“There are some people who are so much a part of us they’ll be with us no matter what. They are our solid ground, our north star. And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us. Always.”
This is an extremely, extreeemely late birthday fic for the amaaazing @allylobster. I hope you like this! <3 <3
An Entirely Different Dance
A post 2x24 AU
Stalking into her apartment – her temporary apartment – Kate
Beckett has to fight the urge to slam the door behind her.
She shouldn’t be pissed. She has no right to be pissed.
And yet, she is. Her chest aches with it, the anger, the
How could she have been so stupid? For a quiet, insane
moment, she had thought that he had wanted her.
That they could’ve been something more, something real. Something terrifying
and exhilarating all at the same time. Something she had been running from ever
since he offered her seven different kinds of fast food as penance for Dick
Coonan slipping away.
Well, that joke is on her, isn’t it? Because he’s off to the
Hamptons with his ex-wife and publisher while she is, and will continue to be,
here in the city alone.
Especially since even Lanie has bailed on her.
Albeit yes, her friend has a reasonable excuse for
postponing their hastily made plans, and if she weren’t still so embarrassed
that her boss and her colleagues had witnessed her attempt at going away with
Castle, she would be ignoring the fact that she had asked for the weekend off
and working the case with her team. Instead she’s home, clutching the neck of a
too-expensive red wine in her fist and wondering exactly how bad it would be to just pop the cork and drink the damn thing
straight from the bottle.
Well, it wouldn’t be the first time.
Her groan echoes around her sublet, bouncing off the empty
walls, serving as a reminder for how little she has settled in, how warm and
cozy her old place and Castle’s loft had been. Maybe that’s what she’ll do this
weekend: she’ll finally make this place feel like home, even if it’s only for a
few months while she looks for another apartment. She can make this place hers.
But first, she needs to rid herself of this day. No, this
Her shoes are the first to go. She loses almost four inches,
but her feet celebrate being free of their confinement, and some of the tension
in her spine melts away.
She leaves the heels in the middle of the walkway, allowing
a smile to touch her lips as her mother’s chiding voice echoes in her head.
One of these days,
Katie, you’re going to trip over those.
She hasn’t yet.
Her slacks are next to go. They land in a crumpled heap
halfway between the door and the kitchen, where she sets the wine down on the
counter and fishes a corkscrew from one of the drawers. She’ll pick everything
up later, right now she’s cutting loose.
Yeah, she’s a cop gone wild, all right. Leaving her clothes
all over the floor like regular rebel.
Her first swig of wine goes down a little rougher than she
expects, leaving her swallowing hard, swiping the back of her hand over her
lips. Her eyes water – because it burns, damn it – forcing her to set the
bottle down and suck in a few steady breaths.
Well, at least her pity party is hopping. For the next bit
of entertainment, maybe she’ll spill on herself and ruin a perfectly good work
“What a mess,” she mutters, curling her fingers
around the wine bottle once again and pushing away from the counter. “All
this over one irritating, immature, self-centered jackass.”
#look at the happiness on her face #can you remember the time #when she couldn’t stand castle #and all she wanted was to get rid of him and shoot him #because he’s annoying #self-centered #and egotistical #but now all she wants is to #spend the rest of her life with him #live in the warmth of his smile #and the strength of his embrace #season 1 kate beckett would be so proud #johanna beckett would have been so proud #katherine houghton beckett married #richard edgar alexander rodgers castle #her favorite author whose books saved her #the guy who has saved her life so many times #who would jump in front of bullets for her like it’s no big deal #who brings her coffee everyday just to see her smile #who made her look forward to tomorrow’s adventures #and i just cry every damn time #because they made it #these idiots have beaten all the damn odds #and they will continue to be amazing #always #til death do they part #and for the time of their lives