At the center is salon owner Desna (Niecy Nash), who lives with and cares for her mentally ill twin brother, Dean (Harold Perrineau). Desna’s staff includes best friend Jennifer (Jenn Lyon), a tenuously sober ex-party girl raising two children from previous relationships; Quiet Ann (Judy Reyes), Desna’s enigmatic driver who also provides security for the salon; Polly (Carrie Preston), a mild-mannered preppy who recently served time in prison for identity theft; and Virginia (Karrueche Tran), who makes no effort to hide her boredom and impatience with her job. Adding chaos to the Nail Artisan mix is Roller (Jack Kesy), a gangstered-out redneck who runs a barely legal pain clinic and uses Desna’s nail salon to launder the obscene profits; Bryce (Rankin), Jennifer’s husband who is also newly sober and trying to stay legit by working as an abundance coach; and Dr. Ken Brickman (Jason Antoon), a bona fide doctor at a decidedly un-bona fide and illegal drug clinic.
Claws series premiere coming June 11, 2017 on TNT!
Here’s a much more flexible diagram of Hogwarts/Ilvermorny house overlap than the rudimentary one I made on iPhone Notes a couple of days ago. My friend Jenn Levine expertly crafted this! It allows for some much-needed flexibility for, say, Ravenclaws in Thunderbird or, Hufflepuffs in Wampus.
I fully realize that JKR on Twitter has said there is no correlation between Hogwarts and Ilvermorny houses. I won’t argue! But, based on the initial writing, these traits still match up for me closest in this way. I’m thrilled that this idea should look so clean, and really just have my friends to thank. Jenn, and everyone else for their support on this.
Venn design by Jenn Levine, based on a theory by Eric Scull.
Summary: She feels like they’re on two completely different planets and after a while, she gets tired of Ashton shrugging off any concerns she has about their relationship. They love each other, but the message gets lost in the days.
Boy: Ashton Irwin
Warnings: swearing, fighting??
A/N: this is an angsty one my friends. please let me know what you think!! I’m getting back into writing with the help of my friend Jenn who motivates me. PLEASE SEND REQUESTS Its always more fun when people ask for them!! I’ll gladly write anything (although i havent written smut yet) and I enjoy it!
Tears traced translucent black lines down her face. Her eyes were red-rimmed and bright, staring directly into his own while they stood. She was speaking low and firm; her words were deliberate. Ashton wanted to look away from her but he couldn’t. Her gaze commanded him to look at her. He desperately wished he wasn’t in this situation and started to reflect on how he even got there in the first place.
It was a few weeks prior, a Monday night, and they had just finished dinner when she stepped away to take a call.
“You’re engaged? That’s so exciting.” He could hear her voice from the kitchen. Despite her words, she didn’t sound very excited at all. In fact, she sounded tired.
“I really am happy for you Jen. That’s so great. He’s a great guy.” Her words were hollow sounding and when he glanced her way he could see her expression was tired and a little despondent.
“Yeah I’ll talk to you soon. Congrats again!” She called once more into the phone before hanging up and sighing.
She collapsed next to him on the couch and leaned her head on her shoulder. “What’s up darling?” He asked.
“I’m just,” she paused, “I guess I’m just feeling a little troubled.” She chose her words carefully.
“About what?” He prodded with caution.
He turned to face her as she sat up. She turned her body so she could look at him directly. “I guess—“ Her face was scrunched up as she decided how to phrase what she was about to say. “Where—uh, where do you see us going?”
He started to grow nervous. “What do you mean?”
She started picking at her nails, suddenly feeling shy under his gaze. “I mean, where do you think we’ll be in the next six months or year?”
He thought for a moment before shrugging. “I’m not sure. I mean I haven’t really thought about it.”
Her face fell and she nodded, turned away from him and returned to the kitchen to wash the dishes.
In hindsight, he realized how bad that answer was.
He could hear her bounding around in their shared bedroom. She was crying just loud enough for him to hear as she tossed anything she thought she’d need into some bag. He couldn’t believe how stupid he’d been. How had he been so absent minded?
She approached him about a week ago. Ashton was typing away on his laptop while she sat down next to him.
“Hey baby.” She greeted with a kiss on the cheek.
“Hey love. How’s it going?” He answered, setting aside his computer to give her his attention.
“I’m good. I just wanted to see my lovely boyfriend.” She beamed at him.
He chuckled. “What do you want?”
She bit her lip before grinning. “A dog?”
He shook his head before answering. “Very funny.”
“No really. What would you think about adopting a dog together?” She was giddy with excitement.
He sighed slightly. “I don’t know, love, they’re kind of a big responsibility.”
Her smile dropped a little bit it returned as soon as it left. “I know but I think we could do it. We’re responsible adults and we can make it work.”
He shook his head again. “I just don’t think it’s a good idea. Dogs are kind of a big step. I mean, I don’t think we’re ready.”
She felt her stomach plummet. “Really?”
“Yeah, it’s just people adopt dogs when they’re ready to settle down and stuff and I just don’t think that’s where we’re at.”
“You don’t?” She mumbled.
“We’ve been dating for nearly a year. Excuse me for thinking that we might be ready to settle down.” She shook her head while standing up, exiting the room without another word.
She was walking away. Her figure was moving towards the door of their apartment with a large bag throw over her shoulder that was overflowing with necessities. Ashton was panicking now. He didn’t want her to leave, but he wasn’t doing anything to stop it. Inside he was screaming. ‘Say something!’ He thought. ‘Do something!’ Soon she would be gone and if he didn’t stop her, he knew he’d lose her forever.
Things had been tense since last week. He was reading a book in their bedroom when she wandered in and leaned on the doorframe. He set down the novel when she cleared her throat. There was a long silence where they just stared at each other.
“Are we just wasting time?” She finally asked.
She’d caught him off guard. “What?” He responded a little confused.
“This. Us. Our relationship. Is it actually going somewhere or are we just filling the time? Because I really love you and I like the idea of marrying you someday but if this is just temporary for you then tell me, Ash.”
He was so shocked by her candidness that he couldn’t even think. “I, uh, I mean I just, uh—“
“Do you love me?” She cut him off.
“Why would you ask me that?” He answered immediately.
“Answer the question Ashton. Do you love me?” She repeated.
“Yeah,” He responded.
“Say it. Out loud. Say you love me.”
He approached with open arms. “You know I do.”
She pushed him away. “No, I want to hear you say that you love me.”
“Because,” her voice was louder now, “I can hardly tell anymore! You don’t think about our future, you don’t want to settle down, I can’t even remember the last time you actually told me.” By the end, her voice was shaking.
“Where is all of this coming from?” He was raising his voice now.
“I don’t want to waste my time with someone who doesn’t love me back. I don’t want to keep falling in love with someone who doesn’t want to put effort into their relationship.” She was crying now. Her tears were big and heavy. Her voice started to turn hoarse and she was soaking her sleeves with the excess water dripping from her chin and cheeks.
“But even though you just keep showing that you really don’t want this, I can’t help but think that maybe you do. I want to feel burning flames and passion flow into my bones when you say my name. I want a life with you. Just tell me you love me and you actually want this and I will wait until forever for you.”
He didn’t move. He didn’t speak. He didn’t do anything. He just stood there and watched her fall apart in front of him. He wanted all of that too. He really did. He didn’t have an excuse for not answering. He knew exactly what to say to make this better. But for whatever reason, he couldn’t speak.
“Do you have anything to say?”
His thoughts screamed at him. ‘Yes! Yes!’ they shouted.
She sighed, defeated and marched past him to their bedroom.
Now they’re here. This could very well be the last time he sees her if he doesn’t act now. She gripped the doorknob in her hand. She turned around, about to say one last thing to him but he spoke up first.
“I love you.”
The room was dead silent for a moment.
“I love you so much.” He starts again. “I love the way you dance in the kitchen to really bad music and I love how motivated you are and I love how you love me.” He took a few large strides towards her and grasped her hand.
“I want to get married and I want to get a dog and have a couple kids and buy a house and give you all of the things you deserve but I can’t because you deserve the world. I honestly can’t believe you even put up with me for so long. You are far too good for me and if you walk out that door right now I will understand but I plan to love you until the end of time because you are so perfect that I could never find anyone quite like you ever again.” He was in tears now.
She was crying too. The bag dropped to the ground and she threw her arms around his neck in a tight hug. He nestled his face into her neck, smelling her hair and relishing in the feeling of her arms. He was home with her. He was home when she was around. Wherever she was, he wanted to be.
She pulled away just enough to look at him. “I love you too.”
Ashton smiled and kissed her gently.
When they pulled away, she looked at him again with a grin. “Can we get a dog now?”
this photo was taken on the mt. galbraith trail in golden – our first hike together in colorado. it was our third visit, my first out there. it seems an appropriate throwback to help me share that come august, denver, colorado will be my new home!
as my friend jenn said to me recently, change is the only constant. how right she is. i’ve navigated plenty of change over the last few years, some good, some bad, some neither. but this one – a new habitat – has deep roots and has been a long time coming. inklings of restlessness and a desire for new challenges and a different life landscape began to surface years ago. in fact, among other ideas being thrown around, i was considering a potential job opportunity in boulder around this time in 2014. then life got strange. i’d be lying if i said the idea of leaving and starting over didn’t enter my mind during that time and feel appealing. but i knew escaping wasn’t the answer, my support system was here, and that when i did eventually make such a change, i wanted it to be on my terms and for the right reasons.
last spring, i let those thoughts return. i wrote about it a lot – how i was ready for something different and feeling confident that i was in a place where decisions were truly mine, not reactionary. there are many journal entries turning the whole thing over. reflecting on the positives of my life here [family, friends, work i care about, mountains, beach] and seeing that while i was ready, i would still need a strong reason to go.
late last summer, i met john in an airport and it wasn’t long before the relationship we were unexpectedly building became a strong reason to go. the straw, the catalyst…whatever you want to call it, it was clear.
though he was very willing to move to north carolina, given all of the above, a move to colorado was what i wanted more. and so i am doing it! i started putting the wheels in motion soon after returning from thailand and pieces are beginning to fall into place.
many details are up in the air, but the rough plan is to take some time off after wrapping up here to be with my family and move my self + stuff to denver [with john as co-pilot]. then we hope to take a road trip to camp + backpack out west before i settle into a new city.
i wish i could adequately express how overjoyed i am to be opening this new door, both for myself as an individual and for us. i have been craving this challenge, unfamiliarity, and fresh perspective for a long time. i’m glad i’ve put in the work to strengthen myself and culled the patience not to jump before the time was right. as for us, i am constantly in awe of how this relationship has brightened my life. and i’m thrilled that we can soon be fully present for it all the time and continue to grow.
“No, I’d rather pretend I’m something better than
These broken parts
Pretend I’m something other than
This mess that I am
‘Cause then I don’t have to look at it
And no one gets to look at it
No, no one can really see”
(feat. lyrics from “Words Fail” from the Dear Evan Hansen musical because she told me she really liked this song once - i hope this make you feel better my love!)
so my friend Jenn has been writing a novel for the past three years that is going to be debuting soon (!!!!), and seeing as she recently finished posting her character profiles, I thought as her official editor, I should offer my own interpretations of her characters :3
The Amazing Captain Casual is a very fun story about a superhero, a sidekick, and a supervillain who are all the worst possible people to be fulfilling those roles, yet somehow they manage to team up to save New York. so if anyone’s been curious about the posts I’ve been reblogging about it, these are the effectively editor’s notes! every single one of these are actual things I have said to her in the process of editing lol