPARTAN training, and held the position for the duration of the Human-Covenant War. The Covenant’s eventual assault on the planet Reach in 2552 led to a series of events that resulted in his first lengthy separation from his fellow Spartan-IIs (as seen in Halos 1-4). After the Didact’s attack on Earth in 2557, the Chief was reunited with Kelly-087, Fred-104, and Linda-058 - and the four of them returned to work together in the field. What events led them to go off the grid prior to ‘Halo 5′ are currently unknown. John considers all the Spartans to be his family, and will go to great lengths to protect them from as much harm as possible without compromising their duty as soldiers. He is particularly close to his Blue Team squadmates, and feels most comfortable and confident when leading them into battle.

  • Kelly-087

Kelly-087 has been John-117′s best friend and right-hand on Blue Team since the first days of their SPARTAN training. She has a rather varied skillset, but most of her specialties hinge on her incredible speed (both physically and mentally). Using her ability to literally give their enemies the run-around has been a staple part of Blue Team’s battle strategies from training through the entire Human-Covenant War, and how Kelly earned the moniker of “Rabbit”. She is also unique in her jovial personality and how her mannerisms are often more expressive and open compared to her peers. Kelly has an extremely high tolerance for pain and a knack for surviving devastating injuries - all while staying on her feet and continuing to fight. Her unflappable constitution is what has made her an invaluable support to her team leaders throughout her entire career.

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Sonnets 20 and 57

As @the-7-percent-solution, @tjlcisthenewsexy, @impatient14and @teaandforeshadowing have pointed out in this post, 20 minutes has been mentioned enough times within the show that it holds a degree of significance. 

The importance of the mention of 20 minutes has been highlighted in a post by @the-7-percent-solution which I think is brilliant! Then again, all her posts are brilliant! 

This also got me thinking. It’s not the first time numbers have been important on this show. The number 57 (the number of times Irene Adler texted Sherlock… John your jealousy is showing) could be correlated to Sonnet 57 as written by Shakespeare. In said sonnet, Shakespeare expresses his love to a young man and how he fears that his lust for the man may jeopardize their relationship has become a reality.

Initially, I saw this sonnet as Sherlock’s feelings towards John but the more I read over it, it made more sense if they were John’s feelings towards Sherlock. Let me explain.

Being your slave, what should I do but tend

Upon the hours and times of your desire?

I have no precious time at all to spend,

Nor services to do, till you require.

John is Sherlock’s roommate, best friend and blogger. They spend nearly all their time together. Even during their first encounter, John is at Sherlock’s call and beacon. Sherlock texts him to go to Baker Street and he does, despite Mycroft’s warning. He’s willingly to sacrifice himself to save Sherlock from Moriarty. He cancels a date to tend to Sherlock after he’s drugged by Irene. He helps Sherlock get into the military base at Baskerville. Need I go on?

Nor dare I chide the world-without-end hour

Whilst I, my sovereign, watch the clock for you,

Nor think the bitterness of absence sour

When you have bid your servant once adieu;

I think this portion relates to John’s feelings after Sherlock “dies” at the end of The Reichenbach Fall. John probably sits alone in 221B as he watches the time go by, unable to get angry for what Sherlock did. He wants to be angry at Sherlock but a part of him can’t. He also wants to be bitter about Sherlock abandoning him with only a goodbye but again, he probably can’t bring himself to. Sherlock is his best friend. I don’t think anyone would be able to bring themselves to hold resentment towards their best friend after their death.  

Nor dare I question with my jealous thought

Where you may be, or your affairs suppose,

But, like a sad slave, stay and think of nought

Save, where you are how happy you make those.

The reason John is so angry after Sherlock comes back during The Empty Hearse is that he thinks that Sherlock faked his death to get away from him. To go be with Irene Adler. He clearly was jealous of Irene’s constant flirting with Sherlock. And his anger stemmed from being left behind by Sherlock yet he still harbors feelings for the man.

So true a fool is love that in your will,

Though you do any thing, he thinks no ill.

And at the end of the day, like the fool that he is, John Watson still and will always love Sherlock for the man that he is and will never think ill of him.

Now what does Sonnet 57 have anything to do with this post? Well, in relation to the number 20 in reference to 20 minutes, I read over Sonnet 20 which Shakespeare also wrote to a male lover. While Sonnet 57 is John’s feelings for Sherlock, I believe Sonnet 20 is Sherlock’s feelings for John. Again, let me explain. 

A woman’s face with Nature’s own hand painted

Hast thou, the master-mistress of my passion;

This is Sherlock’s initial feelings for John. Someone who has captured his interest as well as his feelings.

A woman’s gentle heart, but not acquainted

With shifting change, as is false women’s fashion;

John is a kind man and Sherlock sees that. In Season 3 and 4, we see that John doesn’t like sudden change. I guess, in the very first episode we can see that John is having a hard time adjusting as his life suddenly shifted from the war to civilian life.

An eye more bright than theirs, less false in rolling,

Gilding the object whereupon it gazeth;

John Watson has beautiful eyes but they’re also eyes which look at Sherlock without the judgement that may others have looked at Sherlock with. The sincerity “gilding the object whereupon it gazeth” with the object being Sherlock.

A man in hue, all hues in his controlling,

Much steals men’s eyes and women’s souls amazeth.

Sherlock sees John as a man who is attractive to both men and women. Alluding to John’s bisexuality????

And for a woman wert thou first created;

Till Nature, as she wrought thee, fell a-doting,

And by addition me of thee defeated,

By adding one thing to my purpose nothing.

But since she prick’d thee out for women’s pleasure,

Mine be thy love and thy love’s use their treasure.

These last few lines may refer to Sherlock despising a world where it’s still not widely accepted to be homosexual as “Nature” has given him someone (a.k.a John Watson) who cares for Sherlock for who he is but made him male so Sherlock may not ever be allowed to be with him. John Watson is male and thus must be with a woman (“But since she prick’d thee out for women’s pleasure”). However, Sherlock doesn’t care for what gender John Watson is. Sherlock just wants John Watson to love him the way he has always loved John and will always love. 

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“I’m a star.. ‘cause I slay, I slay, I slay all day”, Beyoncé proclaims in her highly anticipated sixth record, Lemonade. And it’s true that Beyoncé makes the world stop when she steps her foot forward into the music scene. Lemonade like self-titled demonstrates Beyoncé taking creative risks and tiptoeing on the rougher borders of pop music.

What makes Lemonade magnificent and one of a kind is the visual movie that accompanies the album. Beyoncé has set a high standard in the industry with self-titled because every song was accompanied by a music video. With Lemonade, Beyoncé lands on new ground when she premieres the hour-length movie on HBO to accompany this visual album. A wise decision especially the fact the movie perfectly presented the different stages of grief, which is the central theme of this deeply personal and audacious record.

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What A Wallflower Wants by Maya Rodale

We absolutely need to talk about this book. 



Miss Prudence Merryweather Payton has a secret.

Everyone knows that she’s the only graduate from her finishing school to remain unwed on her fourth season—but no one knows why. With her romantic illusions shattered after being compromised against her will, Prudence accepts a proposal even though her betrothed is not exactly a knight in shining armor. When he cowardly pushes her out of their stagecoach to divert a highwayman, she vows never to trust another man again.

John Roark, Viscount Castleton, is nobody’s hero.

He’s a blue-eyed charmer with a mysterious past and ambitious plans for his future—that do not include a wife. When he finds himself stranded at a country inn with a captivating young woman, a delicate dance of seduction ensues. He knows he should keep his distance. And he definitely shouldn’t start falling in love with her.

When Prudence’s dark past comes back to haunt her, John must protect her—even though he risks revealing his own secrets that could destroy his future.


Jeez I ADORED this book. I have liked almost all of the books I have read by Maya Rodale (with one exception) but this was just so far and beyond any expectations I had for this book. 

So I guess the best way is to discuss my favorite aspects individually (I wish I had more structure to these reviews, but alas I do not). 

The most important thing in this book, in my opinion, is the VERY CLEAR statement on (TRIGGER POSSIBLY) rape and rape culture. Our heroine was had her “innocence taken forcibly” by a disgusting human being four years before the start of our story. And she has been struggling in silence with her fear of men the whole time. 

At the start of the story, she is riding in a mail coach, to marry a man who she is fairly certain is only into another man, and would never try to hurt her.

But when they are held up by highwaymen, and her fiance throws her from the carriage as an unwilling sacrifice, she knows one thing for certain: men are not to be trusted.

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So she walks all night and day until she first meets our hero, who is riding a carriage pulled by two sheer white horses. He pulls over and offers her a ride. 

Despite being sweaty, exhausted and her hands raw and in pain from carrying her valise, she denies the ride for fear of being alone with a man. He asks a couple more times but she sticks to her guns. 

So he continues on, wanting to respect her wishes. 

Moving onto when she gets to the small village, she goes to the inn that our hero is also at. 

It is heartbreaking to watch their interactions. 

“Castleton’s arms enclosed her. Logically, she knew he only acted on instinct. Logically, she knew this embrace was merely to prevent her from tumbling backward and possibly to the floor. She knew these things. But still her body stiffened and the warning bells in her head clanged loudly, drowning out the voices of logic and reason. They were alone, she was unguarded, and his hands were on her.” 

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My heart was BREAKING for her. She wants so much to be fine. She wants to listen to logic and reason and move forward but she is so so stuck!!! 

I have never loved a heroine so much that I felt like I had known her for years and need to protect her from everyone and everything. 

But slowly, very slowly, she starts to become less uncomfortable with John Roarke. It isn’t a sudden transition. She isn’t suddenly fixed. It feels, to me, realistic.

And then there is John Roarke, who definitely merits mention. I am not super familiar with Beta heroes. But I am fairly certain he is one. He is sweet. He wants to protect the heroine, and women, and hurt animals. He has self control and when the heroine says she is uncomfortable or needs to not be touched or to leave, he listens and does what she asks. He does NOT try to force her to change. 

Instead of trying to force her to be comfortable with men, he teaches her how to protect herself in one of my favorite scenes in the book. 

“’You have survived the worst thing that could happen to you,’ he said softly. ‘And you have carried on. Prudence, you are far stronger than you know.’ That left her stunned and speechless. ‘Now move,’ he said in a low voice, just before reaching for her wrist. She snatched it away. ‘Move,’ he growled. ‘Like all those dancing steps you spent two-eighths of your life practicing.’”

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It was really a touching scene, because he wanted to teach her how to defend herself for if he wasn’t around. He didn’t try to make her try to just stick around him for protection, he gave her a tool to help heal herself on her own. 

Gosh darnit the feelings. 

So anwho, while they are at the inn (Stuck due to intense rain) they become comfortable friends. And though Prudence is still nervous and skiddish, she becomes a bit more comfortable with him. Comfortable enough to be alone with him. Comfortable enough for a quick kiss, though she still panics a bit afterwards.

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But John Roarke, a.k.a Catleton, has a secret. It took me literally the entire book to figure it out and then they had to spell it out for me, because I am not bright. But needless to say, I was shocked. It made it even better in my opinion. 

There is a lot of layers to the characters and you have to read to the end to even begin to understand them as a whole. But the big picture is beautiful, and you are rooting for a happy ending from beginning to end. 

Final score: 1 million stars. So good. So perfect. I will warn ya’ll that there is a pretty graphic scene between prudence and her attacker between pages 81-84/85. So if you want to read the book but want to skip that, I would start at either page 85 or 86. 

So yes, if you can, or if this sounds like something you would like, I would 100% suggest it. 

Originally posted by realitytvgifs

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University AU where Sherlock (19) accidentally burns down one of the chemistry labs or part of his dorm room or some other building/room while he’s doing an experiment, and the higher authorities of the university decide the only way he’ll be allowed to stay is if he agrees to counseling (they think he might have done it on purpose, you see, because he causes so much trouble in general, but they can’t prove it), so they send him to one of the school psychiatrists, and you’ll never guess who that is, a.k.a. Dr. John Watson, formerly of the Fifth Northumberland Fusiliers, a 35(-40?)-year-old veteran who was originally a surgeon—army doctor, as Sherlock immediately deduces, of course—but after he got shot and could no longer operate he decided to become a psychiatrist instead.

Sherlock expects John to find him just as unbearable as every other psychiatrist he’s been forced to see, but we all know that’s not going to be the case, and Sherlock’s initial attraction to him—let’s be honest, he’s automatically attracted to this older military man on a physical level—begins to grow into an emotional attachment, and John probably lets himself become a lot closer to Sherlock than he knows he should, but neither of them can help themselves.  Needless to say their sessions together become a tad unprofessional after a certain point. Ahem.