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A new addition to my SB swag collection from the states because for some reason it was cheaper to get it from there (??)

SB looks so fit on the front cover it’s not even funny. Looking forward to hearing his sing songs in CD quality. and yes I used my dog as a table. 

Despídete

Gente hermosa, he aquí mi primer one-shot en español. No sé si lo sabían, pero cuando escribo mis historias siempre lo hago en ingles, entonces hacer esto fue un desafío tremendo y no sabía qué esperar. Me sentí un poco ridícula al escribir en español porque fue como escuchar a un dibujo animado hablar (o por lo menos, no fue escucharme a mi misma), pero también sentí que me costó mucho menos encontrar la palabra precisa. Bueno, cosas del primer idioma, supongo!

Este one shot está inspirado en una hermosa canción de un grupo español llamado “Ella Baila Sola”, y la canción (de la cual saqué el título para esta historia) es Despídete. Hace muchos meses que tenía esta idea presente pero no me decidía a hacerla porque no sabía si había gente que hablara español que siguiera el blog y tampoco me sentía confiada de escribir en español (cosa ridícula, yo hablo español!)

Es una historia de Bucky con la… lectora? Reader? Ay, ya no lo sé! No sé cómo funcionan estas cosas en español, pero por si las dudas, (T/N) es “tu nombre”, (T/A) es “tu apellido” y (T/E) es “tu edad”. Y ahora sin más preámbulos, les traigo la historia.


Despídete, es el momento de decir adiós 
Recuerda que los que se quedan no lo pasarán mejor 
Y te das cuenta que es más fácil esperar 
que alargar el camino que más tarde nos va a separar

(T/N) cerró su maleta, la misma que había traído cuando recién se había mudado junto a James. Quiso extender el inminente final lo más que pudo, pero en cuestión de un segundo o dos, ya había llegado al otro extremo del cierre. Suspirando amargamente, bajó la maleta al suelo y se dirigió al baño a sacar los pocos productos de belleza que aún no había terminado de ocupar. Ella también decidió que era un buen momento para deshacerse de los envases vacíos que había dicho que iba a botar o para algún proyecto, pero que finalmente solo sirvieron para juntar polvo.

Luego de llevar la maleta hasta la entrada, se sentó en el escritorio y tomó unas cuantas hojas para intentar escribir una pequeña nota. Sabía bien las palabras que debía usar, puesto que las había ensayado varias veces en su mente. Tenía la imagen mental de escribir esa nota, pero sus manos no podían moverse, mucho menos tomar el lápiz. Gruñendo ante la imposibilidad de escribir, volvió a dejar las hojas y el lápiz dentro del cajón.

“Dios santo, (T/N),” se regañó, “que no puedas siquiera escribir un par de palabras.”

La idea era escribir para no tener que enfrentar la verdad. Si bien era peor para la persona de quien se despedía, para ella resultaba increíblemente sencillo y práctico no decir adiós. Sintió entonces la necesidad de tomarse una taza de té. Mientras más se quedaba en casa, más le dolía irse de ella; era como si las paredes quisieran retenerla lo más posible.

De pronto, se escuchó la llave abriendo la puerta, y entonces (T/N) supo que no había vuelta atrás. Con solo oír ese sonido, las palabras se anudaron en su garganta y su respiración se agitaba. Las despedidas no eran su fuerte y claramente esta no sería la excepción.

“¿(T/N)?” La voz de Bucky llamó desde la entrada. “¿(T/N), estás aquí?”

Ella no pudo contestar, pero el sonido de la tetera a punto de hervir lo condujo hasta la cocina. Bucky llevaba una chaqueta de cuero que ella le había regalado dos navidades atrás, cuando aún no eran nada oficial. Desde ese entonces que era una de sus prendas favoritas y la había usado tanto que el cuero ya estaba un poco desgastado. Él se apoyó en el marco de la puerta, cruzando sus brazos y esbozando una sonrisa hacia una afligida (T/N). La saludó de nuevo, pero al ver que no hubo respuesta de su parte, se acercó más para ver qué ocurría.

“¿Cariño, qué ocurre?” Bucky preguntó, llevando su mano humana hasta la barbilla de (T/N) para hacer que lo mirara. “Mírame, por favor…”

“Nada, estoy bien.” Mintió. Pero fue inútil; en sus bellos ojos se agrupaban las lágrimas, listas para correr libremente por sus mejillas. Alejó su mano, y apagó la estufa, sus ganas de beber algo se habían esfumado y lo único que quería hacer era huir. De momento sólo caminó hasta la sala, con Bucky detrás de ella rascándose la cabeza ante tal actitud.

“Esa es tu maleta…” Observó él, “(T/N), ¿qué significa esto?”

“No es lo que tú piensas,” se apuró a decir, levantando sus temblorosas manos, “Jamie, cariño… por favor siéntate.”

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16 Days of Outlander - Day #13 The Watch

This is one of those episodes that I liked a lot in spite of the fact that much of it was unnecessary and the time could have been better spent progressing towards Wentworth and its aftermath. The glimpses of Jamie and Ian’s friendship as well as the progression of Claire and Jenny’s are simply the kind of character development I live for. 

Favorite Location: Lallybroch kitchen. And it’s not just because of Mrs. Crook who - like Mrs. Graham - I have an odd attachment to for fic related purposes. The contrast between the kitchen at Lallybroch and the one at Castle Leoch where Mrs. Fitz reigns supreme is surprising. It’s brighter in Lallybroch’s kitchen though it’s smaller in size. It’s less crowded (a smaller estate will do that) so it feels more open and larger. It’s nestled toward what I’m assuming is the back of the house (since that’s where they were usually kept) and Jenny’s walk through the house to get there is one of the few glimpses we really get of the house’s layout on the show, though there’s a little bit of insight in Lallybroch during the quarter day gathering. 

Honorable Mention for Favorite Jamie and Claire Moment: whatever the cost. This scene epitomizes so much of Jamie and Claire’s relationship. Their honesty - Jamie is telling Claire everything that’s going on with the men of the Watch and the appearance of Horrocks so they can work through the obstacle together. And Claire for all of her reluctance to admit her feelings for Jamie before she made her choice at the stones, she more than makes up for it now - Claire “All-In” Fraser won’t be deterred.

Favorite Line: a true Scot. The stakes for Jenny giving birth are a bit higher in the show than the book since the midwife won’t be there and Claire will by flying solo helping Jenny through the breech birth (and she hasn’t had the experience of helping Jamie and Alec birthing that foal back at Leoch either - one of my favorite bits of their time at Leoch in the books). It’s easy to forget that Jamie isn’t the only one whose mother died in childbirth and while his fears focus on the thought of losing Claire, Jenny’s focus on what will become of her family in her absence. She had to take over a lot when her mother died and she was only about ten at that time. She’s almost certainly terrified out of her mind but she’s also practical and knows that there’s nothing she can do to stop the child coming so she does what she has to in order to get through it - crack a few jokes to lighten the mood and then drink. 

“You’ll be fetching me a good stiff dram before we start.”

“In that case the baby will likely be drunk too.”

“Then he’ll come into the world a true Scot.”

Favorite “That’s not in the book” Part: Ian helping set Jamie straight about the watch. I like that the impact of Jamie’s having been gone for so long didn’t just disappear after the resolution of Lallybroch. He’s been gone for a long time and Jenny and Ian have had to decide how best to run the estate in his absence. Jamie may not like or agree with all of the decisions they made but him complaining about them isn’t going to change the fact that the decisions have been largely working for four years. What’s more, I love that Ian comes clean to Jamie about how he actually kind of likes Taran MacQuarrie because he reminds him of Jamie - and Ian misses his friend. And Ian insisting to Jamie that he take the money to pay off Horrocks because Jamie is a stubborn Fraser who has to try making things harder for himself. 

Favorite Book-to-Screen Adaptation: I can bear pain myself. I like the change they made from the book with regards to this issue and how it arrises. In the book, Jamie explains that Geillis had told him that Claire was barren. But the emotion behind the revelation in the show - Claire’s utter despair at the fact that she might not be able to have children and her guilt over feeling like she deceived Jamie (as if it would have an effect on how he feels about her), his own despair at the thought that the houseful of bairns he’s been picturing since before Claire told him the truth about where and when she was from won’t come to pass, and him looking for a reassuring silver lining to ease her pain before just sinking to the bed after she leaves, lost in his own sorrow at the thought. And all the while, she’s almost certainly - by the show’s timeline - already pregnant. 

Favorite Performance: Steven Cree as Ian Murray. Level-headed Ian Murray is one of my favorite characters from the books and Cree’s performance in this episode is particularly fantastic. Inserting himself between quarreling Frasers - like he has his whole life - Ian is able to help keep the peace while the Watch is around making everyone tense. He’s able to explain things to Jamie in a way that helps him understand and accept them, digging in his own heels when and where necessary. And when there’s a broader threat to his own family, Ian takes care of that as well though the personal impact sends him briefly reeling - seriously, that exchange between Jamie and Ian after he kills Horrocks is just soooo good and the way his hand shakes while holding the sword so that he can hardly wipe the blood off the blade and Jamie steadying him.

Honorable Mention for Favorite Scene and Favorite Line: “If you’re going to Hell, I might as well go too. God knows that you’ll never manage alone.” See above. I love their friendship so much.

Favorite Jamie and Claire Moment: their parting. This parting at this time and knowing what’s coming and the way Claire describes how she will come after him if he fails to return and how little he wants to be going to do this thing to begin with… I don’t really care for the way they changed how Jamie gets taken by the Red Coats (mostly because they had the set up with the MacNabs in the previous episode so they really didn’t need to change it) but at least they got to have a proper goodbye.  

Favorite Minor Character: Taran MacQuarrie. He’s the main reason why I don’t mind the massive changes from the circumstances of the book in this episode. I’m not completely sure why I like him so much as a character - probably for the same reasons as Ian. There are many ways in which he’s a lot like Jamie - minus some of his sense of honor and his desire for a simple life. He’s great at reading people and reading situations. He’s an effective leader even if the men he leads aren’t the best. He understands the line the Watch walks. He understands why Jamie is so pissed about the hay and makes a point of paying Jamie for the destroyed hay - showing his men that he’s using the money they’ve collected (probably their share) to pay for the damage they did. The respect MacQuarrie shows for Jamie, the recognition of his abilities, his reaction to the confirmation that Horrocks has been killed, and his vow to Jamie that he would shoot Jamie himself before he ever turned him over to the British - there’s just so much about this character that I love that I can forgive the changes in the story (he’s not as big a favorite of mine as Ned Gowan but he’s not too far behind).

Favorite Costume: Jenny’s post-baby bodice and the tusk bracelets. The tusk bracelets are an accessory and accessories count as costumes in my book so I’m throwing them in here as well. The bracelets were another thing from the book that I had a difficult time picturing so having that visual was kind of an “aha, so that’s what those would look like.” I also love that little bit of embossed/texture (not sure what it is exactly but I love it) on the front of Jenny’s bodice. 

Favorite Music Moment: the fake out and where’s Jamie. The way this sequence is shot is meant to be misinterpreted - Ian with his missing leg is easy to distinguish but who is it with Ian? Of course, even those members of the audience who haven’t read the book probably know that it’s not Jamie helping his friend back to the house. But the music that scores this sequence and Claire looking up the road as the picture fades into the credits is the one that sticks with me from this episode. 

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“Jamie: Io sono un grande stronzo, va bene? No, sono consapevolmente un grande stronzo perché, perché…io non ho, non mi è mai importato niente e di nessuno in tutta la mia vita e la verità è che tutti più o meno lo hanno accettato, sai…è così, è Jamie. E poi tu…Dio…tu…tu…tu non hai mai pensato questo di me. Io non ho mai conosciuto nessuno che pensasse davvero che io valessi qualcosa, finché non ho incontrato te. E allora lo hai fatto credere anche a me perciò, sfortunatamente, io ho bisogno di te e tu hai bisogno di me.
Maggie: No, io no.
Jamie: Sì, invece.
Maggie: No, io no.
Jamie: Sì, invece.
Maggie: Smettila di dirlo…
Jamie: Hai bisogno che qualcuno si prenda cura di te.
Maggie: No, non è vero!
Jamie: È così per tutti.
Maggie: Avrò più bisogno io di te che tu di me.
Jamie: Va bene.
Maggie: No, non va bene! Non è giusto! Volevo fare tante cose…
Jamie: Le farai! Solo che le farai con me…
Maggie: Non ti posso chiedere tutto questo.
Jamie: Non me l’hai chiesto.”

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Here is a clip that an old friend of mine Dave Ross shot & directed. It was recorded in the beer garden of X&Y bar in Brisbane whilst on tour with A Death In The Family. Dave is super busy with his work and I am so grateful that he done this on the little spare time he has. What a legend. Adam Sebastian West also helped with the shoot and lent me his guitar. Also a legend. Enjoy!

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Now this guy can grow a rad beard!

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Check out JAMIE HAY rockin a track from the forthcoming new album King Of The Sun called “Rabbit On”, live for the Bondi Porch Session video series! YAY!