Your few weeks alone with Jensen had been magical, especially the last few days where you had barely left the house - or put on clothes for that matter. Jensen made you feel loved and he made you smile. A lot more than any man had ever done. You didn’t feel as if you had to try to be someone else around him like you had with Keith. You didn’t for one second feel as if he wanted to change you or that he loved you for anything else than exactly who you were. The only other person you could remember ever feeling this relaxed around was Danneel.
Even if you loved your alone time with Jensen you missed her and you knew that Jensen did too. According to Jensen who spoke freely about her around you, they hadn’t been separated for this long since they started dating. As much as you loved hearing him talk about her with as much love in his voice as you felt for her in your heart, this whole situation was still weird to you. Being alone with Jensen nonstop had made you almost forget that there were anyone else in the world. Except for when you talked of the woman you both loved, of course. Still that felt different than the thought of having to face her and the world. There was still so many things the three of you needed to figure out. Jensen and Danneel were getting married in a few months and you had no idea where you fit into that if you fit at all. A part of you couldn’t help but fear you were just something they wanted to try. Something that they would get over soon and probably be tired off by the time their wedding came close.
But I ain’t got a million, and I ain’t got a speed plane
I ain’t got no boat upon the sea
All I’ve got is two strong arms to hold you so tightly
So, baby, won’t you, won’t you please come back home with me?
Lyrics to If I Had A Million, by Pat Green. This is the first song Jensen played for Danneel. (He said this at the gold panel at Vancon today.)