this is what I need at the moment, so I wrote it in hopes of living vicariously through it
moment the door to Jared’s trailer finally closed, the forced smile slid off
his face. He was drained. These last few days had been some of the hardest,
filming-wise, in so long. Sam’s
headspace was not a good one; the Cage was utterly daunting. It was one thing to play Sam coming back from
Hell, but to act out the torture and the remembrance of that torture was taking
its toll on Jared’s own psyche.
had done well at hiding it so far – being an actor did have its advantages –
but he could only keep it up so much longer. His breaking point was inching
down into a chair, Jared let his head fall back, lightly thumping against the
wall. He tried to focus on his breathing
and his heart rate, the rhythmic sounds allowing him to get lost and away from
the rest of the world. That didn’t last
long, however, as there was a knocking on the door and a voice going, “Five
minutes until set, Jared.” He kept his
eyes closed, suddenly aware of the pounding just in the front of his head as
though his brain was trying to break through and escape his very thoughts and
before he knew it the pinprick of tears began to sting behind his eyes.
Jay, we gotta go,” came Jensen’s voice, startling Jared so much that he rushed
to sit up, hair falling in his face, eyes wide, and legs jerking like a newborn
fawn. Pushing his hair out of the way,
he cleared his throat and stood up, hoping to get out of there as quickly as
let’s go,” he choked out and straightened his clothes. He tried to walk by Jensen with confidence,
but a rough hand wrapped around his forearm, stopping him in his tracks. By instinct, he looked directly at Jensen and
immediately regretted it.
was always able to look right through him, just as he was always able to look
through Jensen. It was both a blessing
and a curse.
what’s wrong?” Jared wanted to curse
under his breath, wanted to scream at the top of his lungs, but instead those
tears, which had only been stinging the corners of his eyes, began to fall. There wasn’t much time to dwell on that
though because he was suddenly pulled into a strong embrace, a callused hand at
the back of his neck and an arm around his midsection. He sucked in his bottom lip, trying to keep
its quivering at bay as well as the sobs threatening to tear their way from his
throat, and sunk into Jensen’s arms. “We
can be out of here and on our way home in under ten minutes, Jared. I’m serious.”
Okay it’s story time! (I promise there is a reason why Jared is never doing the same thing as us.)So my friend and I went to TorCon 2015 and decided to split a J2 op. We walked up to the boys and I explained that we wanted just big hugs and silly faces. Well…. Turns out Jared didn’t get the memo (or has the listening skills of Thomas) cause when we went to get our print …. Jensen,Me and my friend look like goofs and Jared is smiling adorable off to the side.
My friend and I laughed it off and we promised that the next con we’d go to we’d ask for a do over or something.
Well we couldn’t wait a whole year so we decided to go to JaxCon (which was flippin amazing !)
While we were in line for our J2 op … Clif came over to talk to us. He saw that we had an old op printed out and asked what we were doing. (Clif kills me.. He’s so funny)
Clif: “what are you guys doing?”
Me: “ Well we got this done at TorCon and we were inpatient… So we hopped on a plane to get a do-over.”
Clif: *raises eyebrow* “what do you mean?”
Me: “ Clif, look closely … Who’s the only person smiling in this picture?”
Clif: “Hahahahahah Oh my God.. Jared is such an asshole! ”
*all of us started laughing*
Me: “Yeah, we’re going to tell Jared that HE needs to look like a goof now.”
Clif: “this is gonna be good!”
We walk up to the boys and show them the pic..
Me : “ So we wanted to redo this picture but the complete opposite….This time we’re going to be smiling and *i look at Jared* you’re going to be doing a silly face.”
Jensen laughs … Jared’s confused (muffin I love him so much.. Anyways)
Jared: “wait what? What am I doing?!?”
Jensen: *points to us three* “WE’RE smiling … And YOU’RE *points to Jared* doing a S I L L Y face !” *rolls his eyes at Jared and smiles.
Jared: “OOOOH okay ..silly face ..I got this.”
We thank the boys and walk away… And Clif stops us
Clif: “ Shit! I forgot to watch! Did he do it ?!”
Me/Friend: “ Hhaha we hope so!”
Clif: “I’d laugh if he was doing the same face as before! If so I guess I’ll see you at TorCon.”
We said bye to Clif and went on our way……. Once we got out op we were so happy. Jared nailed it ❤️