jays musings

Cause I Never Wanted (Chicago P.D.)

Title: Cause I Never Wanted

Fandom: Chicago P.D.

Rating: T/PG-13

Author’s Note: This is set in the immediate aftermath of 4x17. 

A neatly folded quilt is pressed into his arms, and he tries to offer the blonde woman standing before a grateful smile. Tries to convey his appreciation for her letting him crash here, for her putting out freshly fluffed pillows and neatly ironed sheets on the couch despite the assumptions she’s making about why he’s here. Assumptions that cause her reminder about the bathroom being just down the hall to sound clipped and short thanks to the anger and solidarity she’s failing to suppress.

And, yet, he still tries to convey his appreciation. Tries to repress the thoughts in his head – the dark ones, the kind that sneak up on him when he least expects it – long enough to make the corner of his lips pull upward and mumble words of thanks because he knows his brother probably sprung this on her. Knows he doesn’t deserve Nine Shore making sure he has ironed sheets and enough blankets or offering him a sad smile as she reassures him that she’s sure he and Erin will work it out.

“An apology does wonders,” she offers with her characteristically bright smile. Any other night and he’d have to bite his tongue to keep from telling her to run. To stop pinning her hopes and dreams on a guy like his brother because women who smile as she does, who see the world as glass half full deserve more.

Tonight, though, his tongue sits loosely in his mouth and his hands remain empty of any proverbial stones he might cast. And yet his head still nods slightly even as he casts his gaze downward because he hopes she’s right, hopes that the woman in his life believes in that, too.  

“Thanks, Nina,” his brother pipes up. The words, the interruption forces his gaze from the flowery pattern on the blanket in his hand to the other side of the room where his brother leans lazily against the door jam. Forces him to watch as Nina crosses the room, gratefully takes one of the three open beer bottles in Will’s hands, and leaves the two of them alone in the living room.

“So,” Will draws out as he moves over towards the made-up couch, “Erin figured out who Abby was and kicked you out, huh?”

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“Paris is good. Nice call, Monsieur.”

“De nada, muchacha.”

Thank you for 100 follows! Needless to say, I miss these two real bad and I have for around six years. DC writers are pretty sadistic ya know that? Then again, I guess I might be too.

Because who has time or money to read almost 30 years of relationship development…

Under the cut: Look Over Your Shoulder, a monologue recap Fanfic: Fluff/Humor/Angst. DC Rebirth. Wally’s POV. Warning: Mention of the grief typically associated with Alzheimer’s. Also I cried while writing this. Story set to this song.

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Where You'll Find the Founding Fathers.
  • Benjamin Franklin: having a pool orgy
  • George Washington: fixing the two party system
  • Alexander Hamilton: in a tent in the library
  • James Monroe: stressing because he accidentally has two jobs
  • James Madison: drinking apple juice and playing with Legos
  • John Adams: fighting with congress
  • Thomas Jefferson: riding John Adams as he fights with congress
The Founding Fathers as Inside Jokes between me and @sunshineapollo Pt. 1
  • Benjamin Franklin: Cock Strip Club
  • George Washington: Politely Stabbing
  • John Adams: That bloody Robespierre face
  • Thomas Jefferson: Bird Robespierre
  • John Jay: Maxime owns Antoine’s ass
  • James Madison: Maxime drinks Antoine’s tears
  • Alexander Hamilton: The Beheading song: I knew you were trouble
  • James Monroe: Robertsperre and Anthony-San Just

margoshkas replied to your post “late night/odd timezone people, what is the one fic you wish you could…”

bruce wayne, in his fifties, finally retiring as batman and passing the mantle to one of his kids ( they can duke it out tbh ) and finally thinking that, yes, peace. but his aggressive type a, control freak personality pushes forward with a vengeance so he pulls off a bloomberg and becomes mayor of gotham city and fucking implements the shit he wants to implement so all the austerity measures he put in place could actually work and that gotham could actually be safe

You know I’d read the shit out of this already. you think up some g8 stuff.

hydraerai replied to your post “late night/odd timezone people, what is the one fic you wish you could…”

Damian and Jason getting along during Jason’s time in the league of assassins. Then later, when Damian is robin, Jason and Damian having a bunch of inside jokes with each other in Arabic that just leave the rest of the batfam confused.

This is a great idea mate, I’m all here for Jason and Damian as close brothers. They make such logical sense, DC wasn’t even planning it but they have so much in common????

  • what she says: i'm fine
  • what she means: why is everyone so mean to popplio he is just a sweet innocent pastel baby sea lion and deserves so much more look at his squeaky little honker nose and big ol floppy paws and that soft neck ruffle like what do you think that it's made of?? is it skin????? a lot of fluffy puffy fur??? who knows but i'm here for him...... what a nice nice boy

pridebled  asked:

❤ + ❥ ?

( outofcharacter; I always love and adore your oikawa? he’s just so developed all of your writing and headcanons you come up with, it’s just amazing to see the level of dedication and interest you’ve given to him. Not to mention your writing is just so fluid and easy to understand and comprehend, you have lots of verses for Tooru as well, which is is important to develop your character in different settings and plots, just all around stellar.

( outofcharacter; let’s go with @quiestmemoria . Salice as a character is just a step above all else, you don’t see heavily mint-eye affiliated muses and when you do usually they aren’t as in-depth and as detailed as Jay’s muse.  aes posts, headcanons, and different verses she simply does it all, which all contribute to Salice’s characterization in general which is an amazing thing to see. there’s so much to salice that is so different than your typical mc, she’s strong, bad-ass, will and can kick your ass && take you down in any drinking contest. i love salice s o m uch 

mi voice POSITIVITY!!!!! accepting

Send me a ❤ and I will say something positive about you.
Send me a ❥ and I will say something positive about someone random.


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Rules: Say 5 things I like and tag 10 people

5 things I like:

Greasers/grunge punks, One punch man, Deadpool, super heroes, magical girls.


@nemovonsilver @staticthepegasus @little-red-rabbit @ask-the-saxopone @ask-the-french-olive @ask-bluebell-forest @akamarulover @mawee @jay-muse @fawndon

(There’s a lot more people I’d tag but these are the first to come to mind as in Ive talked to them recently lol)