Ahhh! It’s finished. If for some reason this image shows up super blurry, it’s because Tumblr is being weird on my phone. Anyway this thing is a beast and it’s hanging here waiting to get sprayed and cut and framed.
Please believe me when I tell you I am trying, for you, I am trying every day to be better.
I’m learning to love myself so that when you hold my face between your hands and whisper that you love me, I believe it.
I am using every ounce of my strength to accept that I am worthy. That you won’t grow tired of battling with my insecurities or worse still, that you won’t wake up one day and see all of the things I dislike about myself.
I am trying to accept that I deserve someone like you.
So please don’t give up on me, not just yet. Keep making me feel like I am fixable, like I am not completely broken. Because with you, it makes sense, this fucked up world. And with your hand inside mine, I don’t feel so terrified of it, of myself, of my reflection.
But the one thing I am terrified of, the one thing which sucks the air from my lungs and makes me ache in places I didn’t even know I could ache, is the thought of losing you. Of being too broken and too impossible.
I did the art for the comic “Religion”, written by Jennie Wood. This is part of an anthology entitled Baroque Pop inspired by the music of Lana Del Rey. The producers make similar anthologies based on different music groups (previous editions have been about Queen, Tom Waits, etc.)
The book is done - you can order the comiXology version or physical copy through the kickstarter page here:
We have discovered a terrible and very deadly disease of the trees in our forest!! (and apparently in forests all over Holland!, possibly all over Europe?!… maybe even…the World!?) It’s a terrible and always FATAL disease which strikes both the young and the very old trees around this time of year (in the months before official spring starts)… first the afflicted trees develop strange and very ugly orange spray painted spots, then within a short time the sound of chainsaws is heard and the tree dies completely… even the corpse of the poor patient simply disappears leaving behind deep muddy tracks as if a giant destructive machine just came by and willfully destroyed a part of the forest…ahem… This disease is unstoppable with any form of medication except ofcourse removal of these “death marks” (although quite often the marks re-appear again within a very short time!) this happens because ofcourse the orange spots are only the outward symptoms of this terrible disease… the ACTUAL disease is ofcourse caused by a deadly bacteria named “Homo Sapiens Sapiens” and their suicidal policy of “Economy über Ecology” **
Sadly no known cure has been found against this particularly vile disease BUT we are working to find a good remedy!! hopefully a solution will present itself soon ;)
Greenthingz and the healing power of musick! Shaman SteveSic (pic by Sic)