Triggerwarnings:Mentions of depression and suicide/self harm
A/N: Firstly, why did I write this? I started crying halfway seriously what am I doing. It’s not even that hurtful. Also why the hell do I suck at titles and endings so so much jfc
Dan didn’t feel like getting up and going to his classes today. He was fully awake, lying on his bed and staring at the wall front of him, not thinking of anything else except for how much he hated this. Being okay all day, laughing, smiling, enjoying life. Well, thinking he was okay. Thinking this shit was finally over, he was finally doing fine. But he wasn’t. At 3 a.m he was turning and tossing in his bed, biting his lip until it started bleeding to hold back the sobs about to escape, thinking of every reason that brought him to this condition and trying not to reach for the blades on his drawer. He had managed to cry silently for hours, trying not to wake his roommate who was now gone. Dan had now all the time in the world to cry, scream on his pillow for all he wanted and just do nothing. It was concerning how classes he missed each week because of his depression that showed it’s face more often when the second year of uni started. He even thought of dropping out, but the thought of his parents’ disappointed faces when they would find out made him want to lay down on his bed with the thought of maybe if he fell asleep now, he wouldn’t wake up the next morning. Or ever.
can you please do a taohun gif spam with your favorite taohun moments :') //puppy eyes
anon…. do you know what you have done… i’m in so much pain after looking for all these pictures….. just a warning: there will be a shit-ton of gifs. a lot of them. also you get my commentary on the side bc how could i share my fave moments without telling why they’re my favourites.
anyway, here we go!
star splash was amazing. not the part where tao cried after his family obviously (it was horrible i might’ve cried too) but everything else was great. (tao’s very flattering diving outfit also.)
okay so the first moment comes here: tao makes a successful jump and you can see how relieved sehun is. suho is there like “thumbs up son that went well i’m glad i paid the diving instructor a little extra“ meanwhile sehun looks like he’s going to collapse from relief.
then the iconic moment when suho thinks tao is going to hug him but sehun goes n o p e and pulls tao to himself.
here’s another angle (not a gif but i don’t discriminate based on image format)
oh man. moving on! the 13th music billboard annual festival was also absolutely terrible.
look at this fucking sunshine dweeb waving please both of you focus on the things you’re supposed to be focusing on.
then there’s tao, smiling like a goddamn dumbo. please leave.
The first genuinely good
episode of the season. The first when I didn’t think that I should be
washing my hair right now. The monster of the week was interesting both in its
appearance and its effect on its victims. The main storyline moved forward. The
B-plot was compelling. Abbie got backstory.
If the show could do more like this, it would be back on
solid ground again. All shipping aside, if they could just tell megood damn
stories, I would be much happier. So let’s begin on a much less ranty (but
still ranty because hi have you met me?) recap:
Oh hey! Fake-out cold open! I missed you because they no longer use you every episode so I
immediately know no one is in any danger. Well-shot and cute. Also Crane’s love of fruity drinks will
never cease to delight me. Proof that gender norms change significantly
over time since enjoy froo-froo drinks was de
rigeur in his day.
Going to do Zoe all at once.
I enjoyed the awkwardness of the scene. It really captured how awful
first dates are and an especially awful one at that. I really, genuinely hoped
that Crane was going to go on one date, then go “good God, no” and turn his
eyes toward Abbie. That clearly is not happening. But she was better written
this episode. I loved that she brought him flowers. That she seemed like a
person. And if Abbie gets back together with Danny for real, then honestly I
wouldn’t really give a crap because Ichabod Crane does not deserve Abbie Mills
right now. The biggest problem is not
the character, it’s the imbalance. Give Abbie a love life and Crane can be
with whatever weirdo he wants.
Also I’m sorry but Crane trying to protect her from the
hibachi flames was adorable. I’m only human.
Let’s all take a moment to appreciate Abbie Mills’ hair in this episode. And let’s all tell
Crane to drag a damn comb through his.
We did get some solid movement on Danny and Abbie this week,
but why are they going so slow? They
spent time shacked up together in a literal shack! You know neither of them wore clothes that whole time! They have
great chemistry! Just go for it! Every time they are together it’s sparky and
OK, I love Pandora but can we all recognize that basically
thus far she’s been a Power Rangers villain, unleashing henchmen on the world
while she watches?
Maybe the reason Danny/Abbie is going so slowly is because
of the “professional courtesy” Abbie mentioned. Which, I get it. Abbie is professional. It’s a core part of who
she is. But if that’s what’s holding her back, say that. Use words. They keep saying Abbie has this rich interior
life and certainly we see it through Nicole’s acting but unless it’s canonical it’s little more than creator-approved meta.
Authorial intent is meaningless. Do
It could just be that the show has beaten me down on the
shipping front to the point that I can no longer see clearly, but the chemistry between Abbie and Ichabod
does feel more platonic this season. Maybe it’s writing, maybe it’s acting,
maybe it’s just hopelessness, but when Ichabod was asking what if Abbie was more than friends with Danny, it
felt friendly. Not jealous, despite his earlier peacocking. There’s just
something subtly different.
Why do I have a feeling Crane refers to everything as a
harbinger of evil. “LOOK LIEUTENANT A HARBINGER OF EVIL.” “Crane that is a
Dyson vacuum cleaner chill.”
ABBIE REFERENCING HER ANCESTOR’S JOURNAL. BLESS.
Best exchange of the episode, by far: “George Washington,
paranoid? No.” “Yessssss.” Abbie has had it with the Washington
For one beautiful, shining moment, I dared hope that the
show would be clever and make Grace
Dixon Washington’s most trusted confidant during the war. But alas, Sleepy
I am sure Nikki Reed is a lovely person who genuinely wants
to save the rain forest or whatever she and Smoldy do together, but my God, did
Onira ever showcase that she is way, way out of her depth here.
Grace being like, “man, shut up, I am an actual witch” when Betsy tried to
whitesplain the folk remedy.
You guys. Betsy Ross had winged eyeliner. On a battlefield.
In 177whatever. Oh my God.
The queen bee taking out other leaders is really, really
clever! The whole use of mythology here was, and you can tell that Shernold wrote out of both great love and
great knowledge of the Trini culture. The whole bit with the double-speak
riddle was so great. This is how all monsters of the week need to be. The world
offers such a diverse array of fascinating monsters. If you write them with
genuine affection and respect, it turns out great.
Me: Andy what the hell man it’s 5 am. What’s with the noise?
Andy: I gotta do my crossfit
Me: did you even sleep last night??
Andy: I haven’t slept in 5 days. Only crossfit
Me: jfc go to sleep how are you not exhausted
Andy, chanting: crossfit crossfit crossFIT CROSSFIT CROSSFIT
Yeah, ok, but… what the hell did Gil do for 100 years!? Bake cakes!? Join the mafia!? Write a book!?– O….O oh my god… what if he wrote down all his adventures with Oz and Alice to help keep his story straight and remind himself they’d be coming back and-
why are cis ppl so obsessed with the surgery anyway
the only people who are gonna be between my legs are the people im fucking and low and behold, if im into them enough that i want to fuck them im gonna tell them whats what. i dont need some 65 year old dude awkwardly trying to correct my genitals to be perceived as a male by society. my issue is with how other see me, not how i see me. i know who i am, i trust who i am, i can look in the mirror and see a man because thats what i am.
like jfc why do i need to keep “f” on my drivers license until i have a penis. you think the traffic cop about to bust me for speeding gives a shit whats in my pants?????????????????? why????????????? go to hell
its the fucking rest of ya’ll who got a problem with it so yeah id like broader shoulders and a beard so its not an issue anymore