The look on Thomas’ face at first. Shock, disbelief and perhaps a bit of uncertainty at his own memory of James. For ten years, Flint had the painting of The Hamilton’s to remember Thomas’ face by. He had Miranda to talk to and keep that memory alive. He had the book Thomas had given him to hold on to. Thomas had none of those things. He had no photos or keepsakes, just his memories and no one to share them with. And memories fade over time despite how much we don’t want them to. You forget little things like facial features, the sound of a loved one’s voice, their laugh, the exact color of their eyes. Thomas must have been questioning for a moment if this was real or just someone who reminded him of James. Then he realizes it’s really him. And I’m crying forever.
This movie was unlike any other X-Men, Marvel or superhero movie I’ve ever seen. It was dark, gritty, sad, funny, brilliantly filmed and well-acted. I went to see it with two guy friends and one girl. All four of us were in tears by the end of it. The performences were incredible, especially Patrick Stewart, Hugh Jackman, Dafne Keen and Boyd Holbrook. This is the type of film that will stay with you for quite a while.
Also, Way Down We Go by Kaleo is the perfect anthem for this movie. Apart from almost every Johnny Cash song of course.
Since the show only gave us two (boo!) I’m going to cheat and talk about them both before declaring a favorite. *G*
The first one is gentle and sweet but also a bit hesitant.
You can see Flint’s uncertainty in this moment. I think these doubts remained in Flint for years to come A struggle to accept himself and that what he had with Thomas was good and pure, not the “profane” relationship that England tried to turn it into.
Their reunion … .
There is no hesitancy in Flint here. Just pure joy and happiness. He has completely accepted himself by the end of the series. Not just his sexuality and love for Thomas but he has accepted the two warring factions within himself – Flint and McGraw – and integrated them to find peace.
The kisses are both framed similarly:
But the difference comes in the journey we’ve had. “Know no shame”. “There is freedom in the dark once someone has illuminated it”. The first kiss was in a darkly lit room with only Miranda – someone they both trusted and loved – to witness it and even then Flint was unsure. The second is in daylight, surrounded by total strangers, and Flint could care less. The dark has been illuminated for him, by Thomas, and he has no shame anymore.
So I’m going with the Reunion Kiss as my favorite. The first kiss was beautiful and surprising to fans but ultimately bittersweet because Thomas was “dead” and Flint was consumed by that loss. The second kiss is happy and hopeful. He has Thomas back, he’s found peace within himself, and they have a future. Together. Damn, but I love this show.
Their song for this entry would sum up Flint’s feelings from here on, I believe.
“Up Against Me” by LP.
(If you made it to the end, thank you for indulging my ramblings.)