jalfred

A sinner you would call me
But I’m human
I do good
I do wrong
It’s in my nature
Don’t claim to know the unknown
Cause the unkown isn’t known
Seen foolish in your judgmental eyes
Because I don’t accept your foolish Ancient man made claims
And the only faith I have is in myself
You look at me in disgust cause you
Want me to conform
Believe and be like everyone else.
In an universe so vast
I’d rather have a mind opened by Wonder than one closed by belief
Sorry it’s just me being myself
Anti-Religious
—  J.Alfred “Anti-Religious”
I was told to write something beautiful
Something to ease the heart
So where do I start
Probably with the sound of your laugh
Or your smile that lights up my heart
That facial expression you make when you’re thinking to hard
The sight of you blushing
After a compliment
The weirdness you express cause
Your plain old weird
Your whole nature is beautiful
So I’ll just write about you.
—  J.Alfred “Dope”
Parents thought him knowledge was the key
So he embrace it.
Using everyday he drew breath to learn something new
Living in a urban city
But his accent was different from his peers
Pronouncing every syllable in each english word correctly
Shunning ebonics
Acting white
His peers would say
Raising his hand to every question in every class knowing every answer
Acting white
Burying his face in a wide variety of literature exercising his mind
Acting white
Not sharing the same interest as most of his peers
Acting white
As if having black skin and being educated is acting white.
So
What’s acting black
Being stupid?
—  J.Alfred “Acting White”
I speak to the universe
About you
Everyday
Asking questions I want
Answers to
Could I ever have her?
What am I not worthy?
Is she for me?
Or she just gonna keep passing me
By
When my actions speak loudly
But if you was my
Girl
I’d do anything in my
Power to give you the world
My only priority is to make
You smile
Staring into your eyes
I swear I see the heavens
Paradise
Suns
Flowers
And clouds
There’s so much beauty
In your laughter
It crazy how it
Plays back in my mind
As thoughts of you
Invade
As I crave to
Be around your
Vibe
Reluctant
Sometimes
Cause it isn’t
Reciprocal
Goofiness and
That attitude
Keep me around
When at times
I wanna drift away
Cause I feel my
Presence
Is bothersome
And unwanted
But I just go with
The flow
And tell myself
You never know
Maybe one day
She’ll won’t look pass me
Only time could tell
—  J.Alfred “Passing Me By”
I’m undressing you with my eyes
But not to see you naked
I wanna look deeper inside
Wanna see if your heart is pure
Or is it tainted
If you have a priceless soul
Or is it cheap and easily brought
Is your personality a joy to be around
Or is it a burden
Look into your mind
See and hear your every thought
Are those thoughts valuable
Or worthless
Someone I should pursue
Or leave in the rearview mirror.
—  J.Alfred"Deeper"
What ever happen to marriage
In our generation
You know those till death marriages
Cause I feel ain’t nothing real out there No more
Everything superficial
Artificial
Fake
A fairy tale we’ll force fed at a early age
Happily ever after my ass
Or is it just our generation
Where unconditional love is as rare as A big foot sighting
Our we looking in the wrong places
Or is it the wrong person
Maybe it’s the lack of patience
It’s all rushed
The fear of commitment
The lack of trust
Disloyalty
Ulterior motives is that the case
Or is it social networking playing a part
Whatever it is
Don’t think I ever want to
Get married
—  J.Alfred “My Manager Told Me Don’t Ever Get Married”
I crave your very smell
Crave being infused with your intellect
Crave the energy that radiates from the beautiful being you are
Miss the beauty that sets in your eyes
Like the morning sun
As I weirdly stare at a masterpiece
That make my insides feel weird
I crave you more with each time you reject me
I crave running my finger through your hair
I crave making you laugh with the
Foolish things that come out my mouth
I crave to make you feel
I crave you
—  J.Alfred “Crave”
I’m still infatuated by you
As I state my distance on
Abandoned Islands
Guarded like fortresses
I’m still infatuated by you
Hiding my existence
Within unread messages
Coded like morse code
I’m still infatuated by you
I play the shadows
Like a vigilante at night
Trying to save what once was
I’m still infatuated by you
Sicken and diseased
As parts of me still yearn
No medication could help
I’m still infatuated by you
Trying to save face
Setting up for failure
A case I can’t win
But I can’t lie
I’m still infatuated
—  J.Alfred “Infatuation” (National Poetry Day 13)

Champ
Ali!
Bomaye!
Champ
Ali!
Bomaye!
Champ
Ali!
Bomaye!
You were so outspoken
Stinging like a bee in and out
Of
The ring
Floating like a butterfly
Doing it so beautifully
Either with a jab
Or the thoughts you expressed
And fire
That
ignited
In your soul
When you fought for us
In a world that wanted
Nothing but the worse
For us
You utilize your fame
To shed light
On the issues
That plagued us
As a people
Showcased our beauty
In world that call us ugly
Stared hatred straight in the
Eyes
And swung with love
Saying what many had on their
Minds
But were too scared to express
Stood for what you believed in
No matter the cost
Inspiration in the flesh
The greatest of all time
You fought your last long fight
Now it was time to let go
Thank you for all you’ve done
Your legend will live forever
With all our ancestors
Muhammad Ali…..

Ali Bomaye

—  J.Alfred “ Ali Bomaye…..The Greatest Of All Time (Rest In Power Champ)
She’s was in shambles
Still in love with the person who left her broken
So no one had a chance with her
She rather be alone
To reevaluate the circumstances
That left her cold
Blizzards
And harsh winters
That occupy her soul
Seems like forever
You know
Numb to new feelings
She could only feel the old
Shattered like abandoned
Building windows
Boarded up for
No entry
—  “J.Alfred” Shambles (The Girl Who Told Me Her Story) (National Poetry Day 5)
I’m falling
Fighting
Reaching
For anything
To help prevent
Falling
Pep talks
With self
Reevaluating the
Circumstances
That got the mind
In a trance
Dancing to a tune
The heart choreographed
Falling
Balling up thoughts
To combat
Kamikaze Butterflies
Flying around my insides
Planting feelings
Left to right
Falling
Calling
On will power
To overpower this attack
Falling
Falling
Falling
—  J.Alfred “The Fall” (National poetry month Day 2)