woke up, probably because I felt really sick and I knew it won’t be long until I
throw up. I looked at my phone and noticed it was 4am. I realized I was in
Rafinha’s house not in my own, which was bad, because I hated throwing up in
other people’s bathrooms, also he would probably hear me.
Then I saw
a text from Neymar, “I knew you shouldn’t have come. You feel better?”
What is it
with him? He hates me, gets angry with me for no particular reason and then he
cares for me as if he is a totally different person.
I was about
to answer but I had to run in the bathroom. Thankfully, there was one just next
to this room and I was on the third floor of the house so I hoped Rafinha would
not hear me.
What was I
thinking when I drank all those tequila shots and some other drinks that Dani
bought in the club? I regretted everything, the entire night.
anything?” I heard Rafinha behind my beck.
“I woke you
up, sorry.” I said not knowing how to talk with him, since he was angry with
I’ll go get you some water.” He said and walked down in the kitchen. I was so embarrassed,
being a mess in front of him. A total turn down.
walked back inside the bathroom and sit on a footstool that was in the corner
next to me. He grabbed my hair and pulled it back.
need to be here and watch me regretting every single drop of the alcohol I had.”
leaving you alone.” He said, but still with that serious voice which rather
sorry if what I did or said tonight upset you. I was not thinking.”
have to get on her level, she doesn’t know you so everything she said was
bullshit and you had to ignore her.”
this kind of a girl Rafa. If someone hates on my friends I won’t be quiet,
maybe I’m not the girl you want me to be.”
maybe I am not the one you actually want.”
said that, I felt even worse and of course threw up again.
“Is it the
truth?” he asked when I put my head back up.
Neymar, am I missing something?”
“I… I don’t
know Rafa… to be honest I don’t know what I want at the moment.”
I felt so
bad, because I knew he wanted me to answer differently, but hiding my feelings
for Neymar would make everything worse.
“I see.” He
didn’t say anything more and I felt as if I just lost our friendship.
I was there
for another ten minutes, both of us in silence. I hated it. I decided to go
back to bed, I did feel better so I laid by myself, but could not really sleep.
My thought were avoiding my desire to get some decent rest. Neymar and Rafinha
were the only thing on my mind; I could not think for which one I have bigger
feelings. I wanted both of them.
three hours of sleep, I was woken up by the sunlight. I looked at the time and
it was 10am. I walked in the bathroom to wash my face, still feeling gross from
the vomit, I wanted to go home, get under the shower and sleep until all this
drama is over.
I said as I walked down the stairs and noticed Rafinha on the sofa.
thank you for taking care.”
home now.” I said as took my things.
“Okay. Hey (y/n)
listen about last night. I think it’s obvious that for me you are not just a
friend, and I see that you are not indifferent to Neymar… however I’m not
rushing you in to anything.”
confused about how I feel. I like you I really do, but I also like Neymar and I
need time for myself to see what I want.”
“I get it,
I’ll wait. Until then I hope this won’t affect our friendship.” He said and
finally smiled at me, which made me feel much better.
said as I place a kiss on his cheek, glad he understood me.
When I was
finally home and I took a nice long shower I went on my bed and took my laptop
out to see what is going on in the world and my social media.
I was followed
by many people since I was spotted multiple times in Neymar’s snapchat and some
Rafinha Instagram photos or just some leaked pictures from different moments we
I saw there
were some photos and short videos of Neymar dancing in the club and photos of
us sitting at the table, but gladly the did not capture the moment when I was
on Rafinha’s lap.
was when I remembered I did not answer Neymar’s text message. However, I did
not know what to say to him. He was the one who confused me the most.
know it all, next time I won’t embarrass you. I’m better yeah.”
not. I’m glad, you still with Rafinha?”
“No, I went
home. You still with the blondie?”
sending that text, I regretted the fact that I just showed him how jealous I
is on the left side of my bed.”
hope she filled your needs.”
jealous can you get? I never took her home.” Somehow, when I got this text I
“I’m not jealous
of anyone; I have no reason to be.”
I decided not to answer him. I didn’t like this aspect of him, he was much more
aggressive and acting like a fuckboy, which was not the Neymar I firstly fell
I was so
sleepy that I took a nep which actually lasted for two hours. When I woke up I
called my best friend and asked her if she would go grab a lunch with me, since
we had to gossip a little.
new?” she asked once we got to our table.
officially part of a love triangle.”
me guess Rafa and Ney?”
mean, Rafa admitted his feelings, however you know I like Neymar, but he is
being a total duchebag and confusing me about what he actually feels for me.”
“And who do
is the problem. I want both of them, I can not decide. I mean, Rafa is the
perfect guy he takes care of me and yesterday we almost kissed, but then again
when I see Neymar talking with other girls I get jealous and I can’t decide.”
just got me a preview of your own soap opera.”
“Funny. I really
don’t know what to do.”
Neymar know how you feel?”
not, but we were always talking and I guess it was clear that I was not being
just a friend, but these days I am having second thoughts. He is not being the
same guy I liked.”
to pick one. I mean, don’t force yourself in to it, but I think something will
happen and that will make you realize which one is the one your heart wants.”
“I hope so.
I just want it to happen soon.”
chatting for some time, I went back home. I watched Gray’s Anatomy and without realizing,
it was already 7pm.
a McDrive?” it was a text from Rafinha. I agreed to go, however I did feel more
anxious about it then I used to. Maybe for what happened, maybe because I felt
as if this was a date and not just a friendly hang out.
“Pick me up
in fifteen minutes.”
I did not
put any makeup on my face, since he already saw me on my lowest and he did not
care, he also said I look much better naturally.
said once I got in to the front sit.
to be honest I do not even have a hangover. You?”
but I had a headache in the morning. Hungry?”
I laughed and picked up a song on the radio. “I love this one!” I said as I
noticed Justin Bieber’s song “What do you mean”
dancing to it and singing it. Rafinha was laughing at me, and I felt so happy
to see that what happened last night was behind us already.
sing this one to you,” he said, since the song was about a girl that was indecisive.
Maybe you should, I would love to hear you!” I said joking, because it was the
best thing to do, to avoid the drama talk.
after I get my fries.” He winked when we finally arrived and made an order.
drove all the way to a beautiful place with a view on the city. It was amazing.
We got our food out and talked about last night and how tomorrow I will have to
go work and he will be there for his therapy.
sang, he showed me a new Brazilian song and he went out of the car and started
dancing around making his own choreography. I was laughing so much I cried so
then I walked out of the car and joined him. We were dancing under the stars
and I was happy.
dancer” I joked once the song stopped.
haven’t seen everything just yet.” He said and walked to the car to pick a
song, Perdido en tus ojos.
my hand and started dancing with me closer as ever. He really was a good
dancer, rolling me around and enjoying every move we made. I was having fun and
laughing, because he made some funny moves.
song finished he said we better stop, since we just ate and he does not want to
see me throw up once again. We went in the car and we had to go back home,
because we both had to wake up early.
it was one of the best dinners I ever had.” I joked once he stopped the car in
front of my apartment.
“I mean it’s
hard to beat such a charming dancer as me.” He joked.
totally. Good night Rafa.” I said and kissed his cheek and walked inside.
I was so
happy, I enjoyed every second with him. Maybe there was not much to decide;
maybe he was the one I wanted.
Moi? Jealous? Of you? Gurl, please, gimme a break. Just letting you know not to get too gassed, my darling, that’s all. Have a little *originality* (o·rig·i·nal·i·ty), and give *thee actual* FKA Twigs her name back. Now consider yourself DRAGGED!