jacob's ramblings

so heres what is still so annoying about the pewdiepie shit

we now have lots of youtubers coming to felix’s defense, including h3h3, phillip defranco, matthias, and even ross o’donovan. the argument they make pretty consistently is that felix doesn’t deserve all this criticism because he is so nice behind the camera, is very considerate, is not actually antisemitic or racist, and that the media is giving false claims that he is.

okay, sure. maybe he is all that. i would be able to accept that when he is in real life he is a sweet, kind man. and it is obvious that the media definitely plays up the claims by outright calling him a racist and an antisemite, when in reality he more so has a history of using antisemitic, racist, and sexist terms and phrases for humor. i get it. thats his thing, and his friends want to defend him.

but he fucked up. its plain and simple.

when you have this many people outraged against you, when you have the media pulling out multiple receipts, some misunderstood but some legitimate, of you saying racist and antisemitic things (even if it was allegedly to prove some point), when you have multiple companies withdrawing from deals they had with you, you cannot just say “it was a joke, i’m not antisemitic.”

thats not what this about. your whole deal is pushing things to the limit, and you have simply gone too far. nobody, when defending pewdiepie, is able to admit this. people believe because it was a joke, and because his on-camera persona differs from his real life personality, he is invincible and undeserving of criticism and punishment. ironically, the only person to encroach upon admitting this was ethan from h3h3, who said “maybe he did push it too far, but that’s it.”

except its not it. its not just about him pushing it too far, which he did. its about how he is able to do that unchecked as the most subscribed youtuber. its that hes able to have millions of followers listen to him say these kinds of things, in context or out, and become used to this terminology. its that he is able to make things like this seem funny, even if he doesnt believe in them. its that he is, in fact, not antisemitic, but uses antisemitic stuff for humor. its that he can do all of this and still have people jump to his defense. its that it takes all of this public outcry for him to genuinely apologize, rather than realize what he did was wrong and come out with it right away. or, even better, its that he thought this was a good idea in general, because he knew he could probably get away with it.

i’m not angry at pewdiepie because i believe he is antisemitic. i’m angry at pewdiepie for using his fame, fortune, and backing to trivialize antisemitism and not face immediate repercussions. 

because even if it is a “joke,” even if ethan, as a jewish man, states that he was not offended, me and a lot of other jewish people are offended, and we aren’t laughing.

little details in fantastic beasts that i gasped/screamed at/loved:

  • at his macusa hearing they say newt’s older brother was a war hero
  • which gives me a totally different perspective on newt’s childhood and life
  • he’s the carefree, daring, wild younger brother who can’t fit in, living under the shadow of his amazing brother like how must that have affected his development as a person
  • (btw newt was friends with leta because they were both outsiders which makes my heart hurt)
  • worrying means you suffer twice” A PLUS NEWT A PLUS
  • also newt just like casually handing jacob heavy duty protection and tossing him into the fray
  • grindelwald snarling at newt in the interrogation room, wondering how albus dumbledore could possibly find this young unassuming man so amazing, so likable, so defendable 
  • (also i’m like 150% sure newt scamander was rubeus hagrid’s personal hero)
  • the necklace graves gives credence is the deathly hallows symbol aka gellert grindelwald’s claimed sign
  • i saw that lil flash and s c r e a m e d 
  • also i find percival graves and porpentina goldstein’s relationship so interesting
  • like they must have worked together as aurors
  • percival looks the sorriest when the president orders tina out of headquarters
  • and he comes downstairs straightaway to see her after that incident in the dusty macusa basement
  • and tina looks so betrayed when he shackles her alongside newt and jacob
  • what must their relationship have been like? mentor and mentee? close friends? colleagues? just something that’s been on my mind
  • aka “mother’s here” like can he be any more precious ?????
  • “wilds of arizona”. just…like i never thought i would hear that phrase ever lol
  • newt being dragged away in chains, desperately begging macusa not to harm his creatures, that they’re not dangerous, that they’re not dangerous, please don’t hurt them
  • queenie calling jacob honey
  • teasing her sister for being the careerwoman and tina looking embarrassed but proud
  • queenie casually strolling through macusa with the intent of busting her friends and sister outta there
  • trying loads of unlocking spells until jacob (bless his muggle soul) just kicks the damn door down
  • tina seeing her mother in the pool 
  • thinking about her relationship with her mother and how much she must have missed her parents, especially since they died at such an early age
  • newt begging tina to trust him, that he’ll catch her, and her visible hesitation
  • she must have had such a difficult life but is still so capable of love and affection and trust #porpentinagoldsteinisabamf
  • also that spell the goldstein sisters do to change their clothes like i need that
  • also newt’s small concession to fashion when he changes his fun bowtie into something a tad more formal
  • newt casually asking jacob how people trust him so quickly
  • that passing remark that people generally find newt annoying, like it’s so matter-of-fact, made me :’(
  • the tears in newt’s eyes when he’s saying farewell to jacob
  • jacob’s unabashed delight at seeing all these magical creatures and hearkening back to his wild days on the expedition teams in wwi
  • also can we take a moment to realize that jacob is a veteran and he’s probably seen so much grief and heartbreak and death and he is still so upbeat and helpful and purely genuinely excited at seeing new amazing things
  • and all he wants to do is open a bakery and make people happy like :’)
  • but they made us cocoa!”
  • jacob and queenie bonding over their grandfathers’ birds and mutual love of cooking
  • that little spring in tina’s step after newt asks if he can come back in person
  • not to mention newt’s lil pause on the gangway and that brief moment when he stands, contemplating, and then hurries away
  • jacob’s hand reflexively reaching for his murtlap bite as queenie smiles at him
  • that deja vu moment when newt bumps into jacob and leaves him the silver occamy shells
  • remembering and trying to help his friend fulfill his lifelong dream
  • every single second of newt’s erumpent mating dance
  • pickett blowing a raspberry after newt’s stern little talk about sulking

if you have more fun lil tidbits you caught, please add!! i’d love to see what you guys saw too :) 

au where credence actually got took in by newt and tina and jacob wasn’t obliviated but still gets to work in his bakery happily

  • credence keeps apologizing for every little mistake he made, as he can’t help it. newt and tina reminds him it’s alright but they won’t force him to stop apologizing.
  • credence vents to tina as he knows she’ll listen and won’t judge him in anyway for it, never.
  • newt giving him a decent pep talk whenever credence is low on self-esteem, credence doesn’t really find it helpful but he appreciates it for newt taking out time of his own to make him feel better.
  • when credence has an episode, tina and newt will gently ask whether or not they can come over to comfort him. the two will fully respect if credence denies.
  • newt and tina letting credence know his abuse was valid, and it wasn’t his fault. 
  • newt and tina letting him know that crying doesn’t make you weak, and it is totally okay, and there is bravery in being soft, even if you don’t feel brave at times.
  • often credence needs alone time to himself, so newt and tina give him that. though they will leave his food by his door if he doesn’t want to leave his room.
  • newt allowing credence to follow him into his suitcase, and even teaching him about the creatures he owns. credence is also allowed inside the suitcase anytime as long as he asks newt, no matter how unholy the hour is, because newt knows if human companionship doesn’t suit at the moment, the beasts will help.
  • newt and tina both decided to teach credence magic themselves. credence doesn’t mind him being home-schooled as he finally gets to learn magic. newt and tina being supportive of him learning at his own pace, it doesn’t matter how slow nor how many mistakes he makes.
  • sometimes jacob and queenie will come over and surprise credence with a ton of delicious pastries and food, making sure he is well-fed and satisfied. (even though newt and tina already bloated him always)
  • tina and queenie giving credence advice on how to deal with problems such as to socialize with strangers, overcome some of his fears, etc.
  • jacob and newt telling stories of their wacky adventures to credence. jacob sometimes exaggerate it and newt would correct him, but credence finds jacob’s version amusing and entertaining.
  • jacob telling him if situations look bad, it’s alright, it happens. just pick yourself up and keep walking on, because soon something great is bound to happen, especially when you least expect it.

credence barebone receiving lots of love and care from parents newt and tina + aunt queenie and uncle jacob

newtina thoughts #4

are you ready kids

  • I’m in love with the way newt looks at her
  • not just at her, but INTO her
  • sharp, intense, definitely thinking a lot more than he says
    • seeing a lot more than he implies?
  • he’s definitely drawn to her
  • and i love how big a part of his journey tina is? like technically he gets off the boat and the first place he goes to he bumps into tina
    • like literally, she’s eating a hot dog, how american
  • and he just gets her from the get go like
  • when newt and tina track the niffler to jacob’s apartment
  • and newt gets there first and fixes it and sits on the bed with his trunk on his lap
  • and then he laughs a little when tina asks if the niffler got loose again
  • like he finds it absolutely amusing 
  • but he knows she won’t approve so he just. fixes stuff and minimizes damanges. like a dork

okay you don’t even have to ship it 


just imagine after Jenkins’s first ‘antidote’ Flynn and Jacob start taking turns reciting cute love poems to each other

and after the mission is over neither of them can think about those poems without blushing really hard and getting Super embarrassed and cursing the poem writers’ names under their breaths 

Let us stop and discuss Queenie and Jacob a bit

While I am firmly on the TiNewt bandwagon forever, I may have accidentally beseiged @samanthadarcy about how awesome Queenie and Jacob are on many levels and I feel possessed to mention it here now.

Queenie was born ~1902, which means at the end of the war she was 16 and still in school, ostensibly.

So she comes back , graduates from school, and is **assailed** by all the veterans and their memories. And she can’t help it, because they’re all hurting.

And this is why Queenie is so gentle and tender with Jacob - she can understand what he’s gone through in a way that she’s never been through - and his perplexion at coming back late from the war (she would be 24 in the movie, Jacob was born between Tina and Queenie in 1900).

So he’s barely older than her but **he’s been to war** and she can’t help - literally and figuratively - about falling in love with him, because she can see how the war shaped and changed him, and he still does things like love pastries - PASTRIES - because of family, and good feelings, and they’re beautiful to him.

So even though he’s seen all this horror, and helped clean up Poland/that  front (which means at some point he and Newt could have been close to each other?), he’s still capable of immense tenderness. Even though he’s gone through everything **he still has his beautiful side** and THIS is what makes Queenie Goldstein so fucking spectacular, because she’s attracted to who he is inside and out, because she knows that he’d never treat her like an object, but as a precious beautiful person. 

And how can you not fall in love with that? You do. You fall hopelessly, fully, and entirely in love with it, and damn the consequences. Because there isn’t enough beauty in the world, and she sees it in him, and he sees it in her.

The child factory

Friend: I swear, they’re like rabbits. (Talking about her OC and Jacob).

Me: yeah, this is why one of my friend’s character had 8 kids.

Friend: EIGHT?? Geez, if these two have that many, I could see them rushing to give Jacob a hug when he walks in.


I see a lot of high school au’s where everybody goes to the same school and I dig that don’t get me wrong but I kinda like the idea of Katherine and Davey going to some fancy prep school while everybody else goes to a public school and Katherine and Davey are already good friends but he has to drop out due to his financial situation and go to public school, where he meets and begins to dislike Jack. And by some odd circumstance Kath and Jack bump into each other on the street one day, and Kath doesn’t want Jack to know that she’s the daughter of a famous CEO, so she says her last name is Plumber, and after they continue to bump into one another they start a bit of an awkward friendship, and boy is it awkward when she invites both Davey and Jack to hang out with her one day and the boys hate each other

Favourite quotes from Season 2 of The Librarians

1. “Kissing you is exactly how I’d want to spend eternity”. - I kind of feel like this doesn’t need an explanation because seriously what..where did this even come from I AM GONNA NEED TO KNOW WHO CAME UP WITH THIS LINE BECAUSE THIS IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL LINE IN THE HISTORY OF EVER! (Honestly. Ask @kez06​ because I shout it at her at random intervals during the day because I can’t be.)

2. “Real love is hard, it’s risky and sometimes it breaks your heart but you have to take that chance because that’s what’s real”. (Bonus: “It’s not a story, Ariel”) - I can’t even begin to describe how much I love this. It’s so great! It’s so real! They rejected their supposed happily ever afters for their normal lives and even with all the magic of the Library it’s all still a different kind of magic. That’s what real is, taking the good with the bad. Oh god she’s so right I can’t. Then Flynn basically mirrors what she later says to Moriarty. This show.

3. “Truth is, I don’t care if you know the truth anymore. I don’t need your approval.” So so proud of Jake in that moment. This was so much character development. Not only was he accepting his place as a Librarian and with the others as part of a new family, but accepting that he was himself and that was okay. Just the fact that he didn’t need the approval of his father, after everything because he had accepted it. So so relevant to me right now too so :)

4. “I’m th- a Librarian” - Just. So. Much. Character. Development. Also Flynn realising that he’s not gonna lose anyone any more which after the movies is so important. Also Evlynn moment because he looks over at Eve and realises he needs her which is just what she said in the premier. And she is so proud of him

5. “Of course I do. Eve Baird.” - Of course he does! AND HIS LITTLE SMILE WHEN HE SAYS IT! I love his relationship with Eve. They respect each other so much and he they understand each other slightly differently to everyone else because they’re not Librarians. I swear to god if he does not walk her down the aisle when she marries Flynn I will cry.

6.  “There’s a story soldiers tell… World War II, Market Garden, Allied assault behind enemy lines. What happens is, these allied troops have to cross a river. First wave of soldiers get in their little pontoon boats, get halfway across the river, and the Germans just open up their machine guns and just cut them all down. None of them make it. These two colonels are watching the bodies floating in the river, and one of them says, ‘those are the bravest men I’ve ever seen.’ The second colonel points to the second wave of soldiers getting in their little pontoon boats, getting ready to cross the same river, only they saw what happened to the first guys. They know what’s coming. And that colonel says, ‘no. Those are the bravest men I’ve ever seen’” - This is something else. The fact that she’s so proud of him. The fact that he likes how she looks at him. Again with the character development. (Also I’m a history nerd so anything slightly relevant.)

7. “The Guardian’s job is not to save the Librarians’ bodies. It is to save their souls. And you did that admirably today, Colonel.” - Again these two. This reminded me of his speech in 1.02 when he says that Flynn is drowning.

8. “I got called ‘blondie’, ‘cutie’ and ‘sweet cheeks’ by almost every commanding officer I ever had. And when I was the youngest head of NATO counter-terrorism force, I still got my butt pinched by five prime ministers and a president.” - How do I love Eve? Let me count the ways! LOVE. THIS. WOMAN. MUCH. INSPIRATION.

9. “It’s about rejecting death’s power. It has no power over me.” - This for Cass who’s spent all her adult life being a slave of sorts to her “brain grape” and gave the Serpent Brotherhood access to the Library because she thought it would help her. Now she’s like “screw it” and “I choose”. Just the acceptance that that doesn’t define or control her. Also a kind of bonus is Eve telling her this episode to live her life for herself and to have adventures - she doesn’t have to please anyone any more nor does her illness have to dictate what she does. Also so damn relevant to me right now.

10. “I can’t watch you die any more.” - Because he’s not just the thief. He’s not the baby brother in this. Ezekiel Jones who’s worked alone for who knows how long, not really one to settle in one place or form attachments does and says it out loud. Can you tell that I really feel like everyone’s grown this season?

yknow on the topic of youtubers who fucked up, i will say that while im not upset that we’re all having a good laugh over all the crap jontron said, i still think pewdiepie hasn’t gotten enough shit for making a joke of the phrase “death to all jews” and practically getting away with it with no repercussions

Im replaying me2 and…. when talking to Anderson after the council…… Jacob manifested out of the wall behind him…… and slid over to Anderson….. Jacob isn’t even in my squad loadout it’s Mordin and Miranda right now…..


the perfect times/places to fall asleep
  • on the couch in your living room on a chilly winter night, the window cracked open ever so slightly as it snows outside, just to lower the temperature of the room so that you can be even more cozy under your comforter
  • in your bed at 1 in the morning while still wearing your day clothes, after having had a very long and tiring day as you walk into your room, toss your stuff aside and simply fall down on your bed and turn out the lights
  • in a hotel room while on vacation, under the unfamiliar but comforting blankets and lying against the excessive amount of pillows, as the free tv plays some channel you never watch and illuminates the room as the only light source, the volume turned down slightly
  • in a somewhat uncomfortable sleeping roll in a tent while out camping in early fall, with a little bit of warmth around you as you see the glow of a campfire slowly fading outside, crackling away among the noises of nature
  • in the car as you are being driven home from a road trip, late at night as the street lights go by and the radio plays gently on the driver’s favorite channel, as you lay your head against the side of the car and are rocked to sleep by the movement of the car on the highway

Today I had a lecture on breeds where we were told that there are 109 breeds of sheep in the UK and 1409 world-wide. I can name a few breeds from my work experience over the years but I thought it was time to get to know some of the main contributors to the UK lamb and wool industries. I have to admit I had no idea that sheep came in so many shapes and sizes!

25% of the world’s sheep population are known as ‘fat-tailed’ sheep. They have distinctively large tails and hindquarters and aren’t as common in Europe. Fat is stored in their tail area making it popular for cooking. Some of these sheep have coarse wool which has a limited value in the commercial market. A great example if a fat tailed sheep in shown in the top left image. That is a Blackhead Persian, an example of a ‘hair sheep’ that does not grow wool.  These are very rarely seen in the UK as they are suited to warmer climates and bred for meat alone.

Sheep breeds come from the hills, uplands and lowlands. Due to stratified crossbreeding in the UK purebred and crossbred sheep are both popular in the sheep industry. Sheep are mainly bred for meat and wool, however they can also be used in the dairy industry.

Breeds come in and out of favour depending on trends in the industries at the time. Many purebred breeds are disappearing as times change. One casualty of this is the breed Clun Forest, picture in the middle at the top. I love this breed. They are gorgeous. In 1971 there were around 401,000 in the UK. In 2012 this had declined to 10,000 due to changes in the demand of the meat market. Going the opposite way, the Lleyn, originating in Wales, has risen in popularity from 7000 in 1971 to 474,000 now in the UK. The Lleyn Sheep Society website states that farmers soon find that the Lleyn ewe is an ideal sheep; quiet in nature, prolific with great maternal instincts, milky, and will not eat you out of house and home’. This breed is pictured top right.

The breed I was lambing with last year were Texels. I took the picture (second down and to the left) on a Welsh farm and think it perfectly reflects their stubborn nature but beautiful full faces. This breed have long rectangular bodies. I found out today that the breed actually has a mutation of the myostatin gene resulting in their lean musculature. This could be seen as the cause in their increase in popularity. Blue Texels are becoming especially popular in the UK meat industry. These are purebred Texels but with the recessive ‘blue’ gene. They are pictured second down and in the middle. They were originally imported to the UK from France in 1973, but the breed originated in Holland.

Scottish blackface sheep, shown second down and to the right, are the most common breed of domestic sheep in the UK. Both sexes are horned are have very distinctive black faces and legs. They are mostly bred for meat.

The Bluefaced Leicester are also very significant in the UK and are crossed with around 50% of the UK’s commercial breeding flocks. These are shown bottom left.

Jacob Sheep, middle bottom, are pretty striking and rare! Their wool is very popular as it’s naturally dark brown and white.

Another sweet breed is the Oxford Down. They produce a large meaty carcass as well as a lot of wool. They are shown bottom right.fat taile


people talk about “cursed images” and “cursed videos”

well ill tell ya this here is 50 seconds long and is one of the most cursed things ive ever seen