Note to self: stop rushing forward. You are right where He wants you to be. Whatever or whoever it is that you’re waiting for right now in this moment? Trust Him. Trust His timing. Trust His plan. Because He’s got this, love. He’s got this, and He’s got you, and you are right where you are meant to be. Now, lean into Him and enjoy where you’re at today.
Dean was yelling at Mary, telling her about how he hates her. And he keeps using examples including his brother’s struggles.
Sam lost the girl he loved.
Sam was tortured in hell.
Sam was possessed by Lucifer.
Sam lost his soul.
And then I realized. Dean was abused and traumatized and broken down so many times. He knows that what he went through is fucked up. He might not recognize the severity, but he’s not stupid. He knows his life was never fair to him.
But he’s still more angry about Sam’s trauma than his own. He still thinks Sam is more important. To his mother. To the world.
That makes me really sad.
Looking back I realize that Jesus didn’t just save me once all those years ago on the cross. No, He is still saving me, even now.
He saved me when I was struggling with addiction, drowning in sin and shame. He saved me when I absolutely hated myself and wanted nothing more than to give up and be done with this life. He saved me when I thought I was too far gone, too wretched to be saved. He saved me when my heart and soul were as black as the night and cold to Him. He saved me when I thought He had forsaken me. He’s saved me, I’m sure, more than I even realize.
Don’t you see? Jesus is Savior, and Jesus is good. He’s the only way to the Father. He’s the only One truly capable of saving us-not our efforts, not our achievements, nor any cheap, temporary thrill this world offers can save us. Only Jesus.
And don’t you know, He’s so, so faithful? He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will never fail you. Even if you’re just that one, little, wandering sheep, He’ll seek you out, because you’re that precious to Him. You may think yourself too sinful, too dirty, too wretched, too far gone, too worthless; too this, too that.
But don’t you realize? He came into this world to save the sinner, the weak, the dirty, the wretched, the lost. He came to save you. Yes, you.
So, won’t you come to Him? Can you hear Him calling?