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Jerry’s an insecure coward who wouldn’t know how to be a leader if leadership bit him in the ass.

But I think Morty and Summer would be better off with him than Beth. Beth is more than willing to ignore her father’s wrongdoings in order to keep him. She’s willing to give up therapy b/c it makes her confront herself and her father in a way she’s uncomfortable with. And she doesn’t want to think of her father as anything but intelligent and amazing.

Rick is killing this family. With him around these kids don’t have a chance to have a normal life and they’re all coping horribly. Morty most likely has PTSD which may have caused some incontinence. Summer is getting high. Beth and Rick are alcoholics.

Jerry isn’t amazing but he’s the only one questioning his children’s safety with Rick. He’s the only one standing up for them in that regard. I get it Beth doesn’t want Rick to go again. She’s afraid and she’s clinging to anything he gives her.

She was so fucking excited to just go drinking with him. That’s how low Rick has set the bar for her…she’s so thrilled to just have some drinks with him.

Beth isn’t capable of doing whats right for her kids right now. Jerry on the other hand would. He’s a chickenshit that needs to learn how to stand up for himself and his kids better but fuck.

I hope Jerry gets those kids, I really fucking do.

anonymous asked:

Ahh~! I loved your little angsty drabble!! :D Could I request some jealous Rick? Maybe how guys keep hitting on his girlfriend & he gets jealous and pouty but you make it clear to him that you're his and only his? Just an idea, I'm fine with any jealous Rick idea you got ;)

Okay so this wasn’t exactly like your idea but it was in the general ballpark. Trying to break out of this writer’s block is hard as hell so I hope you like this! I’m so, so sorry it took so long ;;

Jealousy, an emotion you felt on more than one occasion. You hated feeling that way and you knew it was stupid. More times than not you’ve felt jealousy flow through your body when it came to Rick going out on his adventures with Morty. You knew they often went out together and sometimes it was days before they ever returned. You figured the jealousy you felt was because of all the time Rick and his grandson spent together. You wish you could spend a lot of time with Rick.

Today was no different as you sat on the couch, arm propped up on the arm as you rested your head against your hand. The tv was on but you were paying it no mind at all, you sort of just drifted off into your own thoughts as you stared at the tv stand. That was until Summer plopped down on the couch beside you, jolting you from your thoughts. You looked over to see her, of course, on her phone as usual.

“Why are you looking so sad?” Summer asked as she locked her phone and set it down beside her on the armrest of the couch.

“Huh? Oh, no reason..” You mumbled out softly as you extended your leg to very gently kick at the leg of the coffee table.

“Uh huh. It wouldn’t have anything to do with my grandpa, would it? You always seem so down when he and Morty are out.” Summer smirked a little.

It was no secret to the kids that you and Rick were dating. Beth and Jerry, on the other hand, were none the wiser and just considered you as a good family friend. It was actually rather amusing to you that even Rick doesn’t know that the kids found out about your relationship. You could easily play this off as boredom if it was Beth or Jerry but Summer was anything but stupid and could always read you like a book.

you puffed out your cheek in mild annoyance before sighing and looking over at her. “We aren’t spending a lot of time together these days and I’ll admit I’m starting to feel a little jealous that Morty gets to go out on all these adventures with him when I can hardly get a simple hello from him. It’s like I’m not even here anymore. It’s a chore to get his attention..”

It pained you to say it out loud but it was true. It felt like Rick was slowly slipping away from you. It was getting harder and harder to gain his attention in you. You felt as if he had become bored with you and that feeling always left a bad taste in your mouth and a huge lump in your throat.

“Well then let’s make him pay attention.” Summer grinned mischievously and you raised an eyebrow at her and tilted your head.

In that moment there was rustling and noise coming from the garage and Summer stood up, nodding her head for you to follow. You got up and followed her into the kitchen where the door to the garage was slightly ajar.

“So you gonna come with me to this party? Please, please come with me. There will be some older guys there. You might find a date~” Summer beamed happily and loudly enough for her voice to travel into the garage.

Morty opened the garage door more to step into the kitchen, he walked past you both with an exhausted ‘hello’ before trailing upstairs and who was following him into said kitchen? Rick. He walked right past you and Summer and opened the fridge to grab a beer and you felt your heart sink into your stomach. He didn’t bother saying hello. He just leaned against the counter top and drank his stupid can of beer.

“So you’re going to come with me tonight right? you could find the guy of your dreams!” Summer smiled widely and Rick side glanced at the two.

you scratched the nape of your neck before sighing. You weren’t sure what Summer’s end game was but you decided to play along anyways. “S-Sure. I’ll go with you. I don’t have any plans anyway.” You smiled sweetly and you could hear Rick scoff from behind you.

“So you’re going out to a..a…a teeny boppers party? You, you ever think Summer might be you know.. UUUGH using you to gain popularity?” Rick growled from the counter and you wanted to grin but you decided to look at him and give him the coldest expression that you could muster.

“She isn’t as heartless as you.” You said giving Rick a small wink before walking away.

“Party’s at 7!” Summer called out to you.

Seven O'clock rolled around and you decided to go with a nice casual look but still enough to show a little skin. It wasn’t your intention of going to the party to hook up with someone. You and Summer knew all too well that Rick would take the bait and follow you both in secret. You knocked on the Smith/Sanchez door and Jerry opened up the door.

“Ah, nice to see you. You here to pick up Summer?” Jerry asked as he sidestepped, letting you walk into the house.

“Yup!” you smiled happily as you seen Rick look back from where he was sitting on the couch. He let out a rather annoyed sigh and your stomach filled with butterflies. Summer’s plan was already working and you haven’t even left yet!

“We’ll be back around 1~” Summer Chimed happily and Jerry started to look rather concerned.

“That’s a little late.” He looked between the both of you.

“Don’t worry dad, I’m not going to be alone.” Summer walked over and placed a hand on your shoulder before walking out the door, you soon following after as you said goodbye to Jerry and Rick. Even though Rick hardly responded at all.

Closer to the end of the night you were sitting on someone else’s couch, drink in hand although you hardly touched it. It seemed as if Summer’s plan backfired. There were 0 signs of Rick anywhere. Maybe he really didn’t care? Was this how it’s going to be from now on? The thought made your stomach turn a little bit.

You were ripped out of your thoughts when you felt an arm sling around your shoulder, your attention snapped to the person who was invading your bubble to see a drunken male wobbling in his seat, clearly extremely drunk. Summer was right there were older guys here, just not the one you wanted to be here.

“Could you take your arm off me please..” you mumbled lowly.
“Why? What’s the big deal? You’re very pretty.” He smiled.

He seemed pretty harmless. He wasn’t holding you tightly or anything, he was just one of those over happy drunks and it wasn’t in you to be very mean to people so you accepted the compliment with a small smile and a “thank you.”

The male had stayed like that for awhile as you both talked. to be honest, you had forgotten his arm was wrapped around your shoulder. You guess a part of you just wanted to feel close to someone, even if it was a complete drunken stranger. You both talked about a lot of different things like how you knew Summer, how old you were, and why you were here without a date.

You don’t know why but you told the drunken male about your relationship with Rick, without using his name of course. You didn’t want to embarrass Summer. You stressed your feelings and that’s when the male leaned in further towards you, he pressed his lips against yours and you immediately jerked back.

“Whoa..” you raised your hands up so that they came in between you and the male.

“What’s the problem. your boyfriend seems like such an ass-HEY!” The drunken guy slurred as he was yanked up from his seat.

You looked up and to your horror stood Rick. Rick was gripping the other males arm so tightly you thought that a small simple twist would break the poor guy’s arm. Rick looked pissed beyond all belief.

“What the fuck do you think you’re doing?” Rick growled as he glared at the drunken male.

“Just- Just having some fun old man. No, No harm.” The guy sputtered but wenced out when Rick twisted the guy’s arm.

“If, If, If I were you I’d seriously consider finding someone else because this one here is mine.” Rick huffed and you felt heat rush to your face when you heard him call you his.

Rick let go of the guy and the drunken guy stumbled away holding his arm tightly. There were a few eyes on you but you didn’t care. the only ones that mattered were Rick’s. you had to admit, seeing him become defensive over you made you want to leap off the couch and kiss him but you knew better.

“And you. What the- what the hell do you think you’re doing!?” Rick glared down at you and you felt as if you had sunk into the couch a little more. You didn’t want to cause any more of a scene. Rick, of course, sensed this and grabbed your hand tightly, yanking you up before going outside.

Once you were outside Rick pulled you into him, wrapping his arms tightly around you. You were a little confused at the sudden action.
“Look. I know I haven’t been that great lately- Been busy a lot but don’t ever do that again… I was here from start to finish you know.” Rick said softly, his hold tightening a little bit. “When I saw you with that guy it made me so pissed off, I wanted to punch that asshole in the face. I don’t want anyone else to touch you like that-I don’t give a crap if it was innocent or not. You’re with me and me only. I don’t like to share” He growled as he thought about the memory and that’s when you finally hugged him back. He did care and that made you happy.

Where She Went


pairing: daveed diggs x reader

summary: daveed and reader were high school sweethearts who had a bad breakup before they both left oakland. four years have passed and fate (and a well-timed cello concert) bring them face-to-face.

warnings: swearing. that’s really it.

word count: 2,504

a/n: day three of @hamwriters write-a-thon is lit day :-) based on the novel “where she went” by gayle forman which is actually a sequel to “if i stay” but i do what i want. this is in Daveed’s POV because the original book is in the guy’s POV, and i’m planning on posting a second part on POV day so be on the lookout for that. okay love u happy reading

“Ladies and gentlemen, thank you for flying with us today and enjoy your time in the Big Apple.”

Daveed unclips his seatbelt as the other passengers begin to file off the plane, standing to grab his carry-on from the overhead compartment. It’s the only bag he packed, because he’s only in the city for 24 hours. Tour starts in two days, and his manager had all but physically forced him onto the plane to NYC.

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Succumb. (Jihoon Smut)

for the anon who requested this! sorry if it’s not to your liking jafhdakfbakjdfbadsf im so sorryyyyyyyyyyyyy but he looks like a fucking kitty here omg. btw i kinda got carried away because i have a thing for fem!dom and like idk why i just do. there are parts where he is completely out of character but then again this is a work of fiction. :) i just fucking hope you guys like it, i don’t know what happened anymore, just oh god. i don’t know if this is enough because i’m not satisfied and idk how chastity shit works hbfkjsbfskjfg so enjoy!!

word count: 7.1k holy shiiiiiiiiiiiiit.

disclaimer: so this kinda has mommy kink and stuff. sorry not sorry.

also i guess things will get kinky?!?!?!?

-admin kate x

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Time for another C-920 Smith family picture! (Nanny AU)

Eggplant IS part of the family afterall, and sometimes he’s a ‘huge’ help as well.

Caught Up In You 7

Pairing: Eggsy Unwin x Reader

Warning: Swearing, Stalking, Angst, Sass, Anxiety, potential life of death situations. I’m not really sure. But it’ll have cute fluffy pieces too.

A/N: I did use an old 90′s song, as the ‘song she wrote’ for Eggsy, about having a crush on someone and being confused on what to do. It fits perfect when it came on my pandora.

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……wait just a darn second

i just privated my post about bigender dean & mary because i realised i made a very big mistake

i was really happy but now i’m REALLY UPSET AND CONFUSED

let me go through it again

i was under the impression that this bigender symbol

was the same as what i was seeing here

which IT IS NOT





i’mma paste what i wrote when i was happy and have it mean the opposite thing, why not:




and that on the right is the female half of the heterosexual symbol over one bed. (over the other bed there’s the male half). to the left of this shot, three piles of fabric (including the pink in the fold-out bed) make up the bisexual flag.

WHY THE MIXED MESSAGES HUH??? (almost like the director said “let’s make a room that says ‘everyone is straight’” and the set designers were like “let’s make it blue/purple/pink to counteract that” THERE’S A FUCKING WAR GOING ON IN THIS ROOM GUYS)


fuck you robert singer, i don’t like your heterosexual motel room

A/N To the sweet anon who requested the other Ben imagine, here ya go :)

Summary: Reader was separated from Benjamin a while back and then taken in by Rick and the others, she think’s Ben is dead until she sees him in the kingdom 

Warnings: Mentions of death kind of ??? Idk that’s to be expected in twd 


“Holy shit,” you laughed, a wide grin on your face as you looked at the tiger that sat next to a man on a throne, King Ezekiel you supposed.

“Jesus! It pleases me to see you old friend!” The supposed king exclaimed, a large smile on his face.

“It pleases him indeed,” a larger man who you guessed was supposed to be a jester. The king held up a hand,“Jerry.” You hadn’t yet realized who the boy in between them was, not getting an extremely good view of him as you stood behind most of the group, even if you did have a good view you were staring at the tiger.

“Tell me, what news do you bring good king Ezekiel. Are these new allies you have brought me?” The man on the throne questioned, causing you to look up at him.

“Indeed they are, your majesty. This is-” Jesus paused as he turned around, taking notice of their shocked faces. “Oh, right, I forgot to mention-”

“Yeah, the tiger?” Rick stopped him, glancing back at him. Jesus gave an apologetic look before turning back around,“This is Rick Grimes, and these are some of his people.” They all began to walk forward, some going to stand in between the seats, while Carl, Tara, Michonne, Daryl, and you stayed standing behind Rick and Jesus.

“I welcome you all to the kingdom, good travelers. Now, what brings you to our fair land? Why do you seek an audience with the king?”

It was only then you realized who the person standing next to the king was.


One of the three who had helped you survive before Rick’s group had found you. You had been split up from him, his father, and little brother by a large herd. It was too late when you realized you’d run the opposite way as them. Three months of you looking for them had passed, that was when Rick had found you.

They had been your family ever since, after you’d come to terms with the fact that Benjamin was dead.
It was hard, as the two of you were so madly in love it hurt to think that he had become a walker. You didn’t realize there were tears in your eyes until Michonne gently grabbed onto your wrist, eyebrows furrowed as she followed your gaze. “Y/n, what’s wrong?” She muttered as Rick talked to Ezekiel. You shook your head, unable to mutter anything other than his name,“Benjamin.”

Benjamin noticed you as well. Once he looked over your group as you walked in, he took note of how similar you looked to his y/n, the one who had died quite a while ago. He couldn’t look back at you, it hurt too much.

He didn’t look back until he noticed you staring out of the corner of his eye, and saw how your eyes glistened in the light. He knew it was you.

When the failed conversation was over and you followed the group out of the building, tears drying against your cheek. Michonne paused, grabbing ahold of your arms,“Hey, who was that back there? Why were you crying?”

You sighed,“Do you remember the people I told you about? The ones I was with before we got split up and you guys found me?” She nodded. “That was one of them. Benjamin. I thought he was dead.” Her eyes widened slightly as she stared at you, until something caught her eye behind you. With a confused look, you turned around, seeing Benjamin standing about twenty feet away. His eyes widened as he realized it really was you, he wasn’t just imagining it. Without realizing it, your feet had begun to run in his direction, as did his. You jumped onto him, arms wrapping tightly around him.

“I thought you were dead.” You sobbed, holding him tighter than you ever had before. “I thought you were too! We looked, but we couldn’t find you.” He said, tears dripping out of his eyes and onto your shirt.

“Where’s Henry and your dad? They’re okay, right?” You questioned, pulling back with a concerned gaze.

“Uh, dad died when we fought against the saviors, Henry’s okay though.” He spoke quietly, eyes glancing down. “Oh, Ben. I’m so sorry.” Benjamin shook his head, grabbing onto your face and pulling your lips in to meet his. Your hands gripping onto his shirt as you sighed into the lips you never thought you’d feel again.

You heard a cough, causing the two of you to jump and look in the direction of the noise, seeing your group staring at you with amused and questioning eyes. You laughed nervously,“I’ll explain later. Give me a minute, please? Just wait at the gate for me.” They hesitated, but nodded, beginning to walk away. “Don’t take too long,” Rick smirked. You brought him back to your lips, giving him a short kiss. He leaned his forehead against yours, eyes staying shut.

“Stay here, y/n.” He muttered. Pulling back just slightly, you glanced away with a sigh, before looking back at him. He was staring at you with begging eyes, the same eyes he would use on you to get whatever he wanted. You caressed his jaw,“I can’t, Ben. I wish I could, you have no idea how bad I wish I could… but they need everyone they can get. A lot of people I care about have died because of the saviors, and I’m not going to stop until he’s dead.”

He wanted to argue, you knew that, but you also knew he wouldn’t. Benjamin could tell by the sound of your voice that you wouldn’t abandon them. A single tear fell out of his eye, but you wiped it away,“I’ll come back, when this is all over. I’d say come with me… but it’s too dangerous for you and Henry. I don’t want to risk losing you again. At least with you here I’ll know your safe.”

“As safe as you can be in a zombie apocalypse.” He said, a small smile on his face that told you he understood. You chuckled, nodding. “I better get going, we have an asshole to kill.”

Benjamin pressed his lips against yours once more, pulling you in for a hug,“I love you, please be as safe as you can out there.” You squeezed him one more time,“I love you, too. Tell Henry I love him and miss him, alright?” He nodded, and the two of you parted, hesitantly walking away.

“Oh hey, you have got to tell me how the hell he got a tiger!” You called out with a laugh, causing him to laugh too.

“When you get back!” He promised, smiling as he watched you laugh once more before turning around and jogging to the gate where your group was impatiently waiting.

“Got yourself a boyfrien’, y/n?” Daryl smirked, causing you to playfully glare at him. Michonne laughed, looking at you,“Don’t worry, I explained to them who he was.” You gave her a grateful look as you all climbed into the car, attempting to prepare yourself for all the teasing you were about to receive. You didn’t complain once though, not really, as it just reminded you that he wasn’t a zombie.

He was still alive, and no amount of teasing would ever tear that bit of happiness down.

Benjamin Imagine - Sweet Secret

After the reader finds out that she’s pregnant, she fears Ben’s reaction and starts avoiding him until he confronts her…


Originally posted by glennsnotdead

The moonshine fell through the window as you sunk deeper into the sheets of your bed.
You heard Ben’s slow and constant breathe next to you as you slowly turned around to look at him. Under normal circumstances you wouldn’t retain to lay your head on his chest and cuddle close to him but the circumstances simply weren’t normal, at least to you.
You still saw before your inner eye the first positive pregnancy test laying in your hands, the second, the third.
And every time you tried to not believe your eyes even when you deep down knew that those test weren’t lying, as much as you wanted them to.
And every time you thought about it you had the same questions in your head that began to terrorize you more with every time they showed up.
How should you raise a baby in this world?
Were you even mature enough to be able to give a little human being everything it needed?
Could you protect it from any danger this world had?
Could it ever grow up without having to fear to lose everyone around them?

You had taken the test about one and a half week ago and since then, those questions didn’t leave you alone.
You had realized that you could never prevent this baby to be born, not because you didn’t have the stuff here, but because you had already developed motherly feelings for it and it was Ben’s baby you were carrying .
And with that the biggest question in your mind build up more.
Would he want the baby?
You had never talked to him about kids, that’s nothing you had have in your mind until the moment you had to realize that it was a bigger matter than you ever thought it would be.
You knew how loving he was, how much he cared about you but you didn’t know if the panic when realizing that you were pregnant would overwhelm him and let him make decisions you didn’t even want to think about.
You would have to tell him someday at least when your body would begin to show that you were pregnant.
You looked at Ben’s relaxed sleeping face before he moved towards you in his sleep and you felt his warmth coming closer.
You felt guilt coming up in you, not only about not telling him, but also about being unapproachable to him since you knew about the baby.
Every time he touched you, every time he leaned in to place a kiss on your lips, every time he told you he loves you made you want to just run away.
The fear in you that he could leave you once it was out, made you act unapproachable even when you tried to overplay it.
But you knew that he was noticing your different behavior.
He knew you too good to not see it and he began asking you what was wrong you just brushed off while you tried to avoid eye contact to him.
You hated lying to him and you felt like you were betraying him. You turned around again, looked outside the window knowing that also this night wouldn’t offer much sleep to you.

As you woke up in the morning, after roughly two or three hours of sleep, you found yourself laying in Ben’s arms, his face close to yours.
You felt the guilt and fear coming up in you again, motivating you to slowly free yourself out of his arms before you sat up on the corner of the bed.
You were glad that at least the morning sickness that had started shortly after you found out about your pregnancy and which was already problematic to hide  seemed to not be present today.
”(Y/N)?”, you heard Ben drowsy ask before you felt his hand stroking softly over your back creating a shiver that run down your back.
You hastily stood up, swallowing as you looked at him.
”Are you okay?”, he asked as he sat up and looked concerned at you.
”Yeah”, you said nodding before you rushed over to the wardrobe and pulled clothes over your body.
”(Y/N), somethings wrong, come on, please let me know when something is bothering you”, he said while you felt the panic increasing.
”It’s not, I got some work outside”, you said trying to escape the tightening feeling that created around your chest.
”It’s not even six, Ezekiel-”, Ben said looking from the clock to you.
”Yeah, I know but I rather finish it now when not everyone’s outside yet”, you said cutting him off as you pulled a jacket over your body knowing that this time your lie wasnt the strongest one but once you were out of the room it wouldnt matter anymore.
”Bye”, you said before Ben could even respond and rushed out of the room.

You began doing your usual work, feeling like the biggest asshole ever for leaving him that way, but you hadn’t known how to help yourself on another way.
The whole morning and forenoon, till the first people began to leave for lunch you kept working, trying to distract yourself from the thoughts in your head.
You finally made your way over to the dining room and entered as you knew that Ben wasnt inside.
You got your food and sat down next to a few others, put a mask onto your face and tried to smile to not let them see what was actually going on in your head.
After some time, they left to go back to their work, leaving you alone again with your thoughts.
You felt a lump creating in your throat as your head began to pound by the thought of Ben leaving you and the baby, the tears you had tired to hold back came up and you felt how tears began falling down your cheek as you looked down to your hands.
You suddenly heard Jerry coming from the kitchen while humming a happy song. You hastily wiped your tears away and looked up to him.
“(Y/N)?”, he asked still happily before he seemed to see your slightly red eyes.
“What’s wrong?”, Jerry asked concerned as he walked towards you and sat down.
“Nothing”, you said trying to not let him see what was actually going on in your head.
“I see that you’re lying (Y/N),…Bens also worrying about you”, Jerry said as he placed a plate with cobbler on the table.
“Did he send you?”, you asked still looking down on your hands.
“No, but we’re friends (Y/N), so I do care about you too”, Jerry said sitting down, he sounded unusual serious.
You swallowed, looked up to Jerry and breathed out.
“Promise me that you won’t tell anyone, especially not Ben”, you said nervously playing with your hands.
“I promise”, said Jerry while he ate a spoonful cobbler and you still struggled with yourself before you finally raised your voice.
“I’m pregnant”, you said swallowing.
It was out.
Even if you didn’t know if you should be glad about it your worried.
“But that’s great!”, Jerry responded suddenly smiling widely.
“No it’s not…”, you said while your voice cracked while you felt tears coming up again.
“Bu-but why?”, Jerry asked bewildered.
“I-I’m not sure if Ben wants the baby…”, you said swallowing.
“Of course! Why wouldn’t he?”, he asked still a bit shocked about your reaction.
“We’re still young, he already has to take care of his brother…and..a baby in this world-”, you said not being able to finish the sentence through the lump in your throat becoming even bigger. 
You saw Jerry reaching out his hand to stroke over your arm before he raised his voice.
“He loves you (Y/N), he’ll love the baby too…and you have to tell him, he deserves that…you know that too”, Jerry said in a seroius and still concerned voice.
“Yeah”, you breathed while you swallowed hard knowing that one day you wouldn’t be able to hide it anymore anyways.
“I’m gonna, but I need some more time”, you said looking at Jerry who slowly nodded.
“Okay, Im gonna be as silent as a grave”, he finally said.

The dusk was already set in while you walked through the streets of the kingdom as you saw Benjamin coming around a corner.
You felt the panic packing you again that made you turn around before he noticed you.
You were ashamed for yourself and your reaction, you normally were a strong person but the thought of losing him messed your mind up.
You walked hastily down the street into the other direction while you heard Ben’s footsteps coming closer and faster, before you saw out of the corner of your eyes how he walked next to you.
”We need to talk”, he said while you felt his glance on your body.
You didn’t know what to respond, so all you did was keep on walking.
“Alright, what’s wrong with you? And don’t tell me there isn’t because I see there is!”, he said completely serious before he stopped walking.
You stopped as well and turned around while you felt cold shivers running down your back, your heart pumping against your chest knowing that you couldn’t escape anymore.
“I-I..”,you began to stutter but you didn’t get a word out of your mouth. You looked at Ben who looked swallowing back, his eyes filled with pain as he raised his voice again.
“I dont know what to do anymore…I just…is there someone else? Are you being that way because of that?, he asked, his voice trembling, knowing that he had to be extremely churning to have the suspicion of you having an affair. 
"God no, Ben there is no one else than you, I swear”, you said swallowing.
“Then please Tell me what the real reason is”, he said almost begging.
If you wouldn’t tell him now, you would risk losing him, probably more than telling him your secret.
And with that you had made your decision.
“Ben…I…I’m pregnant”, you said looking at him even if you were scared of how he would react, but instead of saying something he just walked towards you and pulled you into his arms.
“God (Y/N), I thought I would lose you”, he muttered into your hair while tightening his hug.
“So did I…I thought you might leave me”, you said still trembling but hugging him back before Ben backed away to look at you.
“I would never leave you”, he said looking into your eyes before continuing.
“We’re gonna make it, it’s not gonna be easy but I know that we can do it together”, he said cupping your face with his hands before leaning in to kiss you.
For the first time since the suspicion of you being pregnant had come to your mind you could kiss him again without feeling anything but good.
“I’m sorry I did that to you, I’m sorry that I doubted but I was just scared”, you muttered against his lips as you slowly let go of each other.
“It’s okay, It’s okay as long as you promise to not ever think that I’ll leave you and our baby”, he muttered back while you felt how your body filled with even more warmth.
“I promise”, you answered before you felt how Ben laid his hand on your belly and stroke softly over it and a wide smile created on his lips.
“I love you both”, you heard him mutter as he looked up from your belly.
“I love you both too”, you answered looking smiling back at him.
And with that, every doubt was gone and even though you knew that a hard time was ahead of you, you knew that together, you both would turn these hard times into good ones with your child.