Differences in perspectives... emotions... but still about quality
So baby face is out and he’s all… pissed off sitting in the car…
“What the fuck? How come nobody sees me when they look at me? Huh huh?”
He’s punching the steering wheel. I’m all out here by myself doing this weird god forbidden exercise that I have to do alone! And I don’t understand any of it! Not one! I just want my regular face back. I want everyone to see what I see when I look in thr mirror"
The angel of guiding light said that I said to call. And so Jeremiah and I had talked because the angel had notified us and we all decided for him to give compliments back
“Alright I’m calling this bitch and Jeremyuh ohhh and he thinks he’s getting this shirt back he’s rudely mistaken!!!! All I got here is $25 and a quarter what the fuck?! I didn’t bring my wallet or my shoes! Not anything! ‘Here here’s $25 and a quarter call me when you can! Oh yeah well I’m calling fuck you too!”
He storms to the payphone muttering to himself how he was all alone and nobody cares and we are supposed to!
“Hey I’m calling you guys back now! What the fuck? I’m asking people! And I hear oh all I see is your eyes or your mouth or your torso and if I hear I’m fat one more time I’m going to punch someone! All I want is my face back! Can I speak to the angel please? I mean what are we doing here?”
Jeremyuh said he would be right there and drag me along too but he told him pay compliments until we get there. So we waited an hour
And we went and I had to get out of the car first cause baby face McGee had cashed in $5 for all quarters and was blowing our phone up! Man he was pissed!
So I get out and he’s all “you ugly fat bitch! I’m supposed to pay you a compliment? Well there! That’s it!”
Well I walked over to him and said “well you’re not ugly”
“But you say I’m fat?”
“You’re a little pudgy I can admit that”
Oh he was lit he wanted to punch me so hard! Jeremyuh jumped out and said “we’ll quit! We’ll quit!”
“Alright all I want is my face back! Like right fucking now! Right fucking now!”
Jeremyuh and I start laughing
Knowing how Jesse would see it my laughter was scarcely controllable
I mean seriously it was the adult twisted version of “hey I stole your nose kid! Want it back? I’ll give you a quarter!”
So I gathered myself up, spun in a wide circle behind Jeremyuh and took baby face’s fist “but did you feel it?”
“It was just a joke man!!!” Offered Jeremyuh
“Quick call Brian and tell him to come down here he knows the punch line he said it this morning before I went downstairs to see Jeremyuh and his face”
Baby face had calmed down because I had my work face on Brian nearly always has a work face and we can always trust him. I never did jokes on my own and neither did Jeremyuh and so this was all new to baby face
It was the time that Brian learned to get a sense of humor and to quit being so negative… and say honest good things and to enjoy a good joke no matter how taboo it seems
Baby face really took us as his family seriously and he never really sought his full potential for what he wanted out of life. He was too secluded at home.
Jeremyuh was always playing his game but he learned to set an invite by placing a plugged in controller next to him on the floor we had to entice baby face little by little Jeremyuh would move the controller to invite him in like trying to hand it to him.
I spent more time in baby face’s room and cleaned it when he was home instead of at work and told him where I was placing things so that he could have communication and I asked him if I could do stuff. Alot of times he slept
Brian and I spent a lot of time in our room and even ate in there most of the time.
So we started having dinner together as a family. Especially on weekends when nobody was thinking about apprehending criminals all day long
And I went to the closest school on special assignment to meet friends so they could come over to our house and we could all be downstairs introducing new ways and new people into our life.
And so as Brian drove to the little convenience store on the corner by our house I had baby face touch and feel his face to see if it was there.
Jeremyuh felt baby face’s face and then his own and said it felt the same
“Oh great now I look like you!!!!” Poor baby face he really was into black magic
So I said “I feel my eye”
“But that’s the socket” he said when I touched my face
And I rushed close to him really fast “And I feel YOUR eye socket”
So I did his whole face and more than once if he insisted on a specific part like he didn’t feel that I touched his entire forehead and so I promised him his face went back to normal and I had him feel my face and Jeremyuh’s saying yours and mine. While Brian stood idly by. And I gave baby face the black magic power
“Brian could you please tell Baby Face the joke?” I asked when poor baby face was finally getting it
“I’ll be delighted! The punch line right?”
I nodded and smiled I loved my family so much but we were a straight up mess… but they made love come straight out of me. Compassion as deep as the ocean… we all did for each other even if sometimes we didn’t notice it.
And poor Brian… luckily he’s smart… or quick anyway, back in those days “hey I got your nose kid!”
He stood there stunned while Brian made a fist of his empty hand tucked his thumb into his fingers “i got your nose!”
Baby face McGee stood there shoulders drooped mouth hanging open.
Brian swatted him with his newspaper “look alive kid!”
And boy he did… he took shuddered deep breaths and he stood up to his friend
“GIVE ME BACK MY NOSE!!!!” And attacked Brian’s hand for it
“Gotta wrestle for it!” And boy baby face McGee wanted that nose back something awful he let go “I WANT IT BACK!”
Brian opened his hand “there you go”
Baby face McGee looked wildly for it “where… where did it go?!”
“It disappeared I didn’t want it”
I just stated laughing I couldn’t help it it was so dumb and he was so serious
Baby Face McGee took a swing at my solid husband who leaned back and said “woah”
They’re all trained to react that way.
Jeremyuh shouted “baby face no!!!!”
And Jeremyuh grabbed baby face by the shoulders and swung him to face the opposite way and baby face grabbed him in a hug and cried
I shook my head to Jeremyuh to not let him be hugged
“Get off kid” he said while pushing baby face away it was hard for Jeremyuh as he also had tears in his eyes
“Hey we’re just playing” answers Brian when baby face looked up stung, shocked and hurt
And then the angel and Jeremyuh said it was my turn. I was so rooted to my spot having moved there to make sure Brian didn’t get hit.
I walked to baby face quickly and wrapped him a big hug from behind him. I asked him to please look at his friends he said “no! I’m crying”
I lifted my head to Jeremyuh “he said no! I’m crying! Would you please?” Amd I pointed to his eyes and gestured in front of baby face’s face… then I covered baby face’s eyes “I feel your tears as a mommy”
“No you’re not a mommy! You’re just a friend and a bad one at that! You’re just a house cleaner and get off my face! It’s mine!”
Brian got angry for baby face to talk to me that way and he stormed over and demanded I uncover baby face’s eyes. I did as asked “now look I’m mad!”
And stood and swatted Jeremyuh with a news paper “Jeremy it’s your turn!”
“Alright cover my eyes and make sure they aren’t yours and they stay mine”
Jeremyuh was happy sad it was funny still but depressing and strange and sad. He had a very mixed look on his face. One we had never really seen.. he always had his face into the TV and he had acne scars that seemed to bother him more often than not. And he wished he had as beautiful clear skin as baby face and he said that and added “I will always look old but you will always look young”
I didn’t know that Jeremyuh felt that way about his skin and for him to say it to his friend a deep dark insecure secret, it made me bury my face in baby face’s neck with tears. Baby face turned around surprised and I coveted my face just in the exact same manner as he did … so if there was a dust storm and something blew into my eye.
“Let me see you are you okay?”
I nodded and I said “i didn’t know that Jeremyuh felt that way about his skin!” And I gave Jeremyuh a hug who doesn’t like to be touched… and he pushed me off. “Stop stop I don’t like anyone hugging on me”
Baby face was surprised and pleased “he did the same thing to you!” And he pointed at me
“Yeah yeah Jeremyuh doesn’t like to be touched and that’s okay and you want your nose back” I touched the tip of his nose “there it’s back” and “there that’s mine” I touched the tip of my nose
And so like a random plastic surgeon I felt Brian’s nose and said “hey I took your nose kid want it back?”
And finally he got the joke
And Jeremyuh grabbed him by the shoulders and looked into his eyes “thanks for kneeing me in the groin kid I know that if anything ever happen when we are on the street you can hold your own”
He said a weepy but smiling blushy “thanks you know I got you”
“And I got you what Sabrina said when I looked into your eyes just now I saw two very deep black holes leading down into your very soul. Now it wasn’t fair what Sabrina did but she did it because she cares. She doesn’t want you to be afraid of us. You’re always staying in your room ‘no I got work’ but when I ask you how your cases are you say “fine”“
Baby face got angry then he said that that’s what Jeremyuh told him too!
"Well if you’re going to get pissed off I’m going to get pissed off too! I gave you in quarter! You call one time that’s it and you cashed in 5 dollars and left it sitting here in quarters? That’s your money! Am I important to me? You betcha! And I’m important to you! Otherwise I wouldn’t had that money to give back to you!”
Baby face wanted to call me a bitch the whole time I spoke
Brian said that it was time to go.
We all piled in our cars i went with Brian
Jeremyuh got $20 from baby face because I was a horrible bitch. And he went to the video game store to buy an extra game controller
Baby face got in his car and finally the angel spoke to him, while we all listened “she gave you all that money because you’re more important than a quarter if she had given you only the quarter that’s all you would had had to spend but instead she gave you quantity and you chose quality. I hold you in my arms and I give you the greatest gift - of all time - my patience. It was just a joke you had your face the whole time! Nothing ever changed! Your face is yours and only yours to keep forever! No one would take that from you”
Gold baby face was so angry! “Yeah you fucking did! All you fucking did and I hate you!”
“Poor baby face now what am I going to do with this twenty dollars? Oh I know I’ll buy a new game cube controller! He likes my game he’s always watching it and he asks to play so we switch off but it would be better if it was two players!”
Meanwhile Brian is steaming that baby face tried to punch him and insulted me. So I took his hand and I cried and I said “baby face is our friend. He’s supposed to cook tonight but let’s order pizza”
“No!! Hell no! Absolutely not!”
“Okay then when I get home I’m leaving you in the car to a moment to yourself”
“No! No you’re not leaving me in the car! I want to make out!
"Then we can get the pizza?” So what? Then I whored myself out to get my friend a night off from cooking. Hell I probably saved the whole house he was so angry he probably would have poisoned us!
Jeremyuh had covered the tube of pore cleanser with black electrical tape
It took us awhile to get baby face to calm down but Jeremyuh told him to open it up and see what it truly was
“But it was white! This isn’t the tube!”
“Hey you can have it. Try it on yourself when no one is looking..try rubbing it if you’re afraid.. they ordered pizza tonight and I told Sabrina to make sure it was pepperoni so we can call me pizza face from now on. And Brian told her no way in hell was she ordering pizza but when I drove up they were half naked and practically fucking to calm Brian down and he still said no so she’s paying the $30 for the pizza from her own money”
“But she never pays for anything! And always she asks if she can spend it and you give it to her!”
“Because that’s hers! And i.. i…” he started to cry… “baby face I’m sorry” and he covered his face “she whored herself out for pizza! I’ll pay”
“No I’m no whore your my hubby,” I moved to sit next to baby face on the couch, I always sat on the ottoman and Brian in the chair, baby face got the couch and liked to lay down and him and Jesse took turns laying on the floor by my feet or on the couch “look baby face this bottle is white it’s covered in electrical tape”
Baby face asked could I sit by him while we ate. I looked around the room and I asked Brian “you come sit here and Jeremyuh on the floor or the other chair”
And I let Brian pay for the pizza… with a little help from Jeremyuh.
After that we found out what a kitchen table is used for… only Brian was the ome who always/ever used it in the morning for his cup of coffee and morning paper usually while I slept or watched TV unless it was the weekend.
One day chubby baby face McGee said “I’m tired of being fat! Let’s get rid of the kitchen table and put in a home gym!”
Brian started to argue.. I led them away from each other cause they were both lit to fists.
“Let’s try eating dinner on it like we are supposed to”
Ironically baby face who had a tendency to emotionally eat started losing weight because he was happier
And of course he blamed my black magic.. the same kind that stole his face!
But eventually the angel reveled what she had been showing him that his face was indeed missing just in his head. In the mirror it was fully there. And he studied himself long and hard and payed himself compliments that he wanted to hear.
But it was the same ones over and over and the angel had said nice things that he had never noticed like his ears.
So one evening we sat long into the night saying things that we thought negatively about ourselves.
I never felt anything negative about my body. So Jeremyuh said to say something inside that sometimes hurts me or bothers
“Sometimes Jeremiah I feel I don’t love baby face enough, he needs a ma, a stable person in his life to give him love he die a not ask for, sometimes Jeremyuh for you, I feel… I sense your stability all the time and it helps me alot and I feel I don’t do enough to repay you. Jesse you and I are alright. Brian sometimes I feel I don’t have enough patience for you”
And I spoke honestly and from the heart and suddenly Jesse started to cry, then Jeremyuh, baby face said “what the hell?!” And started crying up too when he saw Brian getting misty eyed
So I went to jesse and gave him a hug and then Jeremyuh and Baby Face then to Brian my husband in the order that they all started to cry
I sat down I felt so much lighter “Okay who wants dessert?!”
Then Jesse tried to bully baby face into not getting dessert because he was going to take it all
And baby face was all teary and pouty
“Jesse you will get yours last then” I told him
Baby face was surprised and watched me very angry and protective over his pie, carefully to make sure that Jesse didn’t try to take it
I took like a fifth of the pie… it looked like it was bigger than anyone else’s but I didn’t want to wash another plate
Brian got up and got me a plate “no you’re not doing that”
Which made everyone laugh
And then Brian helped me wash the dishes that night while Jesse sat on the kitchen counter and gabbed eventually he helped dry and put away we had a dishwasher but it was a nice family time.